She got out the shower, dried and quickly changed into her scrubs.She brushed her teeth and combed her hair. She hoped Carter had gone, because she didn't feel like talking but she realised that she could hear the TV in the lounge. What was she going to say to him?
She walked out the bathroom. "Hey" she said
"Are you feeling better?" He asked
"A bit. I gotta get to work, stay as long as you want"
"OK, thanks for having me, and Abby, you don't have to worry, I won't say anything to Luka"
"I'm gonna tell him, he deserves to know. Help yourself to breakfast" She picked up her coat and keys
"Thanks but I already did" He pointed at the bowl in the sink "Do you want me to say anything to Luka?"
"No, its OK. I'll see you later, are you on today?"
"No"
"And Carter, thanks"
"Your welcome" he said, as she closed the door.
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She closed the door to her apartment block and the cold wind whipped her cheeks. That hadn't been too awkward with Carter but now she had to face Luka. She hadn't slept much last night; in fact she had had about 2 hours sleep in total, so she was hoping it was a quiet day in the ER. Luka was on this morning so she knew she would have to speak to him, she just didn't know what she was going to say to him...
She walked in the lounge at the ER and there he was standing there, a steaming cup of coffee in his hand.
"Hi" he said
"Hi"
"You look tired," he said, sipping his coffee
"I didn't sleep very well last night," she said, hanging up her coat
"Me neither"
"Well I better go, or Kerry will fire me" she joked
"See you later" he called as she walked out the room
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She stood on the roof and breathed deeply. It was 11:30 and they had already had two car crashes, one shooting and a heart attack. She wondered what the rest of the day had to offer. She had managed to avoid Luka all morning, although she desperately wanted to speak to him. She had missed him last night, and she was completely guilt ridden. Just as she was thinking about him, she heard him call her name
"Abby"
"Hey. Busy morning?"
"I know"
"I'm sorry"
"So am I. I shouldn't have been so horrible to you"
"It doesn't matter now, it made me realise that you were right"
"I am?"
"Yeah I do talk to Carter a lot, he's probably the best friend I have ever had but you are my boyfriend and I shouldn't shut you out! I need to tell you something"
"OK"
"Last night, after you'd gone, I had a pizza and watched a movie with Carter, and we... kissed. I don't know why it happened. I was upset after our fight, but it made me realise something" She looked at Luka, and he was looking at the ground. He looked up and she could see the tears in his eyes.
Before she could speak, tears fell from her eyes and she spoke between sobs "I'm sorry. It made me realise that I... I... I love you and that I need you in my life" She stuttered as she remembered that she had probably said those words about 5 times in her entire life. "I don't know what else to say. I can't change what happened" She wiped her eye "Are you gonna say something?"
"I have to get back to work," he said before turning and walking towards the stairs
Abby cried harder. She knew that she had to get back to work but she didn't care. The man that she loved had turned his back on her, and at this moment, she didn't know if he would ever speak to her again, let alone hold her again. She had never felt so alone.
She walked out the bathroom. "Hey" she said
"Are you feeling better?" He asked
"A bit. I gotta get to work, stay as long as you want"
"OK, thanks for having me, and Abby, you don't have to worry, I won't say anything to Luka"
"I'm gonna tell him, he deserves to know. Help yourself to breakfast" She picked up her coat and keys
"Thanks but I already did" He pointed at the bowl in the sink "Do you want me to say anything to Luka?"
"No, its OK. I'll see you later, are you on today?"
"No"
"And Carter, thanks"
"Your welcome" he said, as she closed the door.
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She closed the door to her apartment block and the cold wind whipped her cheeks. That hadn't been too awkward with Carter but now she had to face Luka. She hadn't slept much last night; in fact she had had about 2 hours sleep in total, so she was hoping it was a quiet day in the ER. Luka was on this morning so she knew she would have to speak to him, she just didn't know what she was going to say to him...
She walked in the lounge at the ER and there he was standing there, a steaming cup of coffee in his hand.
"Hi" he said
"Hi"
"You look tired," he said, sipping his coffee
"I didn't sleep very well last night," she said, hanging up her coat
"Me neither"
"Well I better go, or Kerry will fire me" she joked
"See you later" he called as she walked out the room
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She stood on the roof and breathed deeply. It was 11:30 and they had already had two car crashes, one shooting and a heart attack. She wondered what the rest of the day had to offer. She had managed to avoid Luka all morning, although she desperately wanted to speak to him. She had missed him last night, and she was completely guilt ridden. Just as she was thinking about him, she heard him call her name
"Abby"
"Hey. Busy morning?"
"I know"
"I'm sorry"
"So am I. I shouldn't have been so horrible to you"
"It doesn't matter now, it made me realise that you were right"
"I am?"
"Yeah I do talk to Carter a lot, he's probably the best friend I have ever had but you are my boyfriend and I shouldn't shut you out! I need to tell you something"
"OK"
"Last night, after you'd gone, I had a pizza and watched a movie with Carter, and we... kissed. I don't know why it happened. I was upset after our fight, but it made me realise something" She looked at Luka, and he was looking at the ground. He looked up and she could see the tears in his eyes.
Before she could speak, tears fell from her eyes and she spoke between sobs "I'm sorry. It made me realise that I... I... I love you and that I need you in my life" She stuttered as she remembered that she had probably said those words about 5 times in her entire life. "I don't know what else to say. I can't change what happened" She wiped her eye "Are you gonna say something?"
"I have to get back to work," he said before turning and walking towards the stairs
Abby cried harder. She knew that she had to get back to work but she didn't care. The man that she loved had turned his back on her, and at this moment, she didn't know if he would ever speak to her again, let alone hold her again. She had never felt so alone.