"Broken"

By Poli Almasy (white_mage_eiko@yahoo.com)
http://www.white-mage.net/writting

Poetry from Tifa's point of view. Kinda sad, kinda weird
kinda long.

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You fell into my life
Even though you were there all along
You fell into my world
then tried to leave

I was obbessed with you when you left
I ignored you when you were right here
Are you here now?
How can I tell. I'm lost.

All the pieces of my shattered life
Came together so quickly
A new life came and was taken away
Before I could know it.
I miss her. You miss her.

How can I tell you what I feel
If I'm not sure it's you?
Was it ever you?
Did I ever know your life
Who are you? Who am I?

I went though life not realizing
How much I ment to people
How much you cared about me.
Do you stil care? I do.

I was cursed not to have known you
When we had the chance just to be kids
But when I knew you
It was reviled as a fraud.
I know you now. You don't know yourself.

How can I contain you? Protect you
care for you?
Because I want to, but part of you.
Part of you is gone
It left with her.
Was she the one?
The one I cannot be?
I don't understand.
I'm lost.
With no one to guide me home.
Home is gone
I have no home.
Only you
But you have her memory
So I do not have you
I am alone.
My will is broken
You broke me.

But I'd let you break me again
I'd do it all over
Just to have known you.
Please, break me.
I can't be whole ever again
Being whole scares me.
Break me
Break me
Break me

But all you do is ignore me

Break me
Break me
Break me
I don't deserve to be whole

She got to be whole
But now she's gone
But she felt whole
Becasue of you
But you won't make me whole
The pieces of myself are here
Put me back together
Or grind the pieces to dust
Break me
Break me
I can't stand being whole

You won't remember me
I know you won't
I'm not worth it
Break me.