Chapter Five:
Just wanna sat thanx to all the artists and authors who've responded to my appeal for help on this dojinshi.it's the first time I've done anything this BIG and I've been supported really well......^_^ Also a huggle goes out to Jux for the lovely review,it made my day!
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(Zell's Room-five hours later.)
Seifer was sleeping now....his chest rising and falling slowly under the dark blue sheets of Zell's bed,eyes closed,dead to the world....
(Seifer's in my bed......MY BED.......)
Zell forced himself to quell the rush of forbidden thoughts this prospect had enlightened him to,he felt his cheeks bloom with a prickling blush and tried to look somewhere,anywhere but at the comatose figure lying a few feet away.
(....I have to go and see Cid tomorrow,get this sorted out....there is no way.....I won't let Seifer get discharged.......if he left I-)
"Chickenwuss......" Zell swung round,nearly toppling off his chair in surprise.Seifer was staring back at him,his face pale and so totally devoid of.....well any emotion that Zell winced internally,before moving to kneel at the bedside.Seifer was wearing a borrowed SeeD t-shirt with black trousers,his own clothes were drying in the summer breeze on the line outside.
"Hey......" He started,covering up his dread with a sunny smile.
Seifer's brow creased and he glanced around the room,slightly disorientated,but the memories of the last few hours where quick to surface,hitting him like a ten tonne weigh,his eyes lingered on the window,the bright sunlight streaming in,warming his skin......
(.....It's over.What do I do now?.......I....)
"Seifer?" Zell's voice was overwrought,timid in it's honesty, "You need help....I want to-"
Seifer's slender finger placed upon his lips cut any offer,any olive branch Zell had been trying to extend,he smiled,a miserable twitch of his mouth,that Zell was convinced held no relief at all,merely there for someone else's benefit.
"I'll be okay...." He replied,barely able to sustain the cloak of confidence he'd wrapped himself up in oncemore.Zell gazed back at him,obviously unconvinced,his leather gloved hand closed around Seifer's.
"Liar." He said simply,clutching Seifer's shaking hand to his body,leaning forward over the sheets,so that he was close enough to whisper.
"I'll talk to Cid,you'll be a SeeD,and no one is going to stop you." His words were so determined,so impassioned.Seifer's entire body tingled with a strange mix of pride and confusion.
(He'd do this......for me?........I'm nothing,I don't deserve his comfort,his attention.......)
Seifer's icy blue eyes searched Zell's,the argument bleeding from them like an icecube melting in the sunlight......replaced by a shimmer that only boded more tears.
(I can't believe this.......he's so close......but I can't take advantage of this.......Seifer,I just want you to be happy.....)
Zell released his hand,resting his elbows on the pastel sheets,avoiding Seifer's intense stare for the first time.
"I know it sounds cheesy......" Seifer turned away,hiding his face embarrasedly.
"Yes."
"Would you....no,it doesn't matter..." He dismissed the idea with a weak gesture.
"What is it?" Zell asked curiously.
Seifer bit his lip,hesitating for a second,
"..........forget it....."
Zell wasn't one to miss a chance.He impulsively pulled back the covers,slipping his shoes off and lying down next to Seifer,his body taking over before his idle mind had time to catch up.Seifer shifted,turning back to see Zell,barely a hands breadth away,his face filled with trepidation.
(Zell.........)
(........Can't help myself......I won't deny.......)
Seifer gasped softly as Zell slid his arms around him,encircling his battered body with warmth and comfort,a harsh contrast to the anger and isolation he'd been living with for everyday since Ultimecia stole his soul.....He could feel the beating of Zell's heart,hammering against the side of his head as he laid himself open,letting Zell hold him as no one had before.....
(What am I doing?........He'll guess.....he'll see how I feel......)
Zell stilled the warring voices in his head,concentrating on the moment,the heat of Seifer's trembling body pressed to his own,the feel of his hands,connecting with his waist,leaving imprints of desire wherever they touched....Zell embraced the former knight tightly,ran his fingers through Seifer's honey coloured hair,tenderness shining through as he wished this moment would never end........
(Zell..............)
He smiled,something breaking in both their hearts as Seifer whispered,through his tears and the lull of dreamless sleep they were both being pulled into...
"Zell......thankyou."
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*phew!* That chapter was a bitch to write.......I hope y'all like it tho....I'm in an angsty mood so Hyne knows what'll happen next! luv nakiko
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Just wanna sat thanx to all the artists and authors who've responded to my appeal for help on this dojinshi.it's the first time I've done anything this BIG and I've been supported really well......^_^ Also a huggle goes out to Jux for the lovely review,it made my day!
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(Zell's Room-five hours later.)
Seifer was sleeping now....his chest rising and falling slowly under the dark blue sheets of Zell's bed,eyes closed,dead to the world....
(Seifer's in my bed......MY BED.......)
Zell forced himself to quell the rush of forbidden thoughts this prospect had enlightened him to,he felt his cheeks bloom with a prickling blush and tried to look somewhere,anywhere but at the comatose figure lying a few feet away.
(....I have to go and see Cid tomorrow,get this sorted out....there is no way.....I won't let Seifer get discharged.......if he left I-)
"Chickenwuss......" Zell swung round,nearly toppling off his chair in surprise.Seifer was staring back at him,his face pale and so totally devoid of.....well any emotion that Zell winced internally,before moving to kneel at the bedside.Seifer was wearing a borrowed SeeD t-shirt with black trousers,his own clothes were drying in the summer breeze on the line outside.
"Hey......" He started,covering up his dread with a sunny smile.
Seifer's brow creased and he glanced around the room,slightly disorientated,but the memories of the last few hours where quick to surface,hitting him like a ten tonne weigh,his eyes lingered on the window,the bright sunlight streaming in,warming his skin......
(.....It's over.What do I do now?.......I....)
"Seifer?" Zell's voice was overwrought,timid in it's honesty, "You need help....I want to-"
Seifer's slender finger placed upon his lips cut any offer,any olive branch Zell had been trying to extend,he smiled,a miserable twitch of his mouth,that Zell was convinced held no relief at all,merely there for someone else's benefit.
"I'll be okay...." He replied,barely able to sustain the cloak of confidence he'd wrapped himself up in oncemore.Zell gazed back at him,obviously unconvinced,his leather gloved hand closed around Seifer's.
"Liar." He said simply,clutching Seifer's shaking hand to his body,leaning forward over the sheets,so that he was close enough to whisper.
"I'll talk to Cid,you'll be a SeeD,and no one is going to stop you." His words were so determined,so impassioned.Seifer's entire body tingled with a strange mix of pride and confusion.
(He'd do this......for me?........I'm nothing,I don't deserve his comfort,his attention.......)
Seifer's icy blue eyes searched Zell's,the argument bleeding from them like an icecube melting in the sunlight......replaced by a shimmer that only boded more tears.
(I can't believe this.......he's so close......but I can't take advantage of this.......Seifer,I just want you to be happy.....)
Zell released his hand,resting his elbows on the pastel sheets,avoiding Seifer's intense stare for the first time.
"I know it sounds cheesy......" Seifer turned away,hiding his face embarrasedly.
"Yes."
"Would you....no,it doesn't matter..." He dismissed the idea with a weak gesture.
"What is it?" Zell asked curiously.
Seifer bit his lip,hesitating for a second,
"..........forget it....."
Zell wasn't one to miss a chance.He impulsively pulled back the covers,slipping his shoes off and lying down next to Seifer,his body taking over before his idle mind had time to catch up.Seifer shifted,turning back to see Zell,barely a hands breadth away,his face filled with trepidation.
(Zell.........)
(........Can't help myself......I won't deny.......)
Seifer gasped softly as Zell slid his arms around him,encircling his battered body with warmth and comfort,a harsh contrast to the anger and isolation he'd been living with for everyday since Ultimecia stole his soul.....He could feel the beating of Zell's heart,hammering against the side of his head as he laid himself open,letting Zell hold him as no one had before.....
(What am I doing?........He'll guess.....he'll see how I feel......)
Zell stilled the warring voices in his head,concentrating on the moment,the heat of Seifer's trembling body pressed to his own,the feel of his hands,connecting with his waist,leaving imprints of desire wherever they touched....Zell embraced the former knight tightly,ran his fingers through Seifer's honey coloured hair,tenderness shining through as he wished this moment would never end........
(Zell..............)
He smiled,something breaking in both their hearts as Seifer whispered,through his tears and the lull of dreamless sleep they were both being pulled into...
"Zell......thankyou."
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*phew!* That chapter was a bitch to write.......I hope y'all like it tho....I'm in an angsty mood so Hyne knows what'll happen next! luv nakiko
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