Desperate Ice
i don't know
what to do
what to think
anymore
but then again
i don't even know
if i can think
on my own
anymore
nothing's everything
to me now
i've got no focus
my life is blurred
nothing to guide me
but false words
i'm alone
in this world
but do i
give a damn
'cause in my heart
i can't bring
forth any feelings
since my heart
is nothing but
merciless frozen
icy depths
that no fire
can possibly melt
so i drift
alone in this land
nothing feeling
but pain
and a wide emptiness
but i can't
even care anymore
it's not as if
there's anything
important in my life
so i'll do
anything to
keep myself
from getting lost
no matter what
i can't lose myself
what i'm afraid of
is that there
isn't anything
inside
nothing to myself
but an empty shell
even my tears
freeze on my face
but more important
they freeze in my heart
pure tears of ice
i just wanted
something good in my life
but it seems
like that isn't
meant to be
so just leave me
to suffer in
what little peace
i can find
since i can't
give a damn
about you anymore
'cause i can't
even give a damn
about myself
i'm losing my
grip on everything
what i thought i had
slips through my fingers
like grains of sand
i have nothing
left to give
so just leave
me alone
'cause i don't
want to
take you down
into the ground
with me
with me
with me...
Thanks for reading this...I originally wrote this for my own feelings, but it got converted into a Kuja poem. But I do thank you for taking the time to read this poem.
-Kuja no Miko