We Are
By Shimegami
Warnings: Angsty, Dark, Zelgadis thinking, shonen ai
Disclaimer: Not mine. Don't sue.
AN: The sequel to "Secret". I promised one to the Zel/Xel Yaoi ML. ||^_^|| So here it is.
We Are
They're all idiots.
Lina shrieks and fireballs Gourry for stealing a bite to eat. Why? Does she want him to starve? If he didn't steal stuff from her, he would never get enough to eat.
I pull my hood down farther, trying to hide form the stares that Lina-tachi draw every meal time. I pick up my coffee cup and stare into it. The dark liquid almost
hides my face, but not enough. I can still see myself. I sigh. I hated Rezo for doing this to me. When we killed him, I felt nothing but pleasure for his death.
But then he helped us, even when we had killed him. He probably saved all of our lives.
Now I'm not so sure I hate him.
I feel the nearing of body warmth, and shift so that Amelia's grab for my arm misses. She can't take a hint. Yeah, I save her, but then again it's because I can't
stand to see her hurt. I don't love her, not that way. I would never want that. She is my sister I never had. To love her like that...it would feel like commiting
incest for me. I can't do that to her. But if I told her that, she would be hurt. So I sit and stay silent, removing my arm from her grasp occasionally.
Who could hurt their own sister?
Gourry whines for more food. I never know what to think about the blond swordsman. Sometimes his stupidity seems genuine, but there are times that I feel somethings hiding in there...
that he only pretends to have an IQ less than a rock. I wonder why he hides his intelligence. I'm sure he's fairly smart, just extremely forgetful. The times he
looks at me and I can swear he understands my situation with Amelia. After all, he is in a same one. Sylphiel may not be as clingy or outspoken, but she has the same
level of infatuation as Amelia. Gourry...do you really not understand what's going on around you? Or do you hide it, pretending to be something less as to not draw
attention?
I'm not sure about Gourry, either.
Now...the last member of our ragtag group. He sits a table away, quietly sipping tea and watching us. Xelloss, what are you really after? Lina, of course, but you
could have done that long ago. No, you're after something else. Another one of us, perhaps? I wish it were me. But would you want me if asked? I doubt it. You
are Mazoku, no matter how human you look. Everyone thinks I hate you. No, I hate loving you. You make me feels things I haven't before, things I'm not sure I like.
You may never return my feelings, but I can hope. I hate hope. It makes you wish for a better tomorrow even when it isn't. I continue staring at you. You notice my
gaze, and my blue eyes meet your purple ones. Your eyes are open. I wonder why? You hold my gaze, a bird caught in a snake's trance. You smile, a slow sensuous one,
and close your eyes again, your attention turned back to Lina. My heart beats in my chest, like a wild bird in a small cage. I manage to keep my outer composure by
pure will. What had you meant by that smile? Could it be that you return at least some of my feelings, if jsut only the lustful ones? No, I can't allow myself to hope.
I can't...a gloved hand slides along mine and a piece of paper falls into my palm. I look up to see Xelloss talking to Lina, happy mask in place. Heart fluttering and mouth
dry, I slowly unfold the note and read it.
"Dear Zelgadis,
Meet me outside the inn at the fountain later this night.
Xelloss"
I lick my dry lips, and force my face to keep it's neutral expression. I crumble the note and cast a tiny fireball spell to incinerate the note to ashes. Even you want nothing,
Xelloss, I will come. Maybe, just maybe, I can finally hope for a rainbow after the rain. I am a fool for hoping, but I will come. I am a idiot.
Idiots...
That's all we are.
AN: Kinda depressing....man, that's all I write. BUt don't worry, I'll write the third and final installment of my little series thingy. Yep, it will be all sugar and sap!
Bring toothpaste!
By Shimegami
Warnings: Angsty, Dark, Zelgadis thinking, shonen ai
Disclaimer: Not mine. Don't sue.
AN: The sequel to "Secret". I promised one to the Zel/Xel Yaoi ML. ||^_^|| So here it is.
We Are
They're all idiots.
Lina shrieks and fireballs Gourry for stealing a bite to eat. Why? Does she want him to starve? If he didn't steal stuff from her, he would never get enough to eat.
I pull my hood down farther, trying to hide form the stares that Lina-tachi draw every meal time. I pick up my coffee cup and stare into it. The dark liquid almost
hides my face, but not enough. I can still see myself. I sigh. I hated Rezo for doing this to me. When we killed him, I felt nothing but pleasure for his death.
But then he helped us, even when we had killed him. He probably saved all of our lives.
Now I'm not so sure I hate him.
I feel the nearing of body warmth, and shift so that Amelia's grab for my arm misses. She can't take a hint. Yeah, I save her, but then again it's because I can't
stand to see her hurt. I don't love her, not that way. I would never want that. She is my sister I never had. To love her like that...it would feel like commiting
incest for me. I can't do that to her. But if I told her that, she would be hurt. So I sit and stay silent, removing my arm from her grasp occasionally.
Who could hurt their own sister?
Gourry whines for more food. I never know what to think about the blond swordsman. Sometimes his stupidity seems genuine, but there are times that I feel somethings hiding in there...
that he only pretends to have an IQ less than a rock. I wonder why he hides his intelligence. I'm sure he's fairly smart, just extremely forgetful. The times he
looks at me and I can swear he understands my situation with Amelia. After all, he is in a same one. Sylphiel may not be as clingy or outspoken, but she has the same
level of infatuation as Amelia. Gourry...do you really not understand what's going on around you? Or do you hide it, pretending to be something less as to not draw
attention?
I'm not sure about Gourry, either.
Now...the last member of our ragtag group. He sits a table away, quietly sipping tea and watching us. Xelloss, what are you really after? Lina, of course, but you
could have done that long ago. No, you're after something else. Another one of us, perhaps? I wish it were me. But would you want me if asked? I doubt it. You
are Mazoku, no matter how human you look. Everyone thinks I hate you. No, I hate loving you. You make me feels things I haven't before, things I'm not sure I like.
You may never return my feelings, but I can hope. I hate hope. It makes you wish for a better tomorrow even when it isn't. I continue staring at you. You notice my
gaze, and my blue eyes meet your purple ones. Your eyes are open. I wonder why? You hold my gaze, a bird caught in a snake's trance. You smile, a slow sensuous one,
and close your eyes again, your attention turned back to Lina. My heart beats in my chest, like a wild bird in a small cage. I manage to keep my outer composure by
pure will. What had you meant by that smile? Could it be that you return at least some of my feelings, if jsut only the lustful ones? No, I can't allow myself to hope.
I can't...a gloved hand slides along mine and a piece of paper falls into my palm. I look up to see Xelloss talking to Lina, happy mask in place. Heart fluttering and mouth
dry, I slowly unfold the note and read it.
"Dear Zelgadis,
Meet me outside the inn at the fountain later this night.
Xelloss"
I lick my dry lips, and force my face to keep it's neutral expression. I crumble the note and cast a tiny fireball spell to incinerate the note to ashes. Even you want nothing,
Xelloss, I will come. Maybe, just maybe, I can finally hope for a rainbow after the rain. I am a fool for hoping, but I will come. I am a idiot.
Idiots...
That's all we are.
AN: Kinda depressing....man, that's all I write. BUt don't worry, I'll write the third and final installment of my little series thingy. Yep, it will be all sugar and sap!
Bring toothpaste!