I'm Sorry
Dear gods…
I'm sorry.
The words that you wrote
They let the tears flow freely…
What is an apology?
Letting someone know you feel bad
When they did something
Bad…
Hurtful…
Or in my case…
Stupid.
Why, why, why?
I helplessly think…
As a puddle of salt water
Grows around my feet,
I want to turn back time…
Like the song of time…
Only this time
To right what was wronged
By me…
People do stupid things…
I did a stupid thing.
I hurt you.
But at the same time…
Hurt myself.
The tears are past my waist…
I never meant to do what I did.
You were so kind…
You understood me.
You helped me feel so much better.
And… to lose all that…
It is my fate, worse
Then death.
I cry and cry…
Pushing the water up to my chest.
Do you know how I feel?
Do you?
You might.
We were so alike…
I feel empty.
Full of sorrow
For what I have done.
Emptiness, darkness…
Were healed by your over-powering light.
But now… the darkness is everywhere…
I extend a hand,
Hoping to feel your hand…
To pull me out of the dark.
But I feel nothing…
The tortured water reaches my neck…
And the loneliness is beckoning to me
I try to resist it…
But…
I can't.
It pulls me…
I needed your help to make me strong.
Without it…
I'm lost.
Dear god… I'm drowning.
I never meant it that way.
I kept my promise…
I would never hurt you, on purpose…
I struggle to breathe…
Drowned by my own tears…
What a way to go…
I'll never rest…
With out you…
I need to feel your embrace…
I breathe my last breath…
Chica… I'm so sorry…
Please forgive me…