Logan felt a wave of misery sweep over him as he stepped into the loud, smokey bar. The very familiar smell of vomit, cheap perfume, and cigarettes filled his nose. He walked over to the same bar stool that he always sat in when something was bothering him, and slumped down into it in exaustion.

" The usual." he shouted grimly at the bartender.

" Bad night buddy?" asked the bartender in a friendly voice as he poured Logan's drink.

Logan simply scowled at him in reply.

Logan thought about Marie. As much as it bothered him to admit it, she deserved it. She deserved to be married, and happy. If anyone deserved to be happy it was her. But is that what she really wanted? To be married, and tied down to that, that cajun asshole? Logan cringed at the thought of Remy and Marie together. Remy walking her down the aisle. Remy kissing her soft lips, Remy making love to Marie.
Logan quickly slammed back the small glass of hard liquor, and and pounded it violently down on the bar in front of him, hoping the alchohol would help get Marie off his mind. It didn't. It was going to take a whole lot more of these to do the trick.
Logan raised his glass up to the bartender. " can I get two more of these?" he asked.

" sure." said the bartender.


After six or seven more drinks, ( he had now lost count), Logan's vision began to get blurry. Logans sense of misery, had faded into one of anger, and lonliness.

Logan noticed the smell of cheap perfume getting stronger, and almost over bearing, as a thin, redhead in her early thrties and a tight red dress, with sharp facial features and large breasts came and sat down in the bar stool next to him, and leaned close to him seductively.

" hey there darlin' whatcha doin?" she asked. She had a thick, Texan accent.

" gettin ready to go home." he replied blankly, stumbling out of his seat.

" Want some company?" she asked pouting out her thin lips that were covered in bright red lip stick.

" Do I know you?" he asked in confusion,his vision getting more blurry.

" well, I dono, what's your name darlin'? "

" Logan."

" Nice to meet you logan," she said, wrapping her arm around his, " the names Brenda. See, Ya know me now." she said, smiling at him devilishly.

Logans first instinct was to turn her down , and go home before things got out of hand. But then afrer giving it a bit more thought, '~Had Marie turned Remy down when he made his trashy moves on her? ~'

" sure, why the hell not then?" he said, grinning at Brenda, and guiding her out of the bar.


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" It's getting late, maybe it would be better if we all left, and let rogue get some sleep." Ororo offered, glancing with worry at Marie's dazed expression.

" yeah, it has been a long day." Jean agreed.

" yeah it has been." Marie stated. " Thanks a bunch guys." she said as Ororo, Jean, Kitty, and Jubilee left her bedroom, still chattering away about the wedding. They were all very happy about getting to be bridesmaids. Marie wished that she could be excited as they were. But she wasn't. As hard as she tried to be happy, she had a sense of dread and nervousness in the pit of her stomache, telling her that she had made a mistake by excepting Remy's proposal.

'~ Don't be stupid Rogue," Marie thought to herself, '~ Remy is perfect. He treats you like a queen, and he loves you. don't blow this for yourself on some stupid notion, that Logan will fall hopelessly in love with you, and carry you off into the sunset.~'

Marie climbed into bed. Even though she was more tired than she could ever remember being, she could not sleep. She tossed and turned for a few hours , before giving up. She couldn't stop thinking about what had happened earlier that night. She could not stop thinking about Logan. She needed to talk to him, and put things right between them. She wouldn't be able to sleep until she did.
She climbed drowsily back out of bed, and tiptoed down the hall, careful not to wake anyone else.

she turned the doorknob to Logans bedroom slowly, and quietly, not wanting a repeat of what had happened the last time she tried to wake him up.

" Logan I..." she paused in mid sentence. Her eyes widened in shock as she they met with the dark, beady eyes of the redhead who was lying in bed next to Logan.

" Marie!" Logan said in horror, as he saw her standing in the door way, looking as if she had just been hit by a bus.

Marie shook her head at him in anger and astonishment, she was unable to hold back the tears forming in her eyes.

" Marie, no.... wait I ..... "

Marie watched as he fumbled for an explanation, until the realization came to her, that he didn't need one. Why should he have to explain to her? He was binded to her in no way. He owed her nothing,

" No Logan. Don't say a word. I'm sorry for barging in. I'll knock next time." Marie said flatly, with little emotion showing in her voice. She turned away from them slowly, and shut the door softly.

She had a familiar feeling in her chest. She felt she needed to get away from him. tears streamed down her face as she ran back to her room. The action , running back to her room after Logan had broken her heart, seemed natural, for she had done it now three times.

She swore to herself, that she would never do it again.



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End of Chapter Four! Thanks for reading it! Whatcha think so far? please write a review and let me know! I will try to post the next chapter as soon as I can. If you have any ideas that would be great! thanks! ~ kyrie