tained tests pov
Tainted
Some Loves are never forgotten
You drive a pretty car
You know how fine you are
And nobody needs to say it
They love the clothes you wear
They compliment you
And I just love the way you play
it
But the only thing you dream of
money can't buy for you
And in all my dreams
I make your wish come true
For the girl who has everything
I bring you love
Cause the girl who has everything
Can't get enough
Why do you run and hide?
Say what you feel inside
Why must you always fake it?
Girl you need to understand
Your heart is safe within my
hands and
I promise I'll never break it
I know you still dream of what
money can't buy for you
And in my dreams, I make your
wish come true
For the girl who has everything
I bring you love
Cause the girl who has everything
Can't get enough
If you just let me try
My baby listen
I'll help you find what you've
been missing
You gotta listen to your heart
And not your mind
For the girl who has everything
I bring you love
Cause the girl who has everything
Can't get enough
They're the perfect couple...
Yeah right, Stephanie and Hunter
may want everyone to believe that, but am I the only one that sees what
Hunter is doing to Stephanie? Stephanie used to be so beautiful... I'm
not saying she's not beautiful now, but before she had been naturally beautiful,
she didn't need all the make-up, she didn't need the skimpy clothes...
all she needed was herself, and for that she was more beautiful then anyone
else that I have met in my life.
Me and Stephanie could have been
happy, hell we were going to be happy, but then Hunter entered the equation
and everything was ruined. I guess a part of me still wants to believe
that Hunter actually did drug Stephanie and that she was the one that was
wronged in this whole situation, but I can't believe that anymore... this
was all Stephanie's doing...
I get that she wanted revenge on
her father and Shane, I totally get that, but why Hunter? Couldn't she
have gotten that revenge on them with me? Well I guess not, her dad and
Shane did love me after all, but still I loved her more then anything,
I thought that was what every girl wanted... I thought girls wanted to
be loved, and I LOVED Stephanie.
Hunter can't love Stephanie like
I loved her, Hunter can't love anybody but himself. It's not possible for
"The Game" to love another human being, because it takes so much out of
him to love himself.
I don't know why I'm thinking about
this all of a sudden, it's been 2 years since Hunter and Stephanie got
married, it's been 2 years since I lost Stephanie... this shouldn't matter
anymore... but it does. I watch Stephanie sometimes and I see for a split
second the old "Steph" shining brightly, but then other times all I can
see is the Stephanie Hunter created.
Why should I care? Stephanie obviously
doesn't, she along with Vince sent Triple H after me... Triple H had brutalized
me and what did Stephanie do? She cheered Hunter on, screaming his name,
jumping up and down. The Stephanie I loved, she isn't here anymore, she
has been replaced by this sadistic little... excuse my language... bitch...
that is what Stephanie is now, she's nothing more then a spoiled little
girl who screams too much.
Why does Stephanie act the way she
acts? Why does she wear all the make-up? Why does she wear all the skimpy
clothes? Hey I got no problem with skimpy clothes, well I didn't when Trish
was wearing them... but seeing Stephanie in those sort of clothes, it makes
my stomach turn... in disgust. I just don't know why Stephanie wears those
sort of clothes and covers her face with all that make-up, she can't possibly
like it, she doesn't... the look on her face, gives it away, she doesn't
like the person she is becoming, I can see it and I want to help her, but
what if this is just another little game that mister game and miss game
created?
I can't take that chance again! I
can't give in and help Stephanie, I can't confess that I still love her,
and then have myself get stabbed in the back again, no... it hurt too much
the first time, if it happened again, I don't think I would be able to
live through the pain.
Okay I just realized I have been
staring at Stephanie for about 2 minutes, Hunter is looking at me, and
to stop a red color from rising up in my cheeks, I need something to take
Hunter and Stephanie away from my little staring problem...
"Yeah Triple H, you're damn right
I want some! Me and you tonight, in a hardcore match, you up to that?"
Hunter gets that cocky little grin
on his face, and we glare at each other, from the corner of my eyes I can
see Stephanie watching us with an intense look in her eyes. I can't tell
if Stephanie is looking at me or Hunter... of course she is looking at
Hunter, Stephanie doesn't love me anymore... if she ever did. I don't think
Stephanie loved me, I think she was just marrying me because her dad and
Shane wanted her to... but god there were sometimes, that I swore she really
did love me... but hey that could have just been hopeful wishing kicking
in.
"Hardcore match tonight? Get ready
to be crushed... Testicle."
I roll my eyes at his little nickname
for me... Testicle... Hunter has a brain of a 10 year old. I watch
him squeeze Stephanie's hand and drag her off with him, my eyes follow
after Stephanie, and then I feel everything stop, when she turns around
and stares at me before disappearing around the corner.
This is stupid, really it is. I mean
Stephanie McMahon doesn't even think twice about me anymore, so why in
the world am I trying to read in between the lines? There is no in between
line to read, Stephanie loves Hunter and not me... It's that simple, I
was NOTHING to Stephanie, just some pawn in her little game. I should just
except that and give up on trying to reach Stephanie...
Heh, giving up on Stephanie is impossible...
isn't that what Shane said to me when I visited him in the hospital after
he jumped 50 feet and landed on Big Show on Backlash? Man that totally
rocked! Okay I'm drifting away from the subject, I had went to visit Shane,
you know to see how he was doing and all, and I made the mistake of bringing
up Stephanie. Shane had gotten this pained look in his eyes, you know the
sort of look a little kid gets when his dog died or something? Well that
look was embedded in Shane's eyes, and then he said:
"Giving up on Stephanie is impossible.
You want to give up on her, because once you do, the pain of losing her
can go away, but you just can't bring yourself to give up on her, or at
least I can't. Because deep down there, I know Stephanie, the old Stephanie,
is still there and she's just waiting for someone to let her out."
I usually didn't listen to sappy
stuff like that, but it actually made sense... I mean Stephanie, the old
Steph, has to be still here, she probably never went away, she just got
hidden by Hunter. Sure it sounds crazy, but if it is true... if Steph is
really still there... I would do anything in my power to bring her back.
"Tonight the game is going to be
over..."
I push my hair back and continue
walking... where was I going again? Oh yeah... to see Shane. Shane is still
in that damn hospital, his injuries have healed up a little but his body
is still all battered up... shit I still can't believe he jumped from 50
feet in the air, I had never thought he would do it... Shane can be a dare
devil when he wants to be... he's full of surprises... just like his little
sister.
There we go again, I can't stop thinking
about her for at least 10 minutes, hey that's better then before... when
we used to be together, I would think about her every 5 minutes... but
hey that was in the old days. Before Stephanie decided to turn her back
on me... before she turned her back on love.
I want to continue feeling angry
at Steph, but I can't... all I can do or feel right now, is sympathy. I
feel sorry for her because she is trapped, trapped with Hunter and there
is nothing she can do. See Stephanie, she loves being daddy's little girl,
she loves the attention she gets from Vince, Steph was never really a mommy's
little girl, everything she did, she did for Vince. Stephanie would just
die if Vince turned his back on her, if she left Hunter she would be outted
out of the family and that would kill Stephanie, and that is the only reason
she's still with Hunter. Stephanie might have loved Hunter at one time,
but all that love is gone, and all she has is her own little hellhole of
a marriage, she stands by Hunter but all that happiness, all that beauty
Steph once had, is drained out of her body, and she's miserable.
Hunter makes her miserable... but
she doesn't do anything about it, well she did actually try... but the
whole Kurt Angle thing didn't work out. Hunter ended that thing so fast
it even made Kurt's head spin, even though I personally don't like Angle,
he was better then Hunter... anything is better then Hunter.
Sighing, I turn around and walk into
my locker-room, I'll visit Shane later, it depends... if I win I'll walk
in and visit him, if I lose I'll be in a gurney visiting him.
Pacing back and forth in my room,
waiting for someone to tell me my match is up, all I can think about is...
What if Shane never helped The Undertaker
kidnap Steph? What if Steph never was put in that situation? Would things
be different? Would Stephanie and me be happy? Those sort of questions
haven't entered my head in such a long time, but recently they have been
entering my head and I can't think straight anymore.
Even if Steph was to change how could
I know I could trust her? I can't trust anybody...
I trusted Albert... he betrayed me.
I trusted Trish... she betrayed me. See a pattern here? And Steph, well
she betrayed me a long time ago, her betrayal had hurt the most. Because
her betrayal hit me in the heart, because Stephanie had my love, she had
my hurt and then she crushed it. But see unlike Albert and Trish's betrayal,
Stephanie's betrayal keeps going on and on.
But Stephanie has betrayed everybody...
Shane. Linda. Me. The list goes on,
Stephanie got people to trust her and love her and then she turned against
them... heh, just like Hunter. Hunter is exactly the same... Hunter had
Chyna's love and trust and then bam he betrayed her... aww mister and miss
game have more in common then I thought.
"Test, your match is up."
I look up and nod at the crewman,
I pull a white shirt on and I walk out of the locker-room and towards the
arena, I pay no attention to my theme music as I walk down the titatron.
Hunter is already in the ring, I look to my left and see Stephanie by the
ring with a fake smile plastered on her face. I keep my gaze on her for
a second but then I slide into the ring, and the minute I do, the fighting
begins. Hunter is lying it on real thick, he's not even giving me a chance
to breathe, or maybe it's the fact that I keep looking over at Stephanie.
Usually in our matches, between Hunter and I, I would occasionally look
over at Stephanie, knowing her track record for helping her husband win
matches you would glance over at her too. But this time it was different,
Stephanie had a worried look on her face, her brown eyes were caked in
worry; I stopped fighting and stared at her, my eyes focused on hers...
and then BAM...
I felt Hunter's body plow into mine,
both of us falling to the mat, my injured ribs even more... I can hear
JR and Michael Cole talking about the match, I can hear the scream of the
fans, and close to my ears I can hear Hunter's breathing. I watch Hunter
get up rubbing his head, I try to push myself up but it's useless, my body
feels like it's been broken in half; I see Hunter grab a sledgehammer,
I close my eyes knowing it's all over but then Stephanie's voice comes
into my head... not like a past memory of her, but her real voice, I can
hear her screaming.
"Ref! Ref! Ref!"
I open my eyes and catch the sight
of Stephanie on the edge of the ring screaming her lungs off, I turn my
gaze to Hunter who has dropped the sledgehammer and is staring at her with
a confused look in his eyes. Whatever Stephanie is doing, is taking Hunter's
concentration off of me, I push myself up slowly and walk over to Hunter.
Hunter turns around and looks at me shocked, well obviously he didn't expect
me to get up so soon, he goes to hit me but I duck the punch. I stumble
over backwards and then Hunter grabs me and throws me into the ropes...
We both stop fighting when we hear
Stephanie scream, I look in front of me and see Stephanie on the ground,
her body crawled up in a little ball.
I look to Hunter, who is grasping
his head in disbelief, I turn my glance to Stephanie and then it hit me...
We must have hit her...
My body must have thrown her off
the ring when I got thrown into the ropes by Hunter, I look over at Hunter
one more time, and by the look on his face, I know he has come to the same
realization. I watch a group of referees running over to Stephanie, I watch
them try to push her but she doesn't move an inch...
And then I see the blood flowing
from a cut on her head...
NEXT IN THE 'TAINTED' SERIES:
Shane, after seeing Stephanie's injury
on Smackdown and seeing the two men who caused it, worries about the safety
of his little sister.
