Title: Love and Family Found
Author: Inquisitive1
Email: inquisitive1@angelfire.com or 2inquisitive1@angelfire.com
Rating: Mostly PG13
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Spoilers: Up to 'Surprise'
Disclaimer: I own only the characters you don't know
Summary: Buffy seeks out help from the Scoobies after 2 years of silence.
Author's note: As in most of my stories Angel is Spike's sire. I have issues with the whole Dru siring anyone.
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Chapter 1
Sunnydale: Angel's apartment
'A month' she sighs entering her love's apartment 'a month with out you' Buffy smiles slightly as she crawls into Angel's bed. "Where are you?" she wonders aloud "I have so much to tell you." she whispers hugging her middle as tears form "No more crying." she tells herself sternly "He'll come home as soon as he can." she smiles to herself "I know he will" she curls up under the covers falling asleep amongst the familiar scent of her love.
A month later
"Angel" she whispers pulling the blankets around herself she opens the letter she had received that day in the mail. She smiles at the sight of the familiar hand writing as she reads
'My love,
Sorry I haven't been able to write you... actually I have I just haven't sent them. You know its kind of hard to find a post office when you keep getting ambushed by demons and vampires. Don't worry I'm being careful. I hope you are'
Buffy smiles at that "Of course I am"
'I miss you, Beloved.'
Curling up in the covers Buffy finishes reading the later. Tears fall as she sets aside the letter she reaches for her stuffed pig Mr. Gordo. "When Angel comes home these nightmares will stop" she says curling up.
Hour later
"NO" Buffy awakens with a start her heart pounding in terror "No. No. No" she chants rocking her arms around herself "Please no" needing to clear her head Buffy grabs her journal from the night stand.
'February 16, 1998
My dreams are getting worse. I wish Angel were here. I should go talk to Giles or even Willow but I want Angel to know about the baby first. The dreams started after Angel left, at first I thought it was just because I missed him. Then when I found out I was pregnant... they became more intense.
Oh Angel what am I to do? I'm scared that this baby won't be born. Something will happen to our baby Angel. I don't know how, what or when but somethings going to happen.
I don't really remember my dreams in full but I remember the fear. I don't know whose fear it was... mine? the baby's? Angel's? Whose? All I remember is that it was intense. I could also feel evil. Angel something wants to hurt our baby... our miracle. What am I supposed to do?'
Next Morning: Sunnydale Library
"Giles" Buffy calls as she enters. She frowns finding everyone sitting the room somber "Hey what's the deal? Xan your usually in the closet with Cordy. Willow your usually on the computer. Oz your doing what your doing. Giles uh your not doing what ever librarians do"
"Buffy I uh got a phone call this morning" Giles begins
Buffy sits down "OK and what was this call about? Watcher business? Personal? Oh is it personal?" she asks hopefully
"Buffy just listen to him" Xander snaps
"Geez Xander chill"
"Buffy this is important" Giles insists
"OK I'm all ears" she frowns "You know thats a funny saying I mean no one is all ears"
Willow seeing the need to get to the topic steps in "Buffy its about Angel"
"What about him?" Buffy demands looking at her Watcher concerned
"Buffy" Giles begins nervously
"Spill Giles" she orders
Giles looks at his Slayer "Buffy, Angel's missing"
"He's probably just hiding out from Spike's goons" Buffy states
"No Buffy." Giles replies "The cargo ship was boarded by customs... it was empty of everything but cargo. Angel wasn't there"
"He was probably hiding" Buffy says feeling the worry rise
Willow shakes her head "Buffy they boarded in the afternoon. They searched it top to bottom... he wasn't there"
"And if he was..." Xander trails off
Buffy shakes her head "He probably missed the ship. You know how he is."
"Buffy I read the reports" Willow says "he boarded the ship"
Buffy stares at the ring on her finger then shakes her head "He's not dead." she insists
"Buff you don't know that" Xander argues
"I do Xander. He's not dead" she states glaring at them "He promised me he'd come home."
"Buffy..." Giles trails off
"He's not dead. He can't be." she jumps up from the chair running out of the room
"Buffy" Willow calls
Buffy races out of the school her tears beginning to fall she runs to Angel's apartment. Slamming inside she races to the bathroom she kneeling she empties her stomach "Angel" she sobs
A week later: Summers household
"Buffy honey what's wrong?" Joyce asks as the two sit over dinner
"Nothing" Buffy replies softly
"Something has been bothering you the last few months. At first you were never home but now..."
"I just have a lot on my mind" Buffy replies
"Honey"
"Mom please" Buffy says angrily standing "I don't want to talk about it" she races out of the dining room leaving her mother to stare after her confused. "Oh God Angel" she sobs falling on the bed "I need you" she whispers rocking herself "we need you"
Later that night
Buffy wipes away her tears as she stands going to her closet she takes out her duffle bag. Quickly she packs some clothes, weapons, her makeup, money, adding Angel's leather jacket, a shirt of his, Mr Gordo, and the few things she had secretly bought for her baby. Zipping the bag she places it by the window as she places her notes to her family and friends where her mother can find them. Opening the window she tosses her bag out then takes one last look at her room "Goodbye" she whispers climbing out of the window she jumps to the ground. Without looking back she walks out of Sunnydale her heart breaking "One day" she whispers her hand rubbing her belly absently "We'll come home baby. I promise"
Chapter 2
5 months later: July
Buffy looks at the 'Welcome to Hope' sign and smiles sadly "Well we need that" she mutters. She walks down the street ignoring the eyes on her as she walks through the street. 'I think I'm going to like it here' she sees the children playing in the streets. She smiles at the sight of a little boy with dark hair sitting watching as the others play. She continues walking then pausing at the sight of a Catholic church she walks in sitting in the middle pew she stares at the large cross at the front of the church. She strokes her distended belly as she feels her child move 'Going to be strong like your Daddy.' she blinks back tears as she hears footsteps stop beside her.
"Hello child"
Buffy looks up to see a man in his fifties standing there "Hello Father"
"May I?" he asks gesturing to the seat beside her
Buffy nods wiping away her tears "Sure"
"What is wrong? You look sad"
"This is a beautiful church" Buffy states
"Yes it is. Are you Catholic?"
Buffy shakes her head "My baby's father was." she looks at the friendly man beside her "My family isn't church going." she admits "Though Angel hadn't been for a while" she adds with a frown
"My name is Father Michael"
Buffy smiles "I'm Anne" she lies
"So Anne are you just walking through or are you staying?"
"I'm thinking of staying." she looks down at her stomach "I'm due in 2 months. If I stay I need to find a job and a place to stay"
Father Michael senses a need to protect the young woman "If you'd like to you could stay here. There is a small guest room in the back."
Buffy looks at him startled "Are you sure?"
He nods "Its up to you."
"Are you sure I wouldn't be imposing?"
"Oh no. That room is rarely used."
"It'll only be a while" Buffy assures
"Stay as long as you want" he stands "Come I'll show you where it is" he helps her stand
"Thank you." Buffy grins "I'm starting to feel like a turtle" she jokes following the priest to the back
Father Michael leads Buffy to the back room "Its small" he tells her opening the door
Buffy enters the room startled to find it similiar to Angel's apartment "Oh its fine."
"Good. Why don't I show you around and introduce you to the staff"
"All right" Buffy nods dropping her bag by the bed. 'I think I'm going to like it here'
Sunnydale: the Library
Giles looks up from his reading as the library doors open "Ahh hello" he greets as Willow and Xander enter "how are you?"
Willow shrugs "Fine" she sits down
"Find anything?" Xander asks hopefully
"No reports of Slaying" Giles sighs closing his book
"Giles its been 5 months. Where could she be?" Willow asks worried
"I'm sure she's fine Willow" Giles assures the redhead
"I hope so" Willow sighs
September: Sunnydale docks
Angel walks off the cargo ship "Home" he sighs looking around.
Hope: Buffy's apartment
"Angel" Buffy cries out as she sits up in bed. She gasps as she feels a sharp pain through her abdomen "Ooohh" she groans "OK" she sighs "What was that?"
10 mins later
"Ooohh" she winces "OK now its official my contractions have started." she reaches for the phone dialing Father Michael's phone number
"Yes?"
"Father Michael"
"Anne what's wrong?" Father Michael asks alert
"My contractions have started"
"OK I'll be there in a few minutes" he says hanging up the phone
Buffy grimaces as another contraction hits "You are really intent on coming now" she says setting the phone down.
Sunnydale: Angel's apartment
Angel enters his apartment frowning at the layer of dust on his furniture. 'Looks like she hasn't been here for a while' he shakes his head in disbelief. 'I'm going to go see if I can find her.'
Hope: the hospital
Buffy lays in the bed fiddling with her ring as she awaits for the nurse. 'Oh Angel your going to miss this'
"Miss Summers" the nurse greets "how are you feeling?"
"Fine" Buffy replies
"Your contractions are getting closer"
"I know" Buffy groans as the pain hits
"Hurt?" the nurse asks
"I've been hurt worse" Buffy replies "its more annoying then painful"
"OK let me know if you need anything"
Sunnydale
Angel frowns as he walks through Sunnydale in search of Buffy.
"Looking for the Slayer?" a familiar British voice asks
Angel turns around to see Spike smirking "What do you want Spike?"
"So I see you made it back" Spike states
Angel shrugs "Your men weren't very good"
"Oh well. I guess I'll have to find new ones" Spike shrugs
"That's nice" Angel turns away "Later Spike"
"If your going to go see the Slayer you won't find her" Spike calls
Angel pauses "What do you mean Spike?"
"You'll see" Spike laugh
Angel launches himself at the younger vampire slamming him against a wall "What do you mean William?" he demands going into 'game-face'
Spike grins "Slayer's been gone for a while"
"What did you do?" Angel demands
"Nothing. She just disappeared. No one knows where she is"
"What?" Angel demands releasing him "Who's the Slayer?"
"Some chick" Spike shrugs. "She appeared not long after the other left"
"If your lying to me Spike I will kill you." Angel growls turning away
"I ain't lyin' Peaches." Spike calls
Hope: the Hospital
"I see your water has broken" the doctor observes
"No really" Buffy says sarcastically as the pain intensifies
The doctor chuckles "It shouldn't be much longer"
"Good." Buffy groans
Sunnydale: the Library
Giles looks up as the library doors open "Angel" he says in surprise
"Rupert what is going on?" Angel demands barely glancing at the others sitting around the table
"Oh my God" Xander stammers "Deadboy's not dead" he says in surprise
"Uh no." Angel says in annoyance "Why would I be?"
Willow walks into the room freezing at the sight of the dark haired vampire "Angel" she stammers "Your alive... uh undead. You know what I mean"
"Uh yeah" Angel replies "What is going on?" he demands
"Angel Buffy disappeared a few months after you did." Giles stammers
"What?"
"We heard you were dusted." Cordelia says
"Then she disappeared" Xander adds
Angel turns walking out of the library silently
Willow shakes her head "Poor Angel"
Hope: The Hospital
"All right one more push Anne" the doctor orders
Buffy braces herself with a deep breath she pushes with a groan. She smiles as she hears
"Its a boy"
"A boy" she grins
Sunnydale: Angel's apartment
Angel enters the apartment silently leaning against the door he slides to the floor allowing tears to fall. "Where are you Buffy?" he whispers
Chapter 3
Hope: the Hospital
Buffy smiles as the nurse hands her the small baby "Hey little man" she greets tearfully "its good to finally hold you"
"So Anne what are you going to call him?" Father Michael asks
Buffy smiles "Liam Angel-- after his father" she looks at the alert baby
"Good choice" he nods
"I know Angel would be happy"
"You miss him"
Buffy nods "Everyday, but now I have a part of him to love." she kisses her son's head "You are a very special little boy" she says lightly stroking his cheek. "You look like your Daddy." she laughs as the baby yawns in response "You've got your Daddy's eyes" she states looking into the unfocused chocolate eyes. "Your going to be able to give Mommy the same puppy dog look your Daddy did." She lifts the small hand kissing it "I love you Liam Angel" she whispers tearfully "your Daddy loves you too"
Hope: Two days later
"Look Liam we're home" Buffy announces carrying in the carseat with the drowsy newborn with Father Michael right behind. "Thank you Father Michael"
Father Michael nods setting her bag down "Do you need anything? Food or something before I leave?"
Buffy sets the car seat down "No thank you" she replies standing on her tiptoes she kisses his cheek "Thank you Father Michael"
"If you need anything call."
"I will" she nods
"Goodbye little Liam" Father Michael says "I'll check in on you later" he closes the door behind him
"Well Liam Angel looks like its just us" Buffy smiles carefully lifting the newborn out of the carseat. "Lets go get you comfortable" Buffy says carrying the baby into the bedroom. After changing his diaper and putting him in a sleeper she changes into her sweats. Picking up the baby "Let's find Mommy something to eat" she says heading into the kitchen
An hour later
Buffy smiles at the sleeping baby in her arms 'Angel he is so perfect. He looks like you' she stands laying the newborn in the basinet beside the bed. She smiles down at the baby "Sleep well" she whispers laying in the bed she falls asleep watching the newborn sleep
Sunnydale: Angel's Apartment
Angel gets off the bed as he hears a knock at his door. He opens the door to find Willow standing there "Hey Willow" he greets moving aside to allow the redhead to enter
"Angel" she greets
"Aren't you supposed to be in school?" Angel asks walking to the kitchen
"Yeah."
Angel leans against the counter "I'm going to find her" he says
"Angel we've tried to, but she doesn't want to be found"
Angel looks at the redhead "I love her Willow. I'm not going to lose her" he runs his fingers through his hair "I have to find her."
Willow nods "We all want to find her Angel."
"I know" he replies
Willow sensing his brooding approach "I better get to school"
"Thanks Willow" Angel responds barely aware of the redheads departure. "Buffy" he sighs sliding to the floor as he cries
Chapter 4
3 months later: January
Hope: Buffy's work
"Anne he is getting so big" a woman states awed at the sight of the baby sitting in the carseat on the counter of the diner
Buffy smiles looking at the woman standing beside her son "I know." she moves over to the counter dropping a kiss on her son's head as she places the order. "And to think he was little three months ago" Buffy laughs
"He must take after his father"
Buffy nods "That he does" she picks up a tray as Liam fusses
"Anne he's getting hungry"
"OK after I take care of this can you take over for me Molly?" she nods at the tray
"Sure" Molly nods
Placing the plates before the people Buffy smiles "Enjoy" she puts the tray on the counter then picks up the fussy baby. She carries Liam into the back room where she finds bottle taking it to the kitchen she heats it up. "OK here you go" she says holding the bottle for the hungry baby she sits in a booth.
"So how are you doing?" Molly asks
"Fine. Liam sleeps through the night most of the time. Some times he wakes up screaming." Buffy smiles at the brown eyes watching her "kinda like his father" she admits
"How?"
"He just acts like his father. He'll sleep one night and the next he won't or he'll wake up."
"You don't talk about his father much" Molly remarks
Buffy shrugs "He had to go away on business... never came back."
"Did he know?" Molly asks nodding at the baby
"No" Buffy shakes her head "I didn't have the chance to tell him"
"I'm sorry, you really loved him"
Buffy nods "Still do"
Sunnydale: Angel's apartment
'It's been a year since that night' Angel realizes sadly 'I miss you Buffy. Happy Birthday'
Hope: Buffy's Apartment
'A year' she sighs looking down at the sleeping baby 'A year since I last saw my Angel. Since we made him.' she thinks as she strokes the baby's cheek. She smiles at the sound of the soft sigh. "Sleep well little man" she whispers
Later
Buffy awakens as she hears Liam cry. "Shh baby" she yawns sitting up she picks him up "its ok" she soothes holding him close "Liam shh" she stands walking the floor "That isn't your hungry or wet cry. Bad dream?" she asks "I know baby. Calm down." she kisses his head "Liam its OK, Mommy's here" She walks the floor until the baby calms down. 'I miss you Angel' she sighs setting the drowsy child in the crib. She smiles sadly 'I'm 18'
Sunnydale: Summers' home
Joyce sits on the couch holding a photo albulm she smiles at the very first picture of Buffy. "Such a beautiful baby." she smiles "Happy birthday Buffy" she sighs looking at the window "where are you?"
9 months later: September 18
"Happy Birthday Liam" Buffy says picking up the baby
"Mama" he laughs reaching out to pat her face
"Good." she laughs kissing him "So Liam Angel what are we going to do today?" Buffy asks as she changes the baby's diaper. "Should we go see Father Michael?" Buffy asks tickling his stomach causing him to laugh. "I take it that's a yes" dressing him she carries him to the living room she sets him on the floor. She smiles as the little boy crawls around the room. "Stay where I can see you" she calls as she moves around making breakfast
"Mama" Liam calls
"What baby?"
"MAMA" Liam calls louder
Buffy sighs putting down the towel she goes into the living room where she finds her son sitting on the floor "Liam what are you doing?" she asks
"Mama" he says his eyes wide with tears
At the look Buffy frowns "What's wrong sweetie?"
Liam holds his arms up "Up"
Buffy picks him up "Hey its OK" she soothes rubbing his back
"Mama" he whimpers burrowing into her arms
"Shh its OK" she says sitting in the rocking chair
Later: the Church
"Happy Birthday Liam" greets the two as they enter
Liam looks around the room his eyes wide at the sight of all the people and the gifts. "Mama?"
Buffy smiles "Happy birthday" she says putting him down she watches as the little boy move around the room with interest
"How's he doing?" Father Michael asks
"He still wakes up screaming. Sometimes he'll start crying for no reason. I'm starting to get worried"
"Have you taken him to the doctor?"
"Yes. They say that there is nothing wrong with him. They think its in my mind. I know something is wrong"
"What do you think it is?" Father Michael asks
Buffy shrugs "I'm not sure. There's one person who can help me." she looks over at her son "But I'm not ready to take him there."
"You need to face your past Anne." he looks at Liam "Especially if it can help him"
"I know" Buffy sighs
"Mama" Liam calls
"Just a second" Buffy replies "Can we talk about this later?"
Father Michael nods
Buffy heads to find her son amongst the others. "Hey you what are you doing?" she demands picking him up
"Mama mine" he points to the stack of gifts
"Yes and what do you say to everyone?" Buffy asks
He furrows his brow in confusion
"We say thank you right?" Buffy says with a grin
"Tank you" he says childishly his voice shy as he hides his face in his mother's neck
Buffy smiles at his act "Why don't you start opening them" Buffy suggests sitting on the floor she pulls him onto her lap.
"Presents" Molly announces bringing the others around.
Father Michael watches the small blond converse with her son. 'She adores that boy'
That night
"So did you have a good day Liam Angel?" Buffy asks the drowsy child
"Yes Mama" he yawns
Buffy smiles carrying him into the bedroom she sets him on the changing table "You remind me of your father." she says "You're Daddy loves you as much as I do"
"Dada?"
"Oh yes." Buffy nods "you look just like him." she states "I wish he was here" she sighs blinking back her tears shaking her head as she dresses him in his sleeper.
"Mama?"
Buffy smiles picking him up "Lets get your bottle" she carries him into the kitchen heating up his bottle she sits down in the rocking chair. "you look just like him. You have his hair. His eyes." she picks up the small hand "you have his hands too, the mini version though" she laughs "you are a mini version of your Daddy that's for sure" she watches the dozing baby "Happy Birthday Liam Angel Summers" she whispers kissing his forehead
After midnight
"MAMA"
Hearing that Buffy quickly gets out of bed. Going to the crib she finds her son crying. "Oh Liam sweetie did you have another dream?" she asks softly as she picks him up "Its OK baby" she soothes. As she walks the room she talks to him. "Oh baby I wish you could tell me about your dreams." she whispers resting her cheek against his head.
Sunnydale: The Cemetary
"Hey Deadboy"
"Harris don't call me that" Angel snaps glaring at the teen in annoyance "What are you doing out here anyway?" he demands "You guys haven't patrolled in a while"
Xander shrugs "I got bored. So I thought who haven't I annoyed lately..." he grins "And it hit me I haven't bugged Deadboy for a while"
"Stop calling me that" Angel growls
"OK OK" Xander surrenders
"Why are you really out here?" Angel asks
"Willow made me" he grumbles "she said if I didn't check up on you she'd do something really bad."
Angel fights to hide a grin "What did she threaten?"
"Tell Cordy about something I did when we were kids."
"What?"
"Like I'd tell you"
"Fine don't" Angel shrugs walking away knowing Xander is near. "So how is Willow? I haven't seen her in awhile"
Xander shrugs "I wouldn't know. I rarely hear from her."
"College does that to people"
"How would you know? You didn't go"
Angel rolls his eyes "Xander I'm over 240 years old. You learn things" he shrugs
"Can I ask you something?"
"Depends on what you ask" Angel replies
"How is it you know all this history stuff?"
"I lived through it"
"No I'm talking about the stuff before you were even born. The Watcher stuff."
Angel shrugs "I just learned from others. After all I have had a lot of free time on my hands the past 150 years"
"Good point" Xander agrees
"Anything else?" Angel asks
"Not now"
"Then duck" Angel orders
Hope: Buffy's apartment- Next Morning
"Morning Liam" Buffy greets picking up the infant "So today means you've been a year old for 1 day. How does it feel?"
"Mama" he sighs cuddling close
"What's wrong?" Buffy asks stroking his back "You still tired?" she feels him shake his head in response "Sweetie you not in the mood to talk?"
"No" he mumbles
"Then lets go have breakfast" Buffy says carrying him out to the kitchen she sets him in the highchair "How about some applesauce" she takes out the jar of baby food "Mmm look baby" she says pulling up a chair she holds up the spoon "here you go"
Liam shakes his head
"Yes. You like applesauce" she reminds trying again
"NO" he says pushing it away
"Then how about cereal?" she asks again getting a negative response "Then what? You need to eat something"
"Mama" he sniffles holding his arms out
"What is wrong?" she asks picking him up
"Mama" he sighs
Chapter 5
Month later: The Church
"What is wrong?" Father Michael asks
"I've decided to head back to Sunnydale." Buffy announces watching as her son plays
"Are you sure?"
Buffy nods "I have to. He's in danger."
"What do you mean?"
"Father Michael there is something I never told you"
"You don't have to" he protests
"I want to. You've done so much for us." she turns her attention to the man sitting across from her "Do you believe in hell?"
"Yes"
"Not the hell just under our feet but the hell that is on earth."
"I don't understand"
"Do you believe in demons and vampires?"
"I suppose its possible they exist." he answers
"They do. I've been fighting them since I was 15. I'm a Slayer."
"A Slayer?"
"A girl born to fight dark. The evils."
"And you have?"
Buffy nods "I've fought so many. Some evils are evil some just look like they are. Some demons are kind others are evil."
"Why are you telling me this?"
"There is... was a vampire named Angel."
"Angel?" he looks at the baby
"His father was a vampire." she nods "I loved him" she looks at the ring on her finger "And he loved me. He may have been a vampire but he was good. He had a soul. He was my life." she looks at her son "Now he is"
"How is it he had a soul?"
"150 years ago Angel killed someone he shouldn't have. A gypsy. The family cursed him with a soul. He spent all this time making up for his sins. The only person who can help me find out what is wrong with Liam and that is my Watcher." she stands picking up the little boy "I'm going to have to return... even though I am not ready" she smiles sadly "Besides it'll be good to see them"
"When are you leaving?"
"As soon as I can get everything settled here"
Week later
"Are you sure about this?" Father Michael asks as Buffy settles Liam in his carseat
"I am. I want my son back to normal and Giles is the only one who can help" she straightens up "Thank you for everything"
"If you need anything Anne just call"
Buffy smiles "I will" she goes around to the drivers side opening the door "And Father Michael"
"Yes"
"Call me Buffy"
"I will... Buffy"
"Thank you" Buffy grins
"God bless you child"
"Bye" Buffy says starting the car
Author: Inquisitive1
Email: inquisitive1@angelfire.com or 2inquisitive1@angelfire.com
Rating: Mostly PG13
Distribution: Its been added to my site http://www.angelfire.com/tv/inqstive1sfanfiction/whatsnew.html
Site has also had a minor update- check it out.
Spoilers: Up to 'Surprise'
Disclaimer: I own only the characters you don't know
Summary: Buffy seeks out help from the Scoobies after 2 years of silence.
Author's note: As in most of my stories Angel is Spike's sire. I have issues with the whole Dru siring anyone.
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Chapter 1
Sunnydale: Angel's apartment
'A month' she sighs entering her love's apartment 'a month with out you' Buffy smiles slightly as she crawls into Angel's bed. "Where are you?" she wonders aloud "I have so much to tell you." she whispers hugging her middle as tears form "No more crying." she tells herself sternly "He'll come home as soon as he can." she smiles to herself "I know he will" she curls up under the covers falling asleep amongst the familiar scent of her love.
A month later
"Angel" she whispers pulling the blankets around herself she opens the letter she had received that day in the mail. She smiles at the sight of the familiar hand writing as she reads
'My love,
Sorry I haven't been able to write you... actually I have I just haven't sent them. You know its kind of hard to find a post office when you keep getting ambushed by demons and vampires. Don't worry I'm being careful. I hope you are'
Buffy smiles at that "Of course I am"
'I miss you, Beloved.'
Curling up in the covers Buffy finishes reading the later. Tears fall as she sets aside the letter she reaches for her stuffed pig Mr. Gordo. "When Angel comes home these nightmares will stop" she says curling up.
Hour later
"NO" Buffy awakens with a start her heart pounding in terror "No. No. No" she chants rocking her arms around herself "Please no" needing to clear her head Buffy grabs her journal from the night stand.
'February 16, 1998
My dreams are getting worse. I wish Angel were here. I should go talk to Giles or even Willow but I want Angel to know about the baby first. The dreams started after Angel left, at first I thought it was just because I missed him. Then when I found out I was pregnant... they became more intense.
Oh Angel what am I to do? I'm scared that this baby won't be born. Something will happen to our baby Angel. I don't know how, what or when but somethings going to happen.
I don't really remember my dreams in full but I remember the fear. I don't know whose fear it was... mine? the baby's? Angel's? Whose? All I remember is that it was intense. I could also feel evil. Angel something wants to hurt our baby... our miracle. What am I supposed to do?'
Next Morning: Sunnydale Library
"Giles" Buffy calls as she enters. She frowns finding everyone sitting the room somber "Hey what's the deal? Xan your usually in the closet with Cordy. Willow your usually on the computer. Oz your doing what your doing. Giles uh your not doing what ever librarians do"
"Buffy I uh got a phone call this morning" Giles begins
Buffy sits down "OK and what was this call about? Watcher business? Personal? Oh is it personal?" she asks hopefully
"Buffy just listen to him" Xander snaps
"Geez Xander chill"
"Buffy this is important" Giles insists
"OK I'm all ears" she frowns "You know thats a funny saying I mean no one is all ears"
Willow seeing the need to get to the topic steps in "Buffy its about Angel"
"What about him?" Buffy demands looking at her Watcher concerned
"Buffy" Giles begins nervously
"Spill Giles" she orders
Giles looks at his Slayer "Buffy, Angel's missing"
"He's probably just hiding out from Spike's goons" Buffy states
"No Buffy." Giles replies "The cargo ship was boarded by customs... it was empty of everything but cargo. Angel wasn't there"
"He was probably hiding" Buffy says feeling the worry rise
Willow shakes her head "Buffy they boarded in the afternoon. They searched it top to bottom... he wasn't there"
"And if he was..." Xander trails off
Buffy shakes her head "He probably missed the ship. You know how he is."
"Buffy I read the reports" Willow says "he boarded the ship"
Buffy stares at the ring on her finger then shakes her head "He's not dead." she insists
"Buff you don't know that" Xander argues
"I do Xander. He's not dead" she states glaring at them "He promised me he'd come home."
"Buffy..." Giles trails off
"He's not dead. He can't be." she jumps up from the chair running out of the room
"Buffy" Willow calls
Buffy races out of the school her tears beginning to fall she runs to Angel's apartment. Slamming inside she races to the bathroom she kneeling she empties her stomach "Angel" she sobs
A week later: Summers household
"Buffy honey what's wrong?" Joyce asks as the two sit over dinner
"Nothing" Buffy replies softly
"Something has been bothering you the last few months. At first you were never home but now..."
"I just have a lot on my mind" Buffy replies
"Honey"
"Mom please" Buffy says angrily standing "I don't want to talk about it" she races out of the dining room leaving her mother to stare after her confused. "Oh God Angel" she sobs falling on the bed "I need you" she whispers rocking herself "we need you"
Later that night
Buffy wipes away her tears as she stands going to her closet she takes out her duffle bag. Quickly she packs some clothes, weapons, her makeup, money, adding Angel's leather jacket, a shirt of his, Mr Gordo, and the few things she had secretly bought for her baby. Zipping the bag she places it by the window as she places her notes to her family and friends where her mother can find them. Opening the window she tosses her bag out then takes one last look at her room "Goodbye" she whispers climbing out of the window she jumps to the ground. Without looking back she walks out of Sunnydale her heart breaking "One day" she whispers her hand rubbing her belly absently "We'll come home baby. I promise"
Chapter 2
5 months later: July
Buffy looks at the 'Welcome to Hope' sign and smiles sadly "Well we need that" she mutters. She walks down the street ignoring the eyes on her as she walks through the street. 'I think I'm going to like it here' she sees the children playing in the streets. She smiles at the sight of a little boy with dark hair sitting watching as the others play. She continues walking then pausing at the sight of a Catholic church she walks in sitting in the middle pew she stares at the large cross at the front of the church. She strokes her distended belly as she feels her child move 'Going to be strong like your Daddy.' she blinks back tears as she hears footsteps stop beside her.
"Hello child"
Buffy looks up to see a man in his fifties standing there "Hello Father"
"May I?" he asks gesturing to the seat beside her
Buffy nods wiping away her tears "Sure"
"What is wrong? You look sad"
"This is a beautiful church" Buffy states
"Yes it is. Are you Catholic?"
Buffy shakes her head "My baby's father was." she looks at the friendly man beside her "My family isn't church going." she admits "Though Angel hadn't been for a while" she adds with a frown
"My name is Father Michael"
Buffy smiles "I'm Anne" she lies
"So Anne are you just walking through or are you staying?"
"I'm thinking of staying." she looks down at her stomach "I'm due in 2 months. If I stay I need to find a job and a place to stay"
Father Michael senses a need to protect the young woman "If you'd like to you could stay here. There is a small guest room in the back."
Buffy looks at him startled "Are you sure?"
He nods "Its up to you."
"Are you sure I wouldn't be imposing?"
"Oh no. That room is rarely used."
"It'll only be a while" Buffy assures
"Stay as long as you want" he stands "Come I'll show you where it is" he helps her stand
"Thank you." Buffy grins "I'm starting to feel like a turtle" she jokes following the priest to the back
Father Michael leads Buffy to the back room "Its small" he tells her opening the door
Buffy enters the room startled to find it similiar to Angel's apartment "Oh its fine."
"Good. Why don't I show you around and introduce you to the staff"
"All right" Buffy nods dropping her bag by the bed. 'I think I'm going to like it here'
Sunnydale: the Library
Giles looks up from his reading as the library doors open "Ahh hello" he greets as Willow and Xander enter "how are you?"
Willow shrugs "Fine" she sits down
"Find anything?" Xander asks hopefully
"No reports of Slaying" Giles sighs closing his book
"Giles its been 5 months. Where could she be?" Willow asks worried
"I'm sure she's fine Willow" Giles assures the redhead
"I hope so" Willow sighs
September: Sunnydale docks
Angel walks off the cargo ship "Home" he sighs looking around.
Hope: Buffy's apartment
"Angel" Buffy cries out as she sits up in bed. She gasps as she feels a sharp pain through her abdomen "Ooohh" she groans "OK" she sighs "What was that?"
10 mins later
"Ooohh" she winces "OK now its official my contractions have started." she reaches for the phone dialing Father Michael's phone number
"Yes?"
"Father Michael"
"Anne what's wrong?" Father Michael asks alert
"My contractions have started"
"OK I'll be there in a few minutes" he says hanging up the phone
Buffy grimaces as another contraction hits "You are really intent on coming now" she says setting the phone down.
Sunnydale: Angel's apartment
Angel enters his apartment frowning at the layer of dust on his furniture. 'Looks like she hasn't been here for a while' he shakes his head in disbelief. 'I'm going to go see if I can find her.'
Hope: the hospital
Buffy lays in the bed fiddling with her ring as she awaits for the nurse. 'Oh Angel your going to miss this'
"Miss Summers" the nurse greets "how are you feeling?"
"Fine" Buffy replies
"Your contractions are getting closer"
"I know" Buffy groans as the pain hits
"Hurt?" the nurse asks
"I've been hurt worse" Buffy replies "its more annoying then painful"
"OK let me know if you need anything"
Sunnydale
Angel frowns as he walks through Sunnydale in search of Buffy.
"Looking for the Slayer?" a familiar British voice asks
Angel turns around to see Spike smirking "What do you want Spike?"
"So I see you made it back" Spike states
Angel shrugs "Your men weren't very good"
"Oh well. I guess I'll have to find new ones" Spike shrugs
"That's nice" Angel turns away "Later Spike"
"If your going to go see the Slayer you won't find her" Spike calls
Angel pauses "What do you mean Spike?"
"You'll see" Spike laugh
Angel launches himself at the younger vampire slamming him against a wall "What do you mean William?" he demands going into 'game-face'
Spike grins "Slayer's been gone for a while"
"What did you do?" Angel demands
"Nothing. She just disappeared. No one knows where she is"
"What?" Angel demands releasing him "Who's the Slayer?"
"Some chick" Spike shrugs. "She appeared not long after the other left"
"If your lying to me Spike I will kill you." Angel growls turning away
"I ain't lyin' Peaches." Spike calls
Hope: the Hospital
"I see your water has broken" the doctor observes
"No really" Buffy says sarcastically as the pain intensifies
The doctor chuckles "It shouldn't be much longer"
"Good." Buffy groans
Sunnydale: the Library
Giles looks up as the library doors open "Angel" he says in surprise
"Rupert what is going on?" Angel demands barely glancing at the others sitting around the table
"Oh my God" Xander stammers "Deadboy's not dead" he says in surprise
"Uh no." Angel says in annoyance "Why would I be?"
Willow walks into the room freezing at the sight of the dark haired vampire "Angel" she stammers "Your alive... uh undead. You know what I mean"
"Uh yeah" Angel replies "What is going on?" he demands
"Angel Buffy disappeared a few months after you did." Giles stammers
"What?"
"We heard you were dusted." Cordelia says
"Then she disappeared" Xander adds
Angel turns walking out of the library silently
Willow shakes her head "Poor Angel"
Hope: The Hospital
"All right one more push Anne" the doctor orders
Buffy braces herself with a deep breath she pushes with a groan. She smiles as she hears
"Its a boy"
"A boy" she grins
Sunnydale: Angel's apartment
Angel enters the apartment silently leaning against the door he slides to the floor allowing tears to fall. "Where are you Buffy?" he whispers
Chapter 3
Hope: the Hospital
Buffy smiles as the nurse hands her the small baby "Hey little man" she greets tearfully "its good to finally hold you"
"So Anne what are you going to call him?" Father Michael asks
Buffy smiles "Liam Angel-- after his father" she looks at the alert baby
"Good choice" he nods
"I know Angel would be happy"
"You miss him"
Buffy nods "Everyday, but now I have a part of him to love." she kisses her son's head "You are a very special little boy" she says lightly stroking his cheek. "You look like your Daddy." she laughs as the baby yawns in response "You've got your Daddy's eyes" she states looking into the unfocused chocolate eyes. "Your going to be able to give Mommy the same puppy dog look your Daddy did." She lifts the small hand kissing it "I love you Liam Angel" she whispers tearfully "your Daddy loves you too"
Hope: Two days later
"Look Liam we're home" Buffy announces carrying in the carseat with the drowsy newborn with Father Michael right behind. "Thank you Father Michael"
Father Michael nods setting her bag down "Do you need anything? Food or something before I leave?"
Buffy sets the car seat down "No thank you" she replies standing on her tiptoes she kisses his cheek "Thank you Father Michael"
"If you need anything call."
"I will" she nods
"Goodbye little Liam" Father Michael says "I'll check in on you later" he closes the door behind him
"Well Liam Angel looks like its just us" Buffy smiles carefully lifting the newborn out of the carseat. "Lets go get you comfortable" Buffy says carrying the baby into the bedroom. After changing his diaper and putting him in a sleeper she changes into her sweats. Picking up the baby "Let's find Mommy something to eat" she says heading into the kitchen
An hour later
Buffy smiles at the sleeping baby in her arms 'Angel he is so perfect. He looks like you' she stands laying the newborn in the basinet beside the bed. She smiles down at the baby "Sleep well" she whispers laying in the bed she falls asleep watching the newborn sleep
Sunnydale: Angel's Apartment
Angel gets off the bed as he hears a knock at his door. He opens the door to find Willow standing there "Hey Willow" he greets moving aside to allow the redhead to enter
"Angel" she greets
"Aren't you supposed to be in school?" Angel asks walking to the kitchen
"Yeah."
Angel leans against the counter "I'm going to find her" he says
"Angel we've tried to, but she doesn't want to be found"
Angel looks at the redhead "I love her Willow. I'm not going to lose her" he runs his fingers through his hair "I have to find her."
Willow nods "We all want to find her Angel."
"I know" he replies
Willow sensing his brooding approach "I better get to school"
"Thanks Willow" Angel responds barely aware of the redheads departure. "Buffy" he sighs sliding to the floor as he cries
Chapter 4
3 months later: January
Hope: Buffy's work
"Anne he is getting so big" a woman states awed at the sight of the baby sitting in the carseat on the counter of the diner
Buffy smiles looking at the woman standing beside her son "I know." she moves over to the counter dropping a kiss on her son's head as she places the order. "And to think he was little three months ago" Buffy laughs
"He must take after his father"
Buffy nods "That he does" she picks up a tray as Liam fusses
"Anne he's getting hungry"
"OK after I take care of this can you take over for me Molly?" she nods at the tray
"Sure" Molly nods
Placing the plates before the people Buffy smiles "Enjoy" she puts the tray on the counter then picks up the fussy baby. She carries Liam into the back room where she finds bottle taking it to the kitchen she heats it up. "OK here you go" she says holding the bottle for the hungry baby she sits in a booth.
"So how are you doing?" Molly asks
"Fine. Liam sleeps through the night most of the time. Some times he wakes up screaming." Buffy smiles at the brown eyes watching her "kinda like his father" she admits
"How?"
"He just acts like his father. He'll sleep one night and the next he won't or he'll wake up."
"You don't talk about his father much" Molly remarks
Buffy shrugs "He had to go away on business... never came back."
"Did he know?" Molly asks nodding at the baby
"No" Buffy shakes her head "I didn't have the chance to tell him"
"I'm sorry, you really loved him"
Buffy nods "Still do"
Sunnydale: Angel's apartment
'It's been a year since that night' Angel realizes sadly 'I miss you Buffy. Happy Birthday'
Hope: Buffy's Apartment
'A year' she sighs looking down at the sleeping baby 'A year since I last saw my Angel. Since we made him.' she thinks as she strokes the baby's cheek. She smiles at the sound of the soft sigh. "Sleep well little man" she whispers
Later
Buffy awakens as she hears Liam cry. "Shh baby" she yawns sitting up she picks him up "its ok" she soothes holding him close "Liam shh" she stands walking the floor "That isn't your hungry or wet cry. Bad dream?" she asks "I know baby. Calm down." she kisses his head "Liam its OK, Mommy's here" She walks the floor until the baby calms down. 'I miss you Angel' she sighs setting the drowsy child in the crib. She smiles sadly 'I'm 18'
Sunnydale: Summers' home
Joyce sits on the couch holding a photo albulm she smiles at the very first picture of Buffy. "Such a beautiful baby." she smiles "Happy birthday Buffy" she sighs looking at the window "where are you?"
9 months later: September 18
"Happy Birthday Liam" Buffy says picking up the baby
"Mama" he laughs reaching out to pat her face
"Good." she laughs kissing him "So Liam Angel what are we going to do today?" Buffy asks as she changes the baby's diaper. "Should we go see Father Michael?" Buffy asks tickling his stomach causing him to laugh. "I take it that's a yes" dressing him she carries him to the living room she sets him on the floor. She smiles as the little boy crawls around the room. "Stay where I can see you" she calls as she moves around making breakfast
"Mama" Liam calls
"What baby?"
"MAMA" Liam calls louder
Buffy sighs putting down the towel she goes into the living room where she finds her son sitting on the floor "Liam what are you doing?" she asks
"Mama" he says his eyes wide with tears
At the look Buffy frowns "What's wrong sweetie?"
Liam holds his arms up "Up"
Buffy picks him up "Hey its OK" she soothes rubbing his back
"Mama" he whimpers burrowing into her arms
"Shh its OK" she says sitting in the rocking chair
Later: the Church
"Happy Birthday Liam" greets the two as they enter
Liam looks around the room his eyes wide at the sight of all the people and the gifts. "Mama?"
Buffy smiles "Happy birthday" she says putting him down she watches as the little boy move around the room with interest
"How's he doing?" Father Michael asks
"He still wakes up screaming. Sometimes he'll start crying for no reason. I'm starting to get worried"
"Have you taken him to the doctor?"
"Yes. They say that there is nothing wrong with him. They think its in my mind. I know something is wrong"
"What do you think it is?" Father Michael asks
Buffy shrugs "I'm not sure. There's one person who can help me." she looks over at her son "But I'm not ready to take him there."
"You need to face your past Anne." he looks at Liam "Especially if it can help him"
"I know" Buffy sighs
"Mama" Liam calls
"Just a second" Buffy replies "Can we talk about this later?"
Father Michael nods
Buffy heads to find her son amongst the others. "Hey you what are you doing?" she demands picking him up
"Mama mine" he points to the stack of gifts
"Yes and what do you say to everyone?" Buffy asks
He furrows his brow in confusion
"We say thank you right?" Buffy says with a grin
"Tank you" he says childishly his voice shy as he hides his face in his mother's neck
Buffy smiles at his act "Why don't you start opening them" Buffy suggests sitting on the floor she pulls him onto her lap.
"Presents" Molly announces bringing the others around.
Father Michael watches the small blond converse with her son. 'She adores that boy'
That night
"So did you have a good day Liam Angel?" Buffy asks the drowsy child
"Yes Mama" he yawns
Buffy smiles carrying him into the bedroom she sets him on the changing table "You remind me of your father." she says "You're Daddy loves you as much as I do"
"Dada?"
"Oh yes." Buffy nods "you look just like him." she states "I wish he was here" she sighs blinking back her tears shaking her head as she dresses him in his sleeper.
"Mama?"
Buffy smiles picking him up "Lets get your bottle" she carries him into the kitchen heating up his bottle she sits down in the rocking chair. "you look just like him. You have his hair. His eyes." she picks up the small hand "you have his hands too, the mini version though" she laughs "you are a mini version of your Daddy that's for sure" she watches the dozing baby "Happy Birthday Liam Angel Summers" she whispers kissing his forehead
After midnight
"MAMA"
Hearing that Buffy quickly gets out of bed. Going to the crib she finds her son crying. "Oh Liam sweetie did you have another dream?" she asks softly as she picks him up "Its OK baby" she soothes. As she walks the room she talks to him. "Oh baby I wish you could tell me about your dreams." she whispers resting her cheek against his head.
Sunnydale: The Cemetary
"Hey Deadboy"
"Harris don't call me that" Angel snaps glaring at the teen in annoyance "What are you doing out here anyway?" he demands "You guys haven't patrolled in a while"
Xander shrugs "I got bored. So I thought who haven't I annoyed lately..." he grins "And it hit me I haven't bugged Deadboy for a while"
"Stop calling me that" Angel growls
"OK OK" Xander surrenders
"Why are you really out here?" Angel asks
"Willow made me" he grumbles "she said if I didn't check up on you she'd do something really bad."
Angel fights to hide a grin "What did she threaten?"
"Tell Cordy about something I did when we were kids."
"What?"
"Like I'd tell you"
"Fine don't" Angel shrugs walking away knowing Xander is near. "So how is Willow? I haven't seen her in awhile"
Xander shrugs "I wouldn't know. I rarely hear from her."
"College does that to people"
"How would you know? You didn't go"
Angel rolls his eyes "Xander I'm over 240 years old. You learn things" he shrugs
"Can I ask you something?"
"Depends on what you ask" Angel replies
"How is it you know all this history stuff?"
"I lived through it"
"No I'm talking about the stuff before you were even born. The Watcher stuff."
Angel shrugs "I just learned from others. After all I have had a lot of free time on my hands the past 150 years"
"Good point" Xander agrees
"Anything else?" Angel asks
"Not now"
"Then duck" Angel orders
Hope: Buffy's apartment- Next Morning
"Morning Liam" Buffy greets picking up the infant "So today means you've been a year old for 1 day. How does it feel?"
"Mama" he sighs cuddling close
"What's wrong?" Buffy asks stroking his back "You still tired?" she feels him shake his head in response "Sweetie you not in the mood to talk?"
"No" he mumbles
"Then lets go have breakfast" Buffy says carrying him out to the kitchen she sets him in the highchair "How about some applesauce" she takes out the jar of baby food "Mmm look baby" she says pulling up a chair she holds up the spoon "here you go"
Liam shakes his head
"Yes. You like applesauce" she reminds trying again
"NO" he says pushing it away
"Then how about cereal?" she asks again getting a negative response "Then what? You need to eat something"
"Mama" he sniffles holding his arms out
"What is wrong?" she asks picking him up
"Mama" he sighs
Chapter 5
Month later: The Church
"What is wrong?" Father Michael asks
"I've decided to head back to Sunnydale." Buffy announces watching as her son plays
"Are you sure?"
Buffy nods "I have to. He's in danger."
"What do you mean?"
"Father Michael there is something I never told you"
"You don't have to" he protests
"I want to. You've done so much for us." she turns her attention to the man sitting across from her "Do you believe in hell?"
"Yes"
"Not the hell just under our feet but the hell that is on earth."
"I don't understand"
"Do you believe in demons and vampires?"
"I suppose its possible they exist." he answers
"They do. I've been fighting them since I was 15. I'm a Slayer."
"A Slayer?"
"A girl born to fight dark. The evils."
"And you have?"
Buffy nods "I've fought so many. Some evils are evil some just look like they are. Some demons are kind others are evil."
"Why are you telling me this?"
"There is... was a vampire named Angel."
"Angel?" he looks at the baby
"His father was a vampire." she nods "I loved him" she looks at the ring on her finger "And he loved me. He may have been a vampire but he was good. He had a soul. He was my life." she looks at her son "Now he is"
"How is it he had a soul?"
"150 years ago Angel killed someone he shouldn't have. A gypsy. The family cursed him with a soul. He spent all this time making up for his sins. The only person who can help me find out what is wrong with Liam and that is my Watcher." she stands picking up the little boy "I'm going to have to return... even though I am not ready" she smiles sadly "Besides it'll be good to see them"
"When are you leaving?"
"As soon as I can get everything settled here"
Week later
"Are you sure about this?" Father Michael asks as Buffy settles Liam in his carseat
"I am. I want my son back to normal and Giles is the only one who can help" she straightens up "Thank you for everything"
"If you need anything Anne just call"
Buffy smiles "I will" she goes around to the drivers side opening the door "And Father Michael"
"Yes"
"Call me Buffy"
"I will... Buffy"
"Thank you" Buffy grins
"God bless you child"
"Bye" Buffy says starting the car