Ok…. This is my first digimon fic… it's a pretty sad fic so beware (but please read it anyway.. ^_^;;;;;;;; thanx)
A/N: Hello?? Do you really think I own digimon?? I wouldn't be wasting my time here if I did… I'd be drawing lotsa piccies of Ken…. *gets in dream mode* ahhhh…. Ken…. *snaps out of it* eh heh… sorry… here's the story! Oh ya, Its in Sora's POV. PLEASE R&R!!
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I let him hold me, he put his arms around my waist in affection. He cherished every minute he was with me. His eyes lit up when he saw my face and he tended to me when I was sad. He called me on the phone nearly every night, talking about what we'd do together the next day and I agreed. But the worst thing I did to him is let him love me. I didn't push away when he hugged me, I didn't object when he asked to go out again, I just played along. I thought that in my heart I might really love him, I just didn't know it yet. Afraid that if I let him go, I'll realize I lost my only love and I could never get him back. Yet in my heart, I already knew I didn't love him and I never would. I loved somebody else and didn't realize it until I saw the hurt look in his eyes. How could I hurt him so? Did he know that it wasn't intentional? I've prayed so many nights that he understands me, yet I never took the initiative to tell him how I felt. Never once did I say I loved him and only him, and never once did I say no to the one who I let love me... Yamato. Taichi, please forgive me! My mind is a mess; I just don't know what to do...
I hope that you can hear me as you sit on your cloud in heaven, watching over me, for I know it is I who you would choose to watch. I didn't mean for this to happen. I wish that I could start over... start over with you.
When I heard that earth-shattering cry of the bullet, I knew it was you who had departed. And as I ran down the street to your house, calling your name so loudly that it would wake up those in deep slumber, I knew I loved you and would never get the chance to see you living again. The hard reality of it all hit me as I collapsed on the street, tears flooding my eyes and streaming down my face. But I knew I had to continue. I had to see you one last time, even if you were lifeless. I just had to see you one last time.
Those five minutes of running to your house were the longest five minutes of my life. My heart was pounding so hard I thought it might leap out of my body. Finally, I reached your doorstep, but I was shaking so frantically that I struggled to open the door. I was almost afraid of opening it... afraid of what I'd find, but I had to. So finally, it swung open. As I entered, I noticed how empty and cold it was. The shadows that engulfed the room, also engulfed my heart and soul. Frantically, I checked ever room and found you on the floor of your own. A gun thrown from one hand, a picture of me grasped in your other hand. Blood painted your hair and leaked onto the floor into a puddle. I reached over to a paper, half drenched in your blood. My vision became blurry from my salty tears and I struggled to read the short but meaningful note:
Sora,
I love you and always will. But I know you love somebody else. See
you in heaven. Please forgive me.
Love,
Taichi
I leaned over and kissed you gently on the lips. You were already turning cold. I reached over and grabbed the gun. So now I sit here, cradling the gun you used, contemplating whether I should pull the trigger or not...
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So how did ya like it?? I told you it was sad, didn't I? Well, all I gotta say now is… PLEASE R&R!!! not too many flames tho… pleeze thanx