I'll Stand By You

Disclaimer: The evil Joss-Beast has ownership I just steal them away and try to make it better if only for a little while.

Spoilers: Yes anything up to the episode where Angel goes to the home office and Holland gives his little "all humans are inherently evil" speech but he doesn't go to Darla instead he comes to Buffy. 

Dedication: To anyone who is a slave to their passion

Feedback: You know I gotta have it. Easy with the flames though…they burn.

Author's note: I can't remember exactly what was happening in Buffy just before Angel had his "Epiphany" as in I can't remember if Riley was still around or not but for the sake of this story he is still there. Also the lyrics are I'll Stand By You by the Pretenders.

I'll Stand By You

By Angel's girl

Buffy was hanging with the rest of the gang at the Bronze. It had been a slow week and Buffy figured she owed it to herself and her friends to have a little down time. So she gathered up Xander and Anya, Willow and Tara and she had told Giles to go home and read something strictly for the pleasure of reading it.

The group sat around a small corner table and sipped on lattes and cappuccinos laughing and making small talk while the club pulsed with life around them. They chatted about everything normal like school and work although not slayage type work because Buffy had made it pointedly clear that tonight was so not about vampires or slaying.

Riley had slipped into the club and had found the quintet easily and sidled up next to Buffy. He tried to ignore how she stiffened beside him. He tried to give her a kiss on the mouth but she turned her head and he found himself having to settle for her cheek.

Things had been undeniably tense between them lately as more of his insecurities about Angel had surfaced and Buffy was tired of the same conversations that they inevitably had. So he was hardly surprised when she stood up with an exasperated sigh and held her hand out towards Xander.

"Xan come dance with me."

Xander leaned over and gave Anya a kiss on the cheek before standing and reaching out to take Buffy's waiting hand, shrugging his shoulders in an 'I'm sorry man' type gesture to Riley. Riley couldn't help but stare dejectedly as Buffy lead Xander to a spot lit section of the dance floor and they began to move.

It was an upbeat tune; strange disease by prozak, and Xander was being his Xander-self and trying to make Buffy smile. Which he did because Buffy was laughing at Xander's dance moves as she tried to match them. Although Buffy feigned having a good time Xander knew better.

"What's wrong Buffy?"

"This was supposed to be our night, just the Scooby's and now he is going to ruin it with his Angel complex."

"Why don't you give him a break Buff? Angel is a hard one to follow."

"Xander I'm tired of the fights we have. I have enough things in my life that I have to fight. He doesn't need to be one of them."

The music was now changing to one that was slower, a couple kind of dance and Buffy saw Riley get out of his seat and begin to walk towards the dance floor, moving in her direction. In an instant Buffy grabbed Xander, who was making his way back to the table, and pulled him back onto the floor and into her arms. To make her point she held him close and once again Xander found himself giving the 'I'm sorry' look to Riley over Buffy's shoulder.

Rejected and heart in hand Riley made his way to the bar and ordered a drink. He stayed over there perched on a stool watching Buffy as he contemplated whether or not he should just leave. He tried to make eye contact with Buffy but she turned away, instead burying her head in the crook of Xander's neck. He downed his drink and was about to make tracks to the door when something across the room caught his eye making him stay but edge into the shadows as not to be seen but where he could definitely watch.

The song had ended and Buffy turned with Xander towards the table where their friends sat when Buffy stopped. She felt the hairs on the back of her neck stand up and a twisting in her belly.

"Shit! Can't have one bloody night…" Buffy started under her breath as she turned in the direction of the feeling but her words were cut short when she saw who the vampire was.

"Angel?"

Stumbling in across the dance floor was Angel. He wasn't moving with his usual grace or stealth and Buffy knew in a heartbeat that this wasn't a social call. No something was wrong here, very wrong.

He was hunched over and looked as if he had been in the fight of his life. He looked broken and defeated and he seemed as if he almost couldn't bear his own weight.

With out a second's hesitation Buffy moved towards Angel almost running to his side. He looked up at her with tear-laden eyes and near collapsed into Buffy's embrace. He clung to her in desperation, grabbing onto her shirt as if his life depended on it, as if he was drowning, being sucked into the dark abyss of hell and only she could keep him afloat.

She wanted to move him off to the side but he wouldn't budge and his weight was more than she could handle if she had to move him without co-operation so they stood there in the middle of the dance floor in the Bronze both having forgotten that they weren't alone. Angel not caring and Buffy worried about him.

Buffy wrapped her arms around Angel and tried to assess if he was injured.

"Angel? Baby? What's wrong?" She asked not caring that her boyfriend was still lurking around somewhere and could potentially hear her.

She got no response.

"Angel are you hurt?"

Again no response, so Buffy pulled back from him and looked him in the face. It broke her heart to see such infinite sadness in that beautiful face of his, and it scared the hell out of her too.

"Angel talk to me." Buffy pleaded.

Oh

Why you look so sad?

Tears are in your eyes

Come on and come to me now

Don't

Be ashamed to cry

Let me see you through

Cause I've seen the dark side too

When the night falls on you

You don't know what to do

Nothing you confess

Could make me love you less

I'll stand by you

I'll stand by you

Won't let nobody hurt you

I'll stand by you

Buffy shifted Angel in her arms and tried to calm the tremors that now wracked his body. Something big had happened and she wasn't going to let him go until she knew what it was and if she could, fix it. She tried hard not to give into the tears that burned behind her eyes now.

She let her body sway with the music and was relieved when Angel swayed with her although he refused to let up on his iron grip. His face was buried in her neck and she could feel his tears that he was trying desperately not to give in to slip down her neck. She rubbed his back with one hand and ran her fingers along the side of his face and into his hair with the other, all the while whispering softly, soothingly into his ear.

Buffy managed to get her friends attention and they immediately came to her aid.

"Help me get him outside."

The gang only hesitated long enough to figure out how to help Buffy maneuver Angel who still wouldn't let go of Buffy, out of the club and away from the public eye because in the state Angel was in no one could tell what might happen.

They helped Buffy walk him towards her mother's house but once they were a few blocks away from the crowd of the Bronze suddenly Angel pushed them away. He looked around at the group of faces that surrounded him and he took a swing at Xander. Buffy caught his fist mid-air with one hand and used the other to wave her friends back.

"You wanna hit something Angel then hit me."

So, if your mad get mad

Don't hold it all inside

Come on and talk to me now

Hey, what you got to hide?

I get angry too

Well I'm a lot like you

When you're standing at the crossroads

Let me come along

Cause even if you're wrong

I'll stand by you

I'll stand by you

Won't let nobody hurt you

I'll stand by you

Angel had a feral look in his eye as he eyed Buffy and he hesitated only a second before he lunged at her. Buffy deflected him easily and managed to keep his focus on her and away from her friends while this little outburst phased out. That is until Riley came up from behind him. He had seen Angel attack Buffy and he decided to step in. He'd had enough of Angel interfering with Buffy, whatever the reason.

"You get the hell away from her," He snarled as he lept onto Angel's back.

"Riley, NO!"

Buffy screamed as Angel reached up behind him and pulled the commando off of his back with the most vicious growl Buffy had ever heard from Angel and watched helplessly as he threw him unceremoniously to the ground. Riley was a little shaken as he tried to get to his feet and Angel wasted no time in back handing the soldier boy. He made to give chase but Buffy planted herself squarely in his way.

"Get Riley out of here." She demanded, never taking her eyes away from Angel's.

"Okay lover you wanna play rough, let's play rough."

Buffy knew she was only a couple of blocks away from home as she goaded Angel into following her in that direction.

Before she knew it Buffy and Angel were now standing on Buffy's front lawn. Both were a little worse for wear and bloody to boot but Buffy was about to bring this tantrum to an end.

"Come and get it big boy," Buffy taunted and Angel growled, game face on, and lunged at Buffy with a right hook. Buffy ducked and shot her leg out having her foot effectively connect with Angel's chest. She continued with a volley of punches and kicks and verbal slaps…

"Is this what you want Angel? You want to kill me or do you want me to kill you huh?"

…until Angel finally collapsed on her front lawn broken, bleeding and weeping.

Buffy eased out of her fighting stance and walked over to his slumped form concerned but wary. When she was certain he wasn't going to lunge at her again she gathered him up into her arms and headed him into her house.

"Come on Angel work with me here. I may be the Slayer but that doesn't mean I want to drag your lead butt up my stairs."

Angel complied, barely and Buffy, having pulled back the bedcovers first, finally was able to dump him down on her bed. She gingerly began to undress him, down to his boxers, and draped his clothing over the chair that sat in the corner of her room. She looked him over for signs of injuries and was happy to note that the only marks on him were those he would have gotten in his temper tantrum with her moments earlier.

Buffy then slipped out of her clothes and pulled on the t-shirt of his that she always slept in and pulled the drapes tightly. Angel was lying curled up in the fetal position on her mattress and his eyes had welled up again. She then climbed into the bed beside him.

"Angel baby, I don't know what's happened but I'm here for you. I…I love you. I wish you would talk to me, tell me what's happened."

She settled into the bed lying turned slightly towards him and she reached out her hand to him. She tenderly stroked his face, talking softly in the soothing tone of a lover.

"Angel talk to me, what's ha-p-pened t-to yo-ou?" She asked as tears filled her voice.

Angel then turned into her and pillowed his head in the crook of her neck and snaked his arm around her as Buffy wrapped her arms around him and draped a leg over his hip and held him tightly as he gave into his emotions and cried. Buffy held Angel tightly as his body shook with the force of his tears.

Buffy tightened her grip on him and was kissing the side of his head until Angel shifted and brought himself face to face with Buffy. He looked into her eyes for a moment before Buffy placed a hand on either side of his face and brought his mouth to hers.

Buffy ran her tongue along Angel's lips until he opened his mouth to grant her access and then she slipped her tongue in and massaged his. She wrapped her arms around his neck as the kiss deepened and she arched against him as her body responded to a touch long denied.

She had only meant to try and get a response from him, to find out what happened and now Angel hungrily ran his hands along the length of Buffy's body brining his hands up beneath the shirt that she wore. He tucked his hand between them and reveled in her heat that warmed him. (I want to feel something besides the cold) He cupped her breast in his hand and began to massage it as he felt her writhe beneath him.

Buffy again arched against him and this time she could feel his arousal pressed against her thigh. Angel shifted back from Buffy and divested her of her shirt and panties while at the same time removing his own and then he dove back down into her loving embrace, settling himself between her milky thighs. He slipped a hand down to the juncture of her thighs and dipped his fingers into her core to find, as he knew she would be, ready for him.

He brought his dripping fingers to his mouth, greedily sucking Buffy's juices. He then pressed himself to her slick opening and looked into her eyes. Her eyes were closed as she was lost in the feeling of his touch and he slipped himself inside her fiery core with one fluid stroke feeling her walls stretch around his girth. They both shuddered at the feeling both reeling at the familiarity and newness of the feeling.

Angel started up a rhythm and Buffy meet him stroke for stroke. Within moments their coupling became frantic as Angel increased his momentum and lay himself down on Buffy. He captured her mouth in a crushing kiss as they pounded their way to release. Buffy didn't notice the death grip Angel had on her arm as the intensity of the coupling became almost frightening.

 Angel could tell from the moans Buffy elicited from her perfect mouth that her orgasm was building and just as she reached the peak she turned her head and offered her neck to him. Instantly Angel bared his fangs and sunk them into that creamy smooth column of flesh.

As her essence flowed into him, Angel's body contracted and his essence shot into her as she cascaded over her peak into wave after wave of orgasmic release. Angel then retracted his fangs and laved the tear in her neck gently as he melted into the mattress beside her allowing sleep to overtake his weary body knowing he was safe in the arms of his hearts only love.

Buffy reached down and pulled the blanket up over them as Angel held her close, his face still buried in her neck and she stroked his face until she was certain that he was asleep and only then did she allow herself to relax and join him in her slumber. The reality of the situation still not able to permeate her concern for the vampire she cradled in her arms.

And when… When the night falls on you baby

You're feeling all alone

You won't be on your own

I'll stand by you

I'll stand by you

Won't let anyone hurt you

I'll stand by you

Take me in, into your darkest hour

And I'll never desert you

I'll stand by you

I'll stand by you

Won't let nobody hurt you

I'll stand by you

To be continued…only if you crave more. Oh and if you are one of those who is wondering what about Angel's curse? Angel's in a bad place here. It's not about perfect happiness. The Angel episode I drew from had Angel sleeping with Darla and he remained ensouled. Same thing here only different blonde.