Void of Emptiness
Daidoujii Tomoyo
Shikami
"Dreams... show what Fate has decided for all... They bare destiny to mortal souls... and the divine Ones..." Shikami-Cardcaptor Aku
June 23, 2001
Saturday
This is also Shikami. This is just a sad poem on Tomoyo, with some quotes I might use or have used or have seen in other fics. Enjoy. I seem to like writing dark Tomoyo fics, don't I?
P.S. This was written in a half-happy, half-depressed mood. I didn't get to see the new episode on KidsWB. Would someone be kind enough to either email me a summary or write in a review? I'd be eternally grateful. Arigotou from the bottom of my heart to whoever is nice enough to do that.
Void of Emptiness
I look behind me
The sorrow still there
Will one day you hold me
Like I was your only one
In my dreams, that's what you do
But in real life, it's not my place
You have a lover, amber-eyed and swift
He holds you gently, and you love him back
I'm just a lonely, misshapen girl
But I know, that I love you
We seem to walk, along different paths
But I know, you are the One
You act like nothing, will ever come between us
But you're too late, it already has
Power of the stars, you shine so brightly
Oh flower, you are my only star
Shine brightly, from the bottom of your heart
No power can heal me, from my broken heart
The spell is woven, it's your cute little charm
What keeps me, from loving you now
I guess it's just, that I could take advantage of you...
Oh my flower, your brightness surrounds me
Oh Sakura, I wanna hold you tight
Why can't I, be your only, love...?
I feel so empty, not together anymore
Me, I'm meant to be, the generation of togetherness
Well, I can see, that's no task for me
My name means, what I really should do
I can't even keep myself together, anymore...
You see me as, a crazy obsessive girl
But if you knew, you'd love for pity
I want you, to love me truly
Oh, Sakura, I want you so badly
You are a blessing, to my lonely life
You make me happy, yet keep me wandring long my lonely path
Who am I, what is... Daidoujii Tomoyo
I am no balancer, that is true, yet I must be
Here for some reason, there must be a reason, for my lonely life
Life, another thing I don't deserve
I wish the immortal Death goddess would come for me now...
Daidoujii Tomoyo lies in her bed, too frail to move. Sakura had married Syaoran many years ago and lived happily on an island in China. Tomoyo was 28 now, on the verge of death. All her friends were there, except Sakura. Sakura who had vowed to be by Tomoyo's side at death had failed her. Eriol stood gently next to Tomoyo's bed, deeply concerned. "Eriol-kun." she smiles weakly, no longer with a vibrant and happy mask. She had gotten close to Eriol, but even he was no compensation for the one she still purely loved, Sakura. The same Sakura who had said to Syaoran: "Now we'll be together forever!" Sakura had kept that vow, living happily with her husband on Mei-Xing island. Beautiful Star. Syaoran had chosen it because it "fits my Ying Fa perfectly".
How Tomoyo still wanted to be the one Sakura was clinging to now, taking care of her daughter: Seikami. Star god. Sakura was a married lady now, a mother to her children; Seikami and Ryuuran. Dragon's jeweled wolf. The pet of the Li head family. Yes, Sakura was now Li Clan mistress, as Syaoran was Li Clan master. They were living happily with their children, not knowing of Tomoyo's death. She had visited them once, but only once because it was too painful for her now that they were married. Ryuuran was a brat, like Syaoran had been. Tomoyo sighed wistfully and smiled for the last time. "Aishiteruu... Sakura-chan..." With that, Daidoujii Tomoyo closed her eyes forever. The Death goddess came for her soul. Ryuuran was nasty and full of himself and conceited, or at least that's what Tomoyo had thought. Sakura and Syaoran idolized him and Seikami. Ryuuran was going to follow in his father's footsteps, down to every detail...
Owari
End
::dabs tissue to eyes:: Wasn't that soo sad. You'll hear more about Ryuuran and Seikami in a later fic. Tomoyo sure is a depressing person, ne? like the song/poem? I thought it fitted Tomoyo. Hey Tomoyo fans, anyone think Tomoyo dies too much in my fics? I luv writing sad Tomoyo stories. She almost always dies in them though:-P. U.U Ja ne!
Daidoujii Tomoyo
Shikami
"Dreams... show what Fate has decided for all... They bare destiny to mortal souls... and the divine Ones..." Shikami-Cardcaptor Aku
June 23, 2001
Saturday
This is also Shikami. This is just a sad poem on Tomoyo, with some quotes I might use or have used or have seen in other fics. Enjoy. I seem to like writing dark Tomoyo fics, don't I?
P.S. This was written in a half-happy, half-depressed mood. I didn't get to see the new episode on KidsWB. Would someone be kind enough to either email me a summary or write in a review? I'd be eternally grateful. Arigotou from the bottom of my heart to whoever is nice enough to do that.
Void of Emptiness
I look behind me
The sorrow still there
Will one day you hold me
Like I was your only one
In my dreams, that's what you do
But in real life, it's not my place
You have a lover, amber-eyed and swift
He holds you gently, and you love him back
I'm just a lonely, misshapen girl
But I know, that I love you
We seem to walk, along different paths
But I know, you are the One
You act like nothing, will ever come between us
But you're too late, it already has
Power of the stars, you shine so brightly
Oh flower, you are my only star
Shine brightly, from the bottom of your heart
No power can heal me, from my broken heart
The spell is woven, it's your cute little charm
What keeps me, from loving you now
I guess it's just, that I could take advantage of you...
Oh my flower, your brightness surrounds me
Oh Sakura, I wanna hold you tight
Why can't I, be your only, love...?
I feel so empty, not together anymore
Me, I'm meant to be, the generation of togetherness
Well, I can see, that's no task for me
My name means, what I really should do
I can't even keep myself together, anymore...
You see me as, a crazy obsessive girl
But if you knew, you'd love for pity
I want you, to love me truly
Oh, Sakura, I want you so badly
You are a blessing, to my lonely life
You make me happy, yet keep me wandring long my lonely path
Who am I, what is... Daidoujii Tomoyo
I am no balancer, that is true, yet I must be
Here for some reason, there must be a reason, for my lonely life
Life, another thing I don't deserve
I wish the immortal Death goddess would come for me now...
Daidoujii Tomoyo lies in her bed, too frail to move. Sakura had married Syaoran many years ago and lived happily on an island in China. Tomoyo was 28 now, on the verge of death. All her friends were there, except Sakura. Sakura who had vowed to be by Tomoyo's side at death had failed her. Eriol stood gently next to Tomoyo's bed, deeply concerned. "Eriol-kun." she smiles weakly, no longer with a vibrant and happy mask. She had gotten close to Eriol, but even he was no compensation for the one she still purely loved, Sakura. The same Sakura who had said to Syaoran: "Now we'll be together forever!" Sakura had kept that vow, living happily with her husband on Mei-Xing island. Beautiful Star. Syaoran had chosen it because it "fits my Ying Fa perfectly".
How Tomoyo still wanted to be the one Sakura was clinging to now, taking care of her daughter: Seikami. Star god. Sakura was a married lady now, a mother to her children; Seikami and Ryuuran. Dragon's jeweled wolf. The pet of the Li head family. Yes, Sakura was now Li Clan mistress, as Syaoran was Li Clan master. They were living happily with their children, not knowing of Tomoyo's death. She had visited them once, but only once because it was too painful for her now that they were married. Ryuuran was a brat, like Syaoran had been. Tomoyo sighed wistfully and smiled for the last time. "Aishiteruu... Sakura-chan..." With that, Daidoujii Tomoyo closed her eyes forever. The Death goddess came for her soul. Ryuuran was nasty and full of himself and conceited, or at least that's what Tomoyo had thought. Sakura and Syaoran idolized him and Seikami. Ryuuran was going to follow in his father's footsteps, down to every detail...
Owari
End
::dabs tissue to eyes:: Wasn't that soo sad. You'll hear more about Ryuuran and Seikami in a later fic. Tomoyo sure is a depressing person, ne? like the song/poem? I thought it fitted Tomoyo. Hey Tomoyo fans, anyone think Tomoyo dies too much in my fics? I luv writing sad Tomoyo stories. She almost always dies in them though:-P. U.U Ja ne!