Broken Adonis
Part 3 / Inse-Cure-ities
Summary: Poison...Potent whether a mindset or a venom, is always a dangerous thing.
In an emotional journey, Ken and Yolei are about to find out that insecurities and pain can take away the very world around you...
Wow! I love this one! It's the Kenlei for Kat-chan!
Mistress Kenlei's is next!
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'Stop iiiiiittttt!!'
The light was losing! It was fading! Gone!
He struggled to move himself, to free himself...But he couldn't move!
'Stop it now! Just leave me alone!'
The darkness, smeared itself over him, lengthening the shadows in his mind, absorbing the light.
'No!!!'
For a mere second, the darkness receded and he caught a glimpse of lavender hair-
-Yolei-
and emerald grass, covered in liquid ebony.
Then it went black again.
But she had been there...She was the voice that told him of beautiful scenes and might-be future's
The light that gleamed through the dark, and the warmth in the cold.
-Yolei-
He felt the haze lift, a little more before a blanket of midnight encloaked him in the burning agony once again.
Yolei tore at his fist's as they wrenched at his own throat, she shook him, trying to wake the boy, as he clawed frantically at his face, drawing blood.
"Ken! Stop it! Stop it now!"
He let out a wail, a low, keening sob that drew across her skin like a slap. The moaning scream brought the others into action after their frozen shock, and Tk, Davis and Cody restrained the flailing boy as he cried, kicking.
Kari rushed to a pack, retrieving a length of nylon cord and handing it to Yolei who tearfully tied his limbs.
He wrenched at the bondage, trying to disengage it, but it would not relent.
The boys held him onto the ground, placing hands upon his face as he tossed it.
"We have to stop him!"
"We don't know how!"
Yolei shoved herself to her knees, stumbling a ways away where she fell again, gagging.
Kari quickly jumped up, racing to her, and Ken began to still.
"Yolei! Are you sick!"
The lavender haired girl shook her head no, but could not speak.
The brunette knelt beside her, rubbing her back, and pulling back her hair in case she vomited.
Ken began to thrash with renewed anxiety at the mention of her name, choking and screaming her name.
She wept harder, unable to catch her breath as she listened to him screeching her name, terrified.
Yolei rose up, swiping at her tears as she went back to him.
Cody leapt from his place holding down Ken's foot, stepping in front of her.
"Don't Yolei! You have to rest! You won't be of any help to him if you get sick to!"
The implications set in, and Yolei weakly braced her shoulders, squaring her jaw.
"I won't be any help to him by standing here well he's terrified either."
She brushed by, falling to her knees, and his thrashing calmed to the keening sobs and twitches.
With tired gentleness born of love and fear, she embraced his weak body, and tried to forget the world and the horror of the situation.
"Ken..." She cried softly "Don't leave us! We haven't even had the chance to really talk...And theirs do much I'd like to say..."
Kari turned to Davis and Tk, who held her as she wept.
The other little digimon held back, afraid, well Wormon looked on in misery.
"Ken-chan, you have to make it....You're my best friend."
Flamdramon and Halsemon returned that night.
Carrying a bundle of electric blue petals and stems, they landed back at camp with much tired celebration.
They explained that they had found the plant beside a riverbank, where a friendly terriermon said it would be, and they returned as fast as possible.
After three days.
Yolei cried out to the dedigivolved Hawkmon, and they embraced happily.
She cried, burying her face in his feathers before turning back to Ken.
Wormon stared up at her, his crystal eyes wide and heartbroken.
"Will Ken be okay now, Yolei?"
She sniffed, plucking the little guy off the ground and into her arms.
"I don't know, Wormon...But we'll stay with him, if he comes out of it...Or not..."
It was two more days of hellish screams and hopeless sobs, forced elixers and poultrices, before Ken woke up. He blinked sporadically, and the glaze diminished.
With a groaning whimper, he slowly roused himself from the pits of Hades.
"W-Wormo-on?" He croaked dryly, and the green Digimon jumped of the sleeping Yolei's stomach in eager haste to his friend.
"Ken! Ken is that you??"
The blue haired boy winced, flopping back down and raising a shaky hand to his head.
"Of c-course it is, Wo-ormon…"
Joyously, the bug ran and got Ken some water, helping the weak boy get it from point A to point B.
"Ken...Do you remember what happened to you?"
Fear crept across Ken's face and he touched his eyelids, his hands then falling limply to his chest.
"Y-yes...and no."
Torn images of sinking, murky darkness and pearly light....Broken memories and shards of pain filtered through his psyche like splintered diamonds.
And through it all...A voice..
Soft and comforting...Exciting and breathtaking in it's beauty.
"W-Wormon...? Did somebody...Talk to me?"
Another memory carved through the murky fog of forgetfulness.
"What happened to Yolei! Is she hurt! Is she ok!"
"Look Ken...Yolei is asleep right beside you!"
The indigo head snapped to the left, where Yolei lay curled. Head pillowed on her palm, tears drying upon her face.
"She stayed with you more then even I did Ken...When you went through your...Fits...She was the only one who could calm you...Not even I could help."
Wormon sadly watched the sleeping girl. A friend now to him as well.
"She was frantic...She cried so much..."
Ken sighed, wearily. Relief and guilt plaguing him even as his eyes drifted shut.
He was so tired...But the blackness beyond sleep...Would it return?
He opened his scratchy periwinkle eyes to the starry sky above, then searched for Wormon who crept into his arms.
"I-If I don't wake up Wormon, because of the poison or a coma or whatever...Don't be afraid for me...Tell each of them what they meant to me...If I don't wake up."
Exhausted he slid back into slumber. This time prepared.
'Don't be afraid Wormon...My fear is enough for the both of us.'
Yolei stretched painfully, easing the ache and pang in her joints as she blearily replaced her glasses.
She wiped her sandpaper gaze, nudging over to Ken where Davis and Tk sat.
With a yawn, she joined them.
"Any change, boys?"
They smiled at her, and hope flamed brightly in her chest.
"Yolei! Ken's eyes are shut! And he's not twitching! I think he's gonna wake up soon!"
Eagerly, Davis babbled on to himself, well Tk rolled his azure eyes and smiled at her.
"I hope he wakes up. It will be so good to have him back!"
Yolei looked at the now peacefully sleeping Digidestined, Wormon cradled in his arms.
"We don't have to tell him...Everything, do we?"
Davis stopped mid blabber, spinning his face to her own.
"Are you kidding? Of course we will! Ken has the right to know what went on! Besides that, I'd like to know what was going on in his own head at some points!"
The blonde blushed, looking away, and the girl raged.
"Why would Ken want to know everything! He obviously wasn't himself!"
Her yell roused the boy, who blinked in an effort to clear his eyes.
"Davis...Yolei...Tk...Yolei..."
Davis crossed his arms. "You said that!" Then laughed, giving his best human friend a quick hug.
"Man! We thought we'd lost ya there for a while! This is sooo cool!"
Ken smiled weakly, comprehension in his face.
"Yes well..." He thought back to the searing pain in his body and winced. "Cool isn't the way I'd describe this."
Next, Tk shook Ken's limp hand, patting him gently on the back.
"Geez Ken you sure gave us a scare! Nobody knew....Well...That's not important now. I'm just so glad you're gonna be ok!"
Davis nudged Tk, giving him a none to subtle hint.
The blonde looked at Ken, who was looking half fearful at Yolei, who was looking at the ground.
"We'll just...Go now and find the other two!"
They darted off into the trees, leaving ex-Kaiser and Digidestined alone.
They said nothing. The martyr and the shadow at odds with the world, and hidden beyond mountains of shame.
Lost within the embroiling thoughts of what to say and how to say it, Yolei didn't notice Ken shakily sit up and move beside her before he was right there.
Instinct almost prevailed as she lifted her arms to gather her to him, before realizing that was over and he was better now.
Crimson, she let her arms fall to her sides.
There was an almost perverse sense of loss that her days of holding him close were finished. Sudden tears brightened her sunny gaze, and Ken nervously put a hand on her arms.
"Don't cry Yolei. I'm going to be better now..."
They sat in silence, roles reversed, as Yolei wept uncontrollably, a mix of bitter laughter and pain mixed with relief.
"I un-underst-stand that K-Ken!"
He looked at his fingers as they shakily snuck around her shoulders.
"You don't have to say anything...But I'd to know...Why did you run off like that? You could have gotten hurt!"
Bitterly, she flung off his arm, stumbling to her feet.
"Yes! I could have! But you took that hit for me and now you act like nothing happened!"
She furiously brushed at the oncoming tears. Looking hurt and angry and beautiful.
He was remembering her light as he watched her...The light that saved him.
Ken knew now that she wasn't the shadow...She was so much more...
"You almost 'died' for me Ken! And I don't even know why! You could have let Halsemon take care of it! Or...Or..."
Ken sighed, looking up at her from beneath dull navy hair.
"Yolei...You know that there was no time to digivolve...It was all or nothing."
Biting her lip, the girl winced.
"Then it should have been nothing!"
At Ken's now angry protestations, Yolei looked ashamed.
"I know I should be thanking you Ken...But when I saw you there...And there was so much blood, so much agony inside you..."
She turned quickly, lavender hair fanning around her. Her whisper was quiet as she came and sat back down next to the hurt and mad Digidestined.
"Let's not be stupid Ken...Let's not play games..."
She sadly watched the green digital trees, careful to avoid his stare.
"You know how I feel about you...And I know how you feel about Kari.."
She put up a small hand to silence him, and mutely, he agreed.
"I just had to watch the most painful thing in my life...But somehow, with you conscious and listening to me, this is even harder."
She drew in a deep, shuddery breath. "When you where sick...You would have these, panic attacks. And you would scream and get violent and say the most horrible things about yourself. Or you would cry...And my heart broke more with every tear. I have seen the best of you Ken. And now I've seen the worst. But I love you."
Her courage faltered at his silence, but she continued despite her anxiety.
"I love everything about you Ken. And even though I know I'm ugly, abrasive and loudmouthed and cruel...I had hoped that maybe one day-"
"I would love you to."
She stopped, sighing, and turned her wide golden eyes to him. He nodded his sleepy blue eyes and with a sad smile, lifted his touch to her cheek.
"You are loudmouthed Yolei. And you can be abrasive...But you're beautiful..And I love every part of you. Good or bad." At her vehement negative shake of her head, he brought his other hand to her face, stilling the movement.
"You 'are' beautiful and sweet and warm and gentle." He searched her gaze with his own, tears filling his eyes.
"I'm not very good at relationships, but...I fell in love with you before we were who we are. I fell in love with your vibrancy and your pride, your caring and your smile..."
He touched a gentle finger to her mouth, then her collarbone.
"You were what brought me back Yolei. I could here your voice weaving a thousand adventures and summer days...A million ways to love you, and a thousand memories to make...Please don't take that away from me..."
Yolei gasped tearfully, a tremulous smile crossing her face, and she reached up, taking Ken's hand's in her own.
"Thank you Ken...Thank you."
He laughed weakly, but bright all the same. "No Yolei...Thank you. Because you are beautiful...You're everything I want. Say we can make those dreams happen, please?"
Ken wrapped his arms around her shoulders, sliding down her body until his weary face rested against her stomach.
"And you can get the sherbet when we go to the ice cream parlor...And we can sail on the yacht with the warm sun against our face and the foaming emerald sea beneath us..."
With little laugh, She embraced him, joy running through her.
It was going to be alright...They would go home, and they would fight more enemies. They would make love and have a million ice creams...
Yolei hugged Ken tighter, aching with happiness and fear of the future.
But she was beautiful...She always had been.
And she was complete.
-Mamacita
I've had this one ticking in my head for a long time!
This is for you Kat-chan!!
Part 3 / Inse-Cure-ities
Summary: Poison...Potent whether a mindset or a venom, is always a dangerous thing.
In an emotional journey, Ken and Yolei are about to find out that insecurities and pain can take away the very world around you...
Wow! I love this one! It's the Kenlei for Kat-chan!
Mistress Kenlei's is next!
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'Stop iiiiiittttt!!'
The light was losing! It was fading! Gone!
He struggled to move himself, to free himself...But he couldn't move!
'Stop it now! Just leave me alone!'
The darkness, smeared itself over him, lengthening the shadows in his mind, absorbing the light.
'No!!!'
For a mere second, the darkness receded and he caught a glimpse of lavender hair-
-Yolei-
and emerald grass, covered in liquid ebony.
Then it went black again.
But she had been there...She was the voice that told him of beautiful scenes and might-be future's
The light that gleamed through the dark, and the warmth in the cold.
-Yolei-
He felt the haze lift, a little more before a blanket of midnight encloaked him in the burning agony once again.
Yolei tore at his fist's as they wrenched at his own throat, she shook him, trying to wake the boy, as he clawed frantically at his face, drawing blood.
"Ken! Stop it! Stop it now!"
He let out a wail, a low, keening sob that drew across her skin like a slap. The moaning scream brought the others into action after their frozen shock, and Tk, Davis and Cody restrained the flailing boy as he cried, kicking.
Kari rushed to a pack, retrieving a length of nylon cord and handing it to Yolei who tearfully tied his limbs.
He wrenched at the bondage, trying to disengage it, but it would not relent.
The boys held him onto the ground, placing hands upon his face as he tossed it.
"We have to stop him!"
"We don't know how!"
Yolei shoved herself to her knees, stumbling a ways away where she fell again, gagging.
Kari quickly jumped up, racing to her, and Ken began to still.
"Yolei! Are you sick!"
The lavender haired girl shook her head no, but could not speak.
The brunette knelt beside her, rubbing her back, and pulling back her hair in case she vomited.
Ken began to thrash with renewed anxiety at the mention of her name, choking and screaming her name.
She wept harder, unable to catch her breath as she listened to him screeching her name, terrified.
Yolei rose up, swiping at her tears as she went back to him.
Cody leapt from his place holding down Ken's foot, stepping in front of her.
"Don't Yolei! You have to rest! You won't be of any help to him if you get sick to!"
The implications set in, and Yolei weakly braced her shoulders, squaring her jaw.
"I won't be any help to him by standing here well he's terrified either."
She brushed by, falling to her knees, and his thrashing calmed to the keening sobs and twitches.
With tired gentleness born of love and fear, she embraced his weak body, and tried to forget the world and the horror of the situation.
"Ken..." She cried softly "Don't leave us! We haven't even had the chance to really talk...And theirs do much I'd like to say..."
Kari turned to Davis and Tk, who held her as she wept.
The other little digimon held back, afraid, well Wormon looked on in misery.
"Ken-chan, you have to make it....You're my best friend."
Flamdramon and Halsemon returned that night.
Carrying a bundle of electric blue petals and stems, they landed back at camp with much tired celebration.
They explained that they had found the plant beside a riverbank, where a friendly terriermon said it would be, and they returned as fast as possible.
After three days.
Yolei cried out to the dedigivolved Hawkmon, and they embraced happily.
She cried, burying her face in his feathers before turning back to Ken.
Wormon stared up at her, his crystal eyes wide and heartbroken.
"Will Ken be okay now, Yolei?"
She sniffed, plucking the little guy off the ground and into her arms.
"I don't know, Wormon...But we'll stay with him, if he comes out of it...Or not..."
It was two more days of hellish screams and hopeless sobs, forced elixers and poultrices, before Ken woke up. He blinked sporadically, and the glaze diminished.
With a groaning whimper, he slowly roused himself from the pits of Hades.
"W-Wormo-on?" He croaked dryly, and the green Digimon jumped of the sleeping Yolei's stomach in eager haste to his friend.
"Ken! Ken is that you??"
The blue haired boy winced, flopping back down and raising a shaky hand to his head.
"Of c-course it is, Wo-ormon…"
Joyously, the bug ran and got Ken some water, helping the weak boy get it from point A to point B.
"Ken...Do you remember what happened to you?"
Fear crept across Ken's face and he touched his eyelids, his hands then falling limply to his chest.
"Y-yes...and no."
Torn images of sinking, murky darkness and pearly light....Broken memories and shards of pain filtered through his psyche like splintered diamonds.
And through it all...A voice..
Soft and comforting...Exciting and breathtaking in it's beauty.
"W-Wormon...? Did somebody...Talk to me?"
Another memory carved through the murky fog of forgetfulness.
"What happened to Yolei! Is she hurt! Is she ok!"
"Look Ken...Yolei is asleep right beside you!"
The indigo head snapped to the left, where Yolei lay curled. Head pillowed on her palm, tears drying upon her face.
"She stayed with you more then even I did Ken...When you went through your...Fits...She was the only one who could calm you...Not even I could help."
Wormon sadly watched the sleeping girl. A friend now to him as well.
"She was frantic...She cried so much..."
Ken sighed, wearily. Relief and guilt plaguing him even as his eyes drifted shut.
He was so tired...But the blackness beyond sleep...Would it return?
He opened his scratchy periwinkle eyes to the starry sky above, then searched for Wormon who crept into his arms.
"I-If I don't wake up Wormon, because of the poison or a coma or whatever...Don't be afraid for me...Tell each of them what they meant to me...If I don't wake up."
Exhausted he slid back into slumber. This time prepared.
'Don't be afraid Wormon...My fear is enough for the both of us.'
Yolei stretched painfully, easing the ache and pang in her joints as she blearily replaced her glasses.
She wiped her sandpaper gaze, nudging over to Ken where Davis and Tk sat.
With a yawn, she joined them.
"Any change, boys?"
They smiled at her, and hope flamed brightly in her chest.
"Yolei! Ken's eyes are shut! And he's not twitching! I think he's gonna wake up soon!"
Eagerly, Davis babbled on to himself, well Tk rolled his azure eyes and smiled at her.
"I hope he wakes up. It will be so good to have him back!"
Yolei looked at the now peacefully sleeping Digidestined, Wormon cradled in his arms.
"We don't have to tell him...Everything, do we?"
Davis stopped mid blabber, spinning his face to her own.
"Are you kidding? Of course we will! Ken has the right to know what went on! Besides that, I'd like to know what was going on in his own head at some points!"
The blonde blushed, looking away, and the girl raged.
"Why would Ken want to know everything! He obviously wasn't himself!"
Her yell roused the boy, who blinked in an effort to clear his eyes.
"Davis...Yolei...Tk...Yolei..."
Davis crossed his arms. "You said that!" Then laughed, giving his best human friend a quick hug.
"Man! We thought we'd lost ya there for a while! This is sooo cool!"
Ken smiled weakly, comprehension in his face.
"Yes well..." He thought back to the searing pain in his body and winced. "Cool isn't the way I'd describe this."
Next, Tk shook Ken's limp hand, patting him gently on the back.
"Geez Ken you sure gave us a scare! Nobody knew....Well...That's not important now. I'm just so glad you're gonna be ok!"
Davis nudged Tk, giving him a none to subtle hint.
The blonde looked at Ken, who was looking half fearful at Yolei, who was looking at the ground.
"We'll just...Go now and find the other two!"
They darted off into the trees, leaving ex-Kaiser and Digidestined alone.
They said nothing. The martyr and the shadow at odds with the world, and hidden beyond mountains of shame.
Lost within the embroiling thoughts of what to say and how to say it, Yolei didn't notice Ken shakily sit up and move beside her before he was right there.
Instinct almost prevailed as she lifted her arms to gather her to him, before realizing that was over and he was better now.
Crimson, she let her arms fall to her sides.
There was an almost perverse sense of loss that her days of holding him close were finished. Sudden tears brightened her sunny gaze, and Ken nervously put a hand on her arms.
"Don't cry Yolei. I'm going to be better now..."
They sat in silence, roles reversed, as Yolei wept uncontrollably, a mix of bitter laughter and pain mixed with relief.
"I un-underst-stand that K-Ken!"
He looked at his fingers as they shakily snuck around her shoulders.
"You don't have to say anything...But I'd to know...Why did you run off like that? You could have gotten hurt!"
Bitterly, she flung off his arm, stumbling to her feet.
"Yes! I could have! But you took that hit for me and now you act like nothing happened!"
She furiously brushed at the oncoming tears. Looking hurt and angry and beautiful.
He was remembering her light as he watched her...The light that saved him.
Ken knew now that she wasn't the shadow...She was so much more...
"You almost 'died' for me Ken! And I don't even know why! You could have let Halsemon take care of it! Or...Or..."
Ken sighed, looking up at her from beneath dull navy hair.
"Yolei...You know that there was no time to digivolve...It was all or nothing."
Biting her lip, the girl winced.
"Then it should have been nothing!"
At Ken's now angry protestations, Yolei looked ashamed.
"I know I should be thanking you Ken...But when I saw you there...And there was so much blood, so much agony inside you..."
She turned quickly, lavender hair fanning around her. Her whisper was quiet as she came and sat back down next to the hurt and mad Digidestined.
"Let's not be stupid Ken...Let's not play games..."
She sadly watched the green digital trees, careful to avoid his stare.
"You know how I feel about you...And I know how you feel about Kari.."
She put up a small hand to silence him, and mutely, he agreed.
"I just had to watch the most painful thing in my life...But somehow, with you conscious and listening to me, this is even harder."
She drew in a deep, shuddery breath. "When you where sick...You would have these, panic attacks. And you would scream and get violent and say the most horrible things about yourself. Or you would cry...And my heart broke more with every tear. I have seen the best of you Ken. And now I've seen the worst. But I love you."
Her courage faltered at his silence, but she continued despite her anxiety.
"I love everything about you Ken. And even though I know I'm ugly, abrasive and loudmouthed and cruel...I had hoped that maybe one day-"
"I would love you to."
She stopped, sighing, and turned her wide golden eyes to him. He nodded his sleepy blue eyes and with a sad smile, lifted his touch to her cheek.
"You are loudmouthed Yolei. And you can be abrasive...But you're beautiful..And I love every part of you. Good or bad." At her vehement negative shake of her head, he brought his other hand to her face, stilling the movement.
"You 'are' beautiful and sweet and warm and gentle." He searched her gaze with his own, tears filling his eyes.
"I'm not very good at relationships, but...I fell in love with you before we were who we are. I fell in love with your vibrancy and your pride, your caring and your smile..."
He touched a gentle finger to her mouth, then her collarbone.
"You were what brought me back Yolei. I could here your voice weaving a thousand adventures and summer days...A million ways to love you, and a thousand memories to make...Please don't take that away from me..."
Yolei gasped tearfully, a tremulous smile crossing her face, and she reached up, taking Ken's hand's in her own.
"Thank you Ken...Thank you."
He laughed weakly, but bright all the same. "No Yolei...Thank you. Because you are beautiful...You're everything I want. Say we can make those dreams happen, please?"
Ken wrapped his arms around her shoulders, sliding down her body until his weary face rested against her stomach.
"And you can get the sherbet when we go to the ice cream parlor...And we can sail on the yacht with the warm sun against our face and the foaming emerald sea beneath us..."
With little laugh, She embraced him, joy running through her.
It was going to be alright...They would go home, and they would fight more enemies. They would make love and have a million ice creams...
Yolei hugged Ken tighter, aching with happiness and fear of the future.
But she was beautiful...She always had been.
And she was complete.
-Mamacita
I've had this one ticking in my head for a long time!
This is for you Kat-chan!!