if im not in love - 7
I'm not in love with you
What is this I'm going through
Tonight
And if my heart is lying then
What should I believe in
Why do I go crazy
Every time I think about you, baby
Why else do I want you like I do
If I'm not in love with you

And if I don't need your touch
Why do I miss you so much
Tonight
If it's just infatuation then
Why is my heart aching
To hold you forever
Give a part of me I thought I'd never
Give again to someone I could lose
If I'm not in love with you

Why in every fantasy
Do I feel your arms embracing me
Lovers lost in sweet desire
Why in dreams do I surrender
Lying with you baby
Someone help explain this feeling
Someone tell me

If I'm not in love with you
What is this I'm going through
Tonight
And if my heart is lying then what should I believe in
Why do I go crazy
Every time I think about you baby
Why else do I want you like I do
If I'm not in love with you...


"Shut up." Matt snapped, sitting down on the couch, his eyes lowered to his hands.

What had possesed him to bring up Essa Rios like that? He knew that Essa was a emotional subject for Lita, why had he gone that far? Was he purposely trying to be an asshole to Lita? Matt knew why he was acting so rude, he was losing his girlfriend... wasn't he justified to be an asshole? At least for a little while? Matt knew that he was losing Lita, he could just feel it in his heart, Lita was falling for Eddie Guerrero. He had seen Eddie glance at Lita when he thought no one else was looking, Matt had seen how Lita had been more then willing to let Eddie carry her backstage, and he had seen how Lita had jumped to Eddie's defense.

It was so obvious what was going on, it was completely obvious to everyone except Lita. The one person who should know what was going on, was the only person who didn't know of Eddie's feelings.

"What's going on Matt?" Jeff arched his eyebrow up in questioning at his older brother.

Matt looked up at Jeff and groaned. "I hate Eddie Guerrero."

"Why? He's never done anything bad to us, well not as of late." Jeff said, trying to make Matt see that Eddie wasn't that bad of a guy.

"Except charm my girlfriend. Lita, she's falling in love with him, and there is nothing I can do about it." Matt sighed.

Jeff stared at Matt sadly. Jeff had also seen the interaction between Eddie and Lita, he had tried not to look at it, but he knew it was there. Jeff had seen the sparks in full view when Lita and Eddie had hosted Sunday Night Heat, he had seen the way they finished each other's sentences and how they were laughing at each other's jokes. Jeff hadn't told Matt, because he didn't want to upset his older brother, but he could see that the beginning of the end was near.

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Lita limped down the hall, her whole body seething in anger. Why did Matt have to be such an ass back there? What did he have against Eddie?

Eddie was sweet, funny... or was that just her opinion of him? Why had she been so protective of Eddie in the locker-room, why was she always defending Eddie?

Could she possible be falling in... NO! It couldn't be, could it?

----

Eddie walked down the hall, his mind on Lita, he had seen the look Matt given him, was he that obvious? Eddie shook his head and continued to walk down the hall.

"Eddie..."

Eddie looked up to find himself face to face with Terri. "Uh, hi Terri."

Terri smiled sweetly at Eddie. "So how have you've been Eddie?"

Eddie shrugged, looking around, trying to see if anyone was lurking around. He had a feeling that Terri coming up to him and talking to him, was just a diversion. "I've been good."

"Yeah, you got new friends and all." Terri said, trying not to roll her eyes.

Eddie nodded. "Yeah Lita is great." Eddie said without thinking.

Terri arched her eyebrows up. "You really like her don't you?"

Before Eddie could reply, Dean came from behind and threw Eddie into the wall forcefully. Eddie tried to push himself up but he was kicked in the stomach by Dean; Dean then picked Eddie up and threw him against the wall once more. Eddie slid down to the ground, and groaned when Dean continued his attacks on him.

"I tried to tell you that Lita and the Hardy Boyz were my enemies and not to get mixed up with them, but everywhere I turn you are following that little slu--" Dean whispered.

Eddie lunged at Dean, throwing Dean down to the ground before he could finish his sentence. "Don't you ever call her that! Ever again!" Eddie screamed.

Dean threw Eddie off of him, Dean pushed himself up, panting; The shock was painted all over Dean's face, he didn't think Eddie would have the guts to attack him back, Dean threw Terri a look, which she just shrugged to. Dean stood up straight, still staring at Eddie who was trying to push himself up; Dean shook his head, maybe he
had underestimated the strength Eddie had... sure the guy was small, but the second Dean tried to call Lita a name, Eddie had become into the attacker instead of the attacked.

"I underestimated you..." Dean started to say but got cut off when he was picked up from the behind.

"Perry!" Terri screamed. "Put Dean down!"

Dean looked behind him and saw that he was being held in the air by Perry, Dean held on tight as Perry twirled Dean around in the air. "Put me down Perry! NOW!"

"Oh come on Perry, put Dean down, he's your friend, remember?" Terri ran over to Perry and started to tug at his huge arms. "If you put Dean down, I'll buy you ice-cream."

Perry stopped twirling Dean around in the air, and stared at Terri, as Dean still held on to Perry's neck. "Will you get me rocky road ice-cream?"

Terri nodded. "Yes anything, just put Dean down, please?" Terri stared at Perry, with a begging look in her eyes.

Perry smiled quickly, dropping Dean down to the ground. "Let's go."

Dean groaned once his body hit the ground. "Damn it!" He yelled once he saw Eddie getting up and running off.

Perry looked over at Dean, and picked him up again. "Come on Dean, we're getting ice cream."

Terri sighed leading Perry to her car, and shot Dean a sympathetic look. "So sorry." She muttered.

Dean groaned, holding onto Perry. "This is just peachy."

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"Damn Dean..." Eddie muttered as he changed into a different shirt slowly, trying not to hurt his ribs, they already hurt like hell and he didn't want them to hurt anymore.

Eddie's whole body ached with pain, but he had to smirk at the sight of Dean Malenko being twirled around in circles in the air by PerrySaturn. The big guy sure knew when to come in and act wacky, who knows how much more pain Eddie would been in if Perry hadn't come in and picked up Dean.

Knock. Knock. Knock.

Eddie groaned, as he walked over to his locker-room door. "Yeah?" Eddie shot the person at his door a look.

What in the world was Chris Jericho doing here? Chris Jericho personally didn't like Eddie, they have had their arguments and matches in the past, so what was he doing here?

"What are you doing here Jericho?" Eddie asked, getting straight to the point. Eddie's whole body was thumping with pain and he didn't have the time to have small talk with Jericho.

Jericho shook his head. "Hurt Lita and you're a dead man."

Eddie grinned, even though it hurt his face to do so. "What are you her father?"

Jericho rolled his eyes, shaking his head. "No just a concerned friend who doesn't trust you. I'm not going to come out and just say that you're scum, because I think you already know that. Hey maybe you are changing, and if you are great... I congraluate you, but if this is a part of some scheme you are cooking up, then leave Lita out
of it. She's my friend and if she gets hurts by you, I'll kill you." Jericho shot Eddie a look.

Eddie looked into the face of Chris Jericho, not daring to laugh or grin or do something totally idiotic that would cause him to get his ass kicked. Jericho was serious, and Eddie knew when not to joke around; Eddie nodded slowly. "I'll make a mental note of that."

Jericho shook his head. "Just be warned Guerrero." Jericho turned on his heel and walked off.

Eddie walked back over to his coach and fell down to it groaning, why was trying to change so hard? Why was falling for one girl so damn hard? Why did he even try? Lita was hopelessly in love with Matt Hardy, and Eddie was no competition. So why not just give up? Go back to Dean, Dean would probably take him back, if he begged long
enough... and then they would be able to cheat to get Eddie his European belt back.

But the thought of having to betray Lita didn't really sound appealing to him, because he knew that he REALLY liked Lita, and he wasn't on top of his game anymore. Maybe before he had been in control, he had a plan that could have easily worked, but somehow he had let his emotions get the better of him, and he was no longer in
control... his heart was and his heart wasn't going to let him betray Lita. Plus Eddie was friends with Jeff, afterall Jeff had faked a seizure or whatever so Eddie could escape the hospital, Jeff had beat up Christian and Edge after they gave him the con-chair-to... Eddie didn't want to betray his friend.

Eddie felt like for once in his life, he actually had a life... he had friends, the crowd was warming up to him, and for once in his life, he had a heart.

He was no longer the weasel that hung out with Dean Malenko, Perry Saturn, and Terri... at least in some people's eyes. He had at least two friends that would stick up for him, and who have on occasion... and in some weird way, he had Lita. Sure not in the romantic type of way, but he had her as a friend. She had trusted him enough
to let him carry her backstage... that had to count for something right?

Knock. Knock. Knock.

Eddie looked up and groaned, he pushed himself up and walked over to the door, expecting to see Jericho, but then Eddie froze when he saw that it was Lita at his door.

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"Hi..." Lita said, smiling softly at him from right outside of the entrance to his locker-room.

Eddie stared at Lita, unsure of what to say, he was sure she would be arguing with Matt about him, and about how he had ran to her aid and then carried her backstage, but again she surprised him by showing up in front of his locker-room.

"Hi." Eddie said, smiling weakly.

Lita opened her mouth to say something, but then she stopped once she saw the cuts and bruises on Eddie's face, she brought her hand up to his face, examining his injuries. "You're hurt." Lita hissed out.

Eddie had almost jumped back at Lita's touch but didn't, he nodded silently, not fully trusting his vocal cords, they would probably fail him if he tried to speak. Lita was touching him, her hands were so warm and so gentle, and her touch seemed to reach into the depths of his soul, with one touch and a look and Lita was getting inside of him, where he let no one. She was reaching deep into his soul, and as much as he wanted to deny Lita access to that part of him, he couldn't... his body wouldn't let him pull away from Lita's touch, as if afraid if he did so, he would never know the feeling of the warmth she was offering him. She was making all his pain go away with just one gentle touch, and a soft look... and he didn't want it to end.

"Who did this to you?" Lita asked, still staring at Eddie's bruises.

"Dean." Eddie answered Lita's question; He held still, not inviting her in, just holding still.

"That bastard, how dare he? He had no right..." Lita said softly.

Lita let her eyes venture up Eddie's face and she let her eyes lock onto Eddie's. His eyes looked so confused but content right now, she had never seen that look on his face before, she liked that look. He didn't look so scared and lonely anymore, in the hospital he had looked so little and scared, she had wanted to reach out and make all
of his pain go way so badly, but she didn't know how. All she knew how was to hold his hand, and tell him it would be okay, which it eventually would be. No one understood the reason why Lita was so attached to Eddie, no one understood why she would spend all of her free time with him... god how could they not? They didn't see Eddie
like she did, no one saw the scared and vulnerable Eddie she saw everyday, no one understood him like she did. Eddie was just like everybody else, he felt pain... he bled... he cried... and no one could see that about him... she did, she saw every part of Eddie Guerrero, and if anybody else would see what she did, they would feel
the same way she did. Eddie had changed, he really had... at the beginning she didn't know what to think of him, what his motives were... but she could see it clear as day now...

Eddie Guerrero was a changed man...

And she was falling in love with that man, despite what she kept telling herself.