who do you love - 8
Here we are
You tell me I'm the only one
Who makes you feel love again
There you go
I see you watching him
When you don't think I know
Should I let you go?
So who's it gonna be
Is it him or me?
chorus
Who do you love?
Who do you need?
You're messing up my mind
Wastin' all my time
Who do you love?
What do you feel?
Stop playin with my heart
You're tearin me apart
Am I the one
who can make you fly up above
Is it me who can take you higher
than you're dreaming of
Now who do you love?
Who do you love?
Turn around
Do you really think you could
You'll play me like a fool
For you
Then I realize
When you touch me it's like nothing
I have known
Could I let you go
So who's it gonna be
Is it him or me?
chorus x2
"Lita..." Eddie's voice finally entered
the locker-room, breaking the silence between him and Lita. "Don't go doing
anything rash..."
Lita's eyes flare with anger, as
she let her hand drop from Eddie's face. "Nothing rash? Dean attacked you,
you didn't do anything to him, you didn't deserve it Eddie! You can't just
let people go around stepping all over you like you are some sort of welcoming
mat."
Eddie sighed, walking over to the
couch in his locker-room, motioning for Lita to come in. "Yes I can Lita,
because it happens all the time. It's the story of my life, there's Eddie
Guerrero, go ahead treat him like shit, he doesn't care, he's used to it."
Lita watched Eddie, his back was
turned to her so she couldn't see the look on her face, and for that much
she was glad, because Lita didn't know if she could handle seeing the look
on his face. "Eddie."
"What? It's true!" Eddie said, his
back still away from Lita.
"Eddie." Lita said again, touching
the side of Eddie's arm.
Eddie turned to face Lita, once he
felt her warm hand demanding contact with his body. "What?" Eddie asked,
staring into Lita's eyes.
"I'm going to challenge Malenko to
a match tonight." Lita said, pushing Eddie down on the couch softly.
Eddie shook his head. "Lita, I don't
know if that's such a good idea. He probably wants you in the ring, and
I don't want to be the reason why you get hurt. I would never forgive myself
if I was the reason you got hurt, the reason why he hurt you."
Lita smiled at Eddie's concern for
her, she hadn't seen him show concern for anybody but her, Lita smiled
again at just the thought of her being the only person that had seen the
soft side of 'latino heat'. "It would be totally worth it Eddie. You don't
know how worth it would be."
Eddie stared at Lita, her smile burning
into his memory, her beauty blinding him. "You might get hurt."
"I'll take the chance." Lita said
quickly.
Eddie let a smile dance itself onto
his face, Lita was full of so much determination, she had a need to fight,
fight for her beliefs, her friends, to fight ... to just fight. "It's not
like I can stop you." Eddie said slowly.
Lita nodded. "True, I've made up
my mind, and there is no way you could stop me, even if you tried. Trust
me Eddie, I got this under control."
Eddie closed his eyes. "Matt is going
to kill me."
Lita's eyes frozen in place, Matt.
Oh god Matt. Lita didn't know how she could face Matt Hardy anymore, before
she had done it easily because she had been in denial, but she had admitted
to herself, only herself, that she was in love with Eddie Guerrero, she
couldn't lie to Matt, even if she said the words, he would be able to see
right through her lies. How did things get so complicated? How in the world
had she fallen for Eddie Guerrero? How in the world had she gone from holding
on to Matt Hardy, to letting him go?
"No, he is going to kill me." Lita
said, quietly, sinking down in the couch next to Eddie.
Eddie opened his eyes and stared
at Lita, there was something different about her, he couldn't put his finger
on it, but how she had said Matt was going to kill her, she had sounded
so sad, so full of sorrow, like she had a reason to be sorry. "Are you
okay?" Eddie asked, generally concerned.
Lita turned and stared at Eddie,
his eyes were full of concern, she felt the need to lie to him, and tell
him that everything was fine, she felt the urge to not tell him
that she realized she was falling in love with him. She felt the urge to
pretend that all Eddie Guerrero was to her, was a friend... the urge was
strong, it was over-bearing, but then her heart told her that nothing was
better then the truth. But then her head told her that the truth hurt,
that when and if Lita went to Matt and told him that she was in
love with another man, that he would be hurt, that his heart would be broken,
and Lita never wanted to hurt Matt, she had just unexpectedly fallen for
the last man she thought she would fall for.
"Lita?" Eddie questioned again, even
more concerned then he had already been.
"No I'm not." Lita said, pushing
herself up from the couch. "I am beyond okay, I am pretty bad right now
okay?"
Eddie stared at Lita confused, she
was now pacing, her face had a bunch of mixed emotions on it, she was beginning
to freak him out, something definitely was wrong, he could see it, but
for some reason she wasn't telling him what was wrong. "What's wrong?"
Lita sighed loudly. "You walked into
my life unexpected you know that? I was content where I was in my life,
I had Matt... Matt was my boyfriend, he still is! And all that mattered
was that I was in love with him, blissfully and passionately in love with
Matt Hardy, and then you had to walk into my life! You had to take that
gore for me, you had to beg for us to trust you, you had to take the con-chair-to
for me! You had to look so scared and lonely in the hospital, you had to
look at me with those eyes and make me realize that I'm falling for you.
I don't want to fall for you, because you are the unknown... Matt, he's
what I know! I know him, I don't know where my life is going to lead me
if I fall for you! Chyna told me not to trust you, but I did... I was a
fool and I trusted you, and now here I am standing in your locker-room
wanting to attack Dean Malenko because he hurt you, I want to kill him
for hurting you, because I'm in love with you."
Eddie's eyes widened with shock,
he pushed himself up, thankful that he had the strength to stand on his
own after the confession Lita had given him. Lita was in love with him?
Eddie reminded himself not to start grinning, because right now wasn't
about who loved who, right now was about that no matter what, someone was
going to get hurt, either it be him or Matt Hardy, someone was going to
get hurt.
"I'm in love with you, and I don't
want to be!" Lita continued. "But I can just hold your hand and it feels
so natural, you feel so natural to me. I have never felt the way I feel
when I'm around you! I don't know how I didn't realize that I was in love
with you, I should have known. How we finished each other's sentences for
one another on the tv shows we hosted, how I could look at you and now
how and what you were feeling, it was so obvious... so obvious to everyone,
except me.This whole time I had been thinking that I had everything I needed
in life, I had the perfect boyfriend, the perfect team, the perfect friends,
the perfect dream... but you walked into my life and you changed everything.
I challenged my friend to a match because of you, just because she called
you scum, I had felt so enraged that she would dare disgrace, disrespect
you like that, it had made me so angry ... I don't even know why I was
angry, a few months ago I would have, hell I DID believe that you
were scum."
Eddie grabbed Lita's hand, forcing
her to look him in the eyes. "Did you think I wanted to be here? You want
to know the truth? I am scum. You should just walk out that door right
now and don't think about me, because it was all a plan Lita! I wanted
my European championship belt back, so I planned to get your guys trust
and use that for my benefit, but somehow along the way I lost sight of
that plan. But I am still scum Lita!"
Lita tried to make herself angry
at Eddie's confession, but all she could feel was her heart going out to
him. "Eddie ..." Lita started but was cut off by Eddie.
"No Lita! I'm scum, just walk out
that door, never come back. Chyna was right, you shouldn't trust me, you
should never trust me, I am a rat." Eddie looked at Lita. "Please don't
love me, I don't deserve you."
Lita looked into Eddie's eyes, demanding
a connection. "I love you."
Eddie shook his head. "You love Matt."
Lita put both of her hands on both
sides of Eddie's face. "No you're not listening to me, I love you. I have
tried to deny it, but I can't, not anymore. I'm not mad, god I should be
mad at you for making that stupid plan, but you love me. I can see it,
I can see it in your eyes, it's as clear as day, your love matches exactly
with mine, I see into the person you really are Eddie."
Eddie tried to pull away from Lita's
grasp. "I won't let you ruin everything you have ever known, because of
me. I'm not worth it, I won't let you do this for me."
Lita pulled Eddie in closer. "I can't
live without you. You're a part of my life now."
Eddie shook his head. "A horrible
part of your life."
Lita shook her head. "A part of my
life, I want. Love is never easy Eddie, I know that... but if I walk out
that door right now, I am walking out on a chance, a chance to find out
if this love, this connection, we're sharing right now is really worth
it. You want me to walk out Eddie? You want me to walk out on you? Because
I have a strong feeling you don't..."