I know it's weird changing the story to first person, but for this part of the story I thought it was better if I did. I want you to understand where the characters stand at this point.
Changed to first person
(Max)
I knew this day had to come. I thought as I squatted in the chair. The day I would have to face him and fess up everything. When nothing is held back and walls are forced to be torn down. The day of judgement from the one I love the most.
Slowly I lifted my face to his across the room. His face was sorrowful and angry, but ready to listen. I don't know how this is gonna turn out cause I've got a lot to atone for. I realize I'm lucky that Brandon and Eva have such a great person to call their dad. But no matter what, I will not be separated from my baby.
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(Logan)
As she squatted in the chair I was reminded again of her cat DNA. Those little quirks. Those little things I love that makes Max, who she is. Those little things I've missed for a year. She's still as beautiful as ever, even more so. When I saw her tuck Eva in to bed there was glow about her, contentment, a peace in Max I had never seen before. But now, its just us. Explanations need to be given. She kept my son and my daughter away from me. The daughter I have and the son I'll never meet. And our family, if it's ever going to exist, will never be complete.
She looks up at me. Her face is contorted in guilt, shame and pain. She's not hiding anything. I can tell this even from across the room.
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Back to third person
Max took a deep breath. "I'm sorry."
"For what?" he replied coldly.
"Everything."
"I know. But I want to don't know why. Why did you leave?" He said in monotone voice, but his eyes and face betrayed him. They were a tornado of emotions. It was obvious he had many sleepless nights pondering that one question.
"I was scared." Max replied wishing she could say something more, but that was the simple truth.
"Of what."
"Love. I knew I loved you, Logan." Her eyes softened, "That night won't have happened I didn't. But I was scared. Scared of the consequences. Scared of what you'd expect. And then when I found out I was pregnant… I couldn't come back."
"So you had to wait until Brandon died to return."
Max's blood boiled with anger. She jumped off the chair so that she was standing. She hated him so much right now.
"That's not fair. Don't you dare bring him into this."
"Fair?!" Logan stood up, "Why not? He's my son too. But I don't know him because you didn't give me the chance."
"Probably because you didn't deserve it."
"Didn't deserve it! I deserve a whole lot more than you ever gave to me!!!"
"Why? Because Lydecker is closer to finding me than he ever was. Or cause my life has been in more danger ever since I met you… Oh, I got it. Thanks to you, Logan Cale, I will not die a virgin,"
She got closer to him.
"You know, If I knew it was going to be this hard, I would have screwed Bill Gates. At least he doesn't waste his money on strangers who don't give a crap," She stated calmly.
"Why stop there. Screw royalty too. There's always space for an extra concubine. Just don't murder him in bed, Max. Sluts don't get inheritance."
"No. It goes to pitiful assholes trying to save the world when he don't know squat about it, or me, or himself."
"WWWWWWWAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!"
Eva's scream stunned them for a moment and then they both flew to the bedroom. Max picked her up and rocked her while Logan retrieved her pacifier. He tried to give it her, but Eva smacked it away. Logan looked confused for a moment, then Max gave him the baby and left.
Logan thought Max had deserted them again, but soon she returned with a bottle for Eva. She drank it for a little while and stopped. Max took the bottle away. A minute later Eva threw up all over herself and Logan's arm. He gave her back to Max so that he could wash his arm. Max wiped her mouth and turned her around to burp her. Finally it seemed that Eva was calming down. When Logan walked back in, Max holding Eva in a chair by her crib. Max got up and put her in the crib. Max smiled and turned to leave. When she and Logan got to the door Eva started crying again. Just when I thought I was home free, Max thought.
Logan was the first to return to the crib. When he picked her up she got quiet. He tried to put her back down, but she started stifling. He held her and turned to Max.
"Looks like she's gonna have to be held 'til she falls asleep," he said as he sat on the bed.
"Why don't you go to bed. I don't sleep anyway, remember." She replied and sat next to him, reaching for the baby.
"I'd rather stay up." He answered and Max slowly retracted her arms. She wasn't sure how to take that remark so she decided not to worry about. It wasn't important.
She said finally, "We still need to talk."
"We already…"
"And you need to listen, and apologize"
"Apologize? Why?"
"Look at me in the eyes and tell me you meant every word you said out there."
"Tell me."
"Look, pride is getting us nowhere besides arguing and I don't want to start yelling again… Especially with Eva in the room."
"Okay. I'm sorry."
"I'm sorry too." Max said and silence filled the room once more.
"I gave you everything," Max whispered.
"Huh?"
"You said you deserved more than I ever gave you, but I gave you everything."
Logan turned to her.
"How do you figure that?" he asked angrily.
"You're suppose to listen too, remember?" she stated. She let her eyes downward as she let out breath, then they returned to his face.
"In any relationships I've had there was always apart of me I didn't share or couldn't. With you, it was the first time I shared everything. My heart, my soul… everything."
Max stopped and laughed for a second.
"And it scared the shit out me… But what scared me the most was think you didn't gave the same to me."
"Why did you think that?"
"All guys are scum," she replied sarcastically, "I don't know. Voice of doom, I guess."
"You know that doesn't change anything."
"I know," she got up to leave, "But you know the truth."
She started walking to the guestroom.
"Max." Logan called and she turned around, "I actually am tired. Why don't you take her for the night."
Max smiled and walked back to them. She picked Eva up and sat in the chair. Logan settled in the bed and slowly went to sleep.