New Revelations
I didn't sit with them in Science today. Talk about shifts in the Earth's gravitational pull. I thought the entire class was going to have a heart attack. It was like the principal got on the intercom and told everyone the world was ending today. Come on, you guys. I can sit wherever the hell I want, I'm 16 almost 17 I think I know how to make my own decisions. And besides, its not like they were affected in the least. It's like I'm not there anymore. Maybe that's because I'm not, but just seeing them alternate between swooning over Danny or Ethan, or whoever it was that took my spot between them, and complaining about the workload really made me think about what our friendship means to them. I thought it meant the world and more to me, these were two people that I've known since I was a baby, but since seventh grade I've begun to see a change in their attitude, and a drastic change in mine. And now more than ever I'm beginning to realize that I've been taken for granted. I don't mean that much to them because I'm not popular. But I thought that was what we stood for, you know? We don't have to be popular to be happy. I guess that all changed in the seventh grade. It's funny how we never really realize it while its going on, but when we sit down and look back on it, it all becomes so clear. The three of us were three very, very different people. And I guess now is the time for all of this to come out in the open. We're graduating next year, and I don't want us to be fake friends for another year, I don't think they could handle all that lying. Or, maybe I'm just over thinking everything, and it's nothing. But I know that what I'm feeling right now is betrayal, and I need to tell them what I think soon, or else I might go crazy.
"MR. GORDON!" Mr. Stewart yelled. "I realize its nearing the end of the school year, but could you PLEASE try to pay attention when I'm talking to you?" Damn, I must have been pretty far off if I wasn't paying attention. David Gordon, congratulations, you have reached a new low.
"Of course, sir. I'll try." I could hear the chuckles surrounding me. Haha, Gordo got in trouble. Now the world really is coming to an end. Imagine the novelty. Only five more minutes of this close to intolerable hell. You can do it Gordo, be strong, and be a man. 5..4..3..2..1.. Finally! Jeezus, I think that was the longest five minutes in the world. Good bye Science, hello lunch.
**
All right, it's lunchtime. We all know what that means. Wait, damn! They've beaten me to it. Arg. And I had a whole big speech planned out too. What a way to go. Here I was all prepared and stuff, and then here they come bouncing in like two bubbles with out a clue. Here we go.
"Hey, Gordo!" They said. In stereo, I'm impressed. Mildly.
"What's up." Smile Gordo. They won't know what's going on.
"Oh, uh, well we were just wondering if you were free to do our science paper for us? Since you're so talented with words and all." Lizzie asked. She added a little laugh at the end, but that didn't help the cause. David Gordon was buckling down, standing his ground, and being a man.
"No, no I can't. Lizzie, I'm tired of being Gordo the back up plan for the two of you. I'm tired of me doing everything for you both when we're JUNIORS, ALMOST FRIGGIN SENIORS in high school. Come on you two, can't you do something for yourselves? I'm tired of being taken for granted." There, I let it out. Let it sink in, so that you can really hit 'em hard with what's coming next.
"So, what are you saying?" Miranda asked. I swear, if she was any denser, she would be twirling her ponytail around her finger. God in heaven! Was I not perfectly crystal clear?
"I said NO. What part of that didn't you understand? You girls need to learn how to do things for yourself. I'm not going to be there for you all the time. In fact, as of right now, I'm not there at all. Maybe it would be better for the three of us if we just parted ways as of now. I know I would be a little bit happier than I am now. Maybe. It depends." Way to go, Gordo. Laying down the law. I'm proud of myself. That was probably the only good thing that I did that day. And even my soul mate that I LET FUCKING GO said that it was a mistake. Was it? Was I making a huge mistake dumping the two best friends I've ever known? No, no I'm not. This is the right thing to do. Of course it is. If it weren't, then I wouldn't be doing it. The three of us would still be together and things would be simply fantastic. But they aren't, so yes, Gordo; this is the right thing to do.
I walked away. Me, David "Gordo" Gordon walked away from the only two people I've ever known. It felt as if a weight had been lifted off of my shoulders. And for the first time in 16 years, I smiled. But of course, like my life story, that happiness will be cut short. Why wouldn't it? It would be the perfect end to a perfectly horrible life.
I didn't sit with them in Science today. Talk about shifts in the Earth's gravitational pull. I thought the entire class was going to have a heart attack. It was like the principal got on the intercom and told everyone the world was ending today. Come on, you guys. I can sit wherever the hell I want, I'm 16 almost 17 I think I know how to make my own decisions. And besides, its not like they were affected in the least. It's like I'm not there anymore. Maybe that's because I'm not, but just seeing them alternate between swooning over Danny or Ethan, or whoever it was that took my spot between them, and complaining about the workload really made me think about what our friendship means to them. I thought it meant the world and more to me, these were two people that I've known since I was a baby, but since seventh grade I've begun to see a change in their attitude, and a drastic change in mine. And now more than ever I'm beginning to realize that I've been taken for granted. I don't mean that much to them because I'm not popular. But I thought that was what we stood for, you know? We don't have to be popular to be happy. I guess that all changed in the seventh grade. It's funny how we never really realize it while its going on, but when we sit down and look back on it, it all becomes so clear. The three of us were three very, very different people. And I guess now is the time for all of this to come out in the open. We're graduating next year, and I don't want us to be fake friends for another year, I don't think they could handle all that lying. Or, maybe I'm just over thinking everything, and it's nothing. But I know that what I'm feeling right now is betrayal, and I need to tell them what I think soon, or else I might go crazy.
"MR. GORDON!" Mr. Stewart yelled. "I realize its nearing the end of the school year, but could you PLEASE try to pay attention when I'm talking to you?" Damn, I must have been pretty far off if I wasn't paying attention. David Gordon, congratulations, you have reached a new low.
"Of course, sir. I'll try." I could hear the chuckles surrounding me. Haha, Gordo got in trouble. Now the world really is coming to an end. Imagine the novelty. Only five more minutes of this close to intolerable hell. You can do it Gordo, be strong, and be a man. 5..4..3..2..1.. Finally! Jeezus, I think that was the longest five minutes in the world. Good bye Science, hello lunch.
**
All right, it's lunchtime. We all know what that means. Wait, damn! They've beaten me to it. Arg. And I had a whole big speech planned out too. What a way to go. Here I was all prepared and stuff, and then here they come bouncing in like two bubbles with out a clue. Here we go.
"Hey, Gordo!" They said. In stereo, I'm impressed. Mildly.
"What's up." Smile Gordo. They won't know what's going on.
"Oh, uh, well we were just wondering if you were free to do our science paper for us? Since you're so talented with words and all." Lizzie asked. She added a little laugh at the end, but that didn't help the cause. David Gordon was buckling down, standing his ground, and being a man.
"No, no I can't. Lizzie, I'm tired of being Gordo the back up plan for the two of you. I'm tired of me doing everything for you both when we're JUNIORS, ALMOST FRIGGIN SENIORS in high school. Come on you two, can't you do something for yourselves? I'm tired of being taken for granted." There, I let it out. Let it sink in, so that you can really hit 'em hard with what's coming next.
"So, what are you saying?" Miranda asked. I swear, if she was any denser, she would be twirling her ponytail around her finger. God in heaven! Was I not perfectly crystal clear?
"I said NO. What part of that didn't you understand? You girls need to learn how to do things for yourself. I'm not going to be there for you all the time. In fact, as of right now, I'm not there at all. Maybe it would be better for the three of us if we just parted ways as of now. I know I would be a little bit happier than I am now. Maybe. It depends." Way to go, Gordo. Laying down the law. I'm proud of myself. That was probably the only good thing that I did that day. And even my soul mate that I LET FUCKING GO said that it was a mistake. Was it? Was I making a huge mistake dumping the two best friends I've ever known? No, no I'm not. This is the right thing to do. Of course it is. If it weren't, then I wouldn't be doing it. The three of us would still be together and things would be simply fantastic. But they aren't, so yes, Gordo; this is the right thing to do.
I walked away. Me, David "Gordo" Gordon walked away from the only two people I've ever known. It felt as if a weight had been lifted off of my shoulders. And for the first time in 16 years, I smiled. But of course, like my life story, that happiness will be cut short. Why wouldn't it? It would be the perfect end to a perfectly horrible life.