"Hi everyone just wanted to warn you that I might just suck at this but Buffy it comes from my heart."
Buffy's eyes filled with tears. Liam walked off the stage and over to Buffy through the applauding crowd. When he reached the table she was waiting with open arms. Liam embraced her warmly and pulled back only far enough to be able to kiss her and wipe away the tears that were streaming down her face.
Buffy and Liam left the restaurant and headed back to his place.
Once inside Liam's apartment Buffy collapsed onto the couch. Liam had gone into the kitchen and fixed himself a cup of tea.
"Do you want something to drink?"
"Whatever you're having will be fine."
Buffy thought about what she'd said and couldn't help but giggle. There was a time when all Angel had in his kitchen was o-positive. Liam came out with two cups of tea, handing one to her.
"What's so funny," he asked smiling down at her.
"Nothing."
"No, come on. Tell me"
Buffy looked into Liam's eyes and then took a sip of her tea. When she'd tasted it she couldn't help the tear that slipped down her cheek.
"What is it Buffy? Please talk to me."
She looked up into his pleading eyes and for a moment she wanted nothing more than to tell him everything. She wanted to tell him about their first meeting all the way to the final battle and everything in between.
"I can't. I don't know how."
"What do you mean?"
"I want nothing more than to tell you what you were, what I was. I want to tell you everything that happened, the good and the bad. I want you to know where we started from and where we ended up but I can't."
"Why?"
"Because…because I'm selfish. I want to look in your eyes and see that you know me but I don't want to see the pain. God this is so hard."
Buffy started crying and Liam reached out to her but Buffy pulled away.
"It's hard because you don't know, you don't have Angel's memories but sometimes you do things just the way he did. Things like this cup of tea, I never told you how I take my tea and yet you made it perfectly. You know what I like to eat, you know just how I like to be touched, and you know just what to say and for a moment I think I have you back but I don't. I don't and I think it doesn't matter because I…" Buffy's voice broke.
Liam pulled Buffy into his arms holding her close and stroking her hair. He brushed the tears that fell away from her face and placed a kiss atop her head.
"I…" Buffy tried again.
"You what?" Liam coaxed.
"I love you. I try not to but I can't stop." Buffy slid closer into his embrace.
"Me too. I can't stop either. Buffy, maybe we shouldn't…"
"Don't. Just kiss me."
