Note to Disclaimers: I do not and never will own Card Captor Sakura or the song title or the song by the SMiths ok? So please don't sue me. All right go to the actual creators, which wouldn't be me. Thank you!

Author's note: This is my first card captors fic and I'm not an expert but I thought I'd give it a try. Thank you and I hope you like it! PLEASE R&R! ~Samenia~

THERE IS A LIGHT THAT NEVER GOES OUT

"Wait for me Tomoyo!" I yell as my friend keeps walking.

"Cool down Sakura! I wasn't going to leave you behind!" Tomoyo says.

I laugh as we continue walking to our dorm. It is late June and the atmosphere that I am in is peaceful. I watch as Tomoyo records the campus of our college. I guess she does this because this is the last week that we will be seeing our college for this year. 'I can't believe it's been four years.' My thoughts are interrupted by Tomoyo's calm voice. I look over at her and see her pointing towards the school doors somewhat urgently.

"Sakura come on. The bell just rang." She replies to my bewilderment.

"Hai." I say and we both run to our class. 'Guess the dorm thing will have to wait till break.'

The afternoon goes by like a breeze. First break, then 2nd and 3rd period, lunch, and finally our last two periods. School is out for today and I head over to my house for a visit. As I'm about to open the door I have a second thought. I decide that I'll go to Penguin Park and swing a while. 'I do have some things to clear up.' As I head out the gate I see Touya.

"Where are you going?" He asks.

"To the park for a while, tell dad I'll be a bit? I can only visit for a short while today." I ask.

"Sure." He says and enters the house.

I wait until he goes inside then head to the park. When I arrive the place is deserted. I smile, making my way towards my favorite swing. I sit there; swinging myself slowly as the breeze swirls some leaves around my feet. I look up and see the cherry blossoms blooming. 'More time to kill.' With a bit of a dejected feeling I let my head hang as my feet scrape the floor. 'This is where I shared with him, one of the greatest feelings of my life. 'I've waited six years, something I never should have done.' I frown as I recall my dilemma, pining over my lost time. I hear a leaf crunch causing my head to snap in its general direction. A familiar gleam of black hair catches my eye and I relax. 'It's just Touya, Sakura.'

"Hey squirt."

"Hey." I smile. "What brings you here? How come you're not hanging out with Yukito?"

"He went to eat." Touya plainly states while standing next to me. "Still thinking about him?"

"Yeah." I feel ashamed somewhat.

"Don't feel bad Sakura. I don't really like him but if you..."

"I know Touya. I know." I nod and continue to stare at the concrete surface beneath my wandering eyes.

We sit in silence for what seems like and eternity before someone else joins us. "Sakura! I've been looking all over for you!"

"Yeah Tomoyo?" I look at her.

"I have some good news...and some bad news." She says sort of out of breath.

"I think I'll go tell dad you'll be home soon." Touya says. I nod. "See ya at home squirt."

"You were saying?" I say to Tomoyo after Touya has left.

"Well, guess whose back in town?" She says with excitement.

I jump up from my swing. 'Could it be?' I grab her shoulders and shake her a little. "Could it be? Is it?" I begin.

She laughs and nods. "Hai Sakura-Chan."

I feel myself warm up all over and begin to jump up and down like a ten-year-old. I finally look at her again only to come face to face with a sad face. "Tomoyo, what is it?"

"There's one problem Sakura." She says.

"What?" I ask in an agonized voice.

"He doesn't remember who we are. He lost his memory in Hong Kong." Tomoyo answers in a sorrowful voice.

My world comes crashing down. "What? No, Tomoyo, it can be. I can't believe that Syaoran lost his memory, I won't believe it. I WON'T!" I shout not letting the words sink in.

"Sakura, I'm really sorry." She begins.

"NO!" I yell tearing away from the park, the memories, from everything.

I run all the way home. When there I burst through the door and run to my room. After slamming the door I slide down to the floor, sobs wracking my body. 'No...Not Syoaran.' I hug myself, hoping that the words aren't true. I never, in all my years of waiting to tell him, I never thought I wouldn't know him. As I gaze out my window I see the stars sparkling brightly. 'There's no brightness in this situation Sakura. He won't remember you, but...it is worth a try.' I decide that tomorrow I will go visit him. 'I will make you remember me, I will.' I vow silently as I slip into bed.

The next day...

The sunlight is flowing through my window. 'Thank the lord it's Saturday.' I roll out of bed and rub my eyes sleepily. My head aches and my eyes feel puffy. 'Was I crying all night?' I look into the mirror and see that my face is tear streaked. 'Syaoran!' I quickly take a shower, get dressed, and head to the kitchen for breakfast. I grab my toast and am about to step out the door when my dad stops me. "Where are you going Sakura?"

"To visit Syaoran." I say.

"He's back?" My dad asks.

"Yeah, sot of." I say and run out the door.

As I'm running I see someone up ahead. Thinking it is Yukito I run up to him and tap him on the back. "Where were you going? Tomoyo's?" I ask playfully.

"Excuse me, do I know you?" The person says.

I stop immediately and look into the person's eyes. "Syaoran?"

"Hai." He looks at me curiously. "How do you know my name?"

"Syaoran, you don't remember me? It's me, Sakura Kinimoto." I say. "Please Syaoran, you have to remember me."

"Pardon me miss, but I don't think I've ever met you." He says again.

"Uh...yeah, guess I thought you were someone else." I lie. "SO, where are you from?"

"Hong Kong. Actually, You're the first person I've seen since my arrival." He smiles. "Well, since you already know my name, and I know yours, can you help show me around? I'm quite new here and want to get a bit adjusted here. Would you mind?"

"Um...no. I wouldn't mind!" I reply cheerily and grab his hand. "Come on."

"Thank you." He says.

I look at where I've put my hand and quickly drop it. "Yeah...no problem."

There is an uncomfortable silence as we begin to walk to Penguin Park. 'He said he wanted to look around, so why not here first. After all, we are only a few blocks away.' I glance over at him. 'Oh Syaoran...Why now?' I feel as though I have lost a part of my heart. In fact, I know I have. "Wonder if he remembers MeiLin.' He seems to be peaceful, as we walk, like he never even quarreled with me during our younger days. I'm filled with regret with my decision. 'I should've told you sooner.' Finally we arrive at the park and I take him to the swings. I want to help him remember me. 'Maybe this will help.'

"So Syaoran, uh...do you remember this park?" I ask as I sit on the swing.

"No." He responds and sits down next to me. "I don't recollect such."

"Oh." I say downheartedly. "So, what brings you to America? Are you an exchange student?"

"No, I actually came for another reason. I do remember it being because I needed to see someone." His eyes are filled with confusion. "I believe it was a girl...but I...I can't remember exactly."

"I see." I nod and swing myself a bit. "Do you have any relatives here?"

"Yes, a girl named MeiLin, but I don't remember her." He says sadly. "I seem to be related to her though."

I stare at him. 'So he does remember MeiLin, or at least someone told him about her.' I suddenly hop off the swing and motion for him to stand as well. "What is it?" He asks.

"Nothing, I just thought that maybe you'd like to eat dinner at my house tonight. You're new here so I thought you'd like to get filled in on the city." I smile.

"I would like that. Thank you." He complies. "Where to now?"

"I guess I could show you our college. That's probably where you'll being going to school." I lead him to the college.

While we walk I notice that he seems vaguely interested in talking. Just like the Syaoran I knew.' I think weakly as I remember the day he and I first met. He had wanted the Clow Cards from me and had tried to take them bye force. 'Haha...that's when Touya first met him as well.' I smile to myself, but it quickly turns into a frown. 'Touya! What will I do with him during dinner?' I figure that I will deal with it later. When we arrive at the school I show Syaoran my dorm. As he examines it his eyes fall upon a picture. I look as he picks it up. "What have you got there Syaoran?" I ask.

"It's a picture of you, two girls, and...me?" He looks puzzled. "But how...?"

"Oh that!" I grab it and shove it under my pillowcase. "That's not you! It's just uh...someone who looks almost like you. Yeah, like you!"

"I guess." He says. "Um...Sakura? Would you mind if I asked if we could go eat now? I'm a bit hungry."

"No problem." I say and we walk to my house.

AT DINNER...

"So, Syaoran, how was Hong Kong?" My dad asks.

"It's a very nice place." He answers while taking a spoonful of soup.

I smile sadly as Syaoran talks with my dad. I look at Touya who is ignoring everyone. Yukito is also ignoring everyone. 'That's normal. He's eating.' I stare at my soup as if it is vile. I can't eat. The liquid is still and haunting for some odd reason. Suddenly it ripples. I realize that I'm crying. 'Oh no...not in front of everyone here.' I stand silently and turn towards my father with my head low. "Father, may I be excused?" My father nods and I walk slowly to the hall. Once out of seeing distance I bolt out the back door. I run for what seems like hours until I reach the park again. I know no one will come look for me here. Once again, I'm running away from my problems, from the truth, from Syaoran. I violently throw myself against the tree. My favorite tree. Cherry Blossoms. I quickly bury my head in my hands, trying to disintegrate the feelings that begin to well up inside me.

For some queer reason I sit here, hoping that Syaoran will come for me, but I know such will not happen. After all, this isn't the same Syaoran. 'Oh please...why can't you remember me?' My mind screams in my head. I begin to shake all over, my sobs becoming louder. I sound like I am choking, but I don't care. 'I NEVER SHOULD'VE WAITED SO LONG!' I suddenly turn to the tree and begin beating it harshly with my fists. Minutes pass before I drop my fists and cradle my bleeding knuckles in my shirt. I begin sobbing once again, the pain of my loss and my knuckles mixing together. I don't know how long I've been there but I begin to doze off but a voice wakes me.

"SAKURA!"

I look up. "Touya?"

"Are you ok?" Yukito asks. "Touya, Syaoran and I have been looking all over for you."

"I am." I get up weakly. "Where are they?"

"We're right here!"

"Touya, Syaoran!" Yukito shouts. Once they arrive Yukito says something about having to go home. I watch as he walks off, giving me a wink before disappearing.. Touya looks mildly irritated to be standing next to Syaoran but seems ok since this isn't the same one. Touya grabs my hands.

"Sakura, why are you're knuckles bleeding?" He asks.

"I...I" I begin but don't finish as he glances at the wood pieces stuck to my knuckles.

"I see." He helps me up. "Let's get you back home."

I look back at Syaoran who is following in the back. He seems to be worried. I stare a bit longer, meeting his sudden gaze. I avert my eyes to the sidewalk. 'No...I can't do this anymore.' Very slowly I become aware of a hand holding mine, rubbing it softly. I look up and see Syaoran wiping off the blood chunks and wrapping a piece of cloth around it. "Why did you just run out?" He asks.

"I...I needed some fresh air." I lie.

"Does that explain this?" He shows me my bloody hands.

"No...you don't understand." I say and pull them away from him. "You won't understand."

"You're probably right." He smiles. "But I'd like to."

I smile in return as we head to his house. Touya walks in back, watching me while I walk Syaoran home. When we arrive at his house he opens the door to step in but stops halfway. He turns to me with a genuine smile of caring. "You really are kind Sakura Kinimoto. I thank you." He says before fading away inside his house. As Touya and I walk back to our house I make a new vow. 'I will help you Syaoran-kun, but this time I will help you remember for you.' I sigh sadly at what I must do. I do want him to remember me but I will put myself aside for him. "It's ok Sakura." I reassure myself. "It'll be ok.'

(Well, I hope to have part 2 out soon! PLEASE R&R and hope you liked it! THANX! ~samenia! Oh and by the way, everyone noticed it is an S+S right?) ^_~