NTD: I do not and never will own Card Captor Sakura so please don't sue me. Oh yeah, I don't own the song either. That's property of the Smiths. Hope you enjoy the fic!
AN: Um...yeah. sorry I ain't an expert at this but you know. Sorry it's so short this time. I hope the next one to be longer. enjoy! ~SAMENIA~
There Is A Light That Never Goes Out (Part 2)
Take me out tonight, Where there's music and there's people
Who are young and alive, Driving in your car
I never never want to go home, Because I haven't got one, anymore
I sing softly to the tune and lyrics of The Smiths. 'This song has so many meanings.' I grin at that thought and turn my radio off. It's been a long day. After I cam home from Syaoran's tongiht, I just couldn't sleep. 'Well, it isn't that late. It's barely 10:00.' For the past 6 months I've been helping him in trying to regain his past memory. 'He doesn't know that though.' I casually sit on the bed and inspect my telephone. 'Sakura, why are you inspecting your telephone?' I ask myself aloud. With a sigh I place it back on the receiver and go to my closet, opening it. With a sad spark in my eye I browse the various outfits that Tomoyo had made me during our card captor days. "Tomoyo...wonder how she's been? I know Eriol was back as well but I haven't heard from her since our meeting earlier today.'
RING! RING! RING!
I run and pick up my phone. "Hello? This is Sakura Kinimoto."
"Hi Sakura. Thought I'd just let you know some things." Tomoyo's voice speaks over the phone.
"Oh? Like what?" I jump on my bed and settle down in the pillows. "Is it about Eriol?"
"Um...he's here, true, but that's not what it was about." I hear her say nervously. "Actually, it was about Syaoran. I saw him earlier. He seemed lonely, out of order, sort of lost ya know?"
"Really? Maybe I should go talk to him." I reply with worry. "Is that all? I think I might go over there now."
"Well, I just thought I should let you know that and that Eriol and I are going to that festival tomorrow, you know? The one to celebrate Christmas?" She says. "I thought you might bring Syaoran since he won't have anyone to go with."
"Yeah I suppose. Well, I'll see you tomorrow Tomoyo. I'm going to go see Syaoran." I say and hang up. I run downstairs and see that Touya is with Yukito again. 'Gee, what a surprise, Yukito is eating.' Touya looks annoyed as his friend eats. I run up to him and tell him that I am going for a walk. He gives me an odd look. "At this hour?" He says.
"It's for Syaoran." I say. "I have to do this."
"Fine. Just be careful Sakura." He turns back to Yukito. "Don't you ever stop eating?"
I laugh at Yukito's reply. On my way to Syaoran's I notice a lone figure sitting by the lake on a bench. 'Syaoran? It couldn't be.' I walk over to get a better look. 'It is Syaoran!' I gather my courage and sit next to him. He looks at me with bewilderment and surprise. "Konichiwa Syaoran-Kun." I say. "What brings you here tonight?"
"Nothing in particular Sakura-chan, I just feel empty." He says.
"Empty? Empty as in how? Are you hungry, or are you thirsty?" I ask.
"No, not that kind of empty. I feel as if something, someone, is missing from my life. As if a big part of me has been lost for some time now." He stares at the water. "I feel as if I'm not me."
"But you are you Li Syaoran." I say. " I know that you aren't the Li Syaoran I used to know but..."
"That's just it Sakura. How do you know that if we met six months ago?" He gives me a frustrated look. "How do you know me so well? How come I don't remember you?"
"Well, I don't really know, but I do know this." I begin with a ghostly smile. "Someone once told me this saying. Someone once told me that there is a light that never goes out and that light exists in all of us. What I'm saying Syaoran, is that you will find the truth out and that it will be better."
"Do you really believe that Sakura?" He asks.
"I really do." I lean over and hug him. "I really do."
"Sakura I...I have something to confess." His voice cracks.
I look up at him with worry. "Syaoran? Are you ok?"
"Sakura I...I think that I..." He stutters. "I think that I'm falling..."
"Syaoran?" I move back a bit and stare into his beautiful amber eyes.
As he starts to speak again I jump off the bench and begin backing away further. "Sakura? What's wrong?" He stands and begins advancing towards me.
"No..." I whisper. "NO!" I tear away from him and begin running. 'STOP RUNNING SAKURA!' I yell to myself. I can't stop. I'm running away from him. 'He can't love me! It's just someone else speaking. He doesn't remember me and if he did then he wouldn't love me.' I wipe the tears away furiously as I continue my journey to my familiar comforting spot. Once there I collapse onto the ground. 'I can't love him, I can't.' I repeat over and over in my head. Fresh tears spring to my eyes and begin to fall like a river flows. I curl up into a ball and stare at the sky. Slowly but steadily I begin to sing.
"And if a double-decker bus, crashes into us, to die by your side is such a heavenly way to die
and if a ten ton truck kills the both of us..." I stop as a familiar voice begins to sing.
"To die by your side, well the pleasure the privilege is mine." Syaoran finishes as he walks towards me. "Sakura..."
"I...I..." In a flash I'm on my feet, preparing to run like hellfire.
"Don't run Sakura." He says. "I'm sorry, whatever I said, I'm sorry."
"No. I'm sorry. I just...I just recalled something scary that all." I say. "I shouldn't have run off like that."
"It's all right Sakura." He hugs me. "I'll walk you home."
"That's ok. I'll walk YOU home." I say and take his hand. "Come on."
When we reach his house I stop him first. "Syaoran, do you remember anything about your past?"
"No...not much." He sits on his front steps. "I do remember a little though."
"What do you remember?" I ask taking a seat next to him.
"Well, I remember something about cards, special cards. I also remember something about a girl, but not her name. She had eyes, just like yours. I remember her most, she seems to stick out." He says. "Why?"
"I was just curious. Um...so you have dreams?" I begin. "About your past?"
"Well, I do have dreams about capturing those special cards and, now that I think about it, that Giant Penguin at the park looks familiar." He answers. "But that girl...she looks just like you. I just can't figure out why she looks like you."
'That's because she is me.' I think. I sigh loudly and slump against him. "Well, it's late now Syaoran, I'm going to go home." As I begin to walk away I remember what Tomoyo told me. "One more thing. Tomorrow Eriol, Tomoyo, and I are going to the Christmas festival...would you like to go with me?"
"I'd love to." He smiles at me before going inside. "Goodnight Sakura."
"Goodnight...Syaoran." I frown as I remember his words. "The girl...she looks just like you..."
'How could I be so selfish? I wanted to get him back just so he would love me, but now...it's not like that anymore.' I couple of tears trickle down my cheeks but I wipe them away. 'We'll see how it goes at the festival.'
AN: Um...yeah. sorry I ain't an expert at this but you know. Sorry it's so short this time. I hope the next one to be longer. enjoy! ~SAMENIA~
There Is A Light That Never Goes Out (Part 2)
Take me out tonight, Where there's music and there's people
Who are young and alive, Driving in your car
I never never want to go home, Because I haven't got one, anymore
I sing softly to the tune and lyrics of The Smiths. 'This song has so many meanings.' I grin at that thought and turn my radio off. It's been a long day. After I cam home from Syaoran's tongiht, I just couldn't sleep. 'Well, it isn't that late. It's barely 10:00.' For the past 6 months I've been helping him in trying to regain his past memory. 'He doesn't know that though.' I casually sit on the bed and inspect my telephone. 'Sakura, why are you inspecting your telephone?' I ask myself aloud. With a sigh I place it back on the receiver and go to my closet, opening it. With a sad spark in my eye I browse the various outfits that Tomoyo had made me during our card captor days. "Tomoyo...wonder how she's been? I know Eriol was back as well but I haven't heard from her since our meeting earlier today.'
RING! RING! RING!
I run and pick up my phone. "Hello? This is Sakura Kinimoto."
"Hi Sakura. Thought I'd just let you know some things." Tomoyo's voice speaks over the phone.
"Oh? Like what?" I jump on my bed and settle down in the pillows. "Is it about Eriol?"
"Um...he's here, true, but that's not what it was about." I hear her say nervously. "Actually, it was about Syaoran. I saw him earlier. He seemed lonely, out of order, sort of lost ya know?"
"Really? Maybe I should go talk to him." I reply with worry. "Is that all? I think I might go over there now."
"Well, I just thought I should let you know that and that Eriol and I are going to that festival tomorrow, you know? The one to celebrate Christmas?" She says. "I thought you might bring Syaoran since he won't have anyone to go with."
"Yeah I suppose. Well, I'll see you tomorrow Tomoyo. I'm going to go see Syaoran." I say and hang up. I run downstairs and see that Touya is with Yukito again. 'Gee, what a surprise, Yukito is eating.' Touya looks annoyed as his friend eats. I run up to him and tell him that I am going for a walk. He gives me an odd look. "At this hour?" He says.
"It's for Syaoran." I say. "I have to do this."
"Fine. Just be careful Sakura." He turns back to Yukito. "Don't you ever stop eating?"
I laugh at Yukito's reply. On my way to Syaoran's I notice a lone figure sitting by the lake on a bench. 'Syaoran? It couldn't be.' I walk over to get a better look. 'It is Syaoran!' I gather my courage and sit next to him. He looks at me with bewilderment and surprise. "Konichiwa Syaoran-Kun." I say. "What brings you here tonight?"
"Nothing in particular Sakura-chan, I just feel empty." He says.
"Empty? Empty as in how? Are you hungry, or are you thirsty?" I ask.
"No, not that kind of empty. I feel as if something, someone, is missing from my life. As if a big part of me has been lost for some time now." He stares at the water. "I feel as if I'm not me."
"But you are you Li Syaoran." I say. " I know that you aren't the Li Syaoran I used to know but..."
"That's just it Sakura. How do you know that if we met six months ago?" He gives me a frustrated look. "How do you know me so well? How come I don't remember you?"
"Well, I don't really know, but I do know this." I begin with a ghostly smile. "Someone once told me this saying. Someone once told me that there is a light that never goes out and that light exists in all of us. What I'm saying Syaoran, is that you will find the truth out and that it will be better."
"Do you really believe that Sakura?" He asks.
"I really do." I lean over and hug him. "I really do."
"Sakura I...I have something to confess." His voice cracks.
I look up at him with worry. "Syaoran? Are you ok?"
"Sakura I...I think that I..." He stutters. "I think that I'm falling..."
"Syaoran?" I move back a bit and stare into his beautiful amber eyes.
As he starts to speak again I jump off the bench and begin backing away further. "Sakura? What's wrong?" He stands and begins advancing towards me.
"No..." I whisper. "NO!" I tear away from him and begin running. 'STOP RUNNING SAKURA!' I yell to myself. I can't stop. I'm running away from him. 'He can't love me! It's just someone else speaking. He doesn't remember me and if he did then he wouldn't love me.' I wipe the tears away furiously as I continue my journey to my familiar comforting spot. Once there I collapse onto the ground. 'I can't love him, I can't.' I repeat over and over in my head. Fresh tears spring to my eyes and begin to fall like a river flows. I curl up into a ball and stare at the sky. Slowly but steadily I begin to sing.
"And if a double-decker bus, crashes into us, to die by your side is such a heavenly way to die
and if a ten ton truck kills the both of us..." I stop as a familiar voice begins to sing.
"To die by your side, well the pleasure the privilege is mine." Syaoran finishes as he walks towards me. "Sakura..."
"I...I..." In a flash I'm on my feet, preparing to run like hellfire.
"Don't run Sakura." He says. "I'm sorry, whatever I said, I'm sorry."
"No. I'm sorry. I just...I just recalled something scary that all." I say. "I shouldn't have run off like that."
"It's all right Sakura." He hugs me. "I'll walk you home."
"That's ok. I'll walk YOU home." I say and take his hand. "Come on."
When we reach his house I stop him first. "Syaoran, do you remember anything about your past?"
"No...not much." He sits on his front steps. "I do remember a little though."
"What do you remember?" I ask taking a seat next to him.
"Well, I remember something about cards, special cards. I also remember something about a girl, but not her name. She had eyes, just like yours. I remember her most, she seems to stick out." He says. "Why?"
"I was just curious. Um...so you have dreams?" I begin. "About your past?"
"Well, I do have dreams about capturing those special cards and, now that I think about it, that Giant Penguin at the park looks familiar." He answers. "But that girl...she looks just like you. I just can't figure out why she looks like you."
'That's because she is me.' I think. I sigh loudly and slump against him. "Well, it's late now Syaoran, I'm going to go home." As I begin to walk away I remember what Tomoyo told me. "One more thing. Tomorrow Eriol, Tomoyo, and I are going to the Christmas festival...would you like to go with me?"
"I'd love to." He smiles at me before going inside. "Goodnight Sakura."
"Goodnight...Syaoran." I frown as I remember his words. "The girl...she looks just like you..."
'How could I be so selfish? I wanted to get him back just so he would love me, but now...it's not like that anymore.' I couple of tears trickle down my cheeks but I wipe them away. 'We'll see how it goes at the festival.'