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Dear Diary
Chapter Three
11:15 pm, Friday night
Dear Diary,
I know I haven't written in two
weeks but I've been busy trying to catch up with school. You know how I've
been letting things slide since Tai left.
Anyway, I just got back from the
school disco. Matt and I danced just about every dance together.
Usually, I'd miss Tai at events like these, but tonight, I have to confess, I
didn't think of him once...
"Let's take a break and sit
this one out," I suggested to Matt as the DJ put on a slow song.
"I'm pretty breathless, aren't you?"
The mood in the room had changed
along with the music. All around us, couples grew closer, wrapping their
arms around each other. Romance seemed to fill the air like perfume.
Matt grasped my arm, preventing me
from stepping away. "One more," he said. "Slow dances
aren't too strenuous."
Laughing softly, I stepped close
again. Matt put his arms around my waist and I circled mine around his
shoulders. Gingerly, I rested my head against his chest. Have we
ever slow danced before? I found myself wondering. I didn't think
so. I didn't think I'd ever been this physically close to Matt Ishida...
He was right- slow dancing wasn't
that strenuous. But for some reason I still felt breathless. Why was
my pulse racing? Why was my face so hot?
"You know, Matt," I murmured,
not meeting his eye. "You should ask some other girls to dance.
I know you're looking out for me but I'll be okay."
Matt's arms tightened around
me. "What if I don't want to ask other girls to dance? What if
I only want to dance with you?"
We were silent. I couldn't
answer Matt's question; I wouldn't. What if...?
I know what's happening to me
diary. I wasn't born yesterday- I've had feelings like this before.
But I can't give into them. Matt is Tai's best friend. I have to
stop thinking like this but it's hard. When Matt's arms were around me, my
body pressed against his... I could feel his heart pounding.
He offered to drive me home but I
turned him down and I hope he knows why. I hope he's making a resolution
too- we simply can't follow up on this attraction. It'll pass if we ignore
it.
Izzy introduced us to a new guy
tonight. His name is Andrew and he is pretty cute- tall, blond- but
frankly, I had a hard time focusing on him. My gaze kept straying to
another tall, blond guy, initials M.I ..... DON'T DO THIS SORA!
11:57 pm, Saturday night
Dear Diary,
Mimi visited us from America
tonight. What a surprise! Joe and Yolei threw a party for her.
It was so much fun! I could tell Mimi had a thing for Andrew- you know,
the guy Izzy introduced us to at the dance. I wonder if any sparks will
start in between those two?
Speaking of sparks, I almost
don't want to write this down. I hope no one ever finds out about
it. I can't believe I let myself get so carried away...
"This is a really great
party," Matt said. "Actually, when Mimi's around, a party will
start."
We were in Joe's kitchen; Matt was
helping me load up another platter of sandwiches. "I know," I
said laughing. "Mimi always stirs things up."
I placed the last sandwich on the
plate; the platter was ready to go. "There," I announced to fill
up the silence.
Matt and I looked at the
platter. Then we looked at each other. Something in Matt's eyes told
me I should take a step backward, away from him. Pick up the platter,
I commanded myself. Carry it into the living room.
"Sora," Matt said in this
strange voice. He clasped my hand and my resolve melted. Instead of
backing away, I let him pull me outside to the patio.
The backyard was dark and we slipped
eagerly into the shadows. Without another word, Matt folded his arms
around me, lifting me slightly so his mouth could find mine. I kissed him
back, my fingers tangling in his hair. His hands were on my shoulders, my
neck, my back. We couldn't seem to stop touching each other- maybe because
for weeks we'd been dying to do this, but holding back.
After a long, recklessly delicious
moment, I pulled away. "Matt, we really shouldn't..."
"Shh." Matt placed a
finger gently against my lips. "Don't say it. Let's try not to
think about it..."
It was too late. It was
already out there. Guilt crept into my heart. Tai trusted Matt and
me- how could we do this to him?
Matt reached for me again. If
his hand had so much brushed against my skin, I knew I'd throw myself back into
his arms. Whirling, I ran away, back into the house.
Where will this end, Diary?
Because it's finally started. Matt and I have let our feelings for each
other show. There's no going back now...
