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--- Author's Note ---
Sorry it took so long to get this out, but this
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Dear Diary
Chapter Four
3:45 pm, Sunday afternoon
Tai called today. He
sounded cheerful. He doesn't suspect anything. But why should
he? I'm his girlfriend and Matt's his best friend. He trusts
us. When he asked me 'so is Matt looking after you like I asked him to?' I
nearly died. When I answered, I was sure he could hear the guilt in my
voice. But he continued jabbering.
Anyway, after we hung up I made a
resolution. It was just one kiss. I'm sure Tai's kissed at least one
girl while he's out in America. Just stay away from Matt, I told
myself. Who am I kidding? I can't stay away from him! I might
as well tell the sun to stop shining. I tried to tell Matt about it
today...
"Matt," I said, settling
down on the bench. "We need to talk about this."
Matt kissed my neck. "Go
ahead," he whispered. "I'm listening."
"Matt, this is all I think
about, holding you, kissing you..." I said. "But it's
wrong. Don't you see?"
Matt cupped my face in his
hands. "All I see right now is you," he replied.
"This sweet, incredible girl that I've admired more than anyone I know."
He kissed me softly but I pressed my lips together and shook my head.
"What about Tai?" I asked
bluntly.
Guilt flickered in Matt's
eyes. "I always thought Tai was the luckiest guy on earth," he
confessed. "Because he was going out with you. I didn't mean
for this to happen you know. I didn't want to take advantage of his
trust."
"So what are we going to
do?" I whispered.
"We both know what we should
do," Matt said. "And we both know what we want to do."
"And the problem is," I
said. "They're not the same thing."
5:25 pm, Thursday afternoon
Oh Diary,
I've been arguing with myself all
week. Break things off with Matt... don't break things off with
Matt. But I finally came to a conclusion. I have to. This is
wrong. If Tai ever found out... I'll tell Matt tomorrow. Or
the day after...
