Insanity
Chapter one
By: Ierra
e-mail: Kyoki@lunap.com (I'm using my personal e-mail here, heh)
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Okay, I know, I'm confusing a lot of people…… or is it just me I'm confusing? Okay, ya see, I'm going by too many names. On Fairytale I posted as Kamiki Cutie, and then I changed it to Ierra on ASMR and most of the other sites….. or was it one site that I posted as Kyoki? Okay, I'm trying to switch to the name Ierra, but on fairytale I'm gonna keep it as Kamiki Cutie (I think I'm caused her enough trouble ^_^;;) So don't go accusing one of us for copying the other's fic, cuz I'm the same person ^_^ and yes, on ff.net I go as Kyoki, that's my pen name. So don't accuse me there either. Heh. I think I'm confusing myself here……. Okay, I'm just gonna write the chapter.
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I walked into the kitchen and sighed.
Okay, I hurt Mamoru, I have Usagi in my living room, and I'm living in a cartoon……. Is there anything wrong here? Nope, my life has ALWAYS been screwed…… then again, this is a little more screwed than normal….. I sighed again. I walked over to the cupboard and pulled out two cups. I opened my fridge and looked at all that I had to drink.
"Hey Usagi-chan! Whatcha want to drink?" I yelled at her with my head in the fridge.
"What do you have?" She asked.
I pulled my head out of the fridge and listed a long line of things.
"Mountain dew?" She asked.
"It's from Amerika." I said. (AN: yes, that's how they spell it in Japan, Amerika anyways.)
"Is it good?" She asked.
"Yep! I wouldn't have it if it wasn't good." I replied.
"Okay, lemme try it!" She said.
I smiled, that's Usagi for ya. "Okies" I said then stuck my head back in the fridge.
"You really shouldn't do that." A man's voice said.
"Wha!" I yelled jumping up and turning around wide eyed. "Mamo-chan! Don't do-" He put a hand over my mouth.
"Ya mind?" He whispered.
I rolled my eyes. He took his hand off of my mouth.
"Why is she here?" He asked in a hushed voice.
I looked at him weirdly. "Because she's my frriieeennnddd. Can you say that with me? Or here, Japanese word, tamodachi. Say that for me Mamo." I said sarcastically. (AN: I'm too lazy to put a dictionary at the bottom, so I'm gonna just tell ya now, Tamodachi means Friend(s) in Japanese, I don't know if I'm spelling it right, my memory is pretty bad, heh, but it's something like that.)
He rolled his eyes.
I sighed and softened a bit. "Mamo-chan, you know I didn't mean-" I started but had him interrupt me.
"Look, I just wanted to talk to you about something, but her being here isn't exactly what I expected." He said.
I cocked my head to the side a bit. "Mamo…" I sighed. "You can go wait in my room till she leaves if ya want but I'm not kicking her out."
He looked up. "I know you won't kick her out, I'm not gonna ask you to either, that's just not you, but I'll….." He trailed off.
I looked at him strangely. "What?" I asked.
He shook his head. "Never mind, I'm gonna go wait in your room." He walked off and went through the door that lead to my room, something that I had put there for special purposes, took a lot of convincing too, but hey, I got it. I smirked thinking of that, then turned around and proceeded to get the drinks. I picked up the cups and walked out to the living room. I set them down on the table in the middle, then went over to my stereo. I picked up my CDs and went trough them… I stopped on my TRUEvibe CD and looked at it strangely. I took it out and put it in the CD player and hit play.
The music instantly filled the room.
(AN: okay, yeah, I don't normally listen to this music myself, but I like them, and their CD, don't worry, I know what religion they have in Japan and I'm making Kyoki a Christian. She IS from America after all so you can't really expect her to have a Japanese religion……. Then again, she's been living there for seven years…. Oh well! She's a Christian and if ya don't like it…… I don't know what to do, but oh well, my story!)
I froze at the next words
Kids are killin' kids, no one wants to live, love's on the down low
Now what's up with that?
I shuddered.
"Who are they?" Usagi asked making me jump.
"Huh? Wha…?" I asked.
She looked at me strangely. "Who are they?" She asked again.
"Oh!" I said happily. "TRUEvibe. They're an Amerikan group. I like their music, they're good, especially the one with the deep voice……"
She cocked her head to the side. "They sing weird." She said.
I got a confused look on my face. "Wha do ya mean they sing weird? They just have an Amerikan accent and sing Amerikan music." I said.
She looked at me then smiled. "Maybe it's just me." She said.
I smirked. "Maybe. But it's probably the Amerikan fact." I said.
She nodded.
You are the one that keeps me alive
I paused again, then looked at the number…. It was on number three already? Damn….
I smirked, time to help fate along.
You are the way (the way)
You are the life in me
You are my hope (my everything)
You are my everything
I paused again. Damn words, they relate too much. Okay, fate, that's right.
"So Usagi-chan, why do you hate Mamo-chan?" I asked sitting down next to her.
She looked at me weirdly then scrunched up her nose. "He's a baka! He always calls me odango atama and he always insults me about my grades and everything!" She said.
My face softened. I knew this already, but hey.
"Usagi-chan, you have to understand, you don't know him. He has a….. strange past and he's very cold because of it and he doesn't like to talk to people, this is basically his way of pushing people away, the only people he's not like this to is Motoki and me, you just have to give him a chance, and believe me I'm gonna chew him out for everything too." I said softly, trying to keep Mamoru from hearing.
She looked at me. "What happened in his past?" She asked.
I sighed. "I can't say Usa," I said forgetting to call her Usagi-chan, "you'd have to have him tell you cuz that's not my right."
She lifted her head a little then cocked it to the side. "Not your right?" She asked.
I smiled softly. "I can't tell you cuz it's his business and I have no right to tell people his business." I said. I wasn't really into telling people what happened to other people.
She nodded slowly.
I smiled, then leaned back on the couch and started to sing along with the songs.
They were comforting to me to listen to cuz it spoke about how a person survived.
I wanna tell you
I wanna let you know and I wanna show you the way I feel for you
I didn't know you
Now anyone can see
You are my God
And you found me
I sighed. This just reminded me of a painful past.
I should just concentrate on Usagi and Mamo-chan, that can distract me for a while. That's what I always did, found a way to distract myself.
I reached out and took a drink of my Mountain Dew.
"Are you okay?" Usagi asked. I looked at her startled and almost spit out my drink She looked so genuine and concerned.
I swallowed my drink quickly. "Yeah, I'm fine, why?" I asked.
"You just looked upset." She said.
I smiled. She was just so innocent, why was Mamo-chan so mean to her? I'm gonna hurt him for it.
"Do you need to be home at a certain time?" I asked.
Her eyes widened. "Oh no!! I was supposed to be at the sco….." She paused. "Um, I mean Rei's gonna kill me!!!" She jumped up.
I shook my head.
"You can come back any time ya want." I said.
She smiled, "Thanks Kyo-chan." She said. Then ran out the door. I smiled at the door.
"None of that was your business to tell her no matter what." A voice growled behind me.
I rolled my eyes. "Look, I know you like her Mamo-chan." I said without turning around.
"What?!" He yelled.
I smirked then turned around. "Like I said, I gotta lay off the anime, but I can't, I'd go insane, oh wait, I am, hence the name." I said.
He glared at me. "What do you mean I like her?" He growled.
I smirked. "Just one question, why didn't you tell me about your little odango?" I asked wiggling my eyebrows.
His eyes widened. "MY odango?!" He asked.
I nodded. "Yep, YOUR odango. I would of wanted to meet her, but of course you can't tell me when you meet people, I'm ONLY your best friend." I said.
He sighed. "Ki-chan, she and I are enemies, she's not mine, never will be, and I didn't tell you about her because I didn't know it was important to tell you about my enemies. You know you're my best friend." He said.
I smirked. "Enemy, ne?" I said.
"Yes." He growled.
"And what would you say if I told you I disagreed?" I asked.
He growled. "Ki…" He said in a warning tone.
I smiled really big and innocently. "Wwhhhaaatttt?" I said just as innocently.
"Watch it." He growled.
"Whatch what?" I asked cocking my head to the side and blinking innocently.
He growled "Baka." He said then started chasing me around the room.
"Wah!! Mamo! You can't kill me!" I said grabbing onto the side of the couch for support.
"Why not?" He growled from the other side of the couch.
I smiled. "Cuz I'm your best friend, who would be your best friend if you killed me?" I asked.
"There's always Motoki." He said smirking.
I frowned. "But I know you better!!" I protested.
"Thus another reason to kill you." He said.
"What? Why?" I asked confused.
"How do I know you won't tell everyone my secrets?" He asked.
I scrunched up my nose. "Cuz I never break a promise." I said matter-of-factly.
"Don't you always say 'promises never last forever'?" He said.
I narrowed my eyes in annoyance, then rolled them. "That's for you." I said.
He raised an eyebrow at me. "And how is it not for you?" He asked.
"Cuz I made it, so there for it doesn't apply to anyone I don't want it to." I said nodding my head.
He sighed. "Whatever." He said then started towards the door.
I sighed next. "Wha'd I do this time?" I asked in a defeated tone.
He turned around and looked at me oddly. "What?" He asked.
"Wha'd I do this time?" I repeated.
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Well, I'm gonna end it there this time. ^_^ I only got one e-mail tho *sniff* are people THAT lazy? I know I was…. Then I started posting my stories and figured that if I wanted feedback that much I might as well give it ^_^ so, pppppllleeaaaassseee e-mail me. I know this isn't as long as the prologue, and the regular parts will be just as long or longer than that, but I needed to get this done, I have too many things to do and an hour every other day to do them *shakes head* and my parents think I can actually do it all *sigh* oh well. E-MAIL!!!!! Okies, I done
Ierra