"Out here, by yourself again?" a voice echoed from behind her. She didn't need to turn around, for she recognized right away his voice.
"Do you always tend to annoy people the way you do?" Quistis questioned, sounding a bit annoyed. Seifer smirked, as he came up beside her.
"A little late to be out in the Secret Area passed curfew," he replied, taking a drink out of a bottle of wine.
"Funny, you're doing the same thing," she replied, with a smirk. Seifer smiled, as he peered down at the moving waters below them.
"I've been thinkin' a lot," he uttered, his once harsh tone, played a melody against the thin air, "About what might have been...if I---"
"Don't," Quistis suddenly interrupted, "Don't say anything...don't remember those things." Her blue eyes laid still on the moving waters, as they began to glow translucently, "It already happened once, Seifer. Don't do it again."
Seifer let out a laugh, as he stared up at the brightly lit sky, "Don't worry, I didn't come here to be myself..." She turned to him, with questioning eyes. Those eyes that showed hurt more than anything else. Seifer turned away, keeping his calmness, as he took another sip.
"You never cared about me...so why now? Why do you say these things?" Quistis asked, tears forming in the corner of her eyes.
He smirked, as he glanced at her, briefly, "I'm just speakin' my mind."
She turned away, as one hand held onto the railing, "...You'll never change. Do you think the whole World revolves around you, Seifer? Do--do you see that everyone else doesn't have feelings, and you do?" She stared at him, her eyes focused, as tears began to stream down her cheeks, "Well, you know what...it's about time you stop acting so selfish, and try thinking about how the people around you may feel."
Seifer turned to her, staring deeply into her eyes, but coldly, "You don't know me," he uttered, his voice harsh against the air, "You don't know the hell I've been through. You were never there...and you'll never understand how I came to be." Quistis paused, as the two stood staring at one another, without communicating. When Seifer suddenly reached out, pressing his hands firmly against her face, as he pressed his lips against hers. He tasted of hard liquor, but as he kissed her, it soon softened. Quistis quickly struggled to pull away, when he finally released her. He stared back at her, smiling tauntingly.
"Go to hell, Seifer," she murmured, harshly. And with that, she quickly ran off, leaving Seifer to stand alone.
"Guys can really be stupid, just don't pay attention to it, Quistis," Rinoa replied, with a confident smile. Selphie gently placed a comforting hand on her friend's shoulder.
"You should listen to Rinoa," she exclaimed, "She knows him quite well." Rinoa flashed her a dirty look as she added, "You're really starting to get to be like Zell, ya know that?"
Selphie quickly stuck out her tongue, as she continued down the corridor, back towards the dormitory. Quistis turned away, as she felt a sick feeling in her stomach. She then noticed Irvine and Zell coming from around the corner, headed for them.
"Hey, guys," Rinoa uttered, glancing at her. Zell grinned, cheesily, as he sat down beside Quistis, with an odd expression on his face. Irvine stood beside the two, as he stared down at them.
"Ya know 'bout Seifer, right?" he asked, suddenly startling her.
Quistis immediately looked up, an annoyed look upon her face, "Don't talk about him, Zell. I've had enough of that for one day. Don't have to rub it in my face." With that, she quickly stood up and walked down the corridor. Rinoa stared at Zell, with an annoyed look, "Good going."
"Yo, what the hell did I do?" he questioned, innocently. Irvine took her place in the seat, as he stared briefly off into space.
Zell grinned, "Yo, you should really start sayin' somethin'. Everybody knows you like her."
"Who like who?" Rinoa squealed, suddenly distracted. Irvine shot Zell a dirty look, as he slowly stood up. "Hey, I didn't know that," Rinoa exclaimed, smiling. Irvine cocked his head to one side, as he gave her a lopsided smile.
"And to reassure you, no one knows anything."
Seifer sat in his love seat, one leg hanging off the edge, as he stared, blankly at a wall in front of him. There was a sudden knock on the door, when it swung open to reveal Raijinn and Fujinn. Seifer looked up, for a brief moment, as he continued to stare at the wall.
"Ya know, Seifer," Raijinn began, "Ya can't spend all day, staring at a wall, ya know." Fujinn stared at her brother, as she gave him a stern look. In which, he hadn't at all noticed.
"ANGRY," she uttered, as her arms crossed her chest.
Raijinn turned to her, as his expression stayed clueless, "Well, ya know, if you really wanna talk to her, you should."
Seifer suddenly turned to him, as if angered by his words, "What the hell are you yapping about? Talk to who?!?" Raijinn forced a nervous smile, as he took in a deep breath. Seifer slowly stood up, as he stared hard at the two. He then quickly made way passed them and outside the open door.
"Stupid," Seifer murmured, as he continued walking down the long hallway, as he noticed some of the SeeDs staring at him. He had to admit, that had always angered him. He came to a corner, when suddenly Quistis ran into him, as she fell to the ground. Everyone turned to stare at the two, knowing of past relationships.
Quistis quickly looked up, as Seifer kneeled down beside her, picking up the books that she dropped. She stared at him, for what had seemed extremely long, when his eyes fell upon her. He hadn't attempted to say anything, instead, he quickly stood up.
"Thank you," Quistis uttered, as she looked down. Seifer paused, as he stared down as to where she was looking. He quickly gaze back up at her, as she turned and looked him in the eye. Seifer hesitated, when he suddenly walked passed her. Quistis paused, then turned around, only to see him walk off once again.
***
What does love mean? Can love last?
I ask myself these questions, haunted by the past,
I've walked these city streets, I've known victories and defeat,
Searching, hoping, just barely coping.
He opened up to her, that night. Something that fell quite strange for Seifer. He had broke down, losing every ounce of pride that he ever held onto. She had found him, sitting alone on that day of cold December. He had left Garden, earlier that afternoon, without a word to anyone. Not even Raijinn and Fujinn. Quistis sighed, as a whisk of cold air brushed up against her face, sending chills up her spine.
"I feel like shit, right now," Seifer murmured, as he pressed his hands firmly against the park bench. She turned to him, her pink lips with a bright smile, but no reply. "Why did you come here?"
She turned away, as her eyes adjusted onto the dark skies overhead, "I feel sorry for you..."
Seifer let out a laugh, as he slouched back against the bench, with a smirk, "Feel sorry for me? I should be the one feelin' sorry for you. After all, your boyfriend left you for another girl."
Quistis turned to him, but stayed quiet as she let him drown up in thoughts, that made him feel better than everyone else. She smiled, "You know what..you're right. I should be feeling sorry for myself, instead of you. After all, you got somewhere, right? Got banned from Garden, came back...fulfilled your dreams...but never really living up to them."
Seifer rolled his eyes, as he smiled, grimly, "Of course, you see Puberty Boy as a prize. Something better than I'll ever be."
Since, I met you, my life's change,
I feel like a bird, that's been let out of it's cage,
I wanna be good for you, I wanna be true,
Don't know how I'd live with myself, if I ever hurt you.
Quistis turned to him, startled by his remorse, "What's that supposed to mean?"
Seifer smiled, confidently, "Just something." With that, he slowly stood up, walking into the other direction. But came to a stop, as he continued.
"I've always wanted that...to be a knight. A fantasy of mine...that fell even within seconds...I guess you could say, I did loose it all," he uttered, his voice toning down. "True, right? I've always wanted things I couldn't get...even now...when I'm standing right here, in front of you." Quistis looked at him, from where she sat, startled by his remark.
She slowly let the words sink in. But couldn't help but say something, "There's always a start to everything..as long, as you let it happen."
He stared at her, shaking his head, laughing, "You think it's that easy, don't you?" Quistis slowly stood up, as she watched the stars fill the sky.
She glanced up at him, her eyes giving off a radiant glow, "Tell me something. When you feel something is right...do you ever hold back?" Seifer stared at her, as his eyes studied her up and down.
"I never did..."
Your hand's feeling me,
Your love's feeling me,
When you go away,
Your heart's feeling me.
***
Quistis took in a deep breath, she never really understood why those thoughts always seemed to encircle her mind. It was all just memories, it was the first time she had ever gotten into a conversation by trying. Seifer had told her that night, that he wanted to have a start. A start to something new in life, a start with someone.
She smiled, at this sudden thought. But one thing made a place in her mind, he had never told her he cared for her. Not even love her. And he left, with no reason at all. Quistis gently traced her fingers on a dead rose, that laid on her desk. It was once colored, but it soon died off. And Quistis couldn't help but notice, that the rose was just like her heart right at that very moment. Dead.