Feeling revealed
So let me tell you
the story of my life
I promise that it won't take very long
It's not about a hero but a boy running wild
or they used to call the golden child
"You
all probably think of me as some coldhearted jerk, a spoiled prince… Well
you're probably right just a little…" Vegeta sits down eying you suspiciously,
trying to decide if he's willing to tell you the story of his life.
He decides to do so and closes his eyes, takes a deep breath and starts
of with his story.
"My
life wasn't easy. I had to work hard to get my father to notice me, and later
on, when he was dead, I had to work hard to please Freeza." A frown, the one we
all know al to well of our Saiyan prince, forms on his face as he remembers
Freeza. Hardly unnoticeable he shudders.
"I
had to build up this brick wall around me so no one was able to tell what I was
feeling. A warrior doesn't have feelings, at least that's what they always
taught me." A mocking sigh escaped his breath.
"No
one, not even my closest 'friends' knew how I felt" the word friends had an
unsure tone to it, as if Vegeta didn't really took the word seriously.
"We
were also not to have friends, I didn't know how to love… how to receive love.
Until SHE came in my life." A vague smile forms around Vegeta's lips as he
pictures Bulma… the first time he realizes he loved her.
And what I recognized
just running with the wind
Never knowing what the day might bring
I had no connection to what came into my world
You gave meaning to everything
"She was the one to teach me what love was, she is the
only one to ever pierce through my thick brick wall, she could look directly at
my cold, unloved heart. And her warm smile unfroze it…"
Vegeta's face turned dreamy, an unfitting smile graced
his face. Suddely his head snaps up a threatening look in his eyes. "Don't ever
tell any one I said this!"
"And well… when she told me she was pregnant, I didn't
know whether the cry or smile, so instead of doing either of those I just did
what I always did, I snorted… Yeah I know, weird reaction huh?"
"And when Trunks was born, my whole life turned a full
360 degrees, on the inside that is. I do have a reputation to think about!" Vegeta's
face turned dead serious. "Reputation is everything on the battlefield, I have
to be cold and emotionless, feeling make you weak. One exception though…
Kakarot. I actually admire him for that… AAAH What did I just say?!!!"
I used to run, I used to hide
I used to cry all night
I used to walk the streets alone
Nowhere to call my own
But when I look into your eyes
The sun begins to shine
You put me back upon my feet again
Now I kiss the summer rain
(Summer rain)
Kiss the summer rain
(Summer rain)
"Sometimes when I was home alone, I played with
Trunks, he was too young to remember that now. I really enjoyed making the kid
laugh" Vegeta closes his eyes an instant and smiles.
"Yeah even then I knew he had a great power, I decided
to give him a better youth then my own… I guess it didn't work out that great"
a disappointed look came over his face.
"I never could drop the brick wall for anyone in my
life, except for Bulma. She understood why… maybe even better then I did. She
loved me the way I was… and even though I never told her much that I loved her…
she knew, she always knew…God I miss her!" a tear bunt a hole in the corner of
his eye, but Vegeta was determined to keep it to himself.
He never cried for her, not when he found out she was
dead, neither at her funeral. The brick wall had only grown when she died. The
only one who knew his feeling was gone. It had hurt him so much. But instead of
grief he just trained till he dropped and then, even then, he went on. And now
all those feelings had filled him up and now there was no room in him any more…
the tears came…
The rain came falling down
It was never gonna end
Right in the middle of July
You smiled upon my heart
Made me a happy man
Even felt I was that golden child
"Thank you Bulma, You gave me the best years of my
life…"
