Author's crap: Thanks for all the reviews, considering this is my first fic, it's made me
quite delightful. Here's the second chapter for you peeps out there! =รพ
Chapter II - Facing the Music
Ahh.. the things I would do if I could turn back time. Sure, everyone has regrets,
but few with regrets like mine. I guess you know what I mean. I still refuse to believe I
got so many people involved in the shit I wasted everyone's time on, when it all could've
been avoided if not for me and my silly "romantic dream". I crushed the dreams of others
in order to fulfill mine, and I ended up with nothing.
Once again, my home greets me. The hall's almost empty. I wonder where
everyone was. We walk past the ballroom on the second floor and managed to steal a
peek through the slightly ajar door. I recognized Selphie in her yellow dress, checking out
different areas of the ballroom. Seems like she's organizing the decorations; apparently
there'll be a party tonight. Must be celebrating the defeat of Ultimecia, I told myself. The
thought triggered off a whole train of others as I heaved a sigh and hung my head low and
we continued to stroll along the corridor to nowhere in particular.
I lift my head and reeled back in surprise. She was right in front of me! Looking
at me earnestly with those sapphire orbs which never fail to draw me in. I just stared
dumbly at her like an idiot, gaping. I quickly turned my head back only to find that Raij
and Fuuj had somehow managed to slip away while I was looking at the floor. Guess they
knew she was approaching. I turned back to look at her and fumbled around desperately
searching for something to say. Instead, all that came out was,
"H-Hi."
"Hi Seifer. What are you doing back here?"
She asked it in a very subtle way. It led me to think that perhaps she was honestly
curious, instead of showing signs that she doesn't welcome me. Can't tell her that I came
back to see her, can I? No, of course not. I mean, even I haven't forgiven myself, so how
can she?
"I just came back to... to..... I was bored, actually." Hyne, how lame.
She seemed skeptical, and I don't blame her. Trying to save me from
embarrassment, she took it for an answer and decided not to probe any further. She gave
a nod and walked past me, further and further away... No, can't let her go just like that.
Come on moron, think!
"Uh, Quistis?"
She spun round, bewildered.
"You having any classes now? Can we like, have a coffee or something?"
Then she smiled at me. Ahhhhh, that beautiful smile she rarely lets out. She's
always putting up a cold front, a serious exterior. But now I see her warm side shining
through those pearly whites, and it feels damn good knowing I am capable of making her
do that. She didn't have to say anything. I knew it was a yes from the way she was
smiling, and boi am I glad! This has got to be the best day of my life.
We walked in silence to the cafeteria, where we found a seat in a corner not so
noticeable. I wouldn't wanna be seen now, much less with Quistis, and my heart is still
tingling with delight at the fact that she has accepted to spend her precious time with a
loser like me. All of a sudden, I'm at a loss for words. All I really wanna do is to just sit
there, and gaze at this angel before me, watching her every move and etching them
deeply in my head for eternity. But I know what I must do. I must explain myself for my
actions, and convince at least one person among "them" that I have realized my mistakes.
Hopefully then I could clinch an opportunity to come back here and complete my
examination, be a SeeD, work alongside with Quistis everyday...
"So what have you been up to lately?"
I snapped out of my daydreaming, letting her sudden inquire sink in. I guess I was
too deep in thought.
"Nothing much, really. Uh, just fishing all day long with Raij and Fuuj, trying to
sneak around everywhere unnoticed..."
She nod her head in understanding, and took a sip from her coffee. She seemed to
be deep in thought, like she always looks, but I decided to wait for her to say something.
Oh, the anticipation every time it's her turn to speak.
"Have you ever given any thought about returning to Garden?"
Oh, the dreaded question. Of course I have! Am I supposed to tell her that I
came back for that very reason? The very faint glimmer of hope that I will indeed be
accepted again? Maybe some people can come to terms with it, but not Squall, who
unfortunately happens to be the Commander. The one person who decides whether I get
to stay or not. I know that I am incapable of hiding anything from Quistis, so I decided to
tell her the truth.
"Actually, that's what I came back for."
"Oh?"
"Yeah.. part of it, yes."
"So what's the other part?"
Oh noooooo... don't make me say it.
"Uh... hehheh, you'll find out soon enough."
She gave me that skeptical look. Told you I can't hide anything from her.
Anyways, she decided not to probe any further and resumed sipping from her styrofoam
cup. However hard I try to deny that fact that I yearn to return to the Garden, deep in my
heart, I know I have other reasons for wanting to come back.
quite delightful. Here's the second chapter for you peeps out there! =รพ
Chapter II - Facing the Music
Ahh.. the things I would do if I could turn back time. Sure, everyone has regrets,
but few with regrets like mine. I guess you know what I mean. I still refuse to believe I
got so many people involved in the shit I wasted everyone's time on, when it all could've
been avoided if not for me and my silly "romantic dream". I crushed the dreams of others
in order to fulfill mine, and I ended up with nothing.
Once again, my home greets me. The hall's almost empty. I wonder where
everyone was. We walk past the ballroom on the second floor and managed to steal a
peek through the slightly ajar door. I recognized Selphie in her yellow dress, checking out
different areas of the ballroom. Seems like she's organizing the decorations; apparently
there'll be a party tonight. Must be celebrating the defeat of Ultimecia, I told myself. The
thought triggered off a whole train of others as I heaved a sigh and hung my head low and
we continued to stroll along the corridor to nowhere in particular.
I lift my head and reeled back in surprise. She was right in front of me! Looking
at me earnestly with those sapphire orbs which never fail to draw me in. I just stared
dumbly at her like an idiot, gaping. I quickly turned my head back only to find that Raij
and Fuuj had somehow managed to slip away while I was looking at the floor. Guess they
knew she was approaching. I turned back to look at her and fumbled around desperately
searching for something to say. Instead, all that came out was,
"H-Hi."
"Hi Seifer. What are you doing back here?"
She asked it in a very subtle way. It led me to think that perhaps she was honestly
curious, instead of showing signs that she doesn't welcome me. Can't tell her that I came
back to see her, can I? No, of course not. I mean, even I haven't forgiven myself, so how
can she?
"I just came back to... to..... I was bored, actually." Hyne, how lame.
She seemed skeptical, and I don't blame her. Trying to save me from
embarrassment, she took it for an answer and decided not to probe any further. She gave
a nod and walked past me, further and further away... No, can't let her go just like that.
Come on moron, think!
"Uh, Quistis?"
She spun round, bewildered.
"You having any classes now? Can we like, have a coffee or something?"
Then she smiled at me. Ahhhhh, that beautiful smile she rarely lets out. She's
always putting up a cold front, a serious exterior. But now I see her warm side shining
through those pearly whites, and it feels damn good knowing I am capable of making her
do that. She didn't have to say anything. I knew it was a yes from the way she was
smiling, and boi am I glad! This has got to be the best day of my life.
We walked in silence to the cafeteria, where we found a seat in a corner not so
noticeable. I wouldn't wanna be seen now, much less with Quistis, and my heart is still
tingling with delight at the fact that she has accepted to spend her precious time with a
loser like me. All of a sudden, I'm at a loss for words. All I really wanna do is to just sit
there, and gaze at this angel before me, watching her every move and etching them
deeply in my head for eternity. But I know what I must do. I must explain myself for my
actions, and convince at least one person among "them" that I have realized my mistakes.
Hopefully then I could clinch an opportunity to come back here and complete my
examination, be a SeeD, work alongside with Quistis everyday...
"So what have you been up to lately?"
I snapped out of my daydreaming, letting her sudden inquire sink in. I guess I was
too deep in thought.
"Nothing much, really. Uh, just fishing all day long with Raij and Fuuj, trying to
sneak around everywhere unnoticed..."
She nod her head in understanding, and took a sip from her coffee. She seemed to
be deep in thought, like she always looks, but I decided to wait for her to say something.
Oh, the anticipation every time it's her turn to speak.
"Have you ever given any thought about returning to Garden?"
Oh, the dreaded question. Of course I have! Am I supposed to tell her that I
came back for that very reason? The very faint glimmer of hope that I will indeed be
accepted again? Maybe some people can come to terms with it, but not Squall, who
unfortunately happens to be the Commander. The one person who decides whether I get
to stay or not. I know that I am incapable of hiding anything from Quistis, so I decided to
tell her the truth.
"Actually, that's what I came back for."
"Oh?"
"Yeah.. part of it, yes."
"So what's the other part?"
Oh noooooo... don't make me say it.
"Uh... hehheh, you'll find out soon enough."
She gave me that skeptical look. Told you I can't hide anything from her.
Anyways, she decided not to probe any further and resumed sipping from her styrofoam
cup. However hard I try to deny that fact that I yearn to return to the Garden, deep in my
heart, I know I have other reasons for wanting to come back.