Chapter 4
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Moonchild here!! Well I am back!! Hope you enjoy this chapter!! Please leave a review!! Enjoy!! I don't own Sailor Moon so don't sue me!!
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June 20, 1999
Today was one of the most confusing days of my life. I was heart broken, but then my heart overflowed with love. I guess I should explain. Today is the day Lita's family and her leave this world of happiness, love, family, and friends. To a world of new things, money, and greed!! Okay I might be being hard on Mr. Brandson, but what can I say I feel like he is just leaving me. After making me feel like a daughter he leaves me. He also is taking a girl that is like a sister to me. Damn him!! Damn him all the to hell!! Well with that I should explain where I was when I was thinking about this. I was staring in my mirror and trying not to cry. One thing is for sure make-up was not a good idea for today. Well I usually don't wear make-up anyways, but I was thinking about starting. I was hoping it would make Darien think I look older. I got the two gifts I had gotten for Lita and the card I got Rei, Ami, Katie (a friend of mine), and Amanda (another friend of mine and Lita's). What made today worse my dad was the one that had to give me a ride. It was also father's day so we are suppose to worship him while he drinks. WHATEVER!!!!! We had to pick up Rei before I went to church. My dad was driving me crazy. He saw my gifts and the questions began. "So are does for me?", he asked touching them. "No daddy I told you, your gifts are on the kitchen table", I said trying to pull the presents away from him. "Well then who are these for?", he said with a pissed look on his face. "A friend dad.", I said wonder what that look was about. "It better not be for that damn boy, you know my girl isn't turning into any slut!!", he said pissing both me and him off. Like he even know who Darien is. All he knows is Ami's cousin spilled the beans leaving me crying. What happened there is after youth that Sunday (after being thirty minutes late) my parents drove up to take me, Ami, and her cousin home. My dad forgot which church I went to (alcohol kills brain cells can't ya tell!!) and had to go get my mother. When Ami and her cousin got out my mom asked me what was wrong. I told her and my dad slammed on the breaks. Then he started yelling at me about I wasn't even able to like guys till I was sixteen. I am sorry, but yah I can control my feelings and I only like Darien to piss him off. Yah right!! And for his information my mom had already told me I could date when I turned fourteen and date Darien when I was sixteen (cause his age). Damn!! Why does he have to be four years older than me. I am jailbait to him!! Dammit!! Well back to today.... Finally I told him to please leave me alone today was not a good day for me, my best friend was moving and that was who the presents were for. Then he yelled at me for being mean to him on father's day. Finally we made it to Rei's and he shut up. For some reason he doesn't talk around my friends. All the more reason to keep them around. Well when we got to the church I found Ami and Lita. We all went to Sunday school. I hated that it was Lita's last , scratch that last hours, in Tokyo. I was about to cry until Lita looked at me and told me not to cry until I saw Darien. So I made without crying through Sunday school. Then Darien came up to me and hugged me. That's when I couldn't take it anymore. I lost control and just broke down into tears. Darien just held on to me and rubbed my back. I fell completely in love with him when he looked at me and told me he would never let go of me until I stopped crying. That is got to be the best thing a guy has ever done for me. I do love you Darien Kinley and in the words of Alanis Morissette, "I couldn't help it. It's all your fault." Then he finally got me smiling when he got in an argument about me looking like I was wearing make-up. So I guess I don't need any after all. With that I looked at his shirt. It was white and totally teared stained. All he said to that is that it was alright and aleast it wasn't snot stains. I really do love him. Now I know it was a crush until today. Well finally lunch came and the dedication to Mr. Brandson came. At that point I was crying on Ms. Cunning. Yes I should have cried on Darien some more, but his shirt needed a break. When it was all done I gave Lita the card and the gifts. The gift were a Sailor Jupiter doll and a computer game. Then one the card it said, "There was a reason God made us friends. It was cause he had taste. Goodbye and I will miss you" with mine and the girls signature on it. With that Mrs. Johnson took a pic of me, Lita, and Ami together. Rei wasn't in it because she had already left. Finally as I was walking out the door with Ami and Lita Mrs. Cunning grabbed my arm, and made me promise to not stop going to church because rather I believed it or not I was a member. Then she told me she was losing one of her girls. She didn't want to leave all five of us. I promised her and ran after Ami and Lita. She gave me and Ami a goodbye hug as we got into the cars with her parents. Before I left I gave her a special note for her and her dad. With that we were gone and I was heart broken. To make matters worse I was also in love. That left mixed emotions. Dammit I hate mixed emotions!!! To top it off my dad was pushing my buttons. He wanted me to worship him on his day of days. He was drunk and I was upset. So lets say the words happy fucking fathers day slipped out of my mouth as I slammed my door crying. Now I have no father in my life. Mr. Brandson was my father in my eyes and he left me. His house was also my escape out of here when I couldn't handle it. Even though I wasn't suppose to go to Youth my mom let me anyway. When I got there everyone knew that me and Ami had been crying all day. You really couldn't tell with Rei. I got to admit one thing Darien did make me feel better. He came up to me buck toothed and crossed eyed asking me if I would be with his friend. I really love that boy. Then after youth before I left he told me he was glad that I didn't leave the church because he would have missed me. With that here I am. Still having totally mixed emotions. Like I said I hate mixed emotions!! Okay well I am definitely going to stop writing now. I am having an overloaded on the brain. So.......
Peace Out
*****Serena Huntley*****
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I shut my diary. I guess may I do have a sweet side for me. So maybe spilling my guts is the right idea. As much as I hate to admit it Rei was right. Then again he loves Beryl. I mean they are even dating now!! Ahh!! Damn you Beryl!! Man she even cheated on him and he still keeps her!!! Ahh!! Brain overload!! Somebody!! Help!! I got twenty minutes to make my decision!!
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Well that's it for this chapter. Next Chapter will be her choice!! Stay tuned and leave a review!! Love ya!!
*****Moonchild*****
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Moonchild here!! Well I am back!! Hope you enjoy this chapter!! Please leave a review!! Enjoy!! I don't own Sailor Moon so don't sue me!!
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June 20, 1999
Today was one of the most confusing days of my life. I was heart broken, but then my heart overflowed with love. I guess I should explain. Today is the day Lita's family and her leave this world of happiness, love, family, and friends. To a world of new things, money, and greed!! Okay I might be being hard on Mr. Brandson, but what can I say I feel like he is just leaving me. After making me feel like a daughter he leaves me. He also is taking a girl that is like a sister to me. Damn him!! Damn him all the to hell!! Well with that I should explain where I was when I was thinking about this. I was staring in my mirror and trying not to cry. One thing is for sure make-up was not a good idea for today. Well I usually don't wear make-up anyways, but I was thinking about starting. I was hoping it would make Darien think I look older. I got the two gifts I had gotten for Lita and the card I got Rei, Ami, Katie (a friend of mine), and Amanda (another friend of mine and Lita's). What made today worse my dad was the one that had to give me a ride. It was also father's day so we are suppose to worship him while he drinks. WHATEVER!!!!! We had to pick up Rei before I went to church. My dad was driving me crazy. He saw my gifts and the questions began. "So are does for me?", he asked touching them. "No daddy I told you, your gifts are on the kitchen table", I said trying to pull the presents away from him. "Well then who are these for?", he said with a pissed look on his face. "A friend dad.", I said wonder what that look was about. "It better not be for that damn boy, you know my girl isn't turning into any slut!!", he said pissing both me and him off. Like he even know who Darien is. All he knows is Ami's cousin spilled the beans leaving me crying. What happened there is after youth that Sunday (after being thirty minutes late) my parents drove up to take me, Ami, and her cousin home. My dad forgot which church I went to (alcohol kills brain cells can't ya tell!!) and had to go get my mother. When Ami and her cousin got out my mom asked me what was wrong. I told her and my dad slammed on the breaks. Then he started yelling at me about I wasn't even able to like guys till I was sixteen. I am sorry, but yah I can control my feelings and I only like Darien to piss him off. Yah right!! And for his information my mom had already told me I could date when I turned fourteen and date Darien when I was sixteen (cause his age). Damn!! Why does he have to be four years older than me. I am jailbait to him!! Dammit!! Well back to today.... Finally I told him to please leave me alone today was not a good day for me, my best friend was moving and that was who the presents were for. Then he yelled at me for being mean to him on father's day. Finally we made it to Rei's and he shut up. For some reason he doesn't talk around my friends. All the more reason to keep them around. Well when we got to the church I found Ami and Lita. We all went to Sunday school. I hated that it was Lita's last , scratch that last hours, in Tokyo. I was about to cry until Lita looked at me and told me not to cry until I saw Darien. So I made without crying through Sunday school. Then Darien came up to me and hugged me. That's when I couldn't take it anymore. I lost control and just broke down into tears. Darien just held on to me and rubbed my back. I fell completely in love with him when he looked at me and told me he would never let go of me until I stopped crying. That is got to be the best thing a guy has ever done for me. I do love you Darien Kinley and in the words of Alanis Morissette, "I couldn't help it. It's all your fault." Then he finally got me smiling when he got in an argument about me looking like I was wearing make-up. So I guess I don't need any after all. With that I looked at his shirt. It was white and totally teared stained. All he said to that is that it was alright and aleast it wasn't snot stains. I really do love him. Now I know it was a crush until today. Well finally lunch came and the dedication to Mr. Brandson came. At that point I was crying on Ms. Cunning. Yes I should have cried on Darien some more, but his shirt needed a break. When it was all done I gave Lita the card and the gifts. The gift were a Sailor Jupiter doll and a computer game. Then one the card it said, "There was a reason God made us friends. It was cause he had taste. Goodbye and I will miss you" with mine and the girls signature on it. With that Mrs. Johnson took a pic of me, Lita, and Ami together. Rei wasn't in it because she had already left. Finally as I was walking out the door with Ami and Lita Mrs. Cunning grabbed my arm, and made me promise to not stop going to church because rather I believed it or not I was a member. Then she told me she was losing one of her girls. She didn't want to leave all five of us. I promised her and ran after Ami and Lita. She gave me and Ami a goodbye hug as we got into the cars with her parents. Before I left I gave her a special note for her and her dad. With that we were gone and I was heart broken. To make matters worse I was also in love. That left mixed emotions. Dammit I hate mixed emotions!!! To top it off my dad was pushing my buttons. He wanted me to worship him on his day of days. He was drunk and I was upset. So lets say the words happy fucking fathers day slipped out of my mouth as I slammed my door crying. Now I have no father in my life. Mr. Brandson was my father in my eyes and he left me. His house was also my escape out of here when I couldn't handle it. Even though I wasn't suppose to go to Youth my mom let me anyway. When I got there everyone knew that me and Ami had been crying all day. You really couldn't tell with Rei. I got to admit one thing Darien did make me feel better. He came up to me buck toothed and crossed eyed asking me if I would be with his friend. I really love that boy. Then after youth before I left he told me he was glad that I didn't leave the church because he would have missed me. With that here I am. Still having totally mixed emotions. Like I said I hate mixed emotions!! Okay well I am definitely going to stop writing now. I am having an overloaded on the brain. So.......
Peace Out
*****Serena Huntley*****
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I shut my diary. I guess may I do have a sweet side for me. So maybe spilling my guts is the right idea. As much as I hate to admit it Rei was right. Then again he loves Beryl. I mean they are even dating now!! Ahh!! Damn you Beryl!! Man she even cheated on him and he still keeps her!!! Ahh!! Brain overload!! Somebody!! Help!! I got twenty minutes to make my decision!!
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Well that's it for this chapter. Next Chapter will be her choice!! Stay tuned and leave a review!! Love ya!!
*****Moonchild*****