This is me honoring my belief of keeping some Daiken alive in our lives. Keep in mind, this is kinda depressing, but lost love type stuff usually does that. Tell me what you think! Should I write more monologues? Should I stop? You will probably be the judge...
Perpetual Love
Our lives are plagued with life or death situations, the Digidestined are there only for that. Or as I sometimes think. My life has been tortured out of proportion, I live a lie everyday. By nature I'm a kind person, even my crest says that, but I made so many mistakes. In my time as the emperor, I wanted nothing more to see his eyes ripped out, as his heart struggled to live. I thought nothing beyond that, day and night, Real World and Digital World. He waltzed onto the scene one day, attacks my creations, then defeats me. He... I never like saying his name, funny, isn't it? Davis changed me, made me the person I am today. Davis brought me into the group, accepted me for what I was, and found a good friend in me.
We were always unsure, nervous, around each other. He once asked me out, I declined. I hid my feelings for him, everyday. Then I found myself with Yolei, three kids, and a big house. My life changed before my eyes! I continued hiding the emotions, even til our twenty-fifth anniversary of the defeat of MaloMyotismon. We saw our kids run off to play tag, never knowing of the dangers we faced at roughly the same age. Being nervous, I approached him, surprisingly, we had fun. But Matt and Tai had to play their jokes, they pushed the two of us together, lips joined. He didn't resist a bit, I, on the other hand, pulled away, my face crimson red. After the group get-together, we talked to one another, man to man. Davis said that I was in love with him, was it that obvious? I didn't want believe, so I walked away.
If only I knew that was the last time I would talk to him. We didn't see each other for a year, I never had contact with him. Everyone entered the Digital World, together, the twenty-sixth anniversary. There he was, on the ground, lifeless to the Worlds. Joe had said he died of heart failure, that only made me feel more guilty for the year of silence. Now it's five years later, the thirty-first anniversary approaching. I'm here with my wife, Yolei, never missing these moments for what they are, or were. The sense of loss fills my mind, everyone, for that matter. I can now truely see that I loved Davis, after I lost him, realizing my love too late. Yolei and I will spend the rest of our lives together, but it will never seem complete. I could've left her for Davis in the first place, saving him his life. But I stand in the Digital World, beside her, never leaving her, never hurting her. I could never to that to her, or the kids. So I stay, honoring our vows, now twenty-five years old. But my heart of kindness will always be with Davis, keeping the love perpetual...
Sad, how sad! Certain people know that I can be very depressing at times, people notice that in me at a certain time of the year due to circumstances (read my profile, some will know what I mean). The next chapter (12) of One World Isn't Enough is coming out soon, so you can expect it within two days of submitting this. My little picking of people for my next story is still going on, just go to the end notes of chapter 11 in One World Isn't Enough for details. Remember, give me feedback on this little something'!