Dammit. Well, it was bound to happen
sooner or later. Yes, it's about the tragic end of Animorphs. Or really Jake.
Jake was my favorite character, right up to the end. Knew Jake for five, six
years. All things end. ( and this is my official position on the last Animorphs
books: KAA did not write those. I am 100% confident. I do believe though that
the last Everworld books were by her. ) for my favorite Animorph, my favorite
song. And probably my last video on him. ( didn't I say that last time I did a
video?) "It's Been Awhile" by Staind.
Note: some elements of this video do
take after some elements in the real music video. Just saying that for
disclaimer issues.
The music starts out, low and
depressed. Jake sits wearily on a couch
in his empty home. He carefully pulls the cover of a photo album aside and
fingers the photos delicately. The photos have all the Animorphs, pictures of
them from earlier in the series when they were hopeful and happy.
And
it's been awhile he sings as he lifts one out
Since I could he holds it to the light. The Jake in the photo is
trying to hold back a laugh ( probably at something Marco said)
Hold my head up high he lets his arm drop with the photo. His head
falls forward as well.
And it's been awhile he casually flips it over
Since I first saw you he tosses the photo on the table. We can see
the date on the back. 4-05-96
And it's been awhile he snatches another pile of photos as he
walks by a counter
Since I could stand, on my own two feet again he flips through the photos
( staring at one in particular. He and Tom playing basketball)
And it's been awhile He cracks a smile looking at one where Ax is
stuffing his face with ice cream
Since I could call you the smile fades as he comes to a picture of
Rachel. Suddenly, the anger rises
And everything I can remember He precedes to rip the photo
As fucked up as it all may seem the camera does a close up of the fierce look in his eyes
And the consequences that are rendered the pieces flutter to the
floor and one scrap that has Rachel's smile falls near the camera
I stretch myself beyond my means Jake runs his fingers
through his hair trying to ease the stress.
And it's been awhile now the scene changes to Jake sitting in
Cassie's barn alone in the dark. His head in his hands
Since I can say, that I wasn't addicted and he looks up and looks around
the barn
It's been awhile the camera does a close up
of a water filled trough
Since I could say I loved myself as well Jake's reflection appears
and then shudders with ripples.
And it's been awhile he looks up to see a bird of prey sitting on
the rafters ( not a hawk), beaming down at him
Since I've gone and fucked things up! he gets up and kicks a pale
viciously
Just like I always do! his lips turn into a snarl
as he looks up at the raptor
And it's been awhile He holds up a picture of Cassie. He's back in
his house again
But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you He brings the picture down
and there stands Cassie. She reaches out a hand to touch his face. Jake
greedily takes it savors the touch.
And everything I can remember He's siting out on a porch
now
As fucked up as it all may seem the
picture flickers, and now Jake is siting in the court room, testifying.
And the consequences that are rendered he shakes a little as he
looks around at the frozen, accusing faces
I've gone and fucked things up again! ( again, again) he stands up and runs out of
the room. As he exits through the door, the camera follows and he comes out the
other side into his dimly lit bedroom.
Why must I feel this way?…. He flops down on his back. He shields his face,
trying to hide himself. Ghosts drift into the room: All the Animorphs and Tom
Just make this go away…. Rachel and Tom pry his hands from his face so
that he can see all of them
Just one more peaceful day! he jumps up and tries to
brush them away from him. He shakes his head with a pleading look ( why are you
doing this to me?).
And it's been awhile now he's bent over the sink, starring in the
mirror
Since I could
Look at myself straight the camera circles around till it comes behind his
shoulder
And it's been awhile he relinquishes his bracing look at the
mirror and draws back
Since I said I was sorry he looks away and murmurs.
And it's been awhile he looks into the bedroom where hundreds of
lit candles have given the room a solemn glow
Since I've seen the way, the candles light your face among the candles is Cassie,
beautiful in the warm shafts of light.
And it's been awhile Jake walks into the room and gets close to
her
But I can still remember just the way you taste.... then a gust of wind hushes
the candles and Cassie fades away with them like smoke. Jake stands there a
moment, his head hung back, wincing in pain.
And everything I can remember! now he bursts out onto the
porch and with his feet tears into the sand
As fucked up as it all may seem to be he glances up and notices a
hawk flying above
I know it's me! he shouts, admitting to the shadow in the sky
I can not blame this on my father! he keep running
He did the best he could for me… now he slows, having arrived
at the memorial.
And it's been awhile he paces towards the
pristine structure
Since I could
Hold my head up high he lays a rose at the foot
of the monument
And it's been awhile he kneels down and looks at the picture of
Rachel
Since I said I was sorry…..he hangs his head and
whispers. As the music ends the camera backs out and fades black.
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*sniffle* Poor Jakey.
