All Along
Part 2 (of 7) - Xander and Anya
Into the Woods
"I'm in love with you. Powerfully, painfully in love. The things you do, the way you think, the way you move. I get excited every time I'm about to see you. You make me feel like I've never felt in my life…like a man. I just thought you might wanna know."
Xander finished his little proclamation of love to Anya, as she stepped forward and kissed him. He hadn't realized how much he needed to tell her how he felt. He hadn't realized that he hadn't told her, or that she might not know how much he loved her. After seeing Buffy and Riley fall apart like they had, he had felt an overwhelming urge not to let that happen between Anya and himself. The entire walk home, all he thought about was how to tell Anya exactly how he felt, but until the moment he stood before her, he hadn't known what to say. As soon as he saw her, the words took over and all Xander could do was open his mouth and let them come.
Anya was completely unprepared for the outpouring of emotion that she had just witnessed. She was even more unprepared for the feelings that his words evoked in her. She had never been so happy or so in love as she was at that moment. Suddenly, all she wanted was to be in his arms, forever. There was so much she wanted to say, but her mind refused to put the thoughts into words, so she kissed him instead. She poured all of her love and passion for him into the kiss, and hoped he understood.
They made love then, slow and sensual, for hours. They carefully explored each other's bodies as if it were the first time they had been together. They took their time and expressed in actions what their hearts felt. The love between them intensified every sensation, every motion, and it was like nothing either of them had ever experienced.
Afterwards, they lay together, silently reminiscing about what they had just done. Anya had absently reached over and turned on her CD player, which had one of Xander's discs in it.
**I walked around my good intentions
and found that there were none
I blame my father for the wasted years
we hardly talked
I never thought I would forget this hate
then a phone call made me realize
I'm wrong
If I don't make it known that
I've loved you all along
just like the sunny days that
we ignore because
we're all dumb & jaded
and I hope to God I figure out
what's wrong
I walked around my room
not thinking
just sinking in this box
I blame myself for being too much
like somebody else
I never thought I would just
bend this way
And If I don't make it known that
I've loved you all along
just like the sunny days that
we ignore because
we're all dumb & jaded
and I hope to God I figure out
what's wrong**
By the last chorus, Xander had sat up, motioning dramatically and was singing along, trying to imitate the singer's voice and failing miserably, "And if I don't make it known that I've loved you all along…"
Anya laughed at him, "Stop, Xander, you sound like a dying cow." She giggled again at his feigned hurt expression. He lay back down with her and she began to stroke his hair, lovingly. "You know, when I first got turned mortal, I hated it. Every second was like Hell, and all I wanted was to get back to putting boils on penises for scorned women."
Xander paled a little, "Please go on."
"Well, it's just that…that was before I found you. Everything changed for me after we went out to that mindless ritual." Anya was referring to their first date, at the Sunnydale High Prom. "I thought the feelings would go away when I left, but you were mostly all I thought about, so I came back. But sleeping with you only made it worse." She looked at Xander, all the feelings she couldn't put into words shining bright in her eyes. "So I decided to stay with you. And it never went away…you're still all I think about. Only its different now, because that's all I want to think about."
She smiled when Xander nodded understanding. She hadn't said it very well, but that was part of who she was, part of why he loved her. "I know exactly how you feel."
They snuggled close and fell asleep in each other's arms that night, nothing but joy in their hearts.
Part 2 (of 7) - Xander and Anya
Into the Woods
"I'm in love with you. Powerfully, painfully in love. The things you do, the way you think, the way you move. I get excited every time I'm about to see you. You make me feel like I've never felt in my life…like a man. I just thought you might wanna know."
Xander finished his little proclamation of love to Anya, as she stepped forward and kissed him. He hadn't realized how much he needed to tell her how he felt. He hadn't realized that he hadn't told her, or that she might not know how much he loved her. After seeing Buffy and Riley fall apart like they had, he had felt an overwhelming urge not to let that happen between Anya and himself. The entire walk home, all he thought about was how to tell Anya exactly how he felt, but until the moment he stood before her, he hadn't known what to say. As soon as he saw her, the words took over and all Xander could do was open his mouth and let them come.
Anya was completely unprepared for the outpouring of emotion that she had just witnessed. She was even more unprepared for the feelings that his words evoked in her. She had never been so happy or so in love as she was at that moment. Suddenly, all she wanted was to be in his arms, forever. There was so much she wanted to say, but her mind refused to put the thoughts into words, so she kissed him instead. She poured all of her love and passion for him into the kiss, and hoped he understood.
They made love then, slow and sensual, for hours. They carefully explored each other's bodies as if it were the first time they had been together. They took their time and expressed in actions what their hearts felt. The love between them intensified every sensation, every motion, and it was like nothing either of them had ever experienced.
Afterwards, they lay together, silently reminiscing about what they had just done. Anya had absently reached over and turned on her CD player, which had one of Xander's discs in it.
**I walked around my good intentions
and found that there were none
I blame my father for the wasted years
we hardly talked
I never thought I would forget this hate
then a phone call made me realize
I'm wrong
If I don't make it known that
I've loved you all along
just like the sunny days that
we ignore because
we're all dumb & jaded
and I hope to God I figure out
what's wrong
I walked around my room
not thinking
just sinking in this box
I blame myself for being too much
like somebody else
I never thought I would just
bend this way
And If I don't make it known that
I've loved you all along
just like the sunny days that
we ignore because
we're all dumb & jaded
and I hope to God I figure out
what's wrong**
By the last chorus, Xander had sat up, motioning dramatically and was singing along, trying to imitate the singer's voice and failing miserably, "And if I don't make it known that I've loved you all along…"
Anya laughed at him, "Stop, Xander, you sound like a dying cow." She giggled again at his feigned hurt expression. He lay back down with her and she began to stroke his hair, lovingly. "You know, when I first got turned mortal, I hated it. Every second was like Hell, and all I wanted was to get back to putting boils on penises for scorned women."
Xander paled a little, "Please go on."
"Well, it's just that…that was before I found you. Everything changed for me after we went out to that mindless ritual." Anya was referring to their first date, at the Sunnydale High Prom. "I thought the feelings would go away when I left, but you were mostly all I thought about, so I came back. But sleeping with you only made it worse." She looked at Xander, all the feelings she couldn't put into words shining bright in her eyes. "So I decided to stay with you. And it never went away…you're still all I think about. Only its different now, because that's all I want to think about."
She smiled when Xander nodded understanding. She hadn't said it very well, but that was part of who she was, part of why he loved her. "I know exactly how you feel."
They snuggled close and fell asleep in each other's arms that night, nothing but joy in their hearts.