Forever in Your Shadow
Summary: This is kind of hard to explain. Its something I wrote dedicated to my younger brothers, who I know I'm too hard on most of the time. This is the short story of a brother and sister that takes place sometime during the Old Republic. Told first from the boys point of view and then from the girls. Please be kind, I wrote this under the influence of painkillers.
Disclaimer: Don't own, don't get paid, don't care.
Dedication: To all of my brothers.
Today I turned thirteen. Most kids are happy about that. They are finally a teenager. But I'm not most kids. I'm a student at the jedi temple and today is the day I've dreaded all my life.
I wasn't chosen as a padawan
Today was the deadline. I don't know what's going to happen to me now. Personally, that's the least of my worries. Soon, the news will get around to the master's and padawan's around the temple. My sister included. She was chosen as a padawan four years ago. For as long as I remember, she has been better then me. I've always been louder, more outgoing, very impulsive. Most of the time, this is not good. No one hesitates to tell me this either. Especially not my sister. I can't begin to imagine what she'll say about this. She's none of the things I am and everything I'm not. No matter what happens, no matter what I do, I will be forever in her shadow.
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I sighed and leaned back in my chair. It was true. He didn't get chosen. And I couldn't see why. My brother is one of the most loveable people I know. Ver impulsive, kind of living in his own world, but loveable and good-hearted. He would've made a great jedi. One of the best. Better then I'll ever be. I'm very tough, focused, and insensitive to others. I know this, but no one knows I do. The reason I was chosen as a padawan and not him is because the masters would see him and think 'He's a sweet boy, but would be impossible to train.' They'd see me and think, 'She might be hardened but she's focused. Easy to train.' That's why I was picked and he wasn't. And I'm the only one that knows that he would've been a better jedi then I ever will be. He doesn't know it, but I'll be forever in his shadow.