evil giggle* Okay guys, this it! Thanks Felidee for your on going support! Get your tissues ready, here we go.....
Oh yeah thanks reviewers, your G-R-E-A-T! I'm so sorry the chapters are so short, please don't hurt me...*sweaks*
Thanks Suicidal Angel, or Lucy for your ... um .. really 'creative' reviews.
Oh and please, read!
Chapter 8: Silenced.
Is he asleep? Peering closer I find to my relief that yes, he is fast asleep. Who would have thought androids sleep?
Maybe he feels happy that he's ... I can't say it. The memories hurt, like shards of glass inside my head.
But it will all be gone soon, I'll be free and his little broken one will be his no more.
Was I ever his?
Well I gave up fighting in the end ...
Everything's gone, why couldn't I be brave like my brother? Like all my family? They died with honour and I, I , I ... it doesn't matter anymore, I'll see them soon, just you wait.
Wiping my tears away I slowly edge out of the bed keeping my eyes on him, just in case he wakes up. No, don't think about it.
Once fully out of the bed I get the full blast of the cold, sullen air. It surrounds me, making me shiver uncontrollably.
Where are my clothes? Will I need them? Biting my lower lip, I creep around the bed.
Freedom, Claire.
That's all that matters.
There's nothing here for you.
In a pile I find my shorts and T-shirt, my underwear was devoured by 17's nimble hands. Don't think about it Claire, DON'T.
The shards of glass are pushing against my head, everything coming back.
I shake my head wildly, don't remember, not now.
Freedom,
Nothing else matters.
Grabbing my clothes, well what's left of them I sneak out the door. Suddenly the door creaks loudly ...
I wait for it, I know he's heard me. I just know it. After a minute of painful anticapation, 17 only rolled over.
A small smile flitted across my lips, it seems that 17 is quite a heavy sleeper. Lets hope it stays that way.
The cold air gently touches my skin leaving goose pimples all over my body.
I pull on my shorts and T-shirt, the world suddenly becomes warmer, like a summers day.
Nothing is going to stop me, just you wait.
I give one last look at the sleeping figure, his head just above the covers and black hair splashed across the pillow.
My eyes narrow.
Basterd.
Then as she turned her head away something broke inside of her, like a branch snapping in silence
That single tiny crack made Claire's organised mind fall into utter chaos.
Every barrier that was holding something back broke.
Every repressed emotion showed itself.
Then out of the confusion and madness, guilt reared its ugly head.
Why? Why did I go inside this house? Why didn't I run? Why? Its all my fault, everything is my fault. The reason he raped me, my fault.
It all went so wrong, why couldn't I have died with the rest? What did he see in me?
God, all my fault, I shouldn't have been weak, I should have been strong.
Strong and brave like my brother.
The tears are falling fast, like a waterfall.
Got to get out, its all breaking up.
My heads going to explode.
Run.
My feet pound against the carpet, is that me crying? Is it?
Everything seems so quiet, am I screaming? Down the stairs, Its all gone, my fault...
I tripped up, I think I did, all I can hear is the silence, everything's falling apart.
The silence is hurting my head.
DON'T! I scream into the empty silence, don't. But still the madness rages on, like a war inside my head. For the first time it showed itself, its been at the back of my mind, why didn't I see?
All I can hear is the silence and someone screaming, in my head, wailing at the top of there lungs.
I don't even know where I'm going anymore, or do I? It hurts, make it stop.
I'm pleading, please.
A small cruel voice echo's inside my head,
"Just like you did with 17?"
I shake my head, no.
"Don't lie, you were screaming for him to stop"
An image puts itself infront of my eyes, I'm screaming so hard, he's on top of me.
Smirking.
The image shatters and the small voice laughs, then disappears back into the war.
The walls are falling, crashing to the ground.
I was so blind.
My feet are still pounding against the ground. The kitchen.
Like an old movie things are flashing before my eyes, my mistakes, my faults.
My parents turn away, ashamed. They d-d-on't want me. My brothers yelling at me,
"You've got to improve or you'll never be of use. Our gang doesn't need a cry baby, they need a fighter"
He turns away to, disgusted. I was never good enough, never of any fucking use.
Blind.
The creamy carpet streams around me, the huge windows rise up before me.
Freedom.
Everything is clear, the silence is so strong now.
"Jump"
Whispers a voice in my ear.
"Jump, your not needed anymore, jump"
I can see it all, my life is all one big mistake, but I can make it better, I can make up for it.
"Jump"
The windows are so close.
"Jump"
My body crashes through the glass, cutting my bear arms and legs. But I can't feel it, all I can see is the heavenly redemption.
And as Claire's body fell towards the rocky ravein, she smiled.
Silence me,
She whispered,
Silence me.
The Android stood by the broken window watching the girl fall, he placed his fingers on a piece of glass, still stuck in the window frame.
His face was unreadable but faltered slightly when the young girl smashed into the ground and lay motionless.
But as quickly as it had come his face was expressionless once more. Ice blue eyes looked longingly down at the pale figure, a certain warmth burned within them.
He looked away and screwed his eyes shut, a single thought drifted through his head.
Its sort of a shame, she was always so brave.
Um, thats it, um.. thanks lucy. You were a really big help in the last chapter. That last line, brill!
Thanks very much reveiwers!
Oh yeah thanks reviewers, your G-R-E-A-T! I'm so sorry the chapters are so short, please don't hurt me...*sweaks*
Thanks Suicidal Angel, or Lucy for your ... um .. really 'creative' reviews.
Oh and please, read!
Chapter 8: Silenced.
Is he asleep? Peering closer I find to my relief that yes, he is fast asleep. Who would have thought androids sleep?
Maybe he feels happy that he's ... I can't say it. The memories hurt, like shards of glass inside my head.
But it will all be gone soon, I'll be free and his little broken one will be his no more.
Was I ever his?
Well I gave up fighting in the end ...
Everything's gone, why couldn't I be brave like my brother? Like all my family? They died with honour and I, I , I ... it doesn't matter anymore, I'll see them soon, just you wait.
Wiping my tears away I slowly edge out of the bed keeping my eyes on him, just in case he wakes up. No, don't think about it.
Once fully out of the bed I get the full blast of the cold, sullen air. It surrounds me, making me shiver uncontrollably.
Where are my clothes? Will I need them? Biting my lower lip, I creep around the bed.
Freedom, Claire.
That's all that matters.
There's nothing here for you.
In a pile I find my shorts and T-shirt, my underwear was devoured by 17's nimble hands. Don't think about it Claire, DON'T.
The shards of glass are pushing against my head, everything coming back.
I shake my head wildly, don't remember, not now.
Freedom,
Nothing else matters.
Grabbing my clothes, well what's left of them I sneak out the door. Suddenly the door creaks loudly ...
I wait for it, I know he's heard me. I just know it. After a minute of painful anticapation, 17 only rolled over.
A small smile flitted across my lips, it seems that 17 is quite a heavy sleeper. Lets hope it stays that way.
The cold air gently touches my skin leaving goose pimples all over my body.
I pull on my shorts and T-shirt, the world suddenly becomes warmer, like a summers day.
Nothing is going to stop me, just you wait.
I give one last look at the sleeping figure, his head just above the covers and black hair splashed across the pillow.
My eyes narrow.
Basterd.
Then as she turned her head away something broke inside of her, like a branch snapping in silence
That single tiny crack made Claire's organised mind fall into utter chaos.
Every barrier that was holding something back broke.
Every repressed emotion showed itself.
Then out of the confusion and madness, guilt reared its ugly head.
Why? Why did I go inside this house? Why didn't I run? Why? Its all my fault, everything is my fault. The reason he raped me, my fault.
It all went so wrong, why couldn't I have died with the rest? What did he see in me?
God, all my fault, I shouldn't have been weak, I should have been strong.
Strong and brave like my brother.
The tears are falling fast, like a waterfall.
Got to get out, its all breaking up.
My heads going to explode.
Run.
My feet pound against the carpet, is that me crying? Is it?
Everything seems so quiet, am I screaming? Down the stairs, Its all gone, my fault...
I tripped up, I think I did, all I can hear is the silence, everything's falling apart.
The silence is hurting my head.
DON'T! I scream into the empty silence, don't. But still the madness rages on, like a war inside my head. For the first time it showed itself, its been at the back of my mind, why didn't I see?
All I can hear is the silence and someone screaming, in my head, wailing at the top of there lungs.
I don't even know where I'm going anymore, or do I? It hurts, make it stop.
I'm pleading, please.
A small cruel voice echo's inside my head,
"Just like you did with 17?"
I shake my head, no.
"Don't lie, you were screaming for him to stop"
An image puts itself infront of my eyes, I'm screaming so hard, he's on top of me.
Smirking.
The image shatters and the small voice laughs, then disappears back into the war.
The walls are falling, crashing to the ground.
I was so blind.
My feet are still pounding against the ground. The kitchen.
Like an old movie things are flashing before my eyes, my mistakes, my faults.
My parents turn away, ashamed. They d-d-on't want me. My brothers yelling at me,
"You've got to improve or you'll never be of use. Our gang doesn't need a cry baby, they need a fighter"
He turns away to, disgusted. I was never good enough, never of any fucking use.
Blind.
The creamy carpet streams around me, the huge windows rise up before me.
Freedom.
Everything is clear, the silence is so strong now.
"Jump"
Whispers a voice in my ear.
"Jump, your not needed anymore, jump"
I can see it all, my life is all one big mistake, but I can make it better, I can make up for it.
"Jump"
The windows are so close.
"Jump"
My body crashes through the glass, cutting my bear arms and legs. But I can't feel it, all I can see is the heavenly redemption.
And as Claire's body fell towards the rocky ravein, she smiled.
Silence me,
She whispered,
Silence me.
The Android stood by the broken window watching the girl fall, he placed his fingers on a piece of glass, still stuck in the window frame.
His face was unreadable but faltered slightly when the young girl smashed into the ground and lay motionless.
But as quickly as it had come his face was expressionless once more. Ice blue eyes looked longingly down at the pale figure, a certain warmth burned within them.
He looked away and screwed his eyes shut, a single thought drifted through his head.
Its sort of a shame, she was always so brave.
Um, thats it, um.. thanks lucy. You were a really big help in the last chapter. That last line, brill!
Thanks very much reveiwers!