Uh huh, i know this story has probly seemed like forever for you guys with all this stupid plot build up and most of you are only skimming through this but no matter I enjoyed writing this and that's what's important. K, I'm kinda sick of disclaiming every frickin story I write I mean what are the odds of a fifteen-year old owning anything like this? What the hell, I don't own this now that that's outta the way on to my little fic.
Epyon III and the Maiden shone brilliantly in the suns rays that day at dusk. The gundamian alloy had been polished to perfection and the parts painted with ceramic coating were almost as intense. These gundams were an amazing gift...too amazing in Zechs' oppinion. No matter how nice Wolf might be to Relena Zechs just could not trust him. Was he really wrong to be so cautious? After all, the guy had only tried to take his life a few times not to mention Chris's. These last few weeks since the cave they each had met up with an accident of sorts. Contrary to past beliefs Zechs did know how to grill a steak and that fire had been no accident. It seemed pretty convenient that a fire start right when he was all alone in the kitchens. As for Chris last week she had been doing her target practice but had started feeling sick and left early. They later found out that one of the soldiers in that division had met with an accident and died. He had met with that accident when he took the gun Chris left behind and it exploded do to a technical difficulty.
Poor Chris. Zechs knew it must be really tough for her having to see the guy she liked with her best friend. While Relena in no way was rubbing it in Danielle certainly was. The artilary girl made Zechs uneasy especially when he was done practicing or doing something else and all he had to do was glance around to find the strange girl staring at him. He had at first thought of this as some senseless paranoia resulting from all that had happened but now watching the way she tormented Chris gave him a total new view of her. Half the time he wanted to go over there and tell her to fuck off but that would just embarrass Chris more and he didn't want to do that. Chris was just so small yet more mature. Her quiet was calming and he couldn't help liking her especially since she saved his life. He also knew what she was going through. A few times he had walked past her barracks in the dead of night and through the screen on the window he could hear muffled sobbing. Though she was filled with sorrow at night in the morning and afternoon you would never know that Wolf had affected her in any way. Until recently Zechs had been in a barracks as well and had tried to show no feeling at all even though on the inside he was dying.
How could his Lucrezia have done this to him? Ok that was a selfish question after all she had thought he was dead. Still he couldn't help feeling angry when he imagined another man kissing her, raising the children that should have been his. It just seemed so unfair. Why was he here anymore? There was nothing here to fight for. Why didn't he just let Wolf kill him and get it over with? After all they would only hurt Relena if he tried to escape if he died they could do nothing to her and she could maybe live out her life with Wolf. It was strange to think of her with him since he had always imagined her with that stupid Heero. Resentful as he was toward the pilot he would rather see his sister with 10 Heeros than this one Wolf. But now Heero was dead, he really had loved Relena after all.
" God Yuy, you stupid fool how could you think of ending it this way?" Zechs said under his breath as he walked away from the area to his private room. Why Wolf had given him his own room Zechs did not know but if it was a trap what did that matter? It wasn't like he had someone to go home to anyway.
He took the key and put it in the lock twisting it until he heard the click and then opened the door. The room was dark with only a little light coming in through the window. Zechs fumbled around for the light switch and after finding it and removing his shirt for bed, slumped down on his bed and began looking through the battle plans.
He and Relena were to head one unit of mobile suits in the area nearest the enemy base. They were supposed to secure it as thier own, while sharp shooters would be on the perimeter killing off commanding officers of any enemy troops trying to aid the base. Artilary was to be split up so that one section was at the neighboring base trashing it while the other was going to destroy the arsonal once rebel soldiers had taken all they needed. This probably wouldn't be too hard considering no one was expecting an attack. Still Zechs wondered why he was really going through this. Finally he drifted off to sleep with thoughts of Noin and some other man in his head.
Zechs suddenly awoke and squinted as his eyes adjusted to the light he had forgotten to turn off. Zechs glanced over at the clock next to his bed and saw that it was almost midnight. Who in there right mind would be up at this hour the night before an attack? Was he imagining it? No, he was sure he had heard something outside his door. Maybe it was just one of the other officers walking down the hall to the bathroom the four of them shared. While he had gotten his own room Zechs had not gotten his own building and had to share with three men who were older but not so high ranking. Suddenly he heard it. Someone was yelling at someone else outside his door. Quickly Zechs rose and opened the door.
Standing outside was Chris looking smaller than usual with that huge guy bawling her out. Her eyes looked a bit watery though whether or not that was tears Zechs could not be sure.
" What the hell do you think you're doing in our quarters?!!!!" yelled the big man and Chris simply stood there letting him shout his head off at her. Neither of them seemed to have noticed Zechs was there so he simply stayed quiet and watched. The man threw insult after insult along with promises of great punishment at her. Chris simply stood there not flinching as he belittled and threatened her. How could someone so young be so brave? She was only a year younger than Relena so in truth she really wasn't very young but still even Relena would have broken at some of the stuff this overly loud officer was saying. Suddenly the man drew back his hand and slapped Chris full on in the face. Her head flew back at the impact but again came back to the level position it had been in staring straight forward. The man raised his hand again but this time Zechs was there in time.
" That will be enough thank you." said Zechs cooly as he caught hold of the mans wrist.
" But I found this stupid whore sneeking around our quarters doing god knows what. She could really be a spy so I'm taking her to Commander Kushrinada right now for questioning, he'll put the dirty skank in her place."
" Not this night." said Zechs and the man looked at him in puzzlement " You see she's my bloody whore." said Zechs as he put and arm around her and drew her to him. " I'm afraid the two of you got caught up in a misunderstanding."
" Hahahaha! Finally decided to give one of them girls thats got there heart set on you a chance pretty boy?" 'Yah right! thought Zechs considering that other than Relena Chris was the only girl who didn't look at him. Still Zechs gave him a suitable answer.
" A man has his needs. Who knows maybe a rebel is just what I need though I'll never know if I stand out here with you all night." the man found this humorous and finally returned to his room. As he did Zechs drew Chris into his room.
" I'm afraid I've just made you the scandal of this base." said Zechs " what are you doing here?"
" I don't really know said Chris weakly and for the first time Zechs noticed that she was trembling.
" Hey there take it easy that moron is gone and besides I don't think I'm so ugly as to ruin your reputation." Chris just continued to shake and stand where she was. " Chris, I know you came here for a reason now just tell me. I swear to you that whatever it is it won't leave this room. C'mon sit down." with that he gently pulled her over to sit next to him on the bed.
" I'm sorry to have bothered you. " came that faint voice " I guess I needed to talk to someone so I came here."
" Well what did you need to talk about?" Chris just kept staring at the floor. " Chris, I can't help you if you don't let me know what's wrong." Chris just continued to stare " Chris, snap out of it!" Zechs shook her shoulders to add emphasis to what he had said. Chris immediately tried to break away but he was to strong for her. So she sat there looking down still while the circulation was being cut from her arms. " Chris it's late at night. If you're not going to talk at least have the decency to look me in the eye." Reluctantly she raised her head and looked up at him. Zechs saw that her eyes were getting redder and more watery. " Is it Wolf? Is it the officer and what he said about you? What is it?" Zechs was getting exasperatd with her silence. After all it wasn't just her reputation that was being made questionable.
" What the officer said doesn't matter and Wolf is not a bad person. What the officer said is true."
" How can you possibly say that about yourself, let alone believe it?!!"
" Wolf says it's true."
" Wolf's an asshole." Chris looked up at him in disbelief.
" No, no he's not."
" If someone would make you think that badly of yourself then he is."
" The officer wasn't just trying to be grumpy when he called me a whore. He meant it because everyone thinks of me as one. " Zechs was shocked by what she was saying.
" You can't be serious."
" After we got back from the cave Wolf told people that was how I was. He promised me a long time ago he wouldn't but when I saved you..."
" Well I've not heard anything of the sort." then Zechs remembered that he didn't talk to anyone either. " What happened between you and Wolf. Please don't close up again you can trust me. I won't tell anyone I owe you my life and have more honor than that gracious leader of yours would have you think." For a second it looked like Chris was just gonna start staring again but finally she looked up into his face.
" Wolf and I grew up together, " Zechs found it humorous that she considered herself grown " He was my best friend and we would play games together and stuff. When he got older I stood by his side and even...even killed some people so he could gain more power. I would go out and recruit people while he tried to do the paper work. He told me he cared about me and I believed him. He started getting fanatical about this whole movement and I started moving away from him. I still loved him but I didn't love what he was becoming. One night we went out for some drinks and the next morning we woke up together. I don't remember what happened but Wolf did. He said I took advantage of him in a drunken state and flaunted myself until he gave in. He promised he wouldn't tell anyone as long as I remained his faithful servant."
" What do you mean servant?" asked Zechs and only got a glare in return. This made him smile because she had never glared at him before and the sight was actually quite cute. However, cute or not he couldn't help being outraged at this news about Wolf."
" So he kept you close by all the time for whenever he needed you until..."
" Until your sister took my place in his bed."
" That's why he has been treating you that way." Zechs let go of her as he noticed how red her arms were turning.
" He truly does believe that I was with you that night." said Chris trying not to cry.
" What do you mean." Zechs was somewhat aghast at the idea...or was he.
" It's why I came here," started Chris " About three hours ago he called me to his quarters. He started yelling at me, saying that I had completely turned my back on him and that I was now a concubine to his enemy. He must have been drunk because he swayed a lot and his speech was slurred. He attacked me and..." With that she pulled off her shirt so that all that remained was her sports bra not unlike the shirts issued to girls for hard training. Zechs at first was drawn by the smallness of her waist and wondered if he could fit his hands around it, her breasts weren't large nor were they tiny. They fit her body well though and gave a softer look to the hardness of her torso. It took Zechs a moment to come to his senses and notice the bruises and cuts lining up her stomach. He also noticed a red stain on the white material of the bra.
" Oh my God. " said Zechs " He didn't also?"
" The whole time he kept on demanding to know if you could top what he was doing to me."
" That bastard! Why would you take that from him?"
" Because whether or not I love him anymore I still do care about him as I did when we were little."
" Yes and I...I care about you." Chris looked up astonished. " I care about you and I don't want to see you hurt anymore. If you didn't love the fool so much I'd go over there and rip his throat out. What happened wasn't your fault. I know you wouldn't try to seduce him the way he says you did."
" You mean that?"
" Of course I do! You've been kind and some what naive but you have a good heart and respect for yourself and I know you wouldn't be the one to think up such a situation"
" No, I meant do you really care about me?" There was so much hope in her eyes as she sad the words that Zechs angrily wondered how Wolf could've thought to do anything awful to her.
" I swear that I care about you and that no matter what I will protect you." Chris was still on the verge of tears so Zechs reached over and carefully hugged her. Her body was stiff and almost lifeless in his arms.
" Chris you don't always have to be the strong vine. When you're around me just be the fragile flower I promise I won't tell." With that her body convulsed and with a sob she sank against him with her head on his shoulder. He felt the warm wetness of her tears against his bare skin and pulled her closer letting her cry her eyes out.
Finally after a while he heard her breathing become shallow. Carefully he laid her down on the bed and just looked at her lying there. Drunk or not Wolf had been careful about where he beat her. The cuts and bruises ran up and down her torso but stopped below her collar bone and shoulders so that they could be hidden by a shirt. More than likely there were even more underneath her pants as well. Quietly he got up and went to the medicine cabinet and pulled out some ointment and bandages then returned to where she lay. Ever so gently he applied the ointment onto her skin and put the bandages over them, always stopping when he reached a ticklish spot so that she wouldn't have to wake up. Finally the only one left was the large cut on her breast. Trying not to feel like a total sleeze Zechs reached down and slowly pushed the material up just above the wound and if not for his training would have wretched at what he saw. A knife or some sharp object had been used from what Zechs saw. There was a large cut running all the way down her breast and under the nipple. The blood was still flowing freely from the area near the nipple and already there was a faint odor coming from it. Pressure needed to be applied quickly before corruption set in. Quickly Zechs placed his fingers on the wound and pressed down and he reached for something to cover it with the other hand. Chris's eyes shot open and she opened her mouth to scream. Having both hands occupied and not wanting anyone to come running in at her cry Zechs figured what the hell and like lightening leaned down and muffled the scream with his mouth.
There was pain and shock in Chris's eyes, not that Zechs blamed her considering he was lying on top of her, kissing her and with a hand on her breast as well. Zechs wished there was some way to let her know he was not doing what it looked like. Finally his hand found some cloth. Zechs didn't know what it was but took it and replaced his fingers with it. Now that his hand was free he ended there strange kiss and clamped his hand over her mouth.
" Chris, believe me this is not what it looks like. You've got a bad wound there and I'm gonna have to work on it do you think you can keep quiet?" Chris nodded yes so Zechs took his hand off her mouth.
" I'm ok. Please don't worry about me." she whispered urgently.
" Really? That wound there says otherwise. I'm going to give you some of the morphine so you won't feel any pain."
" Zechs you can't use that. They only give so much to everyone. What if you're hurt tomorrow then what'll you do without medicine?"
" I just won't get hurt. Until we can get you to someone outside this base I'm just gonna have to do my best for you."
" Why not the medic here?"
" Chris, I don't know if you've noticed but everyone here pretty much hates us now that Wolf does. I wouldn't trust my life to that medic even if he were the only one on Earth. Now keep this pressed against the wound." Zechs put her hand over the cloth that turned out to be her shirt. After doing this he got up and took the morphine from his pack. After administering it he looked around the room for something he could use to at least start the healing process. Finally his eyes came upon the whiskey he so treasured sitting on the desk. Reluctantly he took the bottle and poured some into the metal helmet he had been issued months ago. Luckily the floor was concrete so without hesitation Zechs grabbed a bunch of papers and then a pack of matches. In little time he was boiling the brandy over a little fire. Finally when it was hot enough Zechs gingerly took the helmet over to Chris.
" Chris I warn you with or without the morphine this will hurt." said Zechs leaning in and placing a hand over hers.
" I'll be fine." said Chris. She took his free hand and kissed the back of it then tried to relax her body for what was to come. Zechs was amazed by her display of affection not to mention somewhat flattered. Maybe she did like him, who didn't around here? She was so young though....what was he doing she needed him to help her now! Slowly Zechs tipped the helmet and poured the hot liquid into her gaping wound. The morphine must not have had much affect because her eyes bulged and she grit her teeth against the pain. Reluctantly Zechs offered his forearm and she took it against her mouth. Zechs had stopped pouring but now started again. Suddenly there was pain running up his arm and Zechs looked down to see her eyes closed tight with a look of pain on her face. Zechs winced at the feel of her teeth in his arm but none the less kept pouring until there was no liquid left in the helmet.
Zechs tossed the helmet aside and waited for the pressure of her teeth to leave before he drew back his arm. There were purplish marks in the shape of semi circles imprinted there but Zechs tried to ignore them and grabbed the bandages nearby. He put a hand under her back for support and then lifted her up so that he could wrap the gauze over the one breast and under the other un-maimed one. When he was done wrapping he reached and tied it off and looked at her. Her eyes were closed and she looked even more like a child in sleep. Zechs looked down and noticed that his hand was still on her breast. He pulled it away but Chris' hand shot up and grabbed his wrist bringing it to her other breast which was uncovered. Zechs blushed at this even though it wasn't the first time he had touched a girl. The skin felt soft beneath his hand though the stiffness toward the middle told him she was cold. Again he tried to retract his hand to put a blanket over her but the hand on his wrist just tightened more.
" Chris, I'm not going anywhere ok?" her eyes opened and he looked into those deep blue pools so like his...no, not anymore, like someone else's Lucrezia. They were so deep and dark, not pale like his own, these were like two living sapphires looking out at him. He remembered how he had loved those same eyes only they had belonged to someone else. He didn't need to think of that now though not after he had finally gotten his mind off of it for a while. What mattered now was this young, naive yet in a strange way enticing girl lying on his bed. She continued to stare at him and didn't say a word, he wondered what she was thinking. He had always been able to read Lucrezia's mind it seemed but this girl was a mystery to him. They just stayed in that position staring into each other's eyes until Zechs finally used his other hand to pry hers off his other. For a moment she seemed to look hurt but then he brought his hand up to stroke her cheek and she smiled gently at him.
" Get some rest. We've a long day ahead of us tomorrow and you need to be rested."
" I guess I should get back to my dorm. That's what you're saying isn't it? " with that she tried to sit up and yank her bra down over the bandages but then grunted in pain and fell back down. After a moment she again tried to get up and made it. The sports bra had plenty of dried blood on it and seemed to be hurting her. She was looking around the room for something and seemed to finally reached over in his pack and took out his knife. There was a ripping noise as she sliced off the material that had been hurting her. There she stood in only pants and some bandages that didn't cover her entirely and here he was staring. The color rushed to his cheeks as he quickly turned his back on her.
" Zechs it's ok I don't care if you see me."
" It would be improper."
" Generally, pulling up my bra would be considered improper as well."
" You needed looking after, that's all that was going on."
" Looking after and looking at are usually one in the same."
" You know I'm a guy and after what happened to you I'd think a man would be the last thing you'd want to be near."
" Do you have to bring that up? Who would I go to in the dorm? Danielle? You're sister?" This struck Zechs in a totally different way and he finally started to understand. The girls in the dorm were already not very friendly towards her especially Danielle. The only nice girl in that barracks who just happened to be fucking up the guy that had just raped Chris."
" But why come to me?"
" Because you're like your sister. You're kind and honest and you get in fights but at the same time you're really a prisoner here...like me."
" You're free to leave at any time."
" Dammit Zechs don't you get it? I don't have anywhere to go but the streets. If I do stay here though it's as someone's whore and not even his primary one at this rate. Now that he's let all this shit out everyone thinks were screwing each other in every dark corner. The thing is that if I leave he'll win and I truly shall be disgraced. It just seems so hopeless." Zechs heard her voice breaking and turned around again but quickly remembered himself and turned his back to her. He had never heard her cuss before in a way he had always thought her incapable of such language. She really was a prisoner here wasn't she. Not physically really more like emotionally. She still did love that jack ass despite everything he had done to her. She was either very naive or very trusting.
" Um... I guess I'll just leave then."
" But your clothes." Zechs decided to forget decency for the moment and turned around.
" What does it matter? Either way they'll think something happened. Don't worry that wasn't the first time Wolf's gotten mad at me. It's never been for supposedly cheating more like little things such as doing something wrong in bed or something like that."
" Chris you can't continue to put up with this. I won't let you!"
" And what so you propose to do about it?"
" I meant what I said earlier. I do care about you and...I don't want you to have to leave."
" What do you want then?"
" For you to trust me is all really. For you to be able to come to me with your troubles and sorrows so that I can make them better. I want to be what Wolf never was. Right now though I want more than anything to make you forget your problems and how we're both prisoner in this damned base. I want you to tell me how I can make you feel better." She stood there for a while once again looking small and fragile with her fists clenched and trembling at her side. Finally she straightened up and looked at him before she spoke.
" I don't want to leave either. All I want is your company."
" Then it is yours," he placed a hand on her shoulder as he said this " and never be afraid to tell me anything all right?"
" Ok." she sort of whispered though her face was still distraught. Zechs knew there was still something she wasn't telling him but he figured he should be grateful for what he had. " Just don't leave me." was all she whispered, " In a way I almost don't believe you're here." the tears were returning yet again and Zechs was beginning to wonder just how much water she drank in a day.
" Trust me this is no dream I'm really here." Zechs drew her closer and then kissed away a salty tear from her cheek.
" I feel you yet it seems so unreal." she lay her head against his chest. " but a dream never had a heart beat in my experience."
" No, I suppose not. You'll know it's not a dream when you wake up with me there."
" Or I'll wake up to a shove in the side early in the morning next to Wolf."
" Don't think that way. In the morning you'll wake up early but it won't be with Wolf."
" You mean?" Zechs cheeks grew red at that. He hadn't really phrased his last sentence very well had he?"
" Of course not. I'll never take advantage of you in such a way."
" Oh." was all she said. With that Zechs picked her up and carried her over to the bed since the morphine was still in her system and he didn't want he falling over or anything. He lay her on the bed and placed a blanket over her. Then he kneeled next to the bed just watching her and stroking her hair. He started to get up when he heard her give a noise of disappointment.
" What is it?" it was already 1:30am and he was starting to feel groggy himself.
" Where are you going to sleep?" she asked sleepily.
" On the floor I guess." said Zechs.
" No it's not fair to you." she was getting alert again much to his sleepy dismay. She started getting out of bed but he put a hand on her shoulder and she just shook it off. He then put both hands and still she fought him. Finally after a strange little wrestling match he pinned her by putting both hands on her on her shoulders and a knee on either side of her.
" Now, be a good girl and go to sleep." said Zechs sternly as he gave her a kiss on the forehead. She put a hand on his gently and all of a sudden one of her knees slid out and knocked him over making him land on top of her. She winced a little at the pain in her body, then looked up into his eyes and kissed him.
Zechs couldn't believe what a strange night he was having. The girl had come in not two hours ago and already she had cried her eyes out, been medically treated and now here she was kissing him. What was worse was that he actually was enjoying this. Yuck! Did that make him a pedophile? Unfortunately he had the sinking feeling that it did. Should he stop now? How far was this going to go? Why was this somehow different. Would someone find out? Zechs finally let his mind go blank and instinct take over. Soon all there was was the feeling of her body pressed against his own and her tongue in his mouth. He had been thinking of Lucrezia at the beginning of the night and here he was kissing a girl six years his junior man was he fickle or what. Finally he pulled back from the kiss and lay his head on her chest.
" Did I do something wrong?" the voice was small and a little nervous. Zechs closed his eyes and kissed her breast, hearing a sharp intake of breath.
" No, it's just me. I don't want to take advantage of you."
" I was the one who started the kiss." She did have a point there but still he felt bad.
" You're so much younger than me though." She took his hand and kissed it.
" Zechs you meant what you said about doing anything to make me happy tonight?"
" Of course I did!" He was somewhat surprised that she was asking this.
" Zechs I'm a sniper. Tomorrow Wolf is sending me into enemy territory where it is likely I'll die," she moved his hand to her hip, " I don't want to die remembering how Wolf raped me. I'd rather remember this." and with that she slipped his hand down her pants. Soon his own pants were off as well as hers and they had gone through all the foreplay either could take.
" You're sure about this?" he asked once more. The only reply he got was an open mouthed kiss on the lips.
" Um...ok then." He slowly entered her since she was still sore from Wolf's abuse. Soon they were grinding together loving the sensations that wracked their bodies. They didn't bother keeping their voices down. If the base thought they had been fucking each other forever so be it. With one last cry Zechs released into her and moments later she screamed and then went limp under him. Pulling out of her he rolled over so that she was on top of him. They lay that way for a while kissing quietly at intervals. Finally Chris broke the silence.
" I guess his assumptions were right." she half laughed and nibbled at his ear.
"Hmm?" Zechs was quite thoroughly exhausted and having trouble keeping his eyes open.
" Wolf was jealous because he thought I liked you better. He was right."
" Oh? And what differences did you pick up on?"
" Well you're more gentle." she kissed his neck, " You don't force me you ask more times than needed," she lightly kissed his cheek, " And it's not felt that good with him ever." she gave him a long kiss on the mouth.
" I still can't believe what we just did. You don't regret it do you?"
" How could I?" she snuggled against him and closed her eyes. He was happy she felt that way and strangely so did he. She really was a sweet girl and for the first time in a long while he felt content.
" Get some sleep sweetling morning comes early and you may regret our little adventure when the rising bell rings."
"Mmm..." her voice faded out and was replaced by heavy breathing. He lay there a while with his arms around his little angel. It looked like he finally had found something to fight for after all. With that thought in his head he drifted off into peaceful slumber.
ooooh you die hard gundam wing fans probably wanna kill me right now huh? The other chapters will be out soon and I don't think you'll mind them so much or at least I hope not. Well only a little more left to go until then Later- Bright Eyes