Ben's Notebook

by RaptorX5

These poems were written by Ben, found in a tattered notebook with the Manticore logo on the cover, that had the picture of the Blue Lady tapped to the inside, in Ben’s back pants pocket after Max had killed him. (Some interpretations of what I think Be

1. Poison God-Machine

AN: Thanks to Nevermore, Howard Barker, Lynn Buffkin, Denise Panfil, for their words and inspiration.

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Poison God-Machine. . . Nevermore

"Sometimes bitterness is all you can hold on to, and within the bitterness I realize my weakness."

Feelings we forgot long ago,

It's been a while. . . since we've believed you,

Without going through the motions,

NO EMOTIONS!

We are but flesh and flesh is the weakness,

We are born of blood sinew and bone,

We're all just spinning in this useless hole in time,

On our way into the black unknown, With the nomies!

Why is this happening to me?

Why have I been forsaken by The Blue Lady?

Nothing numbs the pain any longer,

Please. . . I'm slipping away. . . Seizing!

Sir, Why can't you hear us?

Donald, Why aren't you listening?

Lydecker, Why must we fear you?

Sir, Why did you take her away?

Play dead, hold your breath, never speak out of turn,

Just assign the blame according to their game,

Your will seems cruel, controlled and illogical,

Do our words fall on deaf ears. . . are we just too small?

Please help us understand,

Are we your children?

Are we lost?

Now we're just gone. . .