Can't
Change Me
By Erin
(LuckyMiss@aol.com)
Disclaimer:
I do not own ANY of the Roswell characters, as much as I may wish that I
did. They belong to those awesome
people at the WB. And I don't own the
song "Can't Change Me." Chris
Cornell owns and wrote it. I'm just
borrowing the song and people, so please don't sue me! You'll only get a few CD's (which will
probably not be to your liking) and a few negative utopia books that I had to
buy for my wonderful English class. And
thank you (to those whom it applies) for letting me borrow your stuff! I appreciate it!
Rating:
PG-13; angst (my specialty!)
Dedication:
To my loverly cousin, who so *willingly* drives me home from school
everyday. Hey - if I hadn't been in his
car listening to that radio station at that very moment, I wouldn't have gotten
the inspiration for this fic. Enough
said...
Author's
Notes: I got this idea one afternoon last week when I was riding home with my
cousin from school. It was inspired by
the Chris Cornell song "Can't Change Me" (hence the name.) Here are the lyrics:
She can do
anything at all
Have
anything she pleases
Power to
change what she thinks is wrong
But what
could she want with me?
But wait
just one minute
I can see
that she's trying to read me
Suddenly I
know
She's going
to change the world
But she
can't change me
No, she
can't change me
She has the
daylight at her command
She gives
the night its dreams
She can
uncover your darkest fear
And make
you forget you feel it.
But wait
just one minute
I can see
that she's trying to free me
Suddenly I
know
She's going
to change the world
But she
can't change me
No, she
can't change me
Suddenly I
can see everything that's wrong with me
But what
can I do?
I'm the
only thing I really have
At all
But wait
just one minute
I can see
that she's trying to free me
Suddenly I
know
She's going
to change the world
But she
can't change me
No, she
can't change me
So here it
goes... Tell me what you think! =)
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
What can
she not do?
What gives
her the persistence and enough heart to keep going?
Why does
she never give up?
Has she
ever given up?
And who
gave her the wrong idea that she could change anything that she put her mind
to?
What does
she want with me?
What does
she want me to be?
How come I don't
know what she expects from me?
Why can't I
realize what she wants when she wants it?
Why don't I
give in to her persistence?
Why can't I
be what she wants me to be?
Why does
she try to change me?
How come
she is always able to read me?
Doesn't she
know that she's going to change the world with her beauty and her grace?
Can't she
tell that she's breaking down my stone wall, piece by piece, with her bare
hands and determination?
But I've
already decided. She can't change
me. No, she can't change me.
How come
she can invade my daydreams?
Why does
she come into my dreams in the darkest hours of night?
Why was she
given the gift to uncover my greatest fears?
And through
it all, does she realize what she's doing?
Shouldn't
she realize that she makes me forget about everything when she's around?
Why does
she try her hardest to free me?
Why does
she waste her time on me?
Doesn't she
know that she deserves better?
And if she
does, what does she see in me that, in her eyes, makes me worth keeping?
And if not,
why won't she realize that she can't change me?
'Cause I've
already decided that she can't change me.
No, she can't change me.
Why has it
taken me this long to figure it out?
How come I
can see everything so clearly now?
How can
everything be so obvious to me now, after I've already shattered her heart on
the floor before me?
How come I
decided to make this so hard for her?
Why can't
we just go back to the way things used to be; when they were normal?
Why can't
we go back to when I hadn't decided to make her life a living hell because I
won't change to please her?
Why do I
even deny it?
Why do I
sit here and ask questions that I already know the answers to?
Why do I
question something so obvious?
Why won't I
just admit to my feelings?
Why can't I
grasp the fact that she loves me for who I am?
How come I
can't accept the truth?
What does
she want with me?
Hasn't she
already proven her point?
Hasn't she
already shown that she can change the world?
And why
doesn't she know that the world is for her taking... that I'm just a tiny step
up the steep ladder to stardom?
Doesn't she
know that she's going to change the world?
And even
though I deny it, does she know how much she's already changed mine?
The End
