Emotions
"Van! Where am I!" Hitomi said staring into his eyes. "You're back in my room Hitomi. Don't worry, you're safe now." Hitomi stood up shakily. "It was horrible Van. Just horrible." Van stood up looking at her. "Oh God..." Van thought, looking at Hitomi. "She's so beautiful. I just want to hold her close to me, and caress her face, and tell her how much I love her. But I can't... I just can't."
Hitomi continued. "I remember waking up in a dark room. And this guy... this guy named Migel... He... he kissed me, he... touched me." Hitomi began to cry sitting back on the chair.
"He what?" Van said anger flashing in his eyes. "then, they dragged me to Dilandau, he called these boys, and they dragged me up to the top of the fortress. There was this boy, he was kind, but he seemed to be afraid of Dilandau. Then..." Hitomi's lip trembled. "The other boy took off all my clothes, and tied me up to the post. I was so cold Van. I was freezing to death. Then ... I had a dream. it was so weird. I was walking through Fanelia! Suddenly, the earth began to tremble and I fell through a big deep hole. Then.." A blush crept up her cheeks. "I saw you Van." Van looked at Hitomi tentitively.
"You saw me?" Hitomi nodded. "Yes, and you were calling my name. but I couldn't reach you at all. I held out my hand, begging for you to save me. Then, you spread your wings, and took my hand. I know what happened Van, you saved my life." Without warning, Hitomi burst into tears. She lept into Van's arms and began crying. Van's eyes opened in surprise. Hitomi buried her face in Van's chest, her tears wetting his shirt. He couldn't stand it anymore. He wrapped his arms all around Hitomi, it was something he wanted to do for a long time. Hitomi raised her face to look at him. Van looked deep into the eyes of the girl he loved so much. He leaned forward and kissed her. His lips rested gently on hers like soft petals.
I hear your voice, and I start to tremble
brings back the child, that I resemble.
I cannot pretend, that we can still be friends.
Don't want to be, Alone tonight.
Hitomi let go of Van and stepped back. "Van..." She said. In her eyes, there was one thing that hurt Van the most. There was mistrust. She turned around, and ran out of the room. "Hitomi..." Van whispered, a tear sliding down his face.
"Why did I kiss her? Why didn't I hold back my feelings?" Van yelled, with pain in his voice. "It's because I love Hitomi. I've got to find her." Van ran out of the room and out of the castle, in search of Hitomi. In the distance, he could see Hitomi, sitting on the edge of a hill, with her head tilted towards the sky. Van ran towards her screaming "Hitomi!" Hitomi turned, the moon casting soft shadows about her face.
"Van, why did you come after me?" She asked. Van took deep breaths. Hitomi stood up. "Van I told you once before! I... I love you like a brother Van. but not like a lover. Can't you understand that?" a tear lingered in the corner of her eye, threatening to fall. "Van, please try to understand." Hitomi spoke, her voice shaking. She could see the muscles in Van's jaw tightening. The look in his eyes, all she could see was hurt.
"Van, do you remember all the times we've been through together. All the goodtimes, all the bad times. We were so close, just like brothers and sisters. Don't you remember? All those times, we worked together as a team. To defeat Zaibach. All those times, I knew i'd never be alone, because I'd have Van to be there for me. But I never thought of us, as lovers. I... I never thought of you that way. I... Maybe things will change in the future Van. Just maybe, but now. I.." Hitomi stopped short when Van turned around. The moon illuminated his sillouette.
"Never say never Hitomi. Don't you ever." He said quietly, then sprouted his wings flying up into the sky. Leaving Hitomi standing there, staring up at the angel she had just hurt.
author's note: nooo! what's going to happen?
i haven't even decided yet! anyway, it should be sad.
i dunno... please R/R~*~
End of chpt 5