Confessions, descisions

Author's note:you have no idea how hard this chpt was to write. Everytime there was a chance that they could get together, *sigh* just read it please! R/R!
*please no flames for the not V/H ending, just wait and see.*


Don't you remember? All those times, we worked together as a team. To defeat Zaibach. All those times, I knew i'd never be alone, because I'd have Van to be there for me. But I never thought of us, as lovers. I... Maybe things will change in the future Van. Just maybe, but now. I.." Hitomi stopped short when Van turned around. The moon illuminated his sillouette. "Never say never Hitomi. Don't you ever." He said quietly,then sprouted his wings flying up into the sky. Leaving Hitomi standing there, staring up at the angel she had just hurt.


Van ran off until he could run no more. "Why did this have to happen to me?" Van said bitterly. He looked up into the sky. It began to rain again, first as a light drizzle, then, pelted down on Van back. A light fog began forming all around the trees. Van ran one of his hands through his hair.

"Why can't I get Hitomi out of my mind! What can I do possibly to make her love me? wait," Van pondered. "There is no way I can make her love me. but, I have to talk to her." Van stood up, looking again into the sky.

What can I do
to make you mine
fallen so hard
so fast this time
what did I say
what did you do?
how did I fall in love with you?

Images of Hitomi flashed without warning through his mind. They had been through so much together. The first day he had met her, she had saved his life. All he saw was an ignorant, annoying, loud girl that expected credit for helping him get the dragon energyst. Then, she was transported back to Gaea, along with him. He felt that he needed to protect her, from all the troubles, all the dangers. He could still see her determination, to help, her kindness, and gentleness.

"Back then, I cared about her just like a sister. I never felt this way, this deep... emotion... just why?" Van uttered, still thinking. Then, she saved his life, countless times. He felt like he owed her. But she was so kind, and forgiving.
"I remember the time when I looked out of my window. And I saw Hitomi sitting outside, she never looked more beautiful. The moon illuminated her hair, and face. That was when I fell in love with her." A soft smile spread over Van's face.

"It's not wrong to love her after all. I love Hitomi and that's it." Van stood up peering up into the sky.
"Van, I don't love you." Hitomi's voice echoed back into his head. "NOOO." Van yelled in agony, tears trickling down his cheek. He angrilly wiped them off.

"I won't cry about it anymore!" Van said, as his tears mingled in with the falling rain. He flew up into the sky, his wings spread, and feathers drifting freely in the night sky. The rain fell on his bare skin, and he shivered slightly in the cold. He had to find Hitomi, and talk to her. Then, he saw her, she was walking slowly through the fields, heading back to the castle, her head hung in sorrow. Van landed gently behind her, and lay a shaking hand on her shoulder. Hitomi turned slowly and looked up at Van. In her eyes, there was only sadness.
"Van..." She whispered. "I didn't want it to turn out this way, I..."
She stopped with Van reached out and put a finger on her lips, to stop her from talking.

"Hitomi, I have to say this. I've been thinking..." Hitomi took out a small hankercheif and wiped off the tears in Van's eyes. Van smiled softly.

"I know there is no way that I can make you love me. I already know... but I'm telling you Hitomi." Van said with pure conviction. "I will never give up. I will always wait here for you. And if one day, you decide to come back to me, Hitomi.." tears shimmered again, as Van's voice wavered. "that would be the best day of my entire life. You see, Hitomi, I will always love you. I know that we were meant to be together,
and I believe one day we will be together. I love you so much Hitomi." With that sentance, Van turned around, with his back to Hitomi, his shoulders shaking in his sadness.

I want to say this right.
and it has to be tonight.
I just need you to know.
I don't wanna live this life.
I don't wanna say goodbye.
with you I wanna spend,
the rest of my life...

Hitomi wiped away her own tears, as she spoke softly, her voice shaking.
"I don't know what I can say that can ease your pain. Van, I never meant to hurt you. But all I can say is that I can only love you as a friend. Nothing more Van. I don't feel it. I don't... I" Hitomi looked up into the dark indigo sky and sighed. In her heart, she felt pain too. She didn't even know what she felt, but if she loved Van, she couldn't rush it out! "I don't belong here." Hitomi thought. "I just don't, i've been here for a while, but what good is it staying here? All i've done is hurt people. And i've hurt Van."

A single tear slipped down Hitomi's face and down her chin. Suddenly, her pendant began glowing, and the sky shone a bright light, and a pillar of light flashed down all over Hitomi, she uttered a surprised cry. "Van!" Van whipped around and stared up at the girl he loved, her short honey blond hair flying all around her face. She drifted slowly up, her eyes never leaving Van's. Van acted quickly, he looped an arm around her waist and pulled with all his might, holding her close to him. Through tears, and gritted teeth, Van yelled in a impulsive voice.

"Hitomi! Please don't go! I don't know how I can live without you." Hitomi closed her eyes. "Do I want to leave Gaea and Van?" She thought, her mind was in a mess. "I don't! I'll regret it.. I..." Hitomi opened her eyes and saw the light disappear, and she collasped into Van's arms. Van held for a few seconds, then let her go, blushing.

"Hitomi, you decided to stay here, but..." Van turned around, his tears and sorrow over taking him. "Everything has changed Hitomi, nothings ever going to be the same. It would of been better if you had just left." Hitomi felt as if her heart was breaking, she watched as the handsome boy with the dark raven black hair take off into the sky, his white, feathery wings lifting him up into the sky. He never looked back. Hitomi looked up into the sky and cried.

"I never knew it would turn out this way! Van! why won't you understand?" Suddenly, she felt her body lift into the air, tears poured down her face like rain. In the distance, she saw Van fly off, the moon illuminating his shadow. She could feel his anger, and sadness.
"Goodbye Van. Could of been better that we never met?" She lifted her eyes to face her destiny. She knew it didn't include Van.
-Van-
Under the shelter of his wings, Van turned and saw the last glimpse of light that took Hitomi back. He blinked away the tears that formed in his eyes again. He looked at the beautiful girl that was slowly disappearing. The tears slowly slipped down his cheeks. "She's finally gone. Gone. Forever. Hitomi, why did you listen to me? just why did you leave me? Just how, just how, Hitomi?" Van asked in anguish, his voice echoing in the night. "How did I fall in love with you?"

What can I do, to make you mine.
fallen so hard, so fast this time.
everything's changed,
we never knew...
how did I fall, in love,
with you?


The End. (or maybe...)


Author's note: oh my goodness! who is disappointed with the ending? Perhaps everyone!
anyhoo, i hope you enjoyed it, because I love V/H
fics! thank you!
ps: I need your votes! should I have a sequel to what happens between Van and Hitomi? or should I leave at their parting? Please review to vote! all i need is about lemme see, 5 reviews to continue!