Do you believe in love after love, part VIII
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Here is part eight, it has been two years since Monica left, with the excuse that she didn't love Chandler anymore and that it was just a crush.
Disclaimer: I don't own any of this character. Kauffman, Crane and Bright do.
Note: This is NOT a funny fanfic, so don't expect to laugh, I could say its drama, although I'm sure it wont make you cry like others did (i.e Always)
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Chandler woke up as the light from the sun entered his room. Finally it was Saturday, the last week of work had been hectic, he barely had time to sleep and now he had two days to rest, which he wanted to enjoy as much as possible. He slowly got up from his bed and went to the kitchen, ready to make breakfast. When he entered the kitchen he saw two plates in the kitchen table, with eggs and some bread. 'This is life' he thought.
He went over the fridge and took the milk out, just as a woman came from the other side of the kitchen.
"Hey, Chandler" the woman said going over to him.
"Hello, Claudia" He said, giving her a kiss on the cheek.
"Ready for breakfast?" she asked him.
"Yeah"
Claudia had become Chandler's best friend 6 months after Monica had left and they had being living together for the past 6 months. After Monica left, the group started to spread away. Chandler was too depressed to do anything, he barely went to work and he almost got fired. Joey got his big break making a movie with Julia Roberts and since then he kept going from one state to another, shooting movies. He currently lives in LA. Ross and Rachel decided to live together in his apartment, after one year they decided to get married and they moved out, very far and after some time Chandler lost contact with them. Phoebe decided to move to LA too, so she could try to become a famous singer, which until now, hadn't work.
After eating their breakfast Chandler turned on the TV and sat on the couch, a news special was starting.
"And today, August 12th the president...."
After Chandler heard the date, he paralyzed. August 12th... 2 years ago, in this exact same date, Monica had left.... giving the excuse that she didn't love him anymore, which Chandler didn't believe, he knew her too well and he knew she was lying, but until today he never figured out why exactly she had left.
"You heard the date, uh?" He heard her roommate say, which made him come back to reality.
"Yeah..." he said with a sad voice.
"I can't believe that after two years you still love her"
"I do not love her! Its just not a happy thought to remember what she did to me, that's it"
"Yeah, ok..." she said, not believing a word of what he was saying.
Claudia knew everything that had happened between Chandler and Monica, since how everything started till the end of it, she knew for sure that Chandler was still in love with Monica, many times they were talking and he mention her or some habit she had. She also knew that it was hard for Chandler to admit that he was still in love with her, specially after what she did to him.
Their friendship started after a date, nothing happened between them, Chandler didn't want to go on a date, but Joey made him and there was where he met Claudia. They started talking and Chandler started liking her, but only as friends. When he told her that he wasn't interested in her in a romantic way, she agreed and since then, they became very good friends, best friends.
The whole morning Chandler was sad, as he always was after thinking of Monica, so Claudia made some reservations at a new restaurant that opened a few days ago. At 7pm they should be ready to go, but Claudia didn't say anything to him, she just told him to dress elegant and then she made him get in the car and drove off. Chandler had no idea where they were going and Claudia wasn't going to tell him, she knew he was going to complain if she did.
"So, where are we going?" Chandler asked her.
"Not telling you" was the only thing she said.
"Come on, I'm going to find sooner or later"
"Then lets make it later!"
"Claudia, just tell me, I promise I wont say anything"
"No"
"Please" he said begging.
"Nope, just wait and see"
After 15 of driving they arrived to a restaurant, full of people. It wasn't very big but enough space for the people who was there. There was also some space in the middle so people could dance. Chandler wanted to complain, but he didn't say anything, he knew he couldn't do anything about it now, they were already there and Claudia wasn't going to drive back until they were finished eating or whatever she had in mind.
"So, you are not going to say anything" Claudia asked surprised.
"If I complain, will it make us go back home?" he asked.
"No"
"Then no"
She smiled at him, they headed to an empty table and a waitress came over.
"What would you like, miss?" She asked Claudia.
"What is the special today?"
"Lobster, made by chef Geller"
Both, Claudia and Chandler frizzed.
"Hmmm, chef Geller??" Claudia asked.
"Yes, Angelic Geller, great chef!"
Both sighed with relief, specially Chandler. He leaned his head on the table and rested there while Claudia asked for their food. After the waitress left, Chandler lifted his head up.
"Oh no, just what I needed" He sad, looking shocked.
"What? it was just a last name coincidence, it could happen to anyone"
"No, not that" he said, mentioning Claudia to look where he was looking.
"Oh my God!!" Was all she could manage to say.
Both where surprised by what they were seeing, Monica; THE Monica, was sitting in a table with some guy, talking and laughing, 3 tables ahead.
"Go and talk to her!" Claudia said.
"What?!?!?"
"Get up, go over there and say hi"
"No!"
"Why not?"
"Why yes?"
"So that you can prove your theory"
"What theory??" he asked, not understanding what she was saying.
"That the real reason why she left isn't because she wasn't in love with you"
"Yeah right, I'm going over there and say 'hey Monica, remember me? I was the guy you left because you didn't love, by the way, was that the real reason?' "
"Yeah, great, say that to her, although I doubt she doesn't remember you, so miss the remember me part"
With that, she stood up, grabbed Chandler's hand, and forced him to go over at Monica's table, causing a few people to stare at them. She didn't know why she wanted him to talk to Monica, but she knew, some how, that he had to.
Monica was talking to Fred, one good friend she had. When she noticed Fred looking up, she did the same and her face changed from happy to shocked.
"May I help you?" Fred asked them.
"Yeah" Claudia started "This guy next to me, Chandler, knows Monica, they were best friends once"
"Really?" said Fred "Nice to meet you Chandler" he said offering his hand, which chandler took and shook "and you are?" he asked, looking at Claudia.
"Claudia, Chandler's current best friend"
All this time Monica was quite, she couldn't say anything, it was such a surprise to see Chandler, she thought she could bump into Ross or Rachel, but never Chandler. She saw that Fred had got up and he was now talking to Claudia, who was smiling.
"So, now we are going to dance" Fred said, offering Claudia his hand, who happily took it.
"But Fred, we were talking here" Monica said fast, not wanting to be alone with Chandler, not just yet.
"I'm sorry Mon, we will keep talking later, now let me dance with this beautiful woman"
Claudia forced Chandler to sit in front of Monica and then they left to the dance floor and started dancing.
After 7 minutes of uncomfortable silence, a new song came, it was Rosanna by Toto.
All I wanna do when I wake up in the morning is see your eyes
Rosanna, Rosanna
I never thought that a girl like you could ever care for me, Rosanna
All I wanna do in the middle of the evening is hold you tight
Rosanna, Rosanna
I didn't know you were looking for more than I could ever be
Not quite a year since she went away, Rosanna
Now she's gone and I have to say
[Chorus:]
Meet you all the way, meet you all the way, Rosanna
Meet you all the way, meet you all the way, Rosanna
I can see your face still shining through the window on the other side
Rosanna, Rosanna
I didn't know that a girl like you could make me feel so sad, Rosanna
All I wanna tell you is now you'll never ever have to compromise
Rosanna, Rosanna
I never thought that losing you could ever hurt so bad
Not quite a year since she went away, Rosanna
Now she's gone and I have to say
[Repeat chorus]
Not quite a year since she went away,
Who is it? Rosanna
Now she's gone and I have to say
[Repeat chorus]
Meet you all the way, meet you all the way, Rosanna
Meet you all the way, meet you all the way, Rosanna
Chandler was surprised at how much the song represented what he felt after Monica left. He looked at her, who was looking at the dance floor, apparently looking for Fred and Claudia, without thinking it twice he said:
"Funny how songs can represent how you feel or felt, uh?" Chandler said "Although it should say Monica and you left two years ago"
Monica looked at him, with a sad face, she knew she deserved this, she knew he was going to make some comment about what happened two years ago, but it still hurt, seeing him so angry with her, being so hurt, made her feel terrible, but she couldn't expect any less. Tears started forming in her eyes, she couldn't take it, she got up and ran, she ran until she reached the door. Chandler, surprised by her reaction, stood up as well and headed towards the door, meeting Claudia in the way.
"Where are you going?" she asked.
Without answering her question, he said "You were totally right!"
"About what?" Claudia asked confused.
"Me, still loving her... I mean, she started crying and it broke my heart, I haven't forgotten what she did to me, she left me and she hurt me, but I-I still love her"
Claudia smiled at herself, she was right! Now she had to hope for Monica not to break his heart again, although she had no idea if he was going to tell her or not. When she looked where Chandler had been standing, she didn't see him, he had already left the restaurant.
Monica walked as fast as she could down the street, tears falling down her cheeks, she was expecting this, after she saw him, she knew he was going to talk about it, but it still hurt to see that he hated her, she had hurt him so bad, but she wanted him to forgive her, although she thought it was impossible.
After a while of walking she felt someone grabbing her arm, she froze, she thought it was a thief. She slowly turned around to see Chandler standing there. Why had he followed her? she asked herself. The only answered that crossed her mind was that he wanted to keep telling her things, mean things, about their past, about their break up.
"What are you doing here? Why did you follow me?"
"I wanted to talk to you"
"About what?"
"About the beautiful day we had today, the sun, the birds..." he said sarcastically "About our past Mon, what else?" he said, now mad.
'Oh, oh, now he is mad, great Monica!' she said to herself. "There is nothing to talk about, I explained everything before I left"
"No you didn't, you lied to me about it, you didn't tell me your real reason"
"What makes you think that what I said wasn't the real reason?"
"Monica... I know you, or may I say, I knew you, and that wasn't the real reason. The tone in your voice when you said it, and all the things we went through before we broke up... that doesn't show that you didn't love me"
"How do you know?"
"Oh come one, Monica! I KNOW that it wasn't the real reason why you left" he said, yelling at her "Now, please tell me what the real reason was" he said, softly this time.
"I can't"
"Why not?"
"Because I can't. Dammit Chandler, just leave me alone, ok?"
"No, I want to know the real reason why you left, the reason why you broke up with me"
"I wont tell you!" She said yelling.
"Tell me!!!"
"I wont, are you stupid or what? I said that I wont tell you!!" She said, getting madder and madder.
"Why not?"
"What happened, happened, ok? even if I tell you now it wont change anything"
"That is not true" he said, surprised that he had actually said it, he didn't want to.
"Yeah, right" she said "You will still hate me, and you will continue yelling at me!"
Now he calmed down, she thought he hated her? that isn't possible, not to him "I do not hate you, I never have and I NEVER will"
"What?" she asked.
"What you just heard, Mon. I mean you left me saying that you didn't love me, and I don't hate you, I mean, yeah you hurt me and a lot but I don't hate you" He said getting closer to her.
"You don't?"
"No I don't" he said "now could you please explain me why you left" He said looking at her in the eyes.
"If you promise not to get mad"
"I promise"
"Ok, one week before I broke up with you, I went to the doctor, typical appointment that I have from time to time to check if everything was alright, but it wasn't" she said, slowly, and with sadness in her voice "One day before I left, the doctor called me, with the results of all my exams and he told me that I had a problem, that I couldn't have children, not even one" Chandler looked at her as she told the story "For a day I was thinking what to do, if I should go and see another doctor to check if he was right or tell you and work on this together, but then I thought about your fear of commitment, that maybe if I told you that I couldn't have babies you would have freaked out because I was thinking about babies when we had been dating for a year, so after a lot of thinking I decided to leave, so that you could build a family, and be happy"
"That's why you left?" he asked, getting mad "That is why you left me??" he asked again, yelling.
"You promised you wouldn't get mad"
"Well, how can I not be mad, if you left because you couldn't have babies, that is the stupidest reason ever, I mean we could have worked this together, I know we could have worked it together, but you left, for that reason" He said looking away "I can't believe you ruined 2 whole years of my life, when they could have been the happiest of my life. I mean we could have gotten married and we could have had a little kid running around"
Oops, he said it, he slowly looked at her again, and saw, again, tears in her eyes. He hoped that the earth would swallow him right now, how could he have been so stupid, she said the reason she left was because she couldn't have babies and now he said that they could have had babies, when she actually couldn't.
"See" Monica said, sobbing "That's why I left, I know you want a family, even if you were afraid of commitment, you wanted a family, and I wanted you to have it, and with me, you couldn't" Now she was crying. The only thing Chandler thought of doing was going over to her and hug her, and that was what he did, he ran over to her and put his arms around her, thing that he had done so many times before.
She cried and cried, Chandler trying to calm her down, which was working, but really slowly.
"Shh, Mon, calm down, I'm sorry about what I said, I didn't mean it, if you had told me about it we could have gone to another doctor and you would have had me there to be with you in case he said it was true... I just cant believe we lost those years because one doctor told you, you couldn't have babies, we could have adopted babies if it was true!"
"I'm sorry Chandler, you don't know how sorry I am"
"Yes I do, I really do" He said, still hugging her.
"I know those two years were hell for you, but they were hell for me too, I mean I left you, even though I loved you with all my heart, I did, really. And it hurt me to know that I hurt you too much"
"I loved you too, with all my heart and I am sure we could have done something about the baby thing, but as you said what happened, happened, but I have an idea" he said, now breaking the hug to look at her.
"What idea?"
"We can go to another doctor, and see if you actually can't have babies or it was an error from the hospital, you don't loose anything trying"
"I can't handle it, Chandler"
"I'll go with you, I'll be there for you"
"Really? you would do that for me?"
"Yes I will, now lets go home and tomorrow we will call and we will ask for an appointment, ok?"
"Ok, thank you so much Chandler" She said, hugging him again.
Chandler didn't know why he offered to go with her to the doctors "Maybe I just want her to be happy" he thought "Maybe I want to give us another try.........."
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THATS ALL FOR NOW, THE NEXT PART (AND PROBABLY THE LAST ONE, OR MAYBE THERE ARE TWO MORE LEFT) WILL BE POSTED BEFORE MARCH (THAT IS IF PEOPLE LIKED THE FANFIC, IF THEY DIDNT, THEN I WILL JUST POST THEM IN MY WEBSITE) SEE IF MONICA CAN ACTUALLY HAVE BABIES OR NOT, IN DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AFTER LOVE, PART 9.
Feedback always appreciated, constructive criticism too.
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Here is part eight, it has been two years since Monica left, with the excuse that she didn't love Chandler anymore and that it was just a crush.
Disclaimer: I don't own any of this character. Kauffman, Crane and Bright do.
Note: This is NOT a funny fanfic, so don't expect to laugh, I could say its drama, although I'm sure it wont make you cry like others did (i.e Always)
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Chandler woke up as the light from the sun entered his room. Finally it was Saturday, the last week of work had been hectic, he barely had time to sleep and now he had two days to rest, which he wanted to enjoy as much as possible. He slowly got up from his bed and went to the kitchen, ready to make breakfast. When he entered the kitchen he saw two plates in the kitchen table, with eggs and some bread. 'This is life' he thought.
He went over the fridge and took the milk out, just as a woman came from the other side of the kitchen.
"Hey, Chandler" the woman said going over to him.
"Hello, Claudia" He said, giving her a kiss on the cheek.
"Ready for breakfast?" she asked him.
"Yeah"
Claudia had become Chandler's best friend 6 months after Monica had left and they had being living together for the past 6 months. After Monica left, the group started to spread away. Chandler was too depressed to do anything, he barely went to work and he almost got fired. Joey got his big break making a movie with Julia Roberts and since then he kept going from one state to another, shooting movies. He currently lives in LA. Ross and Rachel decided to live together in his apartment, after one year they decided to get married and they moved out, very far and after some time Chandler lost contact with them. Phoebe decided to move to LA too, so she could try to become a famous singer, which until now, hadn't work.
After eating their breakfast Chandler turned on the TV and sat on the couch, a news special was starting.
"And today, August 12th the president...."
After Chandler heard the date, he paralyzed. August 12th... 2 years ago, in this exact same date, Monica had left.... giving the excuse that she didn't love him anymore, which Chandler didn't believe, he knew her too well and he knew she was lying, but until today he never figured out why exactly she had left.
"You heard the date, uh?" He heard her roommate say, which made him come back to reality.
"Yeah..." he said with a sad voice.
"I can't believe that after two years you still love her"
"I do not love her! Its just not a happy thought to remember what she did to me, that's it"
"Yeah, ok..." she said, not believing a word of what he was saying.
Claudia knew everything that had happened between Chandler and Monica, since how everything started till the end of it, she knew for sure that Chandler was still in love with Monica, many times they were talking and he mention her or some habit she had. She also knew that it was hard for Chandler to admit that he was still in love with her, specially after what she did to him.
Their friendship started after a date, nothing happened between them, Chandler didn't want to go on a date, but Joey made him and there was where he met Claudia. They started talking and Chandler started liking her, but only as friends. When he told her that he wasn't interested in her in a romantic way, she agreed and since then, they became very good friends, best friends.
The whole morning Chandler was sad, as he always was after thinking of Monica, so Claudia made some reservations at a new restaurant that opened a few days ago. At 7pm they should be ready to go, but Claudia didn't say anything to him, she just told him to dress elegant and then she made him get in the car and drove off. Chandler had no idea where they were going and Claudia wasn't going to tell him, she knew he was going to complain if she did.
"So, where are we going?" Chandler asked her.
"Not telling you" was the only thing she said.
"Come on, I'm going to find sooner or later"
"Then lets make it later!"
"Claudia, just tell me, I promise I wont say anything"
"No"
"Please" he said begging.
"Nope, just wait and see"
After 15 of driving they arrived to a restaurant, full of people. It wasn't very big but enough space for the people who was there. There was also some space in the middle so people could dance. Chandler wanted to complain, but he didn't say anything, he knew he couldn't do anything about it now, they were already there and Claudia wasn't going to drive back until they were finished eating or whatever she had in mind.
"So, you are not going to say anything" Claudia asked surprised.
"If I complain, will it make us go back home?" he asked.
"No"
"Then no"
She smiled at him, they headed to an empty table and a waitress came over.
"What would you like, miss?" She asked Claudia.
"What is the special today?"
"Lobster, made by chef Geller"
Both, Claudia and Chandler frizzed.
"Hmmm, chef Geller??" Claudia asked.
"Yes, Angelic Geller, great chef!"
Both sighed with relief, specially Chandler. He leaned his head on the table and rested there while Claudia asked for their food. After the waitress left, Chandler lifted his head up.
"Oh no, just what I needed" He sad, looking shocked.
"What? it was just a last name coincidence, it could happen to anyone"
"No, not that" he said, mentioning Claudia to look where he was looking.
"Oh my God!!" Was all she could manage to say.
Both where surprised by what they were seeing, Monica; THE Monica, was sitting in a table with some guy, talking and laughing, 3 tables ahead.
"Go and talk to her!" Claudia said.
"What?!?!?"
"Get up, go over there and say hi"
"No!"
"Why not?"
"Why yes?"
"So that you can prove your theory"
"What theory??" he asked, not understanding what she was saying.
"That the real reason why she left isn't because she wasn't in love with you"
"Yeah right, I'm going over there and say 'hey Monica, remember me? I was the guy you left because you didn't love, by the way, was that the real reason?' "
"Yeah, great, say that to her, although I doubt she doesn't remember you, so miss the remember me part"
With that, she stood up, grabbed Chandler's hand, and forced him to go over at Monica's table, causing a few people to stare at them. She didn't know why she wanted him to talk to Monica, but she knew, some how, that he had to.
Monica was talking to Fred, one good friend she had. When she noticed Fred looking up, she did the same and her face changed from happy to shocked.
"May I help you?" Fred asked them.
"Yeah" Claudia started "This guy next to me, Chandler, knows Monica, they were best friends once"
"Really?" said Fred "Nice to meet you Chandler" he said offering his hand, which chandler took and shook "and you are?" he asked, looking at Claudia.
"Claudia, Chandler's current best friend"
All this time Monica was quite, she couldn't say anything, it was such a surprise to see Chandler, she thought she could bump into Ross or Rachel, but never Chandler. She saw that Fred had got up and he was now talking to Claudia, who was smiling.
"So, now we are going to dance" Fred said, offering Claudia his hand, who happily took it.
"But Fred, we were talking here" Monica said fast, not wanting to be alone with Chandler, not just yet.
"I'm sorry Mon, we will keep talking later, now let me dance with this beautiful woman"
Claudia forced Chandler to sit in front of Monica and then they left to the dance floor and started dancing.
After 7 minutes of uncomfortable silence, a new song came, it was Rosanna by Toto.
All I wanna do when I wake up in the morning is see your eyes
Rosanna, Rosanna
I never thought that a girl like you could ever care for me, Rosanna
All I wanna do in the middle of the evening is hold you tight
Rosanna, Rosanna
I didn't know you were looking for more than I could ever be
Not quite a year since she went away, Rosanna
Now she's gone and I have to say
[Chorus:]
Meet you all the way, meet you all the way, Rosanna
Meet you all the way, meet you all the way, Rosanna
I can see your face still shining through the window on the other side
Rosanna, Rosanna
I didn't know that a girl like you could make me feel so sad, Rosanna
All I wanna tell you is now you'll never ever have to compromise
Rosanna, Rosanna
I never thought that losing you could ever hurt so bad
Not quite a year since she went away, Rosanna
Now she's gone and I have to say
[Repeat chorus]
Not quite a year since she went away,
Who is it? Rosanna
Now she's gone and I have to say
[Repeat chorus]
Meet you all the way, meet you all the way, Rosanna
Meet you all the way, meet you all the way, Rosanna
Chandler was surprised at how much the song represented what he felt after Monica left. He looked at her, who was looking at the dance floor, apparently looking for Fred and Claudia, without thinking it twice he said:
"Funny how songs can represent how you feel or felt, uh?" Chandler said "Although it should say Monica and you left two years ago"
Monica looked at him, with a sad face, she knew she deserved this, she knew he was going to make some comment about what happened two years ago, but it still hurt, seeing him so angry with her, being so hurt, made her feel terrible, but she couldn't expect any less. Tears started forming in her eyes, she couldn't take it, she got up and ran, she ran until she reached the door. Chandler, surprised by her reaction, stood up as well and headed towards the door, meeting Claudia in the way.
"Where are you going?" she asked.
Without answering her question, he said "You were totally right!"
"About what?" Claudia asked confused.
"Me, still loving her... I mean, she started crying and it broke my heart, I haven't forgotten what she did to me, she left me and she hurt me, but I-I still love her"
Claudia smiled at herself, she was right! Now she had to hope for Monica not to break his heart again, although she had no idea if he was going to tell her or not. When she looked where Chandler had been standing, she didn't see him, he had already left the restaurant.
Monica walked as fast as she could down the street, tears falling down her cheeks, she was expecting this, after she saw him, she knew he was going to talk about it, but it still hurt to see that he hated her, she had hurt him so bad, but she wanted him to forgive her, although she thought it was impossible.
After a while of walking she felt someone grabbing her arm, she froze, she thought it was a thief. She slowly turned around to see Chandler standing there. Why had he followed her? she asked herself. The only answered that crossed her mind was that he wanted to keep telling her things, mean things, about their past, about their break up.
"What are you doing here? Why did you follow me?"
"I wanted to talk to you"
"About what?"
"About the beautiful day we had today, the sun, the birds..." he said sarcastically "About our past Mon, what else?" he said, now mad.
'Oh, oh, now he is mad, great Monica!' she said to herself. "There is nothing to talk about, I explained everything before I left"
"No you didn't, you lied to me about it, you didn't tell me your real reason"
"What makes you think that what I said wasn't the real reason?"
"Monica... I know you, or may I say, I knew you, and that wasn't the real reason. The tone in your voice when you said it, and all the things we went through before we broke up... that doesn't show that you didn't love me"
"How do you know?"
"Oh come one, Monica! I KNOW that it wasn't the real reason why you left" he said, yelling at her "Now, please tell me what the real reason was" he said, softly this time.
"I can't"
"Why not?"
"Because I can't. Dammit Chandler, just leave me alone, ok?"
"No, I want to know the real reason why you left, the reason why you broke up with me"
"I wont tell you!" She said yelling.
"Tell me!!!"
"I wont, are you stupid or what? I said that I wont tell you!!" She said, getting madder and madder.
"Why not?"
"What happened, happened, ok? even if I tell you now it wont change anything"
"That is not true" he said, surprised that he had actually said it, he didn't want to.
"Yeah, right" she said "You will still hate me, and you will continue yelling at me!"
Now he calmed down, she thought he hated her? that isn't possible, not to him "I do not hate you, I never have and I NEVER will"
"What?" she asked.
"What you just heard, Mon. I mean you left me saying that you didn't love me, and I don't hate you, I mean, yeah you hurt me and a lot but I don't hate you" He said getting closer to her.
"You don't?"
"No I don't" he said "now could you please explain me why you left" He said looking at her in the eyes.
"If you promise not to get mad"
"I promise"
"Ok, one week before I broke up with you, I went to the doctor, typical appointment that I have from time to time to check if everything was alright, but it wasn't" she said, slowly, and with sadness in her voice "One day before I left, the doctor called me, with the results of all my exams and he told me that I had a problem, that I couldn't have children, not even one" Chandler looked at her as she told the story "For a day I was thinking what to do, if I should go and see another doctor to check if he was right or tell you and work on this together, but then I thought about your fear of commitment, that maybe if I told you that I couldn't have babies you would have freaked out because I was thinking about babies when we had been dating for a year, so after a lot of thinking I decided to leave, so that you could build a family, and be happy"
"That's why you left?" he asked, getting mad "That is why you left me??" he asked again, yelling.
"You promised you wouldn't get mad"
"Well, how can I not be mad, if you left because you couldn't have babies, that is the stupidest reason ever, I mean we could have worked this together, I know we could have worked it together, but you left, for that reason" He said looking away "I can't believe you ruined 2 whole years of my life, when they could have been the happiest of my life. I mean we could have gotten married and we could have had a little kid running around"
Oops, he said it, he slowly looked at her again, and saw, again, tears in her eyes. He hoped that the earth would swallow him right now, how could he have been so stupid, she said the reason she left was because she couldn't have babies and now he said that they could have had babies, when she actually couldn't.
"See" Monica said, sobbing "That's why I left, I know you want a family, even if you were afraid of commitment, you wanted a family, and I wanted you to have it, and with me, you couldn't" Now she was crying. The only thing Chandler thought of doing was going over to her and hug her, and that was what he did, he ran over to her and put his arms around her, thing that he had done so many times before.
She cried and cried, Chandler trying to calm her down, which was working, but really slowly.
"Shh, Mon, calm down, I'm sorry about what I said, I didn't mean it, if you had told me about it we could have gone to another doctor and you would have had me there to be with you in case he said it was true... I just cant believe we lost those years because one doctor told you, you couldn't have babies, we could have adopted babies if it was true!"
"I'm sorry Chandler, you don't know how sorry I am"
"Yes I do, I really do" He said, still hugging her.
"I know those two years were hell for you, but they were hell for me too, I mean I left you, even though I loved you with all my heart, I did, really. And it hurt me to know that I hurt you too much"
"I loved you too, with all my heart and I am sure we could have done something about the baby thing, but as you said what happened, happened, but I have an idea" he said, now breaking the hug to look at her.
"What idea?"
"We can go to another doctor, and see if you actually can't have babies or it was an error from the hospital, you don't loose anything trying"
"I can't handle it, Chandler"
"I'll go with you, I'll be there for you"
"Really? you would do that for me?"
"Yes I will, now lets go home and tomorrow we will call and we will ask for an appointment, ok?"
"Ok, thank you so much Chandler" She said, hugging him again.
Chandler didn't know why he offered to go with her to the doctors "Maybe I just want her to be happy" he thought "Maybe I want to give us another try.........."
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THATS ALL FOR NOW, THE NEXT PART (AND PROBABLY THE LAST ONE, OR MAYBE THERE ARE TWO MORE LEFT) WILL BE POSTED BEFORE MARCH (THAT IS IF PEOPLE LIKED THE FANFIC, IF THEY DIDNT, THEN I WILL JUST POST THEM IN MY WEBSITE) SEE IF MONICA CAN ACTUALLY HAVE BABIES OR NOT, IN DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AFTER LOVE, PART 9.
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