(Yep I am attempting a song-fic now! Run and hide!!! Prepare for the HORRIBLE!!! Ma-hem is a slightly original character. I say slightly because he's actually an existing anime character that I put through a TON of changes, including a name change. Hiei is not mine at all; the only original element I gave him was being a zonathrope. The song "Save Yourself" is not mine either. Ma-hem is, and I do believe I am the first to do this, a Venus flytrap half beast, and Hiei is a black dragon zonathrope. This is also meant to be like a Hiehem coupling experiment, it's my first song fic, it's my first yaoi couple, and my first Hiehem fic, so BEAR WITH ME, PLEASE!!! Also, R&R, tell me if I should die for attempting to follow Brad's lead, or if it's an ok fic, and if Hiehem should never be thought of again. I know it's odd, but I thought it sounded a lot like then, and it might be a little hard for some people to get, but I tried to explain it with in the fic too. And, this is finally the last thing, the words may be wrong because I took them down based on hearing the song.)


Ma-hem stood alone on a cliff, over looking the empty looking world around him. Hiei jumps down behind him from a tree and smirks, then attempts to knock him off the cliff with his superior speed, but Ma-hem just steps aside and keeps him from falling down.

Ma-hem: I'm to use to the feeling of your spirit and your smell for you to pull that on me.
Hiei: Hn...I could have caught my self...
Ma-hem: uh, hu....
Hiei: Ch...none of my business why you'd help me anyway...
Ma-hem: No one's here...(shrugs)

~I know your life is empty
And you hate to face this world of love
So you're searching for an angel
Someone who can make you whole~

Hiei: (seems P-Oed about something) Baka...how do you know anything?
Ma-hem: You already know I've been through as bad as you...
Hiei: and the fact you know THAT proves you should be dead now...
Ma-hem: (shakes his head) This is the difference between someone who meditates and someone who sleeps in trees during his free time...
Hiei: (growls)

~Well I cannot save you
I can't even save myself
So just SAVE YOURSELF!~

Flash backs start to appear to Hiei again. Hiei being banished from his mother's island as a newborn, just because he was a male, and being forced to survive alone until he was found. Being turned away by his own father when he found him, finding out his mother committed suicide because she had to get rid of him, finding out he had a sister and he felt like he couldn't tell her because he thought she'd be ashamed to have a murderer as a brother. Then he remembered what Ma-hem told him as well. Ma-hem had been born to dieing parents. His father taught him of evil and murder in his last moments. His father didn't care WHAT happened to him. Ma-hem was left to live life alone as a baby as well, and he had NO ONE to turn to.

~(SELF!)~

They were both demons with tortured pasts, both a little over confident sometimes, both full of power, both full of sorrow, both full of anger that threatened to flow out at a moments notice, both full of pride, both full of denial, and both unwilling to ever admit their true feeling about anything.

~Now that you've been damaged
And your soul's opened to such abuse
And I am not your savior
I am just as fucked as you
(I am just as fucked as you)~

Hiei lashed out at Ma-hem with his sword, in anger, but Ma-hem used his chains as a shield. Then they got in to an all out fight. It was obvious something about this bothered Hiei deeply somehow.

~I cannot save you
I can't even save MYSELF!
So just SAVE YOURSELF!~

Hiei beat Ma-hem pretty badly, and seemed to enjoy seeing him lay there in pain after what he'd done, but Ma-hem sat up and smirked at him, looking exhausted.

Ma-hem: I guess I won't bug you about that again, huh?

He fell back down, bleeding badly and Hiei shook his head, cursing at himself.

Hiei: Baka! How'd you let this happen to yourself?

Hiei started trying to help Ma-hem, who stirred a little, and looked up at him.

Ma-hem: I didn't ask for your help (coughs a little)
Hiei: (in a slightly mocking tone) Well no one's here!
Ma-hem: Don't bother yourself with me...you don't give a fuck about me...and I don't give a fuck about you
Hiei: Hn, just shut the hell up, you should be grateful I didn't just leave you to bleed to death!
Ma-hem: Well this seems to be the first time we've heard this much from each other...
Hiei: I said SHUT UP!

~Please don't take pity on me...
Please don't take pity on me...
PLEASE DON'T TAKE PITY on me...
PLEASE DON'T TAKE PITY on me!~

Hiei took Ma-hem somewhere safe and took care of the injuries as best as they knew how to. Neither of them knew much about modern things or healing. Me-hem stayed dead silent for the rest of the night and Hiei privately worried about him. Checking him frequently to make sure nothing was happening to him. He was worried to death that he'd cause Ma-hem to die and he didn't understand...how could you despise someone and care so much at the same time? He HATED that Ma-hem knew about his past, and that Ma-hem was arousing such familiar feelings deep within him. What was it that he felt was so important about HIM?

~And I must live a nightmare
My soul is scratched into the bone
If I must be lonely
I think I'd rather be alone.
(I think I'd rather be alone!)~

When Ma-hem finally woke up all right Hiei was gone, and Ma-hem knew Hiei was always like that, so he didn't care. He wouldn't have said it but he was happy Hiei helped him. He felt the feelings that he had hidden for Hiei tug at his thoughts and he shook his head.

You cannot save me
You can't even save yourself!

Hiei watched, hidden in a nearby tree. It was definitely obvious to him now; he was in love with another man again. He wondered slightly at how the others would think about it. (Trapped again) he thought to himself.

I cannot save you
I CAN'T EVEN SAVE MYSELF!
SAVE YOURSELF!
So just SAVE YOURSELF!