Entry Two
-- Well, I told myself I wasn't going to mess with this stupid book anymore,
but before I knew it I had it in my hands again. It's still been quite a
few months, maybe even a year or more since I first opened it, though. I'm
not even sure how it got in my pack, but since it's here
Alexandria's finally been rebuilt and Tantalus came
to perform a play in honor of the rededication or whatever you want to call
it. We were all invited, of course, and so I went. Lani sort of followed
me there too, though I don't know why she seems to insist on tagging along
with me nowadays. Maybe it's her old bounty hunter instinct, that's all I
can think of. She has changed some though since she was saved by Eiko's moogles
and was living in Madain Sari. She's still kind of annoying but I've gotten
too used to having people around all the time so I just let her be.
I try not to show it but that bastard Zidane's really
messed me up. I don't know if I like it but I guess I owe it to him that
I've mellowed out a little, I guess it is. I still won't buy into that
whole love-and-togetherness shit but there is truth in his saying that people
need each other.
Oh, notice I say 'is'? He just kind of came back today,
showing up in the middle of the play and making Dagger's dreams come true
I guess. I couldn't help but smile at them, clapping along with everyone
else. (Eh, not like anyone noticed me with the 'reunion of the century' happening
right there.) Stupid kid must be blessed with something that keeps him alive.
I won't lie, it feels right now that he's back. Zidane was the central part
that held everyone together.
So now we're all here in the castle, kinda staying for
a while since they're so happy now. Eiko has sort of been adopted by Cid
and Hilda so that's that, and Steiner has Beatrix and his queen to protect.
Vivi has his 'kids', or we have him through them. I'm not too sure what to
think about that even now.
Quina has the kitchen and Freya has Burmecia to rebuild
and someone for her too, I guess someone she found again after a while. I
don't really know or care about the whole story, though I hear something
about memory loss and that sounds a little odd to me well, it's none
of my business. Anyway, she's leaving to go back to Fratley or Flatley or
whoever he is in the morning.
Me, I guess I'm okay too. It's enough to just watch
everything like that, it always has been. But maybe I'm lying. I don't know.
Zidane would point me to Lani, sure, but I don't think she even knows
what to feel about me, and if she doesn't I sure as hell am not going to
push. I learned my lesson about that and that is not something I'm going
to talk about now, or ever.