Entry Six
-- I'm gonna make this short but I feel like I have to write it down. If
I'd known that I'd be a slave to this stupid book I'd have tossed it in the
fire straight off.
Anyhow, I had this dream just now, and I've had it before,
I know. When I went to Oeilvert with Zidane, Eiko, and Steiner, there were
these strange stone monoliths dotted about the place, they all had
like memorial words carved on them, and when we got too close to one of these
epigraphs they'd open, and out would pop the image of a person. I
hated those things and even though it's been so long I just dreamed
about them. You can't use magic in Oeilvert but I think Zidane brought Eiko
along anyway to protect her, us not knowing that the others would escape
their cells and all.
Even though Eiko annoys me, I know she's just a kid
and she can't help it and I wouldn't wish this on her well, let
me explain. Sometimes the images of the ones we left in Kuja's place came
out of the epigraph, and those were hard enough to fight, but when one of
us four came out it was a lot worse. See, when one of our doubles came out
they would insist they were the real one and throw up a death mirror in front
of you, knocking you out right away. I was on the receiving end of one of
those once but that when it happened wasn't what makes me have nightmares
about it.
So Eiko was with us, and when her double came out and
killed her I made the mistake of reviving her. We hadn't been fighting these
things for too long and she was the first one of our group to come out of
the accursed things. We were all trying to tear up the epigraph so it wouldn't
pop out any more people, before we could get up the nerve to kill the
Eiko-double, but even when it was destroyed she didn't go away. So I brought
her back, not knowing that the damn double would just kill her again, and
she was only six at the time I can still hear the voice of the double
saying 'Who are you?' all little and innocent and then killing Eiko again
before she barely had a chance to get to her feet.
Who are you imagine hearing that from someone
who looks like you I know Eiko has nightmares about it too sometimes.
Maybe she really was too young to fight with us, but she was strong, maybe
the strongest of all of us if you take that fact into account. I just can't
get that echoey, hollow voice out of my head. Maybe getting this down will
make it go away. It's still late (you can tell, I made no sense) and I want
to go back to sleep.