Wow. This really just ran away with itself. So must angst you could choke on it. I tend to do that. Just read the author's notes for Family.
I have no idea where this came from. I guess some muse whacked me upside the head. I like my muse. Very blunt. Anybody want to give me a name for my muse? I could use one.
Haha! Takeru's point of view. Yeah, a short one this time. I can't write in Takeru's point of view. So I made up for it with tons of swearing. Ha! I want Dai-chan back.
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Damn it. I really do not know why I did that. I did the thing I had not planned to do. I ran.
Why did I run? I was afraid.
So I did what my instincts told me to do. Run.
Why, you may ask? I was scared out of my fucking mind. I had no idea in hell what to do.
It scared the shit out of me, Dai. It scared the shit out of me.
What is it that could scare me this much? You said you loved me.
You showed me all of the pictures you have made of me. You showed me your heart and soul.
It scared the crap out of me, Dai.
Those pictures, I loved them. You had one with my hair all lit up and I had angel wings. I was flying. And there you were on the ground, jumping to try and reach me.
I wish I could have done what you wanted me to. I wish I could have, I just can't. I wish. I wish I could admit to myself the things I can't.
I wish.
I couldn't. I'm scared. I'm so scared, Dai.
I honestly don't know what to do.
I have no idea where this came from. I guess some muse whacked me upside the head. I like my muse. Very blunt. Anybody want to give me a name for my muse? I could use one.
Haha! Takeru's point of view. Yeah, a short one this time. I can't write in Takeru's point of view. So I made up for it with tons of swearing. Ha! I want Dai-chan back.
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Damn it. I really do not know why I did that. I did the thing I had not planned to do. I ran.
Why did I run? I was afraid.
So I did what my instincts told me to do. Run.
Why, you may ask? I was scared out of my fucking mind. I had no idea in hell what to do.
It scared the shit out of me, Dai. It scared the shit out of me.
What is it that could scare me this much? You said you loved me.
You showed me all of the pictures you have made of me. You showed me your heart and soul.
It scared the crap out of me, Dai.
Those pictures, I loved them. You had one with my hair all lit up and I had angel wings. I was flying. And there you were on the ground, jumping to try and reach me.
I wish I could have done what you wanted me to. I wish I could have, I just can't. I wish. I wish I could admit to myself the things I can't.
I wish.
I couldn't. I'm scared. I'm so scared, Dai.
I honestly don't know what to do.