BY UNSEEN FORCES
Loving Sora
A/N: Well, this will prove to be a
rather interesting chapter... Sorry it took me so long. I won't know if this is
the end of the series until the end of this chapter, so read on and find out for
yourselves.
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DEDICATION: To those who won't
recognize love and refuse to feel it... don't let yourself become inhuman
because then you will truly be lost.
-To Angel... We pick on each other so
much... well, not really, but we tease each other a lot
and it's nice to be able to talk to
her when I need someone... and she better remember that I'm always here.
*smiles* Well, of course she will... Like I'd ever let her forget!
-To Dad -er- Logan (sorry, you know I
had to. You know I love ya ^_^) one of the best writers, even though he's too
stubborn to admit it. Thanks for always being an email away and for being my
support when Angel couldn't be there.
-To Aushie, who I am deeply sorry to
for snapping at her the other day... I didn't mean it at all... I know you said
you understood, but I still feel sorry. And I still feel sorry for almost making
you cry the other night, too. Thanks for being there when I needed you and
always being able to cheer me up by making you laugh... (although with you it
doesn't take much effort. ^_~ ) But there's even more than that... I can't say
it all for risk of losing all of your trust in me, but I will say this. I will
never ever leave you behind. If you fall, I will help you back up... If
I can't help you, I will fall with you. And you know that this a promise... one
that I will never EVER break.
-To Kimaru, duh... She's been
uploading these blasted fics for who knows how long, and she's still one of my
closest friends... Haven't heard from you a while. Hope to talk to you
soon.
-To Star_Fairy, who I talk to all the
time... I'm hoping you haven't completely given up... Life's too short to not
believe in anything.
-To Kari, or Karissa. Dang girl! You
troublemaker! lol j/k This one is for you because I hadn't heard from you in a
long time and maybe this will motivate you, no?
-To My Keeper, who will probably never
see this (if you've read my poems "Fallen" or "Walking on Moonlight's Edge", you
know who I'm talking about ). I love you.
-And to every single person (probably
going into the double digits) who has emailed me, asking or begging for the next
part. Here you go, you guys!
DISCLAIMER: Well, dun dun dun,
right? I don't own Digimon. I do own a bunch of CDs, a stereo, SuperNES, a few
other things (like my CLOTHES, but anyway), but I don't own
Digimon.
Now that *THAT'S* over, let's
continue, shall we?
Here's the next chapter of-
BY UNSEEN FORCES
BY UNSEEN
FORCES: LOVING SORA
1
please say
yes
The whole apartment went completely
quiet. Even the refrigerator's continuous hum seemed to stop for a
moment.
Tai watched Sora's bedroom door
carefully. He was hoping she'd say yes... If anything to save her life, but it
would also make him happy... but did he love her?
The door swung open, startling everyone.
Sora stood there, tears in her eyes, looking at Tai with something that was akin
to hurt. He didn't understand it. He had just asked her to marry him! Maybe she
didn't understand the question...
"Sora... please marry me."
Then, the most unexpected thing
happened.
She slapped him.
Hard.
Tai's head whirled dizzily as the left
side of his face burned. Everyone gasped. Sora burst into tears and slammed the
door. Tai sucked in a deep breath and turned around, tears in his own eyes from
the pain.
"What did she do that for?!" he cried.
Mimi, Kari, and Yolei looked at each other and shrugged.
"We'll go talk to her," Mimi said,
volunteering herself, Kari, and Yolei, who both nodded in agreement.
"Please do," Tai said, his voice shaky.
Dang, that hurt!
Mimi, Kari, and Yolei cautiously entered
Sora's room, not sure what to expect. Meanwhile, the guys just stood there, too
stunned to move.
"Tai..." Tai sighed.
"What, T.K.?" he asked, still nursing
the side of his face.
"Did you tell her you loved her?" Tai's
shoulders slumped.
"Not this again..."
"You didn't, did you?" Matt asked in
disbelief. Tai shrugged, still rubbing the stinging pain away.
"No." Davis and T.K., who were standing
closest to Tai, slugged him in both arms, making him yelp in pain. "Stop
hitting me!"
"You deserved it! I can't believe you,
Tai! You ask her to marry you, but you completely forget that you're supposed to
tell her you love her before hand," Joe chided. Tai had had enough.
"You don't understand! None of you do!
You only say you love someone if you mean it! I'm trying to make sure that I
don't have false feelings for her. No matter what you people say, I still don't
know if I love her!" Matt shook his head.
"But you asked her to marry you." Tai
threw his hands up in frustration.
"Yes, because she wasn't going to let me
save her life!" Matt fed on this.
"So you care about her."
"Absolutely!"
"And you don't want anything to happen
to her."
"Right."
"And you want her to marry
you."
"Yes, I do."
"And she means more than anything to
you?"
"Yes. More than
anything."
"Do you love her?"
"Yes."
Tai's eyes went wide. He had said it so
fast that he had almost cut Matt off... Is that what he felt? Had Matt tricked
him into saying it? In a way, he had, but Matt had only helped Tai break through
a mental block that had been keeping him from telling Sora how he had felt. He
did love her... and in a way, he had since he had met her... he had just
forgotten.
Cody, Ken, Davis, T.K., Matt, Joe, and
Izzy beamed.
"Then that settles it. You have to tell
her," Izzy said. Davis nodded.
"I may not be that smart, but I know you
gotta tell her."
"She's in a heck of a state, though. I'm
afraid it wouldn't go over well," Joe said quietly. Cody shrugged.
"You may make her feel better, though."
Tai nodded.
"It's possible... I do love her..." he
said dreamily. Matt rolled his eyes lazily while the rest of them just
smiled.
"Let's just wait and see what the girls
have gotten through to Sora, okay, Romeo?" Ken said, slugging Tai gently to
bring him back to earth.
"Sure... whatever."
The smile on Tai's face didn't go away
for a long, long time.
2
what the heck was she
thinking?
Mimi cautiously entered Sora's room with
Kari and Yolei almost walking on her heels.
Sora was curled up in the corner of her
room, her knees drawn to her chest, staring into space. Her arms were wrapped
around her knees, and she seemed to be holding something in her hand. She was
slowly rocking back and forth, and if someone had timed her, they would have
realized that she was rocking back and forth in time to the seconds. Her eyes
were wide, seemingly with fright. She looked like a cat that had just been
scared out of its mind. Her mouth was slightly ajar, her lips dry except for
certain places where her tears had streamed down her face.
"Sora?" Kari called softly. Sora's mouth
clamped shut and she began to rock twice as fast. Mimi walked briskly over to
Sora's side and put a hand on her shoulder.
"Sora, snap out of it. Come on." Sora
just rocked faster, never switching her wide-eyed gaze from the air in front of
her.
"Please. You're scaring us," Yolei
whispered. She had grown up a bit from the person she used to be, but it was
only noticeable in such situations as this. She wasn't being demanding; she was
being kind.
Sora's head snapped up, a glare etched
into her features, but none of the girls believed the hateful look to be
intentional. Her body shook violently once. Mimi, Kari, and Yolei looked at each
other. They couldn't believe how... frail she seemed. How... distant...
How.... weak.
Through her shirt, which was drawn tight
over her frame, you could see some of her ribs protruding. Her arms seemed to be
skin and bone, although just earlier she had seemed like a healthy teenager...
Now she looked like someone who was waiting for death to come and take her
away.
Kari felt the urge and took the
initiative.
"Why did you refuse him, Sora?" she
asked. Sora looked away, but Kari chased her gaze, finally making Sora hold her
head up and look her in the eye. Mimi pulled out the chair to the computer desk,
where the computer had been carelessly left on all night. She opened Notepad and
looked at Sora.
"You've got to tell us. We're your
friends," Yolei said softly, trying to make her voice as gentle as possible,
trying not to seem demanding.
Sora looked at the computer screen and
sighed heavily. With visible effort, Sora made herself get up and walk over to
the computer. As she sat down, all of the girls noticed that she lacked her
usual grace. Sora looked at the keyboard, sighed heavily again, and placed her
hands on the home keys. Then, with a final deep breath, she began to type.
Mimi, Yolei, and Kari stood back and
looked at each other, not sure if they should read as she went along or just
read it when she finished it. Lacking patience, all three bowed over Sora's
shoulders and looked at the screen.
Because it all seems like a joke to
me. So... convenient. Who does he think he is? Some kind of savior? I'll make
it, married or not. Although life would be easier with someone by my side, he
was already my best friend and I already have all of you. You're all my best
friends and I know I can depend on you... Why did Tai do that? He doesn't love
me or he would have said so already. There's been so many opportunities, but he
hasn't taken one of them. I can't really deal with it all right now... If I was
any weaker, I'd just kill myself.
Yolei gasped. Mimi got there next and
put her hand over her mouth. Kari's eyes went wide with shock, but she made no
sound or movement. Sora's shoulders shook as she went on.
In fact, maybe I'll just do
it.
With that, Sora got up, gave a sad smile
to no one in particular, and walked past the girls to the door.
"Sora, wait!" Mimi managed to choke out.
Sora rested her hand on the doorknob and stood still. "That isn't the way! You
know that!" Sora sighed, turned around, walked past all of the girls
again, and went to the computer, typing two last words.
Do I?
Mimi's jaw clenched shut as she gave a
look that would be perceived as impatience or anger. Sora just smiled a sad,
sweet smile that said all it needed to. Kari and Yolei glanced at each other and
then Sora. Kari reached out and touched Sora's shoulder.
"Yes, you do... I just hope you realize
that before you do anything stupid." Sora looked Kari in the eye and raised an
eyebrow in a curious expression. She turned around and placed her hands on the
keyboard again... This time for the last time.
Not stupidity. Desperation.
With that, Sora promptly turned around
again, this time not meeting any of the girls' horrified expressions, and walked
to the bedroom door, turning the knob, and walking out into the crowd of guys in
the hall.
Mimi, Kari, and Yolei looked at each
other... Silently asking the other what they should do. There was nothing in
reality they could do. If Sora wanted to kill herself, she would. She would find
any way to do it. All that they could do would be to tell Sora what she already
knew...
The Digidestined would always be there
for her.
With an impossibly sorrowful look on her
pretty features that made her look twenty years older, Kari provided the
unspoken answer.
She slowly bent over the computer and
sighed, placing her hand on the mouse...
And closed the window.
3
trying to maintain
composure
"Joe..."
"Yes?"
"You have to go identify the body." Joe
sighed wearily.
"I haven't forgotten."
"I know... But you have to go
now."
"Yes, I know."
"...Then why are you
waiting?"
"Because I don't want to go."
"Take Yamato with you."
"Since when do you call him
that?"
"Since the moment when I stopped caring
if he takes it offensively. Go. Now."
"Yes, Taichi. I'm going."
"Izzy?"
"Yes, Tai?"
"Go to Sora. You can talk to her by that
laptop."
"Yes. Okay. I'm going."
"Cody?"
"Yes?"
"Go home and then come back later on. I
want you to carry on a conversation with Sora."
"Why, Taichi?"
"Because she loves children... Maybe if
she realizes that she still wants them, she'll say yes to me."
"Taichi, I am not a child."
"Yes, I know. None of us are. We grew up
too soon, too fast... Deal with it, Cody."
"Under protest."
"I'm sorry, but please. This is
important."
"Yes. Fine."
"Davis?"
"Hmm?"
"Go to the nearest pizza place and get
Sora some pizza for me. My money is in her room. I'll get it for
you."
"Fine. What would you want on
it?"
"That comes later."
"Oh."
"T.K.?"
"Yes, Tai?"
"Take Kari home and stay with her for a
while. Then, later on, I want you here with Cody."
"Why?"
"Because-"
"You're regarding me as a child. Taichi,
I can't-"
"-act like you're eight again? Yes, you
can."
"But Tai-"
"Takeru."
"Yes, Tai. Fine."
"Yamato?"
"It's Matt, Tai."
"I'm calling you Yamato right now. Do
you know why?"
"No."
"Because I want you to realize when I am
dead serious. Clear?"
"You've never called me that
before."
"That's because I never realized what's
fully at stake. It was just the world before. Now I know what that could
mean."
"Mm."
"Go with Joe. Then go to the funeral
home."
"Sure, Tai."
"Ken?"
"Yes?"
"Go to the pizza place with Davis or go
with T.K. and Kari."
"Yes, Tai."
"Is everyone set?"
"What about the girls?"
"Well Joe, even though I don't know why
you're here since I said for you and Matt to leave already... Yolei and Cody
will go home together. Yolei will go to Izzy's house later on."
"My house?"
"Yes. Mimi will go to the hotel to be
with her family. She hasn't seen them in a day or so."
Taichi brought his head out of his hands
and sighed shakily. He looked up at all of the guys from the floor where he was
sitting. Sora had almost hit him with the door as she had passed.
"Clear?"
"Clear." They responded in unison.
"But Tai... Why is Yolei coming to my place?" Izzy asked. Tai
sighed.
"I want you both to get a hold of Gennai. I want to know if
there is any other way at all. Sora doesn't want to do this and I don't want to
force her." Izzy sighed.
"Okay, Tai."
Izzy headed for the kitchen where Sora
and the other girls were currently. Joe waved beckoned Matt and they left in a
hurry. Ken chose to go with T.K. and Kari, who decided to go with Davis to the
pizza place and then go home. Yolei and Cody headed home. After Yolei dropped
Cody off at his mother's so he could rest, she waited a bit and ran to Izzy's
apartment. Mimi went to the hotel.
And Tai just sat there...
Indefinitely... He had no idea how long he had been sitting there. The most time
his mind could estimate he had been there would have been thirty minutes... Any
more than that and Tai would have felt like he was out of control... and in a
way, he was.
"Oh geez..." he moaned. He had hoped
she'd say yes... although, he hadn't made himself presentable...
But still!
No! You cannot cry! You have no
reason to!
Actually, he had all the reason in the
world. He didn't cry when he was younger and his sister was in the hospital. He
didn't cry... until that time that she had almost died... and when he had lost
Sora... when he and Agumon had to leave each other... and when he had almost
lost Sora just a few days ago...
That was a total of what? Four times?
Four big-deal times? There were others, sure... but he was almost absolutely
sure that he could count on his fingers how many times he had cried from the age
of 6 and up.
He didn't want to be weak... That's all
crying had ever meant to him. People cried when it was too much or when someone
died or when someone was sick...
People cried when they felt
weak.
And Tai had only felt that a few
times.
Coincidently, about half of those times
he had cried had been for Sora... someone who he had never completely lost,
someone who he had always loved, and someone who loved him back.
Gah... This is
confusing.
Taichi... just let yourself
cry...
NO! I won't do it!
Tai picked his head up from the crook of
his arm at the soft sound of feet coming down the hall.
It was Sora.
She looked at him
sympathetically.
"Izzy gone home?" Tai asked, his voice
turning from the frail one he had been hearing in his mind to one that had
commanded the Digidestined so many times... His eyes turned into brown marbles
instead of the sensitive ones he had let show just a few moments ago...
although, they had been shown only to the clear space and the shadows, he had
still allowed them to be seen... And Sora had seen that... With that one glance
at his vulnerable, revealed face, she had known what he was thinking... what he
was feeling... what he was needing.
Sora nodded and slid down the wall,
landing next to Taichi with her knees up against her chest and her hands linked
around her shins. He looked away from her and into the early morning shadows
that seemed to dance across the walls in the early morning sun. She looked at
him and turned his head toward her.
It's okay, she mouthed. Tai
looked a bit startled, as he had just been snapped out of his thought... but it
was also the startled feeling he had by her saying that... Why was she telling
him that?
"Okay to what?" he asked
confusedly. Sora smiled sadly and put a hand on his cheek, making him almost
swoon at her tender touch. He felt his eyes go soft
again... He felt his soul become his only shield... He felt his heart being read
in his eyes... His soul was being exposed, but if it had to be that way, he
would rather no other person than Sora see it. She had seen every part of him...
His angry side, his sad side, his impassive side... She had seen it all... Now
he realized that what they had to do would be a completely new experience,
because for the first time... she would not only be able to see all of
him.... she would be able to feel him. She would feel his sadness...
She would feel his heart's desires... She would know
everything...
Maybe that's what was beginning to scare him. He knew Sora
hadn't realized it yet... but what they had been prophesied to do was so much
more than just "casual sex". In fact, it was anything but. Anything
that they didn't know about each other, anything at all... It would be known to
the other by the time the act was committed... It was almost too
sacred.
Sora caressed Tai's face, temporarily putting his thoughts on
hold as he leaned into her hand and closed his eyes. He brought one of his hands
up and pressed her hand against the side of his face, enjoying the soft touch.
She put her other hand on his face and made him look her in the eye. Tai opened
his eyes with effort and looked at her breathtakingly beautiful face. With
visible effort, she began to mouth words to him.
It's okay to cry.
Seemingly offended, Tai's expression
turned angry as he turned away from her. Sora sighed silently and gently put her
arms around him and pulled him back. Tai tried to protest, but he was
off-balance and there was nothing he could do to stop her. She lowered him until
his head was against her shoulder. She looked down at him and kissed his
forehead. He looked at her face and saw that one solitary tear had fallen from
her eyes.
That tear was enough to drive Tai over
the cliff that he had been hovering over for years.
Silently at first, he began to cry as he
hugged Sora tightly. Then, as the seconds ticked on, his tears turned from
silent to almost screaming sobs. He was wailing, moaning, and sobbing. His voice
carried throughout the apartment with an echo. He squeezed Sora tighter, burying
his face into her shoulder, not caring who heard him or not. He deserved to cry.
He had waited too long to do it. And the best part of all is that he didn't feel
weak at all. And he knew exactly why.
Sora was there to take care of him...
and she was loving him.... and she was caring for him... and she was being kind
to him... and she would always love him.
Tai's shoulders shook as he squeezed
Sora even tighter. Silently, Sora began to cry with him. She held him as best
she could. She placed a hand on the side of his head and one around his chest
and held on, rocking him ever so gently... as a mother would to her
child.
And that's how they stayed.
Taichi letting go of his
past...
Sora learning how to hang on to the
moment...
Both of them learning how to love the
other.
4
why can't there be another
way
Riiing
"Why now?" Tai asked himself. He got up from the floor beside
Sora's bed and rushed over to the phone before it could ring again. Cody and
T.K. had come over... and apparently, Sora had been happy to visit with them,
but she was otherwise unaffected. Tai knew that both of the young men felt a
certain anger toward Tai for how he had treated them as pawn in his quest for
Sora's hand... but Tai had explained his position. After the two boys saw how
red Tai's eyes were, it didn't take much explaining for them to believe that Tai
was desperate and grasping at straws which seemed to be becoming fewer as the
hours ticked by.
Davis had brought the pizza over with Ken tagging along behind
him. Ken indulged in a one-sided conversation with Sora that both of them seemed
to enjoy, but both had left, leaving Sora and Tai alone again... Both casting
glances at each other... Both wondering what the other was thinking... Both
wondering when they would run out of excuses before they had to give themselves
to each other... Both knowing the answer was soon. Very
soon.
As soon as Tai picked up the phone, a frantic voice on the
other end began to speak.
"Tai! Sorry so late, but this is important!"
Tai rubbed his eyes and looked at Sora's clock and
sighed.
"It better be, Izzy. It's 1:30 in the morning." Izzy sighed out
of exasperation.
"Tai! Believe me! It is!"
"...Then say it, Iz." Tai heard Izzy take a deep breath to
regain his composure.
"There is no other way."
"....Are you sure?"
"Positive. After about twelve hours, we got a hold of
Gennai."
"I'm sorry, Iz. I didn't mean for it to take that-"
"That doesn't matter now. Gennai said that he had searched the
Digital World for any trace of another prophecy pertaining to the Demons or the
people involved with the Demons. This is called the Demonic War, by the way.
Remember that there's only one Demon left?"
"...."
"Tai? Tai!"
"I'm here, Iz."
"I'll take that as a yes. Anyway, the one Demon has the ability
to enter dreams. He is the most powerful."
"Figures."
"Taichi! Listen to me! There's a possibility that you are in
danger, too!"
"What?!"
"Once you commit the... uh... er, the act that will end the
Demonic War, you will be left in a state that can only be described as total
vulnerability."
"You're saying that it can kill me."
"Exactly."
"So what can I do?"
"Absolutely nothing."
"What!?"
"Your vulnerability will be mental... and it might be physical.
Gennai didn't specify-"
"Figures."
"Tai! Gennai didn't specify what he meant by vulnerability,
mental, physical, or otherwise."
"So there's nothing I can do?"
"All you can do is hope that you aren't too weak to fight the
Demon off. Gennai said that the aim of the Demon may have been Sora, but the aim
of the Assembly of Sin may have been to kill you... So it's a-"
"-win-win situation for them."
"Right."
"So all I can do is hope?"
"Basically. The bond between you and Sora may be enough to
help... but I'm not sure that the love you have... or any other power runs deep
enough."
"You mean that something soul-deep isn't powerful
enough?"
"I'm saying that may be the case. I'm going strictly by what's
logical."
"Hmph."
"Yes, yes, I know. Love is anything but logical. And so is
Courage. And so is Friendship in some cases. All of our abilities, feelings, and
thoughts can be considered illogical."
"But together, we are the logic that binds two
worlds."
"Hmm. True. We are the heroes of two worlds... Only one of
which cares to remember us."
"Let's don't get into that right now. We can't have an
all-night discussion."
"True."
"... Iz."
"What?"
"Did Gennai say... how much time we have?"
"...Two days at most."
"....That's too soon. The time isn't right for that... We're
too young, Izzy."
"You have to make the time right, Tai. We're not as young as
you make it seem."
"I've already been through the 'grew up too soon, too fast' bit
with T.K. and Cody today."
"But sadly, it was the truth."
"I know."
"Well, Tai... Good luck."
"Thank you, Iz. I need it."
"Goodnight."
"G'night."
Tai hung up the phone and stared at it for a few seconds. He
was devastated at the news. He might die?
Tai snapped out his thoughts at the sound of Sora thrashing
about in bed.
"Sora?" he called frantically. He rushed over to her side and
tried to hold her down. She was thrashing, kicking, and throwing punches that
Mike Tyson would have had trouble blocking. "Sora!"
Suddenly, she opened her eyes and stared at Tai. Tai opened his
mouth to say something, but was cut off by Sora's arms wrapping around him in a
panicked hug.
"Sora? Are you al-" He was cut off by Sora kissing him on the
cheek, almost completely knocking him out of his train of thought. "Sora? What
happened?"
Sora began to make frantic hand motions. She pointed to her
head and then began to make strange shapes with her hands. She stretched her
hand out above her and waved it.
"Something... tall?" Sora nodded. She made claws with
her hands. Tai was beginning to realize what she was saying. "It had claws..."
Sora nodded again and looked around the room. She finally pointed at her dark
blue shirt and then at her skin. "...Blue skin..." She nodded and began to make
another hand motion when Tai stopped her.
"Sora... You dreamed about the Demon."
Sora's mouth practically unhinged.
"...the Demon has the ability to enter
dreams."
Oh no... It's feeding on her mind, now... Oh
no...
"Sora... I'm going to sleep in the bed with you tonight. I
don't want you having anymore nightmares, okay?" Sora nodded slowly, still
wondering about her dream. In it, she had been being chased by the hideous
monster. It had closed in on her and held her... That's when she had started
thrashing about in her bed. The worst part of the dream was when she had
actually heard its hideous voice... and what it had told her...
It had kept saying I love you, Sora. I love
you.
In the dream, Sora had been in tears.
Tai climbed under the sheets with Sora and sighed.
"Goodnight, Sora."
She patted his hand to return the thought and closed her eyes,
trying to will herself to go to sleep.
Suddenly, two strong arms wrapped around her mid section and a
gentle, lingering kiss was placed on her ear. The sensation that was carried
through her body was aided by the soft breath that caressed the side of her
face.
"Goodnight, Sora," he whispered. Sora put her back closer to
him and closed her eyes.
She fell asleep three minutes later.
He did so in no more than five.
Both had fallen asleep wondering if they could do so when they
were in such proximity to each other.
Sometimes we fall asleep faster when we feel safe than at any
other time.
5
heart and soul
Tai stretched.
"Are you taking a shower tonight, Sora?" Sora turned and looked
at him. He was sitting on the foot of her bed and she was in her doorway.
Looking at the clock and seeing that it was 8:30, she decided yes and nodded. He
looked out the window and yawned. "It's a pretty night. Too bad we can't go out
there." Sora smiled sadly and shrugged.
The day had been nothing but the old routine. Matt and Joe had
called with a report about the body and the funeral home. Tai had told Sora, who
had gravely nodded her approval.
Otherwise, nothing had happened.
Tai had continued to ponder the severity of the act that he and
Sora must commit... but other than that, nothing had really crossed his or
Sora's minds.
Sora walked over to her dresser and drew out a pair of pajamas,
smiling sadly as she did so. Tai looked at her and sighed. How was she dealing
with her mother's death? How was she feeling? Was there anything she needed?
Wanted? There was hardly any way he could know. He knew that she didn't feel
like writing or typing the answer to him, so he remained silent.
"Well, let's go," he said as he rose from her bed. Sora looked
at him and shook her head furiously. "Sora. You know I have to go in there with
you. Listen... I'll put my back to you the whole time and you just tap me on the
arm when you're done, okay?" Sora put her head in her free hand and sighed. She
rose again, her face showing her weariness with the whole deal. She made a small
head movement that Tai barely registered as a nod. "Then let's go!" he said,
trying to get a smile out of Sora, who just shook her head with a roll of her
eyes, but he did see the corners of her mouth almost turn into a
smile.
"Whoa... Gotta turn off the light... Don't want a really high
electric bill, you know." Tai smiled as he flipped the light off.
Tai took Sora by the hand and dragged her with him to the
bathroom, knowing very well that she wouldn't go unless forced. She didn't put
up a fight however. They walked inside the bathroom and Tai shut the door,
trying to make sure that there wasn't a draft. He sighed, turned around, and
made a wild gesture with his hand.
"Go ahead. I don't want to stand here all day." Sora smiled
slightly and began to undress, gradually turning red as she did so. She was
definitely not used to this.
Tai listened and heard the showerhead start to spray water. He
heard Sora step in and sighed, crossing his arms. This would be boring, but it
was his job.
The minutes passed.
Tai had his hands on his hips and his foot patiently tapping to
the music in his head when he heard the water cut off. He almost whirled around,
but remembered the state Sora would be in. He heard her take a towel off the
rack, but then all was quiet. He figured she was drying off. He felt her hand
rest on his shoulder and smiled.
"Finally! I didn't think you'd... ever get... done..." Tai had
turned around slowly, only to find something that he hadn't be prepared
for.
Sora stood before him.
Completely naked.
"Uh... S-S-Sora?" he sputtered. She sighed and put a finger
against his lips. He took a deep breath and gathered all of his courage to keep
from wilting to the floor as he began to take her in with his eyes... This time
without shame.
She was a beautiful girl in his eyes... although, all of the
ones he had ever seen were superficial. Hardly anything could have prepared him
for the body that stood before him. Her breathing was slow and shaky, as if she
was just waiting for the rejection that she was almost certain she was receive.
Tai put his hand on her face, cupping her cheek ever so gently. He took a step
forward... and kissed her.
This was no ordinary kiss.
This was the kiss that they had been denied the night of Sora's
mother's death.
This was the kiss that would shatter all of the ones that had
ever been shared with anyone else but each other.
This was their kiss.
The whole world seemed to slow down... Any movement that they
made seemed to be twice as slow as it would have been otherwise. Tai stopped
restraining himself and made the kiss deeper, which Sora welcomed. He wrapped
his arms around her and kissed her deeper and deeper until they couldn't have
been told apart. She wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled him even deeper
into the kiss. His hands rested on the small of her back, shaking. He wasn't
sure where to go from here... He may not have known which step was next, he
definitely knew what his destination was.
He broke the kiss. It was more like pulling himself out of a
gravity well... The need to go back to her was overwhelming. He saw her eyes and
longed to kiss her again... he could feel the pull of her love on him... His
heart was crying out for her, but he needed to make sure of something
first.
"Are you sure?"
Sora sighed and rested her head on Tai's chest, closing her
eyes. Then, with courage she hadn't tapped into for a long time, she nodded. It
took Tai a bit of time to realize that she had actually nodded. There were
feelings flowing through his body that he had never felt before... both
terrifying and very, very exciting. With what little conscious thought he had
left, he remembered that he had more he needed to say before they went on with
this... but right now, Tai was beginning to long for something that required
absolutely no words at all.
"You know we can't go back after this."
She nodded slowly. Tai could feel her heart racing as she
pressed her bare body closer to him, causing him to draw in sharp breath. She
was nervous... more nervous that anyone could imagine. Why did it always have to
mean so much to the girl and almost always so little to the guy? Sora didn't
know that Tai was having almost as much trouble as she was keeping her composure
and thoughts in check. She had never presented herself like this to any man, and
she never planned on doing it to anyone else but Tai... he was special
somehow... Somehow, he was the one... The one that would take care of her. The
one that would help her reach a new level of being... the one that would always
be there... and-
"I love you, Sora."
-the one that would always love her.
She opened her eyes, looked at him, and smiled. She put her
hand on his face and he closed his eyes, leaning into her hand, yearning for her
touch. He put one of his own hands over hers and pressed himself into it. It was
hot from the shower water that had been running over it, but Tai knew that
wasn't the only reason. He kissed her palm softly and rested his cheek in it
again. He opened his eyes and saw her looking at him, her eyes soft, caring, and
loving. He smiled as she mouthed I love you, too.
Ah, Loving Sora.
The girl whose heart could love even those who didn't deserve
it.
Such as himself.
He wasted no time. He kissed her, not as deep as the last time,
yet just as passionate. Then, breaking the kiss again, he took her hand and
began to lead her to her bedroom. He stopped when they entered her bedroom and
stared at the bed. Sora looked at him with curiosity etched into her features,
wondering what he had seen that seemed to scare him.
"Sora... I'm not so sure about this... I mean, it's not like I
have..." Tai coughed and then quietly continued, "..anything that
would, uh... prevent anything else..." He began to blush a deep red and Sora put
her hands on his face and shook her head, kissing him.
I take it she doesn't care... Maybe this is how it was
supposed to be...
Tai wrapped his hands around Sora's naked body and put his head
on her shoulder, kissing her ear gently. Sora involuntarily stiffened in his
arms. Tai embraced her closer to him, never planning on letting her slip away
from him.
"I won't hurt you, Sora... I promise... What does happen won't
be intentional... I would never hurt you intentionally." And he meant it. Tai,
in his whole entire life, had never hurt Sora intentionally... she was someone
that he never considered that he could or would want to hurt. All of
the times he had snapped at her, punched her in the arm in a good-natured
manner, or made her cry... none of those times had been intentional. And he
wasn't about to start now. Not when her life was on the line... Yes, two worlds
were in the equation, too, but... to him... he couldn't give a care for the
world if Sora couldn't live on... He felt ashamed, however, that it had taken
him so damn long to figure that out.
Tai could have sworn that Sora almost melted in his arms.
He tilted her chin up toward him and kissed her again. He kept
the kiss connected as he scooted back until the edge of the bed hit him in the
back of the knees. With his hands wrapped safely around Sora's waist, he just
fell back, still engaged in the kiss.
Falling... falling.... falling... falling into rapture...
With the kiss still going, Tai flipped Sora over to where he
was on top of her. He broke the kiss and took in her face... The room was dark,
as he had turned off the light before Sora had taken her shower, but the light
from the glow-in-the-dark stars provided enough light for him to study her. In
his heart, he knew that if there was any way to tell if she was ready or not, he
had to look into her eyes. As it turned out, Sora was not only exposing her pure
body, but also the soul that had been tainted in her youth. Even though she was
not naive, her innocence was still with her... Her father, though a bastard, had
not taken it from her... The Demon hadn't... T.K. hadn't, although it wouldn't
have been him... But now... It was time for innocence to become a thing of the
past... It was time for it to become something that was forgotten...
For along with innocence comes fear...
She was afraid of him.
For along with innocence comes sadness...
She had always believed she was unwanted because her innocence
had stayed with her.
For along with innocence comes torture...
The torture that she felt she could never be with the man she
wanted.
With the losing of her innocence...
Fear of him would not last.
She would feel wanted.
And she would be with him. The man of her dreams. The
man who would cradle her in his arms and kiss her, telling her not to worry...
He was there... and he would take care of her.
Tai brushed back a stray strand of hair from her forehead and
cupped her cheek, still observing her face in the green light of the stars above
them.
"You know that this will give us power that we've never dreamed
of."
Sora shook her head, not understanding him, but almost not
hearing him because she was so lost in his eyes... Oh, those eyes... The sea of
peace that she wished to be within...
"This is something deeper than deep, Sora... This is almost
more sacred than the most sacred, you know? We are the two people who will keep
two worlds from being destroyed... That means so much, Sora... It may not give
us power, but it will give us something... new. Something that we never
thought could happen... We both know that.."
Sora hesitated and slowly nodded. The need for him was growing
stronger, but her innocence kept that fear within her... That fear that he would
hurt her... although he had told her otherwise... She was afraid. Very afraid.
But the need.... Oh, she needed to satisfy the need for him... The need was
overwhelming... as it was with him.
"Are you ready for me, Sora?"
With a deep, shaky breath that almost seemed big enough to make
her lungs burst, she nodded. Tai, who was on top of her, felt her breath and
realized that it had taken courage for her to do that. That it had taken courage
for her to admit that she was ready. That it had taken what little conscience
was left in her mind to admit with that nod that she was in need of him... and
with his next words, he admitted the same.
"I think I've always been ready for you... Oh God, I love
you."
Sora smiled softly, her face seeming angelic in the gentle
light from the stars that shone down on her. He kissed her cheek, her forehead,
and her lips before he rose from her.
Tai took off his shirt... then the rest of his
clothes...
Instinct, Love, Courage, and Fate took over from
there.
* * *
That night... As he came into her... all of the lights in
Odaiba went out.
Astronomers reported the stars shone at least fifty percent
brighter.
And the bond that would save two worlds was tied.
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he gave his all
Sora rolled over in her sleep, encountering something that her
body did not recognize in its slumber.
Slowly, she wakened from her sleep to see a man beside her in
her bed. She rose to a sitting position and looked down at him.
His firm jaw line and plain yet masculine appearance set her
off into a dreamy state almost immediately. The sheets on the bed covered him
over his waist, revealing his bare torso. Sora looked down at herself and saw
that she herself was exposed. She snatched up the sheets and covered her bare
chest while blushing, but realized the silliness of it all after she had done
so. What was she afraid of? He had seen her... and definitely touched
her in a way that no one else had... Why was she afraid of him?
In truth, she wasn't. It had only been her instinct, and now
she was being childish.
Trying not to dwell on her own embarrassment, she began to look
at Tai again. She traced a finger along his jaw line slowly, letting it trail
down his chest. She drew invisible circles on his flat, muscular stomach. In his
sleep, Tai stirred slightly, making a moan that Sora thought was born of
elation.
"Oh, Tai..." she whispered, and then clamped a hand over her
mouth.
Did she just.. speak?
You know this will give us power that we've never dreamed
of.
Was the power Tai talking about the power to heal? Or
to give back what is taken? Or was it just something to strengthen
Sora?
Sora didn't care right now. She and Tai could talk about it
later. Right now, he had to know what he had given back to her in the incredible
act they had committed.
At this thought, Sora stopped her motions
completely.
Last night... Oh God, last night was...
amazing...
The power had flown through both of them... They could feel
it... and with it, their feelings...
In the moment that their bodies had reached a critical level of
emotional and physical strain, their thoughts, heartbeats, and souls became
one...
They knew each other's desire... hopes... dreams... sorrows...
This meant Sora knew why Tai didn't want to be with her in the
first place.
It also meant that Tai knew and felt what had happened
the night her father had left... and all the other nights she had to watch him
hurt her mother.
They knew everything in the other's mind.
All in the time of less than a second.
It was an incredible feeling.
There was no other way to describe it.
But enough with that.
Wake him up, Sora! H e needs to know!
She turned over, laid down, and draped a hand over his chest.
He didn't move. His chest rose weakly and slowly. His body shuddered ever so
slightly with each breath he took.
Sora jerked her arm away from him. What was wrong?
Tai's face scrunched up into one that showed pain, but he made
no sound.
"Tai! Tai, wake up! Come on, Tai!" Sora began to say, but
still, Tai made no movement. His chest stopped rising and, although she didn't
notice, Sora stopped breathing.
Abruptly, Tai's eyes shot open and he gasped for
breath.
"Help me! Please!" he screamed, his body shaking
violently.
"Tai! What's wrong?" Sora cried, trying to hold him as best she
could. Was he going into shock? What was happening? Tai continued to shake, and
by now he had broken out into a heavy, cold sweat. Slowly, he turned his head
toward her and managed a fleeting smile.
"Sora? Y-Y-You can sp-sp-talk?" he asked, sputtering
uncontrollably.
"Yes, I can, but what's wrong? Tai!" Tai closed his eyes and
began to breath in short, sharp breaths and exhale them twice as
quickly.
"A-A-Ask Iz-z-zy," he stammered out. Tai opened his eyes and
looked at Sora, obviously in pain. "I'll b-b-be alright-t. It'sss...
s-sus-spos-sed to ha-ha-happ-p-p-pen-happen."
"Tai, no! Please hang on! I'm going to call Joe!" Sora cried as
she got up from the bed and ran toward the phone. As she was dialing the number,
she failed to hear Tai gather his breath to whisper a phrase.
"H-He can't h-h-help."
Tai still shook but Sora watched in horror as his eyes rolled
back into his head. His breaths became few and far between. Sora dropped the
phone and ran over to him, checking his pulse but putting her ear to his
chest.
.....beat..........................beat.....beatbeat............beat
Sora began to cry, the tears streaming down her cheeks as she
picked up the phone and tried to dial the rest of the number with a shaking
hand.
Oh God... I can't lose him, too...
"I love you, Tai! Please don't give up yet!"
As Tai fell into unconsciousness, he felt one of her tears land
on his chest.
I can't fight it that long, Sora... please help
me...
Then his mind sank into utter darkness...
No one, not the Good Forces, the Assembly of Sin, the Demon,
Sora, or Gennai, knew if he would be able to see the light again.
All they could do was hope.
A/N: *sighs
shakily and lays an arm over her eyes as she throws herself back in her
chair*
That was the
most... nerve racking chapter I have EVER done...
Man... when your
mind writes the fics without consulting your conscience, it can get pretty dang
scary... Although, I was always at least 10 steps away from going hentai or
anything like that.
Sooooo.... How
did I do? TELL ME TELL ME TELL ME! ~er... please?
I
PROMISE to try and get the next chapter out before the whole dang month
is over... although, I can't promise anything... I'll have semester tests coming
up and everything... you guys know how it is.
Uh... Oh yeah!
There should be one more chapter left... Review your little hearts out! I want
some motivation! If you want the next chapter before the whole dang month is
out, give me a little feedback, people!
Um.... *tries to
think if she's missing anything*... There's something I'm forgetting... Oh yeah!
Logan's review! THIS IS NOT PART OF THE FIC! My explanation for doing this is
listed in the following statement:
Upon trying to
review Logan's fic "Genesis" Chapter 8, to be precise, FanFiction.Net accused me
of spamming the review. *rolls eyes* Anyway, I have added the review to the
bottom of my fic to make it up to Logan, a very, very, VERY good friend of mine
who wanted this on the site... So here it is. The HUGE review. If you want to
read it, go ahead. I know this isn't what you wanted, Logan, but I'm trying to
get it on the site like you wanted! I'm sorry... I know it's not good enough,
but I tried to get it on here!
ANYWAY, if you
want to read the review, skip down below the closing.
UNTIL NEXT TIME, THIS
IS
ARTISAN OF THE WRITTEN WORD
signing off
LOGAN'S REVIEW FOR GENESIS 8:
CHAPTER 8:
Finally. I'm here. ^_^ Now to get on
with this review... Which will be loooooong. I hope you have a lot of time,
Logan. ^_^ Okay...
1.) The first fight. Grendle and
Cody. A fight of honor and chivalry. Something that both felt was necessary in
some way or another. It seemed rather sad, though. Someone finding it within
themselves that they had to kill someone they had always loved... just for
honor? In a way, it hurts me to think that... honor, of all things, is something
that has to be restored by killing the person who brought shame. That would mean
so many of us would die, wouldn't it? So many of our lives... just wiped from
the face of the earth because for at least one time in our lives, it hurt one of
our family members to look us in the eye? Is that what it amounts to? Mostly...
I'm afraid so. But, as it was their code, Cody had to do it. And Cody didn't
actually restore honor. He tried to offer redemption to his grandfather... but
his grandfather... the part of Grendle that still felt pain and sorrow and
longing for a former life... refused. Sad... Very sad. And for Cody to watch his
grandfather take such a fall... To watch as flames envelope his body... the
flames that he had avoided for so long. Because Grendle had feared he would
become the true beast that lived within his mind... and that had to be the way
he died. So sad. Very sad. But at least the fight was over. I believe that there
will stilll be a fight in Cody's heart over time, over what he could have
done... But then again, his heart may turn bitter over time, as so many of ours
do. *sigh* Next.
2.) The second fight. Kari and
Dayus. This fight did not disturb me as much as you led me to believe it would,
but it was rather... strange, I suppose. The way you conveyed Dayus, swaying to
the music of voices that cried out... He swayed to the voices of pain! To the
music that they play! He enjoyed the origin of pain... He enjoyed pain... It was
his friend. His only friend. But then... didn't pain betray him? Didn't pain
turn to death? Didn't it all go away because of what he had given to so many?
Hadn't he said he would welcome death and the pain it would bring? But he did
not anticipate the amount of pain... and how it had overloaded his mind and
body... causing his whole body to become an overstrained machine. To malfunction
to the point of death. As Stephen King used in "The Eyes of the Dragon", Dayus
had reached his "breaking strain". But the breaking strain didn't happen at a
gradual pace as we often snap under a large amount of stress. All of the cries,
the pain, the screams, all of the pain and death he had brought so *many*... It
had all hit him with the force of a million atom bombs... The time elapsed?
Hardly even a second. Can any of us *imagine* what would happen to us if we felt
all of the pain that we brought to others? Multiplied by 10? 100? 1000? And
then, to add the final kick when we're down, it hits all in one freaking second?
Less than that? Our minds wouldn't be able to handle it. Suicide would be a
relief. But then again, how many of us would make it to the point of having the
decision of taking our own life or living with the pain? We would all give up
hope, love, courage, our friendships, the light we have inside, the reliability
that we had in our hearts, the sincerity of our minds, and the knowledge that we
have obtained over the years... And without those, we would lose our reason to
live. We would lose our identity. We would forget who we are. All we would
remember is the pain we brought to others. We would only remember what would
rather be forgotten. Okay... After that, let's go on.
3.) Sora and Kale. I don't have that
much to say about this one... It was rather sad how you described Kale's past.
How you described she had watched her mother be murdered in cold blood. That can
tear even the strongest of us down. Kale was certainly strong. My interpretation
of Kale is someone who managed to totally depend on herself in the blink of an
eye. A truly exceptional child, although the way her mind worked deep within was
something that would have probably totally opposed the outside view of her.
Inside, she was probably trying to find out how to depend on herself... she was
probably confused for the longest time, and she may have been when she finally
died. But then, Genesis came along... Inside her mind, he turned into the thing
that would allow her to become who she wanted to be. She wanted to be with
someone who would become the model of who she wanted to be. She wanted someone
who was strong enough to hold the whole world's worries on his shoulders, so
hers wouldn't seem so... awful? I guess that's the word. But Sora came along and
stole it all away from her, although it took Kale the longest time to realize
that Sora had never stolen anything from Kale... That she had always been in
Taichi's heart. That she had always been Tai's and nothing could change that. It
was sad to see Kale as she was at the end of the fight... Helpless... A child
again. The same child that had seen so much violence. The same child that could
have been one of the most brilliant people in the history of the planet... That
same person laid on the ground, severed from the limb that had killed so many,
and begging for Sora, the girl who she had so bitterly fought against... Telling
her to go to the man she had loved... As her life force ran out, realizing that
she was never the one to have Taichi, but in her heart, the one that she had
always wished would be hers. *sighs deeply* Let's move on again.
4.) The fourth fight, and also the
most ghastly in my eyes. Matt and T.K. How T.K. was able to let himself disown
his brother, I understand now. Before, I wasn't sure. The love you have for your
family is supposed to be unconditional... but when the son crucifies his own
father? That was not the most horrific part to me... It was when you described
the way he had taken Gabumon apart and added his attributes to his (Matt's) own
body. What kind of person can you be to actually *do* that! That is the most
horrific, bloody, merciless thing I have ever heard of! Gabumon and his
loyalty... Loyalty is a trait that we all strive for... We all want someone to
know us and recognize us for that, but when loyalty becomes the thing that kills
us. Why did Gabumon have to be treated that way? He was a totally innocent
creature. Yes, he knew what was going to happen... but why couldn't he have
refused? If he was a mega, he could have certainly destroyed anyone who had even
*suggested* the idea! I mean, please! He should have saved himself, but yes...
of course... Loyalty, no matter how pointless and life threatening it seemed to
him, he put Matt ahead of himself... even when it was hopeless and... Logan...
You almost made me cry at this part. This was almost too much for me to keep
going. Why is it our virtues that gets most of us killed? We say we believe in
something, we get shot. We say a certain person is our friend, we are shot down
by the comments of those who seek to bring others down with them. Why is it
always what a person treasures that hurts them the most? Why? It's just the way
life is, I suppose... But I wish it didn't have to be that way. I suppose it
would have been poetic justice if T.K. had summoned enough strength to tear Matt
apart, but the warrior could only do what the physical body would allow him to.
And then, the love of his life saved him... Truly poetic in all... but so
painful to read. The way Matt nonchalantly regarded to Gabumon made me furious.
The digimon had given something that had been given especially to it! And it was
*nothing* to Matt! Nothing! It makes me wonder if people are like that if they
ever had a heart at all. Well, let's continue before I get to sad to carry on
through the day.
5.) The last and final fight. Ken
and Genesis. I thought it was rather disturbing how you made Sora turn into a
bloody amputator (amputater, whatever) as she severed Ken's hand from the rest
of his body in an attempt to save the whole world. Necessary, yes, but there
must have been some kind of safeguard... as appears at the end of the story I
believe, but anyway... The way you described Tai telling the others when he
understood most of what Genesis was... That Genesis creates, not destroys...
That it's not the force of nature that corrupts, but the men that live in nature
that do. And how he was ready to sacrifice himself again, but Sora refused to
let him do it... If I was her, I could understand why she did what she did. When
you have a soul connection with someone and they sacrifice themselves, you can't
live without half of your spirit.... Well, you can go on, but you certainly
couldn't call it living. But then... She was the solution to the Genesis
equation. She was what saved the two worlds. The love that existed within her
and that she represented... Yes, that was why she was the solution. Because she
was something that not one other was. I didn't expect Taichi to take the ring
from Ken's hand (to backtrack a little ^_^) but as it was... it was another part
of the Genesis equation. Most definitely. (To backtrack again-sorry ^_^*) The
kiss that would have killed anyone... The supposedly last kiss. The one that was
supposed to have solved the hurting in their hearts but only caused more. That
would have been something that would have driven me to do the same thing that
Sora did... But then... what was Kari's premonition about? And Ken is gone?
Strange... But then... The next chapter is to explain all of this, which you
will get out soon. ^_^ Listen to your daughter. She knows best. lol Sorry. I
couldn't help it. I hope you get the next part out soon... Lord knows that you
definitely not rushing it. ^_~ Just messin' with ya. That's my job as your moody
teenage daughter. lol Please hurry with the next chapter. Was this review long
enough? I told you you were going to get a 6-pager! lol ttyl love ya-
Whit
I told you people it was
long!
Please review!