To Forget

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"So you want to know where the crystals are, you think that will solve all of the world's problems. Just deactivate the crystals and everything becomes peachy." Tal took a pause from his tirade. "Moron, the crystals will only remove the fog from the peoples minds, and right now I'm wondering if that fog still in your minds."

"Tal, I don't care what you have to say about our plans all that I want you to do is to tell us where they are." Dekan pleaded.

Tal took a good long look at each member of Kain's party. Looking from eye to eye his resentfulness began to dissipate. "All right fine. I remember thinking like all of you are when I was younger. Wanting to save the world from the 'evil' guardian." Tal took in a breath looked in upon himself. "It can't be done though."

"Anything is possible." Naxos said. "You just have to find out how. And we think the way is through the crystals."

"The crystal of Fire is on the top of Mt. Ordeals." Kain looked at Tal with questioning. "You see they have built some kind of a reactor on top of the mountain. Found a whole awful lot of energy there a long time ago. Had to take down some kind of a shrine of mirrors to build it. But, it's their now." With that Kain could fell the rage within him growing and growing.

"That was the place of Cecil's rebirth as a paladin." Said Kain quietly, the words coming out of his teeth.

"Relax, Kain. We'll deal with that later. Right now I want to know where the crystal of Shadows is." Dawne said.

"The crystal of Shadows is in the very center of civilization as we know it."

"Baron?" Phantine said questioningly. Tal slowly nodded his head, now his betrayal of the Guardian was complete and he knew it.

"Dekan, Phantine" Kain nearly barked out. "Go find Bladea and tell her we need to get to Eblan, they do have an areo facility there don't they?" Dekan nodded his head and without thought, hesitation or doubt Dekan and Phantine did as Kain asked.

"What can you tell us about where the crystals are housed Tal?" Dawne asked.

"The crystal of fire is down deep in the bottom of the mountain, they use the fire generated from it purify the energy collected. The crystal of Shadows is in the Guardian's Palace, I never actually saw that crystal. But, from what I understand it is somewhere up high, like a tower or something."

"Thank you Tal. Your information will help to defeat the Guardian, I am sure of that."

"Kain, do me one favor though." Kain nodded ready and willing to do whatever the old man asked of him. "Don't let anyone know that I, or anyone else here had anything to do with whatever it is that you're doing. If it was ever found out that this 'mighty resistance movement' really just did nothing and hide. People would laugh at us, better just not to mention us at all, whether you succeed or fail."

"If that is what you wish, than that is what I will do for you Tal. Though, when we do succeed, I will come and tell you all so that you can enjoy a free world just like everyone else." With that Tal gave Kain a smile and a silent thanks.

"Naxos, Dawne go get Phantine and Dekan tell that we are leaving, and the sooner the better." Naxos and Dawne both nodded and exited Tal's office.

Kain looked at Tal and said. "If I didn't know any better, I would have said you were Cid. Only, just about a foot shorter." Kain nearly laughed as he said this. But, Tal was filled by the compliment and nodded his head in thanks once more.

* * *

Walking along the beach that would eventually led them to Eblan, Kain looked at the people with whom he is traveling with and silently said to himself. "They are different from those who I traveled with before. But, occasionally, that can a good thing."

Dawne spun around. "Talking to yourself again?"

Her hearing surprised Kain. "Yes, though I wouldn't necessarily say again."

"I apologize all perfect one." Dawne said giggling at her own sarcasm. At that Kain shrugged his shoulders and looked down again at the ground on which he was treading.

Dawne slowed down so that she could walk next to him. "Did you really enjoy your old companions so much that you spend almost every free moment you have thinking about them?"

"Not just my companions Dawne. Everything and everyone that I was forced to leave behind. I never even said goodbye to any of them, I just disappeared of the face of the Earth. I regret that whole heartily." Kain said, almost with emotion on his breath.

"I'm sorry I didn't realize." Dawne said sympathetically. "Although I think something that might help you would be to talk about it."

"I don't talk about things like that Dawne. I am a warrior, a True Dragoon. I am without emotion, without feeling, without any real remorse."

"Well then I must say I'm sorry for you." She said pausing in thought then saying. "Wait, I've seen emotion in you. I have seen the pride in your eyes when you watch us battle. I saw the sadness when we entered that wrecked control room in the tower. I have even seen the fury of rage burning in you when you have battled the undead."

"You are correct Dawne; about one thing, rage. All the others a wear as a mask, so that people believe me human."

"Now you're just full of yourself, and I don't believe you for one second. Living without emotion, that's horrible. Not to mention inhuman."

"I really don't care whether it is inhuman or not, I never really liked humanity to much to begin with. And living without emotion is not a horrible thing. It has allowed me to forget, and to always remain in perfect control of my actions and thoughts."

"Forget what? What are you trying to forget?"

"Nothing. Nothing, now look we are not going to talk about this any longer."

"All right, but Kain." She griped his arm in order to make him stop and look her in the eye. "You may think you've killed your emotions. But, they aren't dead, not yet at least." With that the two continued on their walk with the others. Dawne sped up so that she could talk with the others in the lead, leaving Kain alone with his thoughts.

"When ones emotions of sadness, despair, and hatred grow to large and outnumber too much the emotions of happiness, hope, and love. That person should abandon emotion all together." Kain said to himself, quoting something his old master had told him once.

"Kain!" Dekan shouted. "Come up hear we want you to tell us what we're doing. We're tired of you leaving us in the dark like this. We want to know."

Kain sped up to catch up with the rest of his party. "All right, here is what I've figured out for now, and know that I don't have any details down yet." Kain paused in order to collect his thoughts. "First we get to Eblan and we use the money and fake I.D.s that Bladea gave us to get through the areo-facility. At that point we split up into two groups, one group is going to be Dawne and me, the other group is of course Dekan, Phantine and Naxos. Dawne and I are going to Baron to retrieve the crystal of shadows while, you guessed it, Dekan, Phantine, and Naxos take a cruiser to city or town close to Mt. Ordeals, then get into the facility and get the crystal of Fire. I won't be able to help you at all so just know that some, or most, of what it is that you are going to be doing is going to be improvisation." Dekan and Naxos both nodded their heads; Kain could see right away a potential problem. "After the crystal is retrieved Naxos can communicate that with Dawne telepathically. Then Dawne will come pick you all up bring you all bring the crystal back to the tower, and if your done before me then you get to come and help me. Otherwise Dawne and I will be waiting for you in the Tower for a signal." Kain paused to let it all sink in. "Any questions."

"Yeah." Dawne said. "Why don't I just teleport us to those locations. You've been their before Kain, so by linking up with you again we can teleport their." With that Kain looked down and shook his head.

"First, if someone sees us teleporting to either of these locations then we could possibly get caught and I don't want any of us having to kill innocent bystanders just because they have seen us. Second, in order to have a pretty good chance at not being seen we would have to teleport in far ways away. Because I know with Baron there are a lot of small towns surrounding it. It would take us nearly a week to walk from where you would have to teleport us in from. And the same is probably near to the true with Mt. Ordeals. It's just faster taking air cruisers in the long run. Plus we don't want to tire you out too much." Dawne nodded at Kain realizing that indeed using her skills at this situation was not the best idea. "Any other questions?" Dekan, Phantine, Naxos and Dawne all looked at each other, but no one said anything. "Good."

* * *

Deep within the center of Eblan the party had taken up temporary residence at a small inn, not cheap, not expensive place that had been almost eager for the business of Kain's party. After everyone had put their gear down in the two connected rooms that they had purchased for the night Kain told them he was going to take a walk.

In the very center of the great city was the original Castle of which Kain had been in once before, though then it was a ruined shell of its former glory. Kain walked up to the gate of the great castle and heard a voice calling him.

"Sir, sir, in order to get in you have to buy a ticket." Kain with murderous calm about him looked to where the voice had come from. "Sir, tickets are four coins apiece. Would you like one or not?" Kain walked up to the woman behind the glass screen. He took out four coins from his pocket and dropped them into a metal bowl carved out at the bottom of the glass. The woman behind the glass looked at the coins and then pressed a button, which made a ticket appear from a slit in the metal on Kain's side. "Please take the ticket, and have a nice time while your here!" She said far too cheerily for Kain's taste.

Kain took the ticket and entered into the castle. "This used to barely be an oasis." Kain said to himself as he looked at the green grass growing everywhere. There were thousands of flowers inside of the huge gardens. Obviously something had caused the soil here to loose its aridness.

Kain entered the Throne room of the Eblanian royalty and was blocked by a velvet rope from reaching the actual throne itself. Behind him he heard two guards talking. "I'm telling you it's true. Look around; I personally have only seen maybe 13 people in here today. This place ain't turning no profit anymore."

"No it ain't," Said the other. "But, this is a historical location they can't just bulldoze it down just cause it ain't making no money."

"Oh I wish that were true, but to be honest, money is key to everything in this world now a days. And if the Guardian can make more money by having a mega-mall here well then there is going to be a mega-mall here pretty soon."

With that Kain was washed over by digestedness. This place was probably over fifteen hundred years old. "How dare they, how dare they." Was all that Kain could think?

Kain exited the old castle and did not look back. "Ignorance is bliss, and knowledge is pain." He said to himself. "Thus, to forget is to remove pain."

* * *

Kain's party together entered the areo-facility and after purchasing tickets they went to a cafe style restaurant and each ordered a hot beverage. "Jasgian, A relatively large city on a peninsula just north of Mt. Ordeals." Phantine said. "Sounds like fun."

"Any place with you is fun, Phantine." Dekan said to his partner. The rest of the party turned a deaf ear to the two and their comments. No one else enjoyed seeing the joy that these two felt towards each other. It reminded them of their own loneliness.

Kain watched as two 'Paladins' walked by the table. One of them stared at his face for a good ten seconds and then moved on. "You don't think?" Dekan said.

"No, it's not possible that he could recognize Kain from a mental message sent from either Mist or Giott City." Phantine said. "It's not possible."

"Anything is possible." Naxos said.

With that everyone, except Kain, gave Naxos a sour look. Though they all knew that that was just part of his personality.

"Did you hear anything about a tram or something that could get you from Jasgian to Mt. Ordeals." Phantine asked everyone.

"Yes I asked." Said Naxos. "But unfortunately there isn't any kind of public transportation. Apparently everyone knows about the mountains themselves, but no one knows that there is any kind of reactor, or power plant, or whatever it is, there."

"There is a road though which leads into the Mt. Ordeals Recreational facility and park. Though the park is only the Northern half of the forest and the foothills of the mountain." Dekan said, trying to show everyone that he had as much knowledge, if not more, then Naxos.

Suddenly a voice from on high called out to everyone. "Transport number 571, Eblan to Jasgian, will begin loading passengers in 10 minutes, again flight 571. Thank you very much and have a nice day." With that Naxos gave a sneer at the women's fake happiness that had been exhibited over the loud speaker.

"Time to go, Kain." Dekan said. "We don't want to have to buy three more tickets. I tell you, those things are just far too expensive.

"All right, well then I guess we'll see you later. And don't do anything that's going to get you killed, all right." Dawne said

"Don't worry, we'll think of something once we get there, just like Kain instructed us to." With that, the two girls hugged one an other and Kain shook the hands of Dekan and Naxos.

"I would tell you good luck. But, I don't believe in it." Kain said in place of good-bye. Though Dawne nearly laughed at it.

After the three had left Kain looked at Dawne and said. "What was so funny about that?"

"You're too serious. You just have too..." Suddenly ten 'Paladins' entered into the cafe.

"That's him," The one from before said to everyone. The entire group strained their eyes looking at him.

Then one said. "Possibly, but I wouldn't bet on it. Come on, the game's on and that guys just trying to get on with that cute girl their, leave 'em alone." With that the 'Paladins' left though when Kain looked at Dawne, he expecting to see relief on her face though instead he saw her thoroughly reddened.

"What's the matter, are you embarrassed by something or what?"

"Just a passing thought, that's all."

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-Kain DeLuman