Something Left

Antidiseatablishmenterianism.
The longest word in the English language.
I used to be able to use it in a sentence.

I used to have everything.
Conquests, servants, athletic ability...
Now all I have is doubts.

Does this displease you?
Can I make it better?
Be a little kinder?
Apologize more?

I'll be your lapdog.
Just don't hate me.
Tell me I've got something left.
Tell me I haven't lost everything of the Emperor's.

I could have killed you once.
Stop laughing behind my back.
Don't smirk when you think I'm not watching.
I'm not on the outside anymore... Right?
Tell me I have something...

Tell me I've got friends...