Everything
is Okay in the End...
By Erin
Summary:
Liz's thoughts on destiny.
Disclaimer:
I do not own ANY of the Roswell characters, as much as I may wish that I
did. They belong to those awesome
people at the WB. So please don't sue
me! You'll only get a few CD's (which
will probably not be to your liking) and a few negative utopia books that I had
to buy for my wonderful English class.
And thank you (to those whom it applies) for letting me borrow your
stuff! I appreciate it!
Rating: PG
Dedication:
To Jordan, who gave me this wonderful quote that inspired the piece of
writing. Thanks girl for always being
there.
Author's
Notes: I've been out of town and on the trip, I was going through my quote
book. I found this quote and it
inspired this writing. Enjoy...
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
"Everything
is okay in the end and if it's not okay, it's not the end."
-- unknown
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Dear
Journal,
Today, I
died. Not in a physical way, just
emotionally. My heart, once again, was
ripped out of my chest, thrown on the floor, and trampled. I died because Max Evans left me for his
destiny. Or should I say that I left
him because of his destiny?
Max
promised me that we made our own destinies.
And I have to admit that I believed him. I knew that he loved me - he told me constantly. But could his love be as strong when he
found out the truth? I asked this question
constantly, but I never expected the answer that I got.
We went to
their cave; where they were born... hatched... whatever. There, we brought Nasedo back to life
because Agent Pierce shot him. When he
was being revived, Max and I saw what he really looked like. He was a little green man, like the kind
from any science fiction film and all those cheesy tourist traps in town. In a way, it was freaky, but in a way,
funny. Wait 'til I tell Maria!
But that's
beside the point. Nasedo was put on
this earth to protect them. When he was
asked about the communicators, he told them that they'd lead a lot of scary
things to them. But he did say that it
was their choice and they could use them if they wished. Then, he morphed into Agent Pierce and
promised them that he'd keep them safe.
And he left.
Max wanted
to try the communicators, so they paired off; Max and Tess, Isabel and
Michael. Of course, I was left on the
sidelines to wait and watch what happened.
In an instant, the orbs started to glow and there was a flash of light. Then, a hologram of their mother appeared by
the cave wall.
She spoke
to them about their destinies. Max was
married to Tess and Michael and Isabel were betrothed on their home
planet. And they were sent to earth so
that they could come back to their planet one day and save their people from
the evil race of aliens who had taken control.
Then, as soon as the appeared, she vanished into thin air.
All four
seemed stunned. How many times have you
been told your destiny? And how many of
you have been told that you're supposed to be the savior of your people? I think that it would be a bit much to
handle at one time.
Tess was
the only one who wore a grin across her face.
She smirked at me and then tried to kiss Max, telling him that she knew
that it was supposed to be this way.
But he pushed her away and ran to me, telling me that everything he told
me before was true and everything would stay the same between us.
How could
it stay the same? He just heard his
destiny... all of it. He knew what his
purpose in life was. How could I keep
him from his home? How could I get
between him and his destiny?
So I told
him that and I did something completely uncharacteristic of me. I told him goodbye and I ran away.
I ran away
from the cave. I ran away from my
past. I ran away from my memories. I ran away from people who cared about me. I ran away from Max. I ran away from my destiny.
And as I
ran, I thought about what my life had become.
My life had become a constant lie shared with my five best friends. Or those who knew the most about me. And those who cared the most about me.
Where would
they be without me? Would they know any
more than they did the fateful day that Max saved my life? I began their whole string of discoveries
about themselves. Without me, where
would they be? Would they know their
destinies or would they be fumbling around in the dark like they used to be?
I sit here
on my balcony in the warm desert air and stare out at the stars, pondering my
life. Could it get any worse? Probably not, but I can always hope for the
best. I have a brand new start tomorrow
and I have no intentions of wasting that chance.
And I
wonder if anything in my life can go back to normal. But I know all to well that I've already left normal and I'm not
going back any time soon.
As I think,
I remember something that Grandma Claudia used to tell me when I was a
child. She used to say,
"Everything is okay in the end and if it's not okay, it's not the
end." And I smile as I stare up at
the sparkling night sky, knowing that Max and I haven't ended... not yet.
The End
