DISCLAIMER: Baz
and Craig own them all….I'm just a poor, penniless writer using them for
inspiration!
"Come what may. I will
love you, until my dying day."
The memories of our secret
song filled me with an overwhelming sense of sadness. Sadness that I caused my
darling Christian so much pain, hurt and sadness. Sadness at the thought of a
life cut short by circumstance and sadness at a love that could not overcome
the forces of darkness.
I wish I could reach up and
wipe his tears away---- tears that were shed because of what I'd done. Those
sparkling grey eyes that I loved so much were now dull and lifeless because of
the tears he was shedding over me.
"Satine? You're dead! How
can I be seeing you?" My heart broke at the sound of the anguish in
his voice.
"My darling Christian. I
am in your heart and I will always be in your heart. That is why you can see
me." I told him.
I wanted nothing more than
to hold him and tell him I loved him with every fibre of my being— I wanted to
tell him that I would leave the Moulin Rouge and spend the rest of my life with
him. I wanted to tell him that I wanted to have his children and grow old with
him.
But how do you tell that to
someone you've hurt more than anything in the world---- who loves you more
every day even though you have broken his heart so many times and he has
forgiven you each and every time?
I will never forget the look
of utter devastation on Christian's face as I uttered those words. It broke my
heart into thousands of tiny pieces when I saw it. I knew I had to do it to
save the Moulin Rouge and those whom I called family. But more than that, I had
to do it for Christian, the one I grew to love more than anything in this world…..
The man who was sobbing
uncontrollably because I was dead. I did the only thing I knew how to do---the
only thing I was sure of. I sang to him, just as I did on the night we first
met. I sang to him with all the love in my heart.
"Come what may. I will
love you until my dying day."
"I will love you even
beyond my dying day my love. I will love you forever." I whispered,
my eyes filling with tears as I brushed his lips with a soft, sweet kiss.
I turned and gazed and
Christian, one last time. I secretly hope that he learns to love again, to let
his heart feel the love that we shared.
"Never thought I could
feel like this…."
