DISCLAIMER: See Part III
1330 EST
Harm's Apartment
I knock on the door, and immediately he opens it. He still has on his dress whites from the wedding, although they look a little rumpled. Under further inspection, it looks like he hasn't slept in days.
"You look like hell, Harm." I say.
"Hello to you too." He steps aside, "Please, come in."
I take a deep breath before entering his apartment. Everything seems so foreign. I guess it's been awhile since I've been here.
"Sarah..."
"Harm..."
We both start to talk at the same time, making this seem more awkward than it already is.
He takes my hands and sits down on the couch, with me sitting opposite of him. He's quiet for a moment, then he starts so speak.
"Sarah, I'm sorry I ruined your wedding. But I couldn't stay. Stay and watch you marry *him*" He pauses before continuing. "You remember when I said I could never picture myself celebrating your engagement?"
I nod mutely, wondering where he's going with this.
"Well, I never pictured it because it was never *your* engagement I pictured. It was *ours*" He looks at me nervously.
I always imagined our engagemet too, I want to tell him. And our wedding, and our home, and our children, and, well... you get the idea. I look at him expectantly.
Instead of saying anything, he looks at where our hands are joined.
"Sarah, I...I love you so much," He looks up abruptly and looks into my eyes. "I love you so much that it hurts when you're away from me. And it was almost enough to kill me, sitting in that church, and seeing you walk down the aisle to...towards..." He trails off and looks away. I close my eyes for a second, absorbing what he just told me.
"Harm, I was so angry at you for walking out. But when I thought about it, you never should have had to walk out." I stop, unsure of how to go on. "Why didn't you ever say anything?"
"Because I wanted you to be happy. I would do anything for you-even if it meant feeling my heart break everytime I saw you and Brumby or everytime I saw that ring."
"Harm, I never meant to hurt you, or anyone. But now, I realize that everyone involved was hurt. I've always loved you more Harm."
1330 EST
Harm's Apartment
I knock on the door, and immediately he opens it. He still has on his dress whites from the wedding, although they look a little rumpled. Under further inspection, it looks like he hasn't slept in days.
"You look like hell, Harm." I say.
"Hello to you too." He steps aside, "Please, come in."
I take a deep breath before entering his apartment. Everything seems so foreign. I guess it's been awhile since I've been here.
"Sarah..."
"Harm..."
We both start to talk at the same time, making this seem more awkward than it already is.
He takes my hands and sits down on the couch, with me sitting opposite of him. He's quiet for a moment, then he starts so speak.
"Sarah, I'm sorry I ruined your wedding. But I couldn't stay. Stay and watch you marry *him*" He pauses before continuing. "You remember when I said I could never picture myself celebrating your engagement?"
I nod mutely, wondering where he's going with this.
"Well, I never pictured it because it was never *your* engagement I pictured. It was *ours*" He looks at me nervously.
I always imagined our engagemet too, I want to tell him. And our wedding, and our home, and our children, and, well... you get the idea. I look at him expectantly.
Instead of saying anything, he looks at where our hands are joined.
"Sarah, I...I love you so much," He looks up abruptly and looks into my eyes. "I love you so much that it hurts when you're away from me. And it was almost enough to kill me, sitting in that church, and seeing you walk down the aisle to...towards..." He trails off and looks away. I close my eyes for a second, absorbing what he just told me.
"Harm, I was so angry at you for walking out. But when I thought about it, you never should have had to walk out." I stop, unsure of how to go on. "Why didn't you ever say anything?"
"Because I wanted you to be happy. I would do anything for you-even if it meant feeling my heart break everytime I saw you and Brumby or everytime I saw that ring."
"Harm, I never meant to hurt you, or anyone. But now, I realize that everyone involved was hurt. I've always loved you more Harm."