Silver Rain
Disclaimer: I don't own FF9, I write this for fun. Squaresoft are those lucky people who own FF9. So please don't sue.
WARNING: Spoilers for the end of the game… I didn't like the end so I changed… I can't stand a happy end…(joking) Anyway mild yaoi (m/m love)
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Note: Anyway this is the second part, from Kuja's point of view and what he was thinking while all the events are happening. Enjoy ^_^
Rain is a blessing
Clean, fresh
Removing the impurities from this earth
This curse land,
Filth everywhere- polluting like a plague, a virus-
A smothering blanket that almost suffocates me.
Almost- but not quite.
I always escaped it,
Defied Garland-
And I thought I beat him…
But in the end I still lost
I was his Angel of Death
Manipulated like a puppet…
Just like my Black Mages,
Nothing but a toy…
But I have feelings
A soul…
I can love…
I can hate…
I have emotions,
Maybe that's why Garland considered me weaker?
But Zidane feels too- is it because he grew up different?
In the care of family… warmth
That feeling I never knew.
Until now…
Zidane…
You risked your life to come for me,
Shield me from everything…
I love you-
More than anyone, despite all my hate…
The pain I caused to people…
You still came for me
My brother,
You are the only person I have ever loved
The one I truly care about
I wish I could erase the past
Make it all up to you,
I guess it's late for that…
There were so many things I wanted to say
To do, to prove,
My beloved brother…
Time is flowing, going, moving
My time is up while you are just beginning,
I wish I could hate you, harm you,
But I can't-
My powers are gone, but-
Even if I did have them I could never raise a hand against you
This period of hate and wars is over… peace.
I can see your face now brother,
Is that tears I see?
Yes, I can feel them falling on my face.
My pale skin smeared with my own tears and blood…
Reaching out to you-
Zidane you grab my hand…
On your other hand you hold a dagger…
Zidane, are you gonna deliver the final blow?
Or are you going to allow the darkness to come slowly?
Seeing your rose lips move… but I can't hear you
I am much too gone… and yet-
I know what you say…
"Kuja… after all the pain we've gone through…
All the lives we both have taken, whether good or bad…
We are alike brother, so close yet never touching,
I only discovered now that- life without you… has no meaning
And that's why I cannot live without you; I can't live in a world
Which you no longer live in- Goodbye doesn't mean forever,
Dagger and the others… they will understand."
My eyes widen as he raises his dagger…
And slashes his own throat quickly,
His blood is warm… he collapses on top of me
Whispering, "Kuja… I love you."
I feel fresh tears rolling down my cheeks
As I embrace Zidane's limp body,
"Zidane…" I feel the darkness calling for me
This time I don't fight it; I allow it to surround me…
"Goodbye doesn't mean forever…"
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