"Why do you have to think like that. Can't you see the positive things rather than focus on the negative?" I replied. I had just told Mimi that I wasn't ready to get married. Our parents had taken their leave. They must have known that this was going to get ugly. That last comment about our kid being a bastard really took me for a loop, but why does it matter as long as the conception was fulfilled during the highest and most meaningful expression of love that two people can share.
"Where is the positive in the fact that you just blatantly told me that you didn't want to marry me?" Mimi still sobbed.
"I didn't say that I would never marry you. I said that I didn't want to get married right this minute. We're only seventeen!" I reasoned.
"What's the difference? We're seventeen and we're having a baby!" Mimi cried.
"But marriage is a commitment!" It was right there that I said the worst possible thing that I could have ever said. I watched as Mimi went completely pale. She stood there, not blinking, not breathing, not moving, only staring at me. Then she went from ghost white to fire engine red, as she became flushed with anger.
"I can't believe that you just said that!" she gasped.
"Mimi, I-" I started, but she cut me off.
"Are you implying that after I have this baby you're going to move on? Are you saying that you're going to leave me alone to raise this kid? We're not getting married now because it's too big of a commitment? What the hell do you call this? This is as big as it's going to get!" she yelled, pointing at her pregnant belly.
"Mimi..." I tried again.
"Don't even talk to me! You put your foot in your mouth big time Yamato Ishida. So much so, that I can even see the toe coming out of your ass!" With that said, Mimi, not surprisingly, headed for the door and slammed it on her way out.
~Mimi~
I had no idea where I was going to go. All I knew was that I couldn't stay in that apartment for one second more. Matt's attitude toward the marriage and parenting issues that were plaguing our lives right now was hideous! I thought I knew him, but now, I'm starting to think that there is a whole lot more to learn.
I can be reasonable. In fact, I am totally aware of our situation. A wedding costs thousands of dollars and with all of the things that we have to worry about getting for the baby, heck, even before the baby, we were broke! It's not the fact that we weren't going to get married right away. We could get married ten years from now and I wouldn't give a flying fuck. It's just the fact that he said that he didn't want to be married right now. I would have thought that he would jump at the chance, like I knew I would have.
I ended up driving to Sora's house. I knew that she would be home and that I would be able to talk to her about all this.
"Hi Sora." I said sheepishly after she answered the door.
"Mimi! I thought that you and Matt had your parents over tonight."
"We did, but they left after Matt and I started to fight." With that said, Sora opened the door wider and ushered me inside. A fight was not a good thing. Sora knew that she would be in for a long night.
"What happened Mimi?" Sora asked sweetly. I sighed as I sat on the couch and began recounting the events of this evening.
~Sora~
"He said what!" I freaked when Mimi told me.
"That getting married was too much of a commitment for him." she repeated, in tears.
"You're having his god damn baby!" I yelled. I knew I was just adding fuel to the fire, but Matt had pissed me off. I wasn't even there when all of this happened, but his name is still mud right now.
"That's what I'm afraid of. I know Matt loves me and that he'll be a great father, but I'm afraid that he's having second thoughts about this whole thing." Mimi told me.
"Now is not the time to be having second thoughts! He should have thought of that before he got you into bed!" I fumed.
"Actually, it wasn't in a bed." she smiled.
"What?" I asked, the conversation had suddenly jumped to a whole new level. I wasn't angry though, because this was juicy information. "Spill Meems!"
"I haven't had any time to tell you with everything that has been going on. You're going to get mad when I do though." she told me.
"Why would I get mad?" I asked.
"Because the night we made love was the same night that you were suppose to come over and spend the night with me." she admitted
"It was that weekend? You lied to me?" I asked.
"Yeah." Mimi replied.
"Oh well!" I shrugged. "I want details!"
~Mimi~
"What do you want to know. There's nothing to tell really." I assured her
"I want to know everything!" Sora exclaimed.
"It's kind of personal Sora." I reasoned.
"I won't tell." she promised.
"I'm not worried about you telling. I just don't think this is a very good topic of conversation." I told her.
"Fine, just tell me how it was then. I'm a virgin. I need details!" she whined.
"It was.... um.... good?" I managed.
"So, do you think you'll go back and see Matt?" she asked.
"Actually, I was hoping that I would be able to spend the night with you Sora." I told her.
"Of course you can, but tomorrow you're going to talk to Matt." Sora ordered. "You guys have to resolve this thing."
"Okay, I'll go and see him tomorrow morning, but for the rest of the night I don't even want to think about him." I told my best friend. *I wonder where he is anyway...*
~Matt~
Since I didn't expect Mimi to be coming back to the apartment any time soon. I decided to spend some quality time with my best friend. I was hoping that he would be able to give me some advice. What a minute? You all know who my best friend is right? I was talking about Tai and I was hoping that he could give me some advice? I am definitely way to upset to think straight! The thing is, Tai surprisingly did give me some good advice. Well, there's a first time for everything...
"Hey Tai, what are you doing?" I asked after he opened the door of his apartment.
"I was just heading down to the park to play some soccer. Do you want to come?" he asked.
"Sure." I replied.
"Why so glum chum?" he asked, once we had gotten down to the park. I hadn't been very social on the way here and even Tai could pick up on the fact that something wasn't right.
"Mimi and I had a fight this evening." I confided.
"Trouble in paradise! Do tell!" Tai prodded.
"You've been hanging around Sora for way too long my friend. She's turned you into the gossip king!" I laughed.
"Whatever! What's up with the lovebirds?" he asked again.
"I told Mimi that I didn't want to get married because it was too much of a commitment. As soon as I said it, I knew that I had made a mistake, but the thing is, I really do think that way." I told him.
"You're having a baby and you're afraid to commit? You have some issues man!" Tai replied, as he shot the ball toward me.
"I know! Having this baby is tough enough, but I don't know if I can marry her." I admitted.
"Do you love Mimi?" Tai asked.
"What kind of a question is that?" I kicked the ball back his way.
"Do you love her?" he asked again.
"Of course I do." I replied.
"Then what's the problem?" he retorted. I sighed and received the ball as Tai kicked the ball back.
"I know that I can be a kick ass father, but I'm afraid that I am going to fail as a husband. I'm afraid that I'm going to make a mistake. My decisions will not only affect me, but two other people's lives as well. I don't know if I can do it!" I said.
~Tai~
It was then that I said something really supportive. I really surprised Matt with my words of wisdom and doubly surprised myself. Where these inspirational parables came to me, I have no idea, but it gave Matt the kick he needed to act.
"Matt, no one expects you to be perfect, Mimi especially. She knows that there are going to be problems, but I know that she is willing to face those problems head on, as long as you are by her side. Marriage is a bond that holds tight through better or for worse. I bet Mimi is thinking the exact same way that you are. Think of it this way, after you're married, they won't just be your problems, your fears, they'll be problems and fears that belong to the both of you."
"Did those words just come out of your mouth?" Matt asked me.
"I think so?" I blushed.
"Tai, that is the most sense that you have ever made in your whole entire lifetime!" Matt laughed.
"I'll take that as a complement!" I replied. Matt kicked the ball hard and sent me running for it, while he headed in the opposite direction. "Where are you going?" I called to him.
"I have an engagement ring to buy!" he yelled back. I just smiled. "You're a good man Yamato. I wish you all the best."
THE END
~MPF